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მოწამეთა   - ჭოგნარი! მამა გიორგი ბასილაძე
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qarTveloba Znelia, magram
aucilebeli!...
Tbilisi
2008 weli

“Svilo Cemo, qveynis aRsasrulamde ar moakldebian RmrTis winaswarmetyvelni iseve, rogorc satanis msaxurebi! ukanasknel Jams isini, vinc WeSmaritad emsaxurebian RmerTs, mSvidobianad dahfaraven Tavs adamianTagan da ar moaxdenen maT Soris niSnebsa da saswaulebs, rogorc awindel droSi; aramed ivlian im moRvaweobis gziT, romelic simdabliTaa Sezavebuli da caTa sasufevelSi saswaulebiT saxelganTqmul mamebze didni aRmoCndebian; imitom, rom maSin aravin moaxdens adamianTa Tvalwin saswaulebs, romlebic aRanTebdnen da ganamxnobdnen xalxs gulmodgine moRvaweobisaTvis. samRvdelo saydrebis mpyrobelni sruliad gamoucdelni iqnebian mTel msoflioSi da ar ecodinebaT saTnoebis xelovneba. aseTive iqnebian berebis winamdgomnic, rameTu yvelani damxobilni iqnebian gemoTmoyvarebiTa da didebismoyvarebiT; adamianTaTvis damabrkolebelni ufro iqnebian, vidre samagaliToni. amitomac saTnoeba kidev ufro metad iqneba ugulvebelyofili; vercxlismoyvareoba imefebs maSin, da vai, berebs, oqroTi gamdidrebulebs, rameTu aseTebi iqnebian sayvedrebelni uflisaTvis da ver ixilaven cxoveli RmerTis saxes.”

                                wm. nifonti konstantinepoleli
                                              (IV saukune)
                                            Zvirfaso mkiTxvelo!


winamdebare naSromi moicavs Cveni drois erT-erT madlmosil RmrTismsaxurs, mama giorgis (basilaZe), saRmrTo xedvisa da sulieri gamocdilebis, da aseve, winaswarmetyvelebis WeSmarit margalitebs, romlebic ase Wirdeba Cvens ers, nebismier adamians: morwmunesa Tu imaT, romelTac jer ver gadauwyvetiaT eklesiuri cxovreba.
vfiqrobT, Zalian bevri ipovis mama giorgis Rrmadsulier da samSoblos usazRvro siyvaruliT gamsWvalul darigebebSi sulier sargebels, da aseve, Zalian bevr, maTTvis adre pasuxgaucemeli kiTxvebis, konkretul da WeSmarit pasuxebs.
wignSi Sesulia sxvadasxva dros gansxvavebuli sulieri mdgomareobis adamianTa mama giorgisTan saubris Canawerebi, romelic masalis aRqmis simartivis mizniT, kiTxva-pasuxis saxiTaa warmodgenili.
viTxovT Sendobas RmrTisagan, da aseve, mama giorgisagan Tu raime uneblied an kidev Cveni sulieri da gonebrivi uZlurebiT im srulyofilebiT ver gadmoveciT, rogorc es mamaos aqvs naqadagebi.
viTxovT Sendobas, Tqvenganac, Cveno suliero Zmano da dano, da gTxovT locvebs winaSe RvTisa, raTa Segvendos am didi sulieri moZRvris swavlebis gadmocemis kadniereba.

RmerTi ars CvenTan!

mokle biografiuli cnobebi

mama giorgi daibada 1933 wlis 30 agvistos, sofel WognarSi (quTaisis mazra). mama gaxldaT Salva basilaZe, deda _ barbare ediberiZe. rogorc TviTon mama giorgi ambobs _ basilaZeebs ori ZiriTadi Stodan, misi sagvareulo xazi miekuTvneba im basilaZeebis Camomavlebs, romlebic did daviT mefes, sofel salxinodan (dRevandeli martvilis raioni) Camousaxlebia okribaSi.
mama giorgis   babua, samsoni, sasuliero piri yofila.
rogorc mama giorgis axlo naTesavebi ixseneben, misi rCeuloba da gansakuTrebuloba, RmerTs, akvnidanve gamouvlenia. dedas, barbares axlo naTesavisTvis uambnia: erT dRes,   mezobelTan, saswrafod, daxmarebis mizniT gadasuls da mZinare bavSvi akvanSi, keriidan moSorebiT dautovebia.   ukan dabrunebuls saocari suraTi daxvedria: keriidan gamotyorcnili naperwkali akvanSi Cavardnila... Suaze gauwvavs sabani da artaxebi, romlebic Zirs eyara,   SiSveli Cvili ki sruliad uvnebeli daxvedria akvanSi. eldanacemi kiviliT mivardnila akvanTan... uceb xma Semosmenia: `ras miSvebi, qalo, mwvav umowyalod?”... SokSi myof dedas maSin yuradReba ar miuqcevia imisaTvis, rom jer enaaudgam bavSvs, rogor SeeZlo es sityvebi eTqva!   dedas Semdegac gaugia akvnidan Cvilis naTqvami. erTxel Turme Semoesma: `qalo, naxeT mayvala, male midis amqveynidano~ da marTlac, moxuci, naTesavi qali or kviraSi gardacvlila. mama giorgis biZebi ixseneben, rom igi bavSvobidanve Zalian mSvidi, Cafiqrebuli, keTili da simarTlis moyvaruli yofila. usamarTlo SeniSvnaze Zalian mtkivneulad reagirebda Turme: `sami dRe xmas ar gaiRebdao, meoTxe dRes TviTon ityoda Sendobas.~   es Tviseba, rogorc mama giorgi ambobs: `mTeli cxovrebis manZilze damCemda dRemdeo... roca kaci usamarTlod mogeqceva da gawyeninebs, sami dRe SegiZlia gamoxato da `daemduro~, mere ki Tavad unda Seurigdeo.
mama giorgi merve klasamde swavlobda Wognaris saSualo skolaSi, Semdeg, xelmokleobis gamo, iZulebuli gaxda fizikurad emuSava da Tan eswavla saRamos skolaSi.
1956-1959 ww. gaiara samxedro samsaxuri,jer q.grodnoSi,Semdgom ki gdr-Si.
1969 wels   Caabara mcxeTis sasuliero seminariaSi.  
1973 wels akurTxes mRvdlad. msaxurobda xanmokle vadebiT zestafonsa da saCxeris raionebSi.  
dRemde msaxurobs mowameTaSi, daviT da konstantines saxelobis mamaTa monasterSi.

`saTnoebaTa dasawyisi mZimea,
magram gagrZeleba _ sasiamovno~


kiTxva:   mamao, rogor daiwyo yvelaferi?

pasuxi: morwmuneTa ojaxSi davibade da rac Tavi maxsovs, morwmune viyavi. 12 wlisa saxlidan gavipare da sveticxovelSi martoka mivedi. maSin saqarTvelos kaTolikos-patriarqi kalistrate (cincaZe) gaxldaT, romelic gaocebuli darCa, ase patara rogor Cavedi mcxeTaSi da darCenis survilic gamovTqvi. momefera da miTxra:
_ jer patara xar, rom gaizrdebi, mere modio.
  maxsovs, vuTxari:
_ mere CemTvis adgili rom aRar iqnes-meTqi?
  gaecina da miTxra:
_ Sen gaizarde da adgils me Seginaxavo.
maSin sad iyo ase transporti, `poltorkiT~ gamomamgzavra da mZRols adgilze Cemi Cayvana sTxova.
erTi ambavi maxsendeba: maSin samxedroSi viyavi. erTxel wveris parsvisas davinaxe, rom sarkidan Cemi pirisaxis naclad TeTrwvera moxuci miyurebda. Cveneba ramdenime wuTi gagrZelda. im dRidan wvers veRar viparsavdi, sul sisxli mdioda, ver vaCerebdi.   nawilis ufrosebmac naxes da   neba damrTes, wveri drogamoSvebiT gameparsa. moxucis saxe sul Tvalwin medga. erTxelac, ukve am sibereSi, sarkeSi rom Cavixede, aRmovaCine, is moxuci TeTrwvera kaci, samxedroSi sarkidan rom miyurebda, Cemi dRevandeli saxe yofila.
samxedros   saero cxovreba mohyva. xuTWideli viyavi. mere sasuliero saswavlebeli. reqtorad dRevandeli kaTolikos-patriarqi ilia II iyo. maSindel patriarqs, daviTs (devdariani), Zalian vuyvardi - `movlenas~ meZaxda. mere sasuliero xarisxi - `celebati~, ager ukve 33 welia aq, mowameTaSi var.

kiTxva:   rTuli iyo Tqveni cxovrebis gza?

pasuxi: al.yazbegis xevisberi goCas sityvebiT gipasuxebT: kaci salaRobod ar gaCenila qveynad, `kaci tanjvisaTvis aris gaCenili~. miT umetes sulieri cxovrebis gza, WeSmariti RmrTismsaxureba ekliani, viwro, devnisa da mwuxarebis gzaa. amaze Tavad qriste RmerTi gavafrTxilebs: `me mdevnes da Tqvenc devnili iqnebiT~. verakaci am gzas ver gaivlida, rom ara RmerTis didi Zala, nugeSi da Semweoba. saTnoeba yovelTvis garSemortymulia tkiviliTa da mwuxarebiT, sikeTe ki-borotebiT. yvela saqmis dasawyisi Znelia. miTumetes sulieris.
`saTnoebaTa dasawyisi mZimea, magram gagrZeleba _ sasiamovno~
_ gvaswavlis ioane oqropiri.
sakuTari nebis aRkveTisa da sakuTari Tavisadmi umkacresi momTxovnelobis gareSe SeuZlebelia RvTismsaxurma saTnoebis gzaze raime warmatebas miaRwios. sxvas rom mouwodo, Tavad unda iyo Rirseuli. advilia, uqadago sityviT da sxvebs marTali cxovrebisaken mouwodo, magram Zalze Znelia, moipovo RmrTisagan WeSmariti mqadageblis ufleba, radgan es ufleba mxolod simarTleSi, siwmindeSi, tanjvasa da brZolaSi gatarebuli cxovrebiTa da sulieri gamocdilebiT moipoveba. momwons piTagoras es sityvebi: `qandakebas garegnuli ieri amSvenebs, xolo adamians - misi saqmeni~.
adamians ver moatyueb. SeiZleba is ver grZnobs, an kidev Tvals xuWavs Tavis codvebze, magram Seni codvebi mas grami ar gamoepareba. hoda, Tu namdvili ar xar, RvTismsaxuris Sesaferisi cxovreba ara gaqvs, ar mogismens da Sesabamisad verc gamoasworeb, verc Secvli mas. arada Cveni movaleoba da samsaxuri swored adamianTa gamosworeba da gadarCenaa. RmrTismsaxuri Tu xar, namdvili unda iyo: Tavmdabali, patiosani, simarTlismoyvare da gamtani, saRmrTo madliT ganaTlebuli, sulieri xedvis mqone da adamianTa moyvare.
Tu adamiani ar giyvars, mas codvebs ver apatieb. miT umetes mis codvebs ver aiReb da mis gadasarCenad ar itanjeb. locvaze didi Sroma ar arsebobs. vambob locvaze da ara locvebis kiTxvaze. es umZimesi ramaa! mTeli uxilavi samyaro gebrZvis. es samkvdro-sasicocxlo brZolaa keTilsa da borot sistemebs Soris. roca kaci mosaxsenebels gitovebs da Sen mis gadarCenaze loculob, boroti sulebis risxva modis Senze, rogorc xilulad, ise uxilavad; da Tu ara xar gamocdili, saRmrTo suliT ganaTlebuli, ver gauZleb, danebdebi da Tavad waxdebi. es brZola siwmindes, asketizms, did sibrZnes, sulier xedvas, nebisyofas, simamaces da adamianis siyvaruls moiTxovs. Tu es niWebi ara gaqvs da ityvi, rom sxvebze loculob, an sxvebs sulier brZolebSi vmoZRvravo, tyuilia es!... anda, ar loculob da Tu ar loculob, e.i. qristesTan orgulob! RmerTma gvaSoros!
dideba da madloba RmerTs yvelafrisaTvis!
Zneli da mZime iyo Cemi cxovrebis gza, iseve, rogorc sxva Cemnairebisa. marTali giTxraT, bevri mawvales.… iyo bevri tkivili, axloblebis dakargviT gamowveuli mwuxareba, saxl-karis usafuZvlod gauqmeba (dRemde ara maqvs), devna, rogorc mTavrobidan, ase sasuliero pirTaganac (RmerTma SeundoT),KKКГБ–sgan TvalTvali, muqara, avariebis mowyoba, fizikuri ganadgurebis mcdelobebi da bevri sxva ram... magram saRmrTo moSurneoba, samSoblosa da simarTlis siyvaruli da sulis mxneoba RmrTisagan sul mudam mqonda.
qarTulma eklesiam komunisturi reJimis periodSi mZime Jami gamoiara. patiosani mRvdelmsaxurebi didi gansacdelis winaSe idgnen. reJimi, romelic yvelas da yvelafers akontrolebda, sasuliero pirTa urCobas arafriT ar Seurigdeboda da arc egueboda. mokled, maT `sabWoTa eklesia~ sWirdebodaT... marTalia, Zneli dro iyo, gankiTxviT ar vambob, radgan mainc adamianebi varT. bevrma ver gauZlo. zogma didkacobis JiniT, zogma ubralod – SiSiT, zogi Segnebulad hyidda suls...
im dros quCaSi anaforiT siarulic aRmsarebloba iyo. iseT dReSic vyofilvar, aRsarebas arc aravisgan ar vRebulobdi da arc aravis vabarebdi, radgan `Cekistebi~ niadag aRsarebis gaTqmas iTxovdnen da ara marto Cekistebi, aramed is sasuliero pirebic, romlebsac suli ukve gayiduli hqodaT. mRvdeli rom aRsarebas gaTqvams, ra mizeziTac ar unda iyos, siglaxea. mere mRvdlad aRar unda iyos!
adamians SiSi Tan sdevs. mec mqonia, magram SiSs unda sZlio. rom dasZlio, marTali unda iyo, marTali. simarTle ar unda daTmo. roca simarTles icav, maSin TviTon RmerTi gicavs. roca marTali xar sikvdilisac ar geSinia. rac ufro uaxlovdebi sikvdils, miT metad gaZlierebs RmerTi, metad grZnob mis sidiadesa da yovlisSemZleobas. qristes msaxuri ar SeiZleba laCari iyos. Tu ver uZleb, unda waxvide. gaixseneT daviT guramiSvili:
`xucesi unda mamaci, ar Tu jabani, mxrdalia.
xucess ar eTqmis: `WirSigan ver Seval, saridalia~.

im Znelbedobis Jamsac hyavda qarTul eklesias mamaci, qristes erTguli, simarTlisa da samSoblosaTvis Tavdadebuli msaxurebi (Tumca cota), romlebic ver gastexes, ver daimorCiles, romlebmac ori batonis msaxurebas Tavganwirva da tanjvis gza arCies,   romelTa nawili mxolod RmerTis saswauliT darCa cocxali. swored aseTebis tanjva da locva eqaCeboda ers RmrTisaken, rodesac uRmerTobaSi iZireboda qveyana. samarTliani RmerTi Tavis nebaze gamoabrwyinebs da gaumJRavnebs xalxs maT vinaobas da saqmeebs. gansakuTrebiT minda aRvniSno gabriel beris Rvawli. es didi wmindani gmirulad ebrZoda borotebas. is didi sulieri maswavlebeli gaxldaT, amitomac ver itandnen. magram naxeT _ ubralo xalxi rogor hyvarobs da efereba?!

3. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven mama gabrielze brZaneT, masze sxvadasxva   Sexedulebaa, rogorc sasuliero, ise saero pirTa Soris.

pasuxi: ra giTxraT, Tu iciT: miwier adamians wmidanis ar esmis!... SeiZleba didi codnac gagaCndes da didi kacic iyo, magram wmidani ver icno. angelozi da eSmaki ver gaarCio. ampartavani sulisa da codviT amRvreuli Tvalebis mqone adamians SeuZlia, wmidani icnos?! an wmidani gaexsneba mas?!... aseTi adamianebi yvelafers codvilad xedaven da awyobT kidec, yvela maTnairi rom iyos!..
wmidani rom icno, misi jiSis unda iyo!... Tavmdabali, siwmindis moSurne da sulieri madlis matarebeli, amaSia aucilebloba!...
Tu adamians madli ara aqvs, is adamiani sulierad mkvdaria. jer kidev wm.serafim saroveli gvaswavlida: `adamianis miwieri cxovrebis arsi, mis mier suliwmindis madlis moxveWaSiao!~ da es mdgomareoba, merwmuneT, tanjvis, dauRalavi Sromis, saRmrTo ganaTlebisa da wminda maswavleblebis gareSe ar miiRweva. TiToeuli mowodebuli adamianis sulis am mdgomareobamde miyvana eklesiis wminda movaleobaa. sxva rom sulis am safexurze aiyvano – Tavad unda iyo wmidani!..
gabriel beri suliwmidis WurWeli iyo. is RmrTis gamovlinebis imdenad gansakuTrebuli movlenaa, rom bolomde amoucnobi rCeba araTu Cveulebrivi adamianebis gonebisaTvis, aramed dRes moqmedi Tanamedrove wmidanebisTvisac!.. amitom gasakviri arc unda iyos is, rom dResac grZeldeba WeSmaritebis moZule Zalebis mier gabrielis devna, Tumca sxva formiT da sxva SinaarsiT. is RmrTis rCeuli iyo da RmrTis Seracxuli. sxva sakiTxia misi amqveyniuri kanonizacia. mas garkveuli wesebi aqvs da vfiqrob, rom es dRec ar aris Sors.
FDDAAGFF            
4. kiTxva: mama giorgi,   Tqven   axseneT   uwmindesisi da unetaresis – ilia II–s   amagi Tqvenze.

pasuxi: diax, vaxsene, radgan es asea!... sasuliero seminaridan moyolebuli, bevri sikeTe aqvs gakeTebuli CemTvis. bevrjer damxmarebia xorcieladac. adamianma sikeTis danaxva da dafasebac unda iswavlos da keTilismyofelis pativiscemac!... esaa aucilebeli !...
ilia II Zalze rTuli periodis patriarqia. garda rwmenisa, kidev bevri sxva TvisebebiT unda yofiliyo gamorCeuli, rogorc pirovneba, romelsac unda emarTa eklesia uRmrTo xelisuflebis periodSi... moTmineba, sibrZne, ganaTleba, xedva, moqniloba, sifrTxile, gamWriaxoba da, gnebavT, politikuri alRoc, swored is Tvisebebia, romelTa wyalobiTac da uflis SewevniT SesZlo uwmindesma eklesiis ise marTva, rom ganeridebina is mtrebis mier sagangebod momzadebul ara erT safrTxesa Tu xlarTebs.
ramdenime xnis win CemTan iyo qalbatoni endi, romelic Tavis droze tyibulis qalaqkomis mdivnad muSaobda, dRes is eklesiuria... da ai ra miambo: `1978 wlis damdegs, eduard SevardnaZem moiwvia sagangebo respublikuri TaTbiri, romelzec raikomebis yvela mdivani eswreboda. maT Soris mec gaxldiT.. da ar damaviwydeba SevardnaZis sityvebi, romlebmac maSin yvela CvenTagani gaaoca: `sapatriarqos saTaveSi Caudga iseTi Zlieri pirovneba, romelsac SeuZlia komunistur ideologias seriozuli safrTxe Seuqmnas, amitom saWiroa gavaZlieroT aqtivoba ideologiur muSaobaSi!~ maSin yovlad auxsneli iyo CemTvis SevardnaZis mier gamoTqmuli gangaSis es sityvebi, miT umetes, im dros, eklesiisagan safrTxe naklebad mosalodneli mesaxebodao.~
im qalbatonis sityvebi imitom moviyvane, rom SevardnaZe, romelic TviTon flobda did Zalas da gaaCnda sulieri xedva borotisgan, grZnobda uwmindesis sulier Zalasac da misi mosvlis pirad saSiSroebasac! Torem politikurad, im xanad, damorCilebul mdgomareobaSi myof eklesias ra safrTxe unda Seeqmna kompartiisaTvis?!
bevri ram gaakeTa uwmindesma da ufasdeba kidec qarTveli erisagan...
...ucdomeli mxolod RmerTia!... uwmindesi `romis papi~ ki ar aris!... cocxal adamians mosdis Secdomebi, magram pirovnebis saxes mainc gansazRvravs keTili saqmeebisa da Secdomebis met-nakleboba. keTili saqme ki uwmindess, rogorc xedavT, blomad aqvs!...
isev vimeoreb, rTuli dro iyo. uwmindess urTulesi `fronti~ ebara. bevri gankiTxva, Seuracxyofa da undobloba iwvnia man, magram yovelive TavmdablobiTa da sulgrZelobiT daiTmina: swamda, rom xalxi bolos mainc gaugebda mas... Tumca isic minda vTqva, rom bevri uwmindess ganikiTxavda ara imitom, rom mis mimarT pirad siZulvils ganicdida, aramed imitom, rom maTac Zalian uyvardaT saqarTvelo... magram, samwuxarod, didi sulieri xedva iyo saWiro, rom CaexedaT uwmindesis dafarul pirovnebaSi.
Tu daakvirdebiT, uwmindesi saocrad mlocveli patriarqia. is gamudmebiT wirva-locvaSia, iSviaTia sasuliero ierarqiis piri, romelic amden locvebze idges wlebis manZilze da Tanac am asakSi; da kidev, es aris patriarqi, romelsac uiSviaTesi mosmenis unari gaaCnia...
dRes saqveynod aRiareben uwmindesis Rvawls: rom, aSenda da keTilmoewyo amdeni taZari, momravlda sasuliero pirTa raodenoba. gaixsna seminaria-akademiebi, gamoica amdeni sasuliero literatura da kidev bevri sxva ram!.. magram es ar aris mTavari... aq CamoTvlili, adre Tu gvian mainc aResruleboda sxva, nebismieri patriarqis xelSic, radgan eri, RvTis SewevniT, Semobrunda da daadga RvTiT gansazRvrul gzas!... es istoriuli aucilebloba iyo!
me ki minda aRvniSno uwmindesis kacTagan dafaruli Rvawli, romelTagan erT-erTi gaxlavT misi udidesi damsaxureba eklesiis erTianobis saqmeSi. is, rom eklesia, dRemde movida swored aseTi saxiT, aris uwmindesis didi sulieri Zalisxmevis Sedegi. bevrjer hqonia mters qarTuli eklesiis ganadgurebis, gaxleCis da arevis mcdeloba. dResac Zalian bevrs ar asvenebs qarTuli eklesiis aRorZineba. vgulisxmob, rogorc aSkara mtrebs, ise `erTmorwmune keTilmosurneebsac~. safrTxe sul iyo da aris kidev, rogorc garedan, aseve Signidanac _ vgulisxmob sxvadasxva Zalebis zegavlenis qveS moqceul da aseve didebismoyvareobis JiniT Sepyrobil pirebs, romelTac `SeTqmulebis Wia~ jerac uRrRniT guls... romelTa windauxedav zraxvebs SeeZlo eklesiaSi saSineli areuloba, ganxeTqileba da mRelvareba Seetana, romelsac SeiZleboda mohyoloda iseTi umZimesi Sedegi, rogoricaa morwmune mrevlis sasowarkveTileba da eklesiidan gaucxoeba!...
yvela es safrTxe realuri iyo, Tumca SeumCneveli erisTvis da SeumCnevelia is Zalisxmevac, romelic gamoavlina uwmindesma am safrTxeebis asacileblad. es umZimesi Sromaa!...
sxva sakiTxia, vin rogor afasebs da rogor iyenebs uwmindesis ndobasa da xeldasxmas!...
Tumca, uwmindess, Tavisi xedvis wyalobiT, ara mgonia, vinmes `sunTqva~ gamoeparos da Tu iTmens bevr rames, albaT, misi sulgrZelobiTa da kacTmoyvareobiT iTmens. magram roca sakiTxi eklesiis siwmindesa da qveynis momavals Seexeba, ara mgonia, uwmindesma, vinmes mimarT zedmeti `Semwynarebloba~ gamoiCinos!...

5 kiTxva:   v. barnovis – `trfobai wamebulisa~ (gv.183) vkiTxulobT:   `eklesias   ori   m o T a v e   unda hyavdeso, e r T i   brwyinvale Tavi eklesiisa msofliuri didebiT Semkuli, radgan eklesiam itvirTa zrunva amaqveynieri: damoZRvra samwysois xorcieli arsebisa.   m e o r e   moTave misi unda iyos wmidani, qveyniur zrunvaTagan daxsnili. xorciel siameTagan Tavisufali, xiluli didebis Tu gancxromis uarismyofeli. Znelia adamianis wmidanoba amqveynad, SesaZlebeli ki aris.                        
saqarTvelos eklesiasac unda hyavdes kacTagan dadgenili saWismpyrobeli, patriarqi moTave Tvisi da unda hyvandes wmidanic, RvTisagan nakurTxi sxivi eklesiisa...~
m.giorgi. Tu hyavs saqarTvelos wmida eklesias es meore moTave _ wmidani, RvTisagan nakurTxi sxivi eklesiisa?

pasuxi: es ori moTave qarTul wmida eklesias sul hyavda!... p i r v e l i   moTave aris, rogorc waikiTxeT _ xiluli, brwyinvale Tavi eklesiisa, anu p a t r i a r q i,   xolo m e o r e   moTave eklesiisa aris   anu   w m i d a n i _ RvTisagan nakurTxi   s x i v i   e k l e s i i s a, romlis uxilav-sulier daniSnulebaSi, bolo saukuneebSi, Sedis aseve moZRvarT-moZRvroba!...
qarTuli eklesiis xilul moTaves ukve 30 welia warmoadgens misi uwmindesoba – i l i a II, xolo meore, dafaruli moTave _ moZRvarT moZRvari,   mTeli 40 wlis manZilze gaxldaT didi g a b r i e l   b e r i.   misi sxeulidan gasvlis Semdgomac, saqarTvelos hyavs wmida eklesiis es meore moTave anu RvTisagan kurTxeuli sxivi eklesiisa anu moZRvarT-moZRvari da uwyvetad eyoleba is qristes macxovris meored mosvlamdis!..
gamixarda Tqveni SekiTxva. vxedav, qarTvelebi isev vubrundabiT WeSmarit sulier xedvas. me SemiZlia dagisaxeloT saqarTvelos eklesiis dRevandeli `RvTivkurTxeuli sxivi~, magram is qarTvelma erma Tavad unda aRmoaCinos sulieri srulyofilebis gziT. samwuxarod didi gabriel beri ver icno erma rwmenisa da sulieri ganaTlebis simwiris gamo.

6. kiTxva: mama giorgi, netari andria salosis cxovrebaSi aris aseTi epizodi, rodesac wm. epifane, misi mowafe ekiTxeba mas wminda ilia winaswarmetyvelze: _ `rai ars WeSmariti sityva, romelsa ityvian, viTarmed ilia winaswarmetyveli ars RrubelTa zeda ganmge da etlTa misgan gamovals xma quxilisa, rameTu sZlevs veSapsao?~ _ netari andria ki pasuxobs Semdegnairad: `nu iyofin, Svilo, ege viTarni, Tumca yovladve raica iyo (Tumca mudam adre swamdaT, raica iyo aqnobamdis), ege viTarni sityvani, rameTu umecarTa kacTa ars sityva ege, _ da gina mwvalebelTa anu usujuloTa da yovladve ara jer-ars qristianeTa ege viTarTa sityva rwmunebad, rameTu   ilia cad ara aRsrul ars, aramed friad pativ-sca RmerTman pirvel aqab mefisaze, da misca xelmwifeba haerTa zeda, cvarisa da sixmilisa. da aw odesca vinmes enebos, evedros, aqvs kadniereba winaSe RvTisa, mianiWebs Txovnasa mvedrebelTa misTasa, gina wvimisaTvis, gina sixmelisaTvis. xolo   c a d   a r a v i n     aR s r u l   a r s,   g a r n a   Z e   R v T i s a.   m x o l o d _S o b i l i, romeli igi gardamoxda zeciT da mosca cxovrebai sofelsa. xolo ese vuwyiT iliasTvis, viTarmed cxovel ars (cocxal ars) xorciTa, xolo adgili ara vin uwyis, Tu sada iyofebis da egreTve ioane maxarobeli da RvTismetyveli xorciTa ars, aramed adgili aravin uwyis, Tu sada iyofebis da arca vin Rirs ars Cven uRirsTagani xilvad missa, xolo m a r T a l n i   d a   w m i d a n i     k a c n i mraval-gzis ixilvian. da egreTve enuq winaswarmetyvelica cocxal   ars   da   i q c e v i s   e r T a   S o r i s   da   v e r v i n   s c n o b s   Tu romel ars igi~. _ es adgili Cven ramdenime moZRvars vkiTxeT, raTa ganemartaT, Tu ras niSnavda, wminda andria salosis   es sityvebi – rom ilia winaswarmetyveli cad ar asulao, arc ioane da arc winaswarmetyveli enuqi, da kidev – xolo   c a d   a r v i n     a R s r u l   a r s ,   g a r n a   Z e   R v T i s a o,   moZRvrebma gvipasuxes, rom es mosazreba aris piradad netari andriasi da ara eklesiis mier dadgenili WeSmariteba. Tqven ras gvetyodiT?.

pasuxi: netav, andria salosze didebs vis dausviT es SekiTxva saqarTveloSi?!... andria salosis sityvebi W e S m a r i t e b a a! cota vinmes sulieri xedva Tu gautoldeba wmidaTagan netari andrias xedvas!... is Zalian Sors ixedeboda!.. yvelaferi es male ganmJRavndeba.
me ki getyviT - mociquli da maxarobeli   i o a n e   dRes saqarTveloSi aris!..… is CvenSi   dadis xorciT!... e l i a s a c   naxavT saqarTveloSi!...

7. kiTxva: mama giorgi, yvelasaTvis cnobilia bolo saukuneebis manZilze qarTul eklesiaSi SoTa rusTvelis `vefxistyaosanze~ Camoyalibebuli Sexeduleba. Tqven ras gvetyviT amis Sesaxeb?

pasuxi: me ase getyodiT. `vefxistyaosani~ aris ara mxolod msoflio donis literaturuli Sedevri, rogorc mas kacobrioba aRiarebs, aramed uaRresad sasuliero _ saeklesio nawarmoebic!.. udidesi poeturi xelovnebiT SairebSi Sefarulia didi sulieri sibrZne, saidumlo da winaswarmetyveleba bolo Jamis saqarTvelos gabrwyinebaze. `vefxistyaosani~ aris qarTuli sulis ukidegano samyaro. sulierebis iseTi simaRle, romelsac dRemde ver moaRwia msoflioSi verc erTma erma da awi _ miT umetes!...
es aris qarTuli eklesiis winaswarmetyvelebis da igavTmetyvelebis saukeTeso nimuSi, romlis gasaRebi, samwuxarod, qarTulma eklesiam didi xnis winaT dakarga (ar vambob calkeul wmindanebze, romlebic saidumlod inaxavdnen dromde da Taobidan Taobebs gadascemdnen). `vefxistyaosani~ aris suliwmindis CagonebiT Seqmnili naSromi da SeuZlebelia mis sulier samyaroSi SeRweva qarTul-qristianuli sulieri xedvisa da codnis gareSe.
kidev vimeoreb: Cven varT RvTis rCeuli eri, romelsac mieca WeSmariti RmerTis Wvretis gansakuTrebuli niWi da unari. aseve samyaros Seqmnisa da marTvis saidumloebebis RvTaebrivi codna. swored es gaxlavT mizezi imisa, rom mTeli Cveni istoriis manZilze boroti ar gveSveba. vin da ra juris dampyrobeli ar aRZra man Cvens winaaRmdeg. isini aq mxolod vazis asaCexad ar mosulan, isini aq   d i d saidumlos eZebdnen!.. mtroba da SuRli arc erTmorwmune erebma dagvakles. miwa-wyal dakargul qarTvelebs rwmenac Segviryies. gansakuTrebuli mzakvrobiT ebrZodnen Cvens sulier cnobierebasa da xedvas, rasac isini imJamad mniSvnelovnad CamorCebodnen. berZnul – rusul-ebrauli cnobierebiT saxeSecvlili qarTuli eklesia da Tu mTlianad eri ra dReSi Caayenes urjulo bolSevikebma es yvelam viciT. ers RmerTi daaviwyes, xolo eklesia (oficialuri) umweo, damorCilebul mdgomareobaSi amyofes. amitom arc unda gvikvirdeT, rom eklesia da eri jerjerobiT ver arian im sulier simaRleze, im doneze ra donec SesaZlebels gaxdis `vefxistyaosnis~ sulier wvdomas, xedvasa da Sefasebas!.. Cven jerjerobiT axlad aRdgenil lazares vgavarT, romelsac jer kidev TeTri burusi edga Tvalwin. awi iwyeba didi gamoRviZeba. miuxedavad imisa, rac Cvenma erma da qarTulma eklesiam borotis manqanebiT ganicada _ qarTuli qristianuli suli sul cocxlobda! cocxlobda calkeuli wmidanebis saxiT, romlebic mZime tanjvis fasad, saidumlod inaxavdnen qarTuli sulis WeSmarit saganZurs.
SoTa rusTaveli didi wmidania, romelic dajildoebuli iyo ara mxolod poeziis niWiT, aramed momavlis Wvretis unikaluri madliTac. Jami axlosaa da Cven gagvexsneba namdvili `vefxistyaosani~ im saxiT, ra saxiTac Seqmna is misma avtorma. me aravis ganvikiTxav!.. vgulisxmob Tanamedrove `rusTvelologebs~,   magram erTs vityvi, es is ar aris!... RmerTis gareSe `vefxistyaosani~ ar SeiZleba iyos SoTa rusTvelis Sedevri. msoflio gaogndeba, roca mas qarTvelebi Caaxedeben vefxistyaosnis WeSmarit arsSi!.. es dro modis. Tqven ki minda giTxraT: rom Zalian momwons baton zaur biZinaSvilis komentarebi. aqvs mas aseTi naSromi: `simarTle rusTavelisa da Tamaris Sesaxeb~. es naSromi sxva xedvaa. waikiTxeT, bevr axals aRmoaCenT. es samzadisia!.. aseve girCevT waikiTxoT baton merab cincaZis naSromi rusTavelis `vefxistyaosanis ricxviTi metyveleba~.   es naSromic sulieri xedvis nimuSia.
8. kiTxva:   mama giorgi, adamianTa didi nawili maTi araeklesiurad cxovrebis mizezad sasuliero pirTa mimarT undoblobas asaxeleben. Tqven ras etyodiT maT?

pasuxi: getyviT ager: Sen Tu erTgan eqimi ar mogwons, rava, mkurnalobaze aiReb xels Tu kargi eqimis Zebnas daiwyeb?! hoda, adamians Tu gacnobierebuli aqvs Tavisi sulieri uZlurebani da sneulebani, da isic, rom RmerTs sulis mkurnalad mRvdlebi hyavs dadginebuli, maSin es adamiani sulis mkurnalobis saqmes ar moeSveba da ar moisvenebs manam, sanam namdvil mkurnals ar miagnebs!... ase rom, vinc nelTbilad da zereled ar udgeba sulis gadarCenis saqmes, RmerTi gamouCens mas WeSmarit RvTismsaxurs.
meore sakiTxia, rom samRvdeloeba ar unda iZleodes adamianebis dabrkolebis sababs!.. yvela RvTismsaxuri namdvili unda iyos. damabrkolebeli da usargeblo `msaxurni~ eklesias ar unda hyavdes. qriste RmerTic mkacrad brZanebs:   `vai mas, visganac modis sacduri!~
dRes wesierebaca da gonebismieri codnac sakmarisi ar aris RmrTismsaxurisaTvis. mRvdels sulieri xedva da gansjis unari unda gaaCndes. aseve sulieri cxovrebis gamocdileba, Tavmdabloba da siwminde. Tu sakuTar vnebaTa damarcxebis gamocdileba ara gaqvs, sxvas rogorRa damoZRvrav?! saSiSia, roca sruliad axalgazrdebs moZRvrebad akurTxeben, da zog SemTxvevaSi, sasuliero Tanamdebobebze adgenen.     e s   d a n a S a u l i a !... sulieri xedvis gareSe veravin gaxdeba namdvili moZRvari.!... ar ganikiTxo! _ ar niSnavs TeTri da Savi ar gaarCio, an Savze Tqva - TeTriao. wm.mamebic gvafrTxileben: `gamoucdel da vnebian moZRvrebs suls nu Caabarebo!~

9. kiTxva: mama giorgi ras urCevdiT im adamianebs, romelTac surT eklesiuri cxovreba, magram jer ver SeurCeviaT verc taZari da verc moZRvari?
pasuxi: dRes RvTis madliT saqarTveloSi salocavebi blomadaa. dideba RmerTs! cota xnis win sad iyo taZrebi asarCevad?!...
umjobesia adamiani TviTon mivides taZarSi, sanam mas RmerTi gansacdelebiT miiyvandes!... rac Seexeba arCevans, jer getyviT ras ar girCevT, ar girCevdiT:
I. esa Tu is taZari mxolod imitom airCioT, rom teritoriulad axlosaa Tqvens saxlTan, an kidev imitom, rom `prestiJulia~. TbilisSi aseTi sityvac gavige: `elitaruli fenis taZari~. ar varga ase xumroba! saxifaToa ukrZalveloba!...
II. ar girCevT sxvaTa rCeviTa da rekomendaciebiT airCioT taZaric da moZRvaric.
axla getyviT ras girCevdiT: rogorc moZRvari, ise taZari airCios Tqvenma sulma!... amisTvis ki SediT da daeswariT wirva-locvebs ramdenime taZarSi da romel taZarSic galoba Tqvens guls Seexeba-moewoneba, an kidev galobam lmobierebis cremli moggvaroT, airCieT is taZari!...
rac Seexeba moZRvris arCevas, am SemTxvevaSi, yurs nu daugdebT sxvaTa rCevebs: es moZRvari Zlieria, is ganaTlebuli, is sulieri da sxva. isini SeiZleba iyvnen qebis Rirsnic, magram ar iyvnen Seni moZRvarni!... Tqven locvaSi sTxoveT RmerTs, raTa agarCevinoT Tqveni sulis axlobeli moZRvari, mere daakvirdiT moZRvrebs, maT sxvadasxva niWebi da Tvisebebi aqvT, magram Tqven upirvelesad, daakvirdiT, Tu ramdenad axlobeli da Sinauria igi Seni sulisTvis. esa mTavaria imisaTvis, rom SemdgomSi SeZlo gulis gaxsna da gulwrfeli aRsareba. Tu moZRvridan krZalva da SiSis grZnoba ufro Warbobs, icodeT, masTan gulwrfeli ver iqnebiT. mTavari ki moZRvrisadmi ndobaa. Tu es ar geqnaT, verc SeiyvarebT da verc daemorCilebiT. aseT SemTxvevaSi ra urTierToba unda aawyoT?!
esaa Cemi rCeva damwyebTaTvis. sulierebaSi rom warematebiT, moZRvris mimarT ukve sxva moTxovnebi gagiCndebaT da isic sxva sulieri kriteriumebiT ixelmZRvanelebs.

10. kiTxva:L m.giorgi, arc ise iSviaTad, roca morwmunes urTuldeba erTi moZRvridan sxva moZRvarTan gadasvla. moZRvrebi amas erTgvari gaRizianebiT, wyromiT, SezRudviT, `wyevis~ magvari muqariT pasuxoben. Tqven ras gvetyodiT am sakiTxTan mimarTebaSi?

pasuxi: yvelaze didi moZRvari Cveni qriste RmerTia!... qriste mxolod mouwodebs!.. is RmerTia da miuxedavad Tavisi Zalauflebisa, ar moiTxovs da ar aiZulebs adamians, Seudges mas. qriste RmerTma yvela adamians misca arCevanis ufleba! da Tu qriste ar zRudavs adamians, rogor SeuZlia qristes msaxur mRvdels aiZulos an SezRudos vinme?!   an `daabas~ morwmune adamiani?!   a m i s   u f l e b a   a r a   a q v s   m R v d e l s !...
Tu moZRvars aqvs raime seriozuli argumenti, undobloba an kidev `codviTi samxili~ im moZRvris mimarT, romelTanac misi mrevli apirebs gadasvlas, man es piradad unda uTxras im mRvdelmsaxurs, Semdgom ki mxolod SegonebiT, keTili rCeviT, scados morwmunis SeCereba. magram Tu morwmune mainc mtkiced idgeba Tavis ganzraxvaze, unda gauSvas is, ra Tqma unda. miT umetes, roca moZRvars ar gaaCnia raime seriozuli mizezi sxva moZRvris mimarT!
moZRvars ara aqvs ufleba SezRudos morwmune, mxolod da mxolod imis gamo, rom es adamiani pirvelad masTan mivida aRsarebaze da ara romelime sxva moZRvarTan!
aseT faqtebs rom jer kidev   adgili aqvs Cvens eklesiaSi, imaze metyvelebs, rom moZRvrebs jerac awuxebT ampartavneba, pativmoyvareoba da sxvebze mbrZaneblobis survili, rac yovlad dauSvebelia sulieri moZRvrisTvis!
sulieri   moZRvrisa da morwmunis urTierTobis   qvakuTxedi   aris       s i y v a r u l i,   n d o b a   da   m o r C i l e b a!     WeSmariti morCilebis arsi da mizani ki mdgomareobs imaSi, rom morwmunem moZRvris xelmZRvanelobiT gaaRwios RmerTamde da gaxdes T a v i s u f a l i! macxovaric xom gveubneba: `me gagaTavisuflebT Tqveno!.~ Tavisuflebamde ki migiyvanT mxolod is, vinc TviTonaa Tavisufali!... da ara is, vinc   batonobis JiniT aris Sepyrobili!...
unda daemorCiloT qristes saxeliT imas, visac ar surs sxvebze batonoba da ara imas,   vinc qristes saxeliT, sakuTari vnebis monebad gaqcevT!.. Tavisufalia mxolod   w m i d a n i   da man icis, rogor mogapovebinoT Tavisufleba, rogor gagaTavisufloT vnebebisa da wuTisoflis borkilebisagan! s x v a   danarCeni veranairad ver gagaTavisuflebT!... miuxedavad imisa, SeiZleba Zalian surdeT es maT!..
mxolod WeSmariti moZRvris xelSi igemebs morwmune morCilebis tkbil nayofs – Tavisuflebas. mxolod wmida moZRvris xelSia morCileba gulwrfeli, namdvili da macxovnebeli! xolo sulieri xedvisa da gamocdilebis armqone moZRvris xelSi gardauvalia morwmunis _ Tavisuflebis maZieblis, konfliqti!... radgan am SemTxvevaSi morCileba ver iqneba gulwrfeli. is aucileblad miiRebs garegnul saxes, xolo garegnul aragulwrfel `morCilebas~ morwmune mihyavs m o n o b a m d e, an kidev Sinagan protestamde _ urCobamde!.... religiuri monoba ki yvela sxva saxis monobaze gacilebiT saSiSi da saziano mdgomareobaa, romelsac adamiani   mihyavs   an   fanatizmamde an kidev   srul   pirovnul   waSlamde!   s u l i e r i     m o n o b a     s a S i n e l e b a a ! ! !
WeSmariti morCileba iqaa, sadac moZRvari ki ar gaiZulebs, aramed Seni suli gTxovs moZRvrisadmi morCilebas!
sulieri zrdisa da wvrTnis procesi Zneli da mtkivneuli   procesia. igi aRsavsea rogorc sixaruliT, aseve mwuxarebiT. morCileba moiTxovs sakuTari nebis daTmobas da yovelgvari akrZalva, SezRudva, Tundac macxovnebeli, aucileblad iwvevs tkivilsa da tanjvas. xSir SemTxvevaSi Sinagan janysac ki, da didi ostatoba da xelovnebaa saWiro   faqizad warmarTo sulisTvis aucilebeli, magram mtkivneuli procesebi. wmida moZRvari awonasworebs morwmunis Sinagan samyaros, ixedeba ra masSi. is sulgrZelobiTa da siyvaruliT iTmens morCilis tkivilnarev sulis `amboxs~. madliTa da nugeSiT moulbobs sulsa da guls. uxilavi ZafebiT gonivrulad marTavs mas. roca igive procesebi ampartavan da pativmoyvare moZRvris xelSi aucileblad savalalod mTavrdeba. aseTi moZRvari ver egueba morCilis protests da Sinagan janys. is morwmunis aseT bunebriv gamovlinebebs aRSfoTebiTa da zedmeti simkacriT pasuxobs, miawers ra yovelives `eSmakis manqanebas~ da cdilobs, ufro da ufro SezRudos da garegani `receptebiT uwamlos~ gaRizianebul suls da ara s u l i e r i     m a d l i s   S i n a g a n i   S e x e b i T,   radaganac mas es ar ZaluZs!... yvelafers ver movyvebi da verc daswer!... es xom yoveldRiuri, cxovrebiseuli sakiTxia.
sxvisi aRzrda wignebiT SeuZlebelia, Tu TviTon ara gaqvs es gza gavlili!... yoveli adamiani unikaluria. mas gansxvavebuli sulieri, gonebrivi, fizikuri, fsiqologiuri Taviseburebebi gaaCnia. yovel adamians aqvs sulis gansxvavebuli gasaRebi, amitom miuxedavad siwmidisa, moZRvari SeiZleba ar iyos konkretuli adamianis moZRvari. mas SeuZlia gaqaCos morwmune raRac etapze, aiyvanos garkveul safexurze, magram Semdeg miuTiTos - vin da ra aris misTvis aucilebeli Semdgomi ganviTarebisaTvis.
dRes bevri iferebs `sulieri mamis~ wodebas, magram verc acnobiereben, Tu ra Rrma arsi devs am sityvaSi. moZRvari ar SeiZleba iyos yvelas `sulieri mama,~ vinc ki misula masTan. sulieri mamoba dadgenilia zecaSi da ara aq, miwaze!... SeiZleba morwmunem ipovos   w m i d a   moZRvari, magram advilad ver miagnos   Tavis   s u l i e r   m a m a s!..   e s   s x v a   T e m aa!...
wmida moZRvari ara Tu mtkivneulad ganicdis misi xelqveiTis sxva mRvdelmsaxurTan urTierTobas, aramed piriqiT, Segnebulad ugzavnis sxva wm.mamas ama Tu im sakiTxis dasamuSaveblad. es aucilebelicaa, radgan yovel wmida moZRvars RvTisagan sxvadasxva sulieri niWi da SesaZlebloba aqvs miniWebuli. rogorc giTxariT, sxva moZRvarTan morwmunis gadasvla aRaSfoTebs mxolod ampartavan da sulieri xedvis uqonel mRvdelmsaxurebs. aseTebi ara Tu sxvasTan `gadasvlas~, aramed saerTod urTierTobasac ki ukrZalaven TavianT mrevls. glaxa saqmea es! babua!... es imaze metyvelebs, rom aseTi mRvdlebi ar arian WeSmariti moZRvrebi da Tu WeSmariti araa, ra saqme unda gqondeT maTTan?!...
did sulierebas rom Tavi davaneboT, ubralod, adamianuradac ver gamigia _ ar surs adamians petresTan da unda iyos pavles morCili. mereda ra aris amaSi uarsayofi?!.. Tu petrec da pavlec qristes WeSmariti msaxurebi   arian?!... da Tu petre Tvlis, rom pavle daRupavs mis `sulier Svils~_ maSin petres adreve unda e m x i l e b i n a pavle, sanam mis `sulier Svilze~ midgeboda jeri!...
mrevlis simravles, rogorc wesi, mieltvian sulieri xedvisa da gamocdilebis uqoneli `moZRvrebi~, radganac arc aqvT gacnobierebuli, Tu rasTan aqvT saqme, radganac sulier brZolaSi arc arian Cabmulni.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         WeSmariti moZRvroba urTulesi ramaa, amaze rTuli saqmianoba ar arsebobs! es uxilavi da daundobeli brZolaa TiToeuli adamianis sulze!..                
sxva sakiTxia is, Tu ratom surs morwmunes Seicvalos moZRvari, ra udevs safuZvlad mis am `gadasvlas!~ _ bevrs ara Tu morCileba, aramed samarTliani SeniSvnis miRebac ar surs. bevrs, surs moZRvari ise eqceodes, rogorc es mas awyobs da warmoudgenia. bevrs, saerTod, ver gaugia moZRvris aucileblobis arsi. bevri, saerTod, zarmaci da uqnaraa. bevri ki _ msubuqi da Tavneba; _ aseTi xalxi, babua, moZRvars ver ipovnis!... da Tu miagnes wmida moZRvrebs, isini mainc win ver wavlen!..

11. kiTxva: mama giorgi, morwmunes aqvs Tu ara ufleba, hkiTxos Tavis moZRvars: miiyvans Tu ara sasufevelSi, xom ar aris aseTi kiTxva codva?
pasuxi: Tu es sakiTxi ara aqvs morwmunes garkveuli, ra Tqma unda, unda hkiTxos, aba ra! am kiTxvaSi me codvas ver vxedav, piriqiT! vis SeuZlia es ufleba waarTvas morwmunes?! morwmunes am kiTxvis dasmis ufleba araTu aqvs, aramed me Tu mkiTxavT, yvela unda ekiTxebodes moZRvars amas, moZRvrad arCevis dros!...
adamiani, romelic seriozulad da mTeli arsebiT zrunavs sasufevelSi moxvedraze da surs maradiuli cxovreba, bunebrivia, Rrmad unda iyos darwmunebuli Tavisi moZRvris _ megzuris gamocdilebasa da SesaZleblobebSi.
morwmune darwmunebuli unda iyos imaSi, rom moZRvari aucileblad miiyvans mas sasufevelSi, roca, Tavis mxriv, morwmunec yvelafers gaakeTebs amisaTvis. aba rogor?! es aucilebeli kiTxvaa!... me Zalian momewona es kiTxva.
moZRvarma unda SeZlos zustad pasuxis gacema! aq mikibv-mokibva ar ivargebs!... pasuxi unda iyos safuZvliani da damajerebeli! dadebiTi pasuxis SemTxvevaSi, Tavis mxriv, morwmunemac unda aRuTqvas morCileba da mxned aitanos sasufevlisken mimavali gzis iwroebani.
cxonebis gzaze moZRvari umTavresi faqtoria: me gemorCilebi, suls gabareb, vSromob da vwvalob, da Sen rom iq daniSnulebis adgilze ar mimiyvano, ra gamodis?! mRupav? es taqsiT mgzavroba nurvis hgonia, babua; mZRols wereTlis gamziri WavWavaZeSi aerios! sulier moZRvars Tu `gamziri~ `aeria!~, damijereT is mere ukan ver mobrundeba!~... amitom, morwmunes evaleba kargad gamoikvlios da daadginos: miiyvans Tu ara misi moZRvari _ megzuri mas sasufevelSi! winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi me ar mesmis moZRvris ayvanis azri?!
Ees SekiTxva TavSi mouva mxolod imaT, vinc WeSmaritad zrunavs, ganicdis, iRvwis sasufevelSi asvlas!...
me ver getyviT, vin rogor pasuxs mogcemT moZRvarTagan, magram erTs getyviT: keTili da WeSmariti moZRvari aucileblad zedmeti `Tavmdablobis~ gareSe mogcemT pasuxs, rom mas SeuZlia migiyvanos RmerTTan, Tu amisTvis Senc yvelafers gaakeTeb.
sulieri moZRvris daniSnuleba swored esaa!.. Tu moZRvars es SekiTxva gaukvirda, `maSin kargad gvqonia saqme!...~
WeSmarit moZRvars marTla SeuZlia morwmune miiyvanos sasufevelSi, radgan man icis sasufeveli, is iqidan aris Camosuli. mas gaRweuli aqvs RmerTamde, suliT is sul sasufevelSia, radgan RmerTia masSi!...
WeSmarit moZRvars SeuZlia adamiani sicocxleSive gaiyvanos RmerTamde!... Seamecnos sakuTari Tavi, gauRos gulis kari da RmerTi moiwvios mis gulSi, ris Semdegac morwmune aq dedamiwaze suliT sasufevelSia! gasagebia?! WeSmariti moZRvari es dedacaa! moZRvars SeuZlia RmerTi gapovninos da `moZRvars~ SeuZlia, eSmakis kerZic gagxados. qriste RmerTi xom gvafrTxilebs: `gana SeuZlia brmas brmis megzuroba?! gana oriveni ormoSi ar Cacvivdebian?!~.
saqarTvelos hyavs WeSmariti _ wmida moZRvrebi da pativi miageT maT! radgan moZRvaria is ostati, romelic qristes binad gadagigcevT guls!

12. kiTxva: - mama giorgi, xalxSi bevri miTqma_moTqmaa imis Sesaxeb, rom zogierT taZarSi jvriswerasa da naTlobaze `Tanxa~ aqvT dadgenili moZRvrebs. ramdenad marTebulia aseTi gansazRvruli Tanxis SemoReba.

pasuxi: _ ra giTxraT, Tu iciT, babua: arc `intrigani~ adamianebi gamolevia qveyanas da arc fulis Mmoyvaruli   `mRvdlebi~. Mme ver getyviT, romeli `satarifo normatividan~ gamomdinare iTxovs mRvdeli 100 dolars jvrisweraze da 50 lars naTlobaze, magram is mRvdeli, romelic am Tanxas daJinebiT moiTxovs,   ar aris mRvdeli da gabrundi da wadi!.. ra madli unda hqondes aseT mRvdels?!..   patiosani mRvdlebic   hyavs RmerTs. verc imaTi gamigia rame, vinc xuTaskacian qorwils ixdian. `Citis rZes~ ar akleben sufras, marto sadedoflo kabaSi xuTi aTas dolars ixdian. Tavis mosawoneblad fuli ar enanebaT, xolo mRvdlisTvis, romelic qorwinebas akanonebs, akurTxebs, gamravlebasa da keTildReobas gamoiTxovs RvTisagan,   rame rom gaiRon, xelebi rom ukankalebT!..   orive aq moyvanili SemTxveva uRmrToebis nimuSia. Tu Tavi qristianad mogaqvs, maSin is unda icode, rom naTloba da jvriswera adamianisaTvis gacilebiT mniSvnelovania, vidre is, Tu ramdeni kaci Segiqebs pur-marils. RmerTma yvelas misces mdidruli sufrebis gadaxdis saSualeba da amasTan imisi S e g n e b a c, rom RmerTis moSiSebiT, pativi miagos patiosan mRvdelTmsaxurs, romlis Sroma veranairi fuliT ver dafasdeba.

13. kiTxva: mama giorgi, dRes axalgazrdebis aseT raodenobas berobis survili rom gaaCnia, xom aris es sulieri aRmavlobis niSani? ras urCevdiT berobis msurvelT.

pasuxi: rogor giTxraT!... namdvili beroba Zalian Znelia, magram RmerTi da deda RmrTismSobelia Semwe da Zalis wyaro im monazvnebisa, romlebic TviTon RmerTis mowodebiT Sesdgomian am mZime, magram amave dros yvelaze aRmatebul gzas.
dRes Zalian Wirs cxovreba!... da bevri ubrZolvelad gaurbis viRacas, an raRacas. zogi gaurbis cxovrebis sirTules, sxvebi sakuTar Tavs da a.S. gasagebia, rom es erTgvari devnaa, magram es jer kidev ar aris berobis utyuari niSani. da es `gaqceva~ adamianis sisusteze metyvelebs, susti adamianebis saqme ar aris beroba, babua!... beroba Zlieri sulis adamianebis mowodebaa. beroba araa profesia, rom niWierma kacma aiTvisos Tavisi survilis sawinaaRmdegod! berad unda daibado!
berobis survilSi TavisTavad cudi araferi devs, magram safrTxe isaa, rom axalgazrdebis didi nawili ver acnobierebs imas, Tu saidan da visgan moewodebaT maT es survili!... aucilebelia, monazvnobis msurvelma gaarkvios _ aris misi es survili _sulis moTxovnileba, `sulis Zaxili~ Tu raRac mZime cxovrebiseul momentSi miRebuli daufiqrebeli gadawyvetileba. aris es RmerTis mowodeba, Tu eSmakis mier Cagonebuli azri!... an kidev viRacis zegavlena, Tu wminda wignebiT moxibluli gonebis aRtacebuli ocneba!
yvela aq CamoTvlili, garda erTisa, romelic aris   R m r T i s   m o w o d e b a   _   aucileblad miiyvans savalalo mdgomareobamde monazvnobis msurvels. monastris pirvelive siZneleebi did sasowarkveTilebaSi agdebs axalgazrdebs, romlebic ocnebiT moxiblulni midian iq. ecvlebaT azri imaTac, vinc raRac ekonomiuri siduxWiris gamo, an sxva gansacdels gamoqceulebi mosulan monasterSi. eSmakis STagonebiT mosulni _ nawili garbis da nawili ki rCeba da saSinel zians ayenebs sakuTar suls da sxvebsac. mxolod suliT berebs axarebT monastruli cxovreba, radgan es maTi bunebaa, es maTi cxovrebaa. maT siZnele da iwroebani ar afrTxobs da medgrad miiweven win sulier safexurebze.
amitom monazvnobis msurvelma unda garkvios, misi gadawyvetileba aris   RmerTis mowodeba Tu ara! rogor gaarkvios?! _ amisTvis arian wmidanebi da amave dros mSoblebi. didia mSoblis kurTxevis Zala. amisi magaliTebi bevri geqnebaT wakiTxuli. wmidani piruTvnelad gaagebinebs axalgazrdas, aris Tu ara beroba misi saqme. da Tu is axalgazrda jiuti araa, keTilad wauva saqme.
wmidanis kurTxevas kidev erTi didi pliusi aqvs: es kurTxeva iqneba mcveli da nugeSismcemeli im adamianebisa, romelTac mouwevT monastruli cxovreba da amave dros imaTic, romelTac mouwevT erSi cxovreba, radgan boroti gamudmebiT miawvdis maT azrs, rom isini TavianTi mowodebis gzas acdnen. erSi darCenilebs miawvdis im azrebs, rom erSi isini raime saRvTos ver gaakeTeben, rom mxolod monasterSi gadairCenen suls da naTesavebsac gadaarCenen. swored aseTi azrebis mosagerieblad waadgebaT adamianebs wmidanis kurTxeva. es kurTxeva iqneba imis garanti, rom es adamianebi swored iq dganan, sadac miuCina maT RmerTma adgili.
piradad me ar mivesalmebi 20_25 wlis biWebisa da gogonebis monazvnobas.   m e     T u     m k i T x a v T,     e s   s a x i f a T o a ! ! !
am asakis, vnebadauTrgunavi axalgazrdebis monasterSi sulieri winsvla Zalian Znelia da udides Sromas moiTxovs. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi waxdebian da sxvebsac waaxdenen. kargad daixsomeT erTi ram:   monasteri, sadac wmidani ar aris, monasteri araa!... is saerTo sacxovrebels ufro hgavs. winamZRvars, romelsac ara aqvs sulieri xedva, saRmrTo ganaTleba da sakuTari vnebenis damarcxebis gamocdileba, is ver iqneba sxvaTa WeSmariti moZRvari. is iRupavs Tavs da aucileblad daRupavs sxvas!.. wmida mamaTa wignebis kiTxviT SeuZlebelia uxelmZRvanelo cocxali adamianebis sulebs, romlebic Zalian gansxvavdebian TavianTi sulieri, gonebrivi, fizikuri TaviseburebebiT. monazvnebis sulieri xelmZRvaneli monasterSi   g a m o c d i l i,   g a m o b r Z m e d i l i     w m i d a     b e r i     unda   iyos!
ra sulieri brZolebis gamocdileba unda gaaCndes 20_25 wlis axalgazrda kacs, romelic, ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, sasuliero seminariidan an akademiidan xdeba monastris winamZRvari! mas rom sulieri xedva ara aqvs, amas isic adasturebs, rom ase advilad daTanxmda egzom rTul da sapasuxismgeblo sulier Tanamdebobaze da, radganac sulieri xedva ara aqvs, aseTi pirovneba ufro zrunavs imaze, rom gaumarTlos ndoba im ierarqs, romelmac akurTxa am Tanamdebobaze. is zrunavs, gazardos Zmebis ricxvi. aSenos, dargos, moawyos, moxatos, magram umTavresze _ monastris upirveles daniSnulebaze_sulis ganwmendaze ver izrunebs, radgan ara aqvs sulieri xedva!!!     m o n a s t e r s     a r     e x u m r e b i a n ! ! !
erTxel erTma mkiTxa: `borots raSi unda ainteresebdes adamianis monasterSi Sedgomao?~. ainteresebs da mere rogor kidev!... sul ukan mouxedavad miarbeninebs monasterSi adamians. ratom?! _ imitom, rom Tavidanve, RmerTis nebas acdenili adamiani namdvili beri ver gaxdeba! is aucileblad cru monazvnad Camoyalibdeba, romelsac mxolod moCvenebiTi, garegnuli niSnebiRa Tu eqneba da ara WeSmariti saTnoeba. droSi ki is borotisagan miiRebs Zalas, SeiZleba, aaRwios sasuliero Tanamdebobazec da borotis WurWlad qceuli daiwyebs namdvil berebTan dapirispirebas. aseTi “beri” xdeba ra borotis gegmis nawili da   a R m a s r u l e b e l i,   Zalian didi zianis momtania da SeuZlia ise `aamRvrios wyali~, ara erTi da ori adamianis suli daRupos!..
antiqriste adamianTa sazogadoebis yvela fenaSi cdilobs SeRwevas da Tavisi `kadrebis~ damkvidrebas da ra zianis miyeneba SeuZlia borotis `kadrebad~ qceul sasuliero pirebs, TqvenTvis Zneli warmosadgeni ar unda iqnes. swored rom sasuliero dawesebulebebSi cdilobs boroti damkvidrebas saukuneebis manZilze, radgan aq ukve srulad SeuZlia mas adamianis daRupva. is, rom samonastro cxovrebis istoriaSi yofila SemTxvevebi, roca sruliad axalgazrdebi aRkvecilan monasterSi, ar SeiZleba ganvazogadoT da gamoviyenoT   d R e s   axalgazrdebis gaucnobierebeli nabijebis gasamarTleblad, radgan is calkeuli magaliTebi istoriidan, beruli sistemis erT_erT saidumlos warmoadgens.
 saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs ara monazonTa raodenoba, aramed WeSmariti msaxurebis sulieri simaRle!
 ara taZrebis raodenoba, Tundac isini oqros gumbaTebiT iyos damSvenebuli, aramed saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs taZarSi mwirveli da mlocveli adamianebis siwminde da saRmrTo moSurneoba!
 da kidev, saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs ara ubralod pirjvris gamomsaxvelTa raodenoba, aramed isini, vis gulebSiac qriste daidebs binas!

14. kiTxva: mama giorgi gasagebia, rom Cvens ers codvebis gamo daatyda Tavs amdeni ubedureba, tkivili, mwuxareba da gansacdeli, magram dRes xom eris didi nawili eklesiaSi dadis, abarebs aRsarebas, eziareba... Cven ki mainc gviWirs rogorc sulierad, ise ekonomiurad da politikurad.   rogor axsniT amas?

pasuxi:   eris RmerTTan Serigebis aucilebeli da WeSmariti piroba ara taZrebSi zereled misul adamianTa simravlea, aramed morwmune adamianebis – rwmenis, sinanulis, locvis, moSiSobis, morCilebis xarisxi, aRsarebis siwrfele da codvebidan gamosvlis mtkice gadawyvetileba! wm.ioane oqropiri wers: `imitomaa yvelaferi daqceuli, imitomaa yvelgan gamefebuli ukiduresi uwesrigoba, rom Cven, rogorc sanaxaobaze, veZebT xalxis simravles!... xalxis krebuli, sayvarelo, rodesac igi RmerTis nebas ar asrulebs, arafriT gansxvavdeba maTgan, vinc saerTod ar arsebobs!...~
getyviT ager: aRsareba erTia, xolo sinanuli _ meore... gulis Semusvrilobis, sinanulis gareSe naTqvami aRsareba ra Sedegis momcemi unda iqnes?!! sinanulia mTavari... sinanuls iTxovs RmerTi codvis sanacvlod, radgan sinanulia is saSualeba, romliTac Semcode adamians ubrundeba RmerTTan urTierTobis moraluri ufleba da, roca ers ar aqvs sakmarisi sinanuli, maSin kacTmoyvare RmerTi, isev Cvenda sasikeTod, gvigzavnis tkivils, mwuxarebas, SimSils da sxvadasxva saxis gansacdels da amiT gvibaTilebs codvebs. codva materiaa, is ar qreba. is uaryofiTi, boroti energiaa da misi ganeitraleba mxolod codvis gamotirebiT an tanjviTa da tkivilebiT aris SesaZlebeli.
Cven vabarebT aRsarebas, mRvdlebic gvpatioben codvebs, magram aq mTavaria gvpatiobs Tu ara RmerTi!!! Tqven iciT, rom aRsarebis saidumlos TviTon qriste RmerTi eswreba da ugulod da zereled misuls is ar Seundobs, miuxedavad imisa, rom mRvdelma SeiZleba apatios. ai, amaSia aucilebloba!!! Cven rom mRvdelma Segvindo codvebi, RmerTma Tu Segvindo?! Tqven bibliidanac iciT: roca RmerTi Seundobda ers, an calkeul adamians, maTi cxovreba sagrZnoblad icvleboda keTildReobisaken. maTze RvTis kurTxeva modioda.
me momewona Tqveni SekiTxva - e. i. azrovnebT.
Tu RmerTma Segvindo, maSin ratom varT dasjili? ratom varT isev cud yofaSi? e.i. gamodis, rom RmerTma ar Segvindo!.. maSin rogor gavigoT, romeli codva gvepatia da romlis gamosasyidad kidev unda vitanjoT?! amitom viZaxi, babua.   c o c x a l i     w m i d a n e b i     e Z e i e T – m e T q i !... wminda mRvdeli xedavs yovelives da is ar Segindobs, Tu RmerTs ar surs jer Seni Sendoba da daginiSnavs epitemias. is mkacric aris, magram, amavdroulad, Zalian mowyale da mosiyvarulec. mas SeuZlia, Seni codvebi daidos da RmerTis winaSe TviTon gamoitiros igi. Zalian mcire droSi gamoitirebs iseT codvebsac, romlebsac Tqven wlebs moandomebdiT. rodesac wminda mRvdlisagan gesmiT Sendoba, icodeT, es qristesgan Sendobaa!
yoveli kacis msajuli – sakuTari sindisia. sindisi getyvis, ras imsaxureb, an kidev, esa Tu is gansacdeli romeli konkretuli codvis gamo gewvia. aRsarebaze mimavals sindisi getyvis, xar Tu ara mzad, an ra guliT midixar. RmerTs Cveni dasja ki ar uxaria, es Cven gvWirdeba. usamarTlobaze rom gvsjis, e.i. misianebi varT, Torem RmerTi ar dagvsjida, gvaclida da bolos saukuno satanjvels migvcemda.. `is, vinc codvis gamo ar isjeba, ambobs wm.ioane oqropiri, yvelaze ubeduri adamiania!~
Cven, vimeoreb, qristes qveyana varT!... (es sityvebi im JurnelSi gadamikeTes!.. TiTqos me ar vicode, ras niSnavs qristianuli qveyana da ras qristes qveyana!!!),   amitom ers rame codvis laqa ar unda hqondes. es tanjva da sisxli, mwuxareba, siduxWire Cveni gansabaneli iyo. Cven mZime Jami ukve gamoviareT... wm.berebma eris codvaTa didi umetesoba ukve gamoitires, Cvenc sakmaod vitanjeT... iseTi dro dadgeba saqarTveloSi, ara Tu samRvdelo dasi, aramed xelisuflebaSic wmidanebi gveyoleba... mefe udidesi wmidani iqneba...
yovladwmida RvTismSobeli qristes gabrwyinebul saqarTvelos daaxvedrebs!!!


15. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven xSirad axsenebT cocxal _ dRes moqmed wmidanebs. mogviteveT, magram dRevandel eklesiaSi am mcnebas, cota ar iyos, sxva TvaliT uyureben. erTma sasuliero pirma isic Tqva: `sad naxeT wmidanebi da vin arian wmindanebi dReso?!..~

pasuxi: naxeT ra dReSia Cveni cnobiereba!... Tumca ra gasakviria, sul ociode wlis win dedamiwis 1/6–ze adamianebs umtkicebdnen: `RmerTi ar arsebobso~.
im sasuliero pirs hkiTxeT erTi: `eSmakebi Tu arian da sad arian-Tqo?.~ Tu eSmakebi ar arian, maS visRa ebrZvis Cveni eklesia?! Tu eSmakebi arian da isini aq arian, icodeT, rom wmidanebic aq arian! RmerTs wmidanebi yovelTvis hyavda qveyanaze da eyoleba, miuxedavad imisa, xedaven Tu ara maT codvebiT suldabnelebulebi!... adamianebs, didi tanjvisa da vnebaTa daTrgunvis fasad, dResac ise, rogorc Zvelad, sicocxleSive eZlevaT wmidanobis dasturi RmrTisagan, rogorc udidesi jildo. wmida ioane oqropiri ara Tu, aRiarebda dedamiwaze calkeuli wmidanebis yofnas, aramed, naxeT, ras ambobda: `x a l x s   Seadgenen   w m i d a n e b i   da ara brbo!~
ar arsebobs adamianTa moRvaweobis arc erTi sfero, arc erTi fena, sadac wmidanebi ar moqmedeben. erSi wmidanebis saidumlo moqmedeba Zalian didi da saintereso Temaa... dResdReobiT yvelafer amas, ubralod, ver gaigebT da SeiZleba `yovlismcodne da Tavdajerebulma marTlmadidebelma~ –aTasgvari mkrexeloba,   mwvalebloba da xiblSi yofna mogvaweros, amitom wmidanebi am saidumlos eris cnobierebis amaRlebasTan erTad nel-nela gagvixsnian. ise imaT, vinc `Zalin bevri ician marTlmadideblobaze~, minda wminda werilidan Sevaxseno: `rac ar gesmis, imiT mxolod gaoceba SegiZlia, mis uaryofas ki nu gabedav!~. yvela n a m d v i l i mRvdeli wmidania...   m R v d e l i, romelic ar aris wmidani, ar aris WeSmariti mRvdeli!!!
wmidanebi, ara marto samRvdelo an sabero dasSi moRvaweoben, aramed saidumlod moqmedeben codvil adamianTa wreebSic maT gadasarCenad. swored saidumlo wmidanebi ukvalaven gzas codvilebs eklesiaSi misasvlelad, xolo eklesiaSi moqmedi wmidanebi ki amzadeben maT sasufevlisaTvis. adamianTa modgmaSi wmidanebi arian is rCeuli RvTiskacebi, romlebmac ucdomlad ician samoTxisaken mimavali gza. mxolod maT uwyian, rogor gaiyvanon wuTisoflis junglebidan codvili adamianebi da aiyvanon caTa sasufevelSi. rogorc caze varskvlavebi gansxvavdebian erTmaneTisagan zomisa da sikaSkaSis mixedviT, ise wmidanebic gansxvavdebian Zalisa da suliwmindis niWis mixedviT. zogi wmidani suliwmidis madlis matarebelia, zogi ufro didi, suliwmidis WurWelia... jerjerobiT mets ver getyviT, arada, saTqmeli Zalian bevria... erTi icodeT, es codna yvelaze win Cven, qarTvelebs gagvexsneba!...
hoo.. araa saintereso, didi vaJa fSavela rogor esvena 20 weli uxrwnelad miwaSi?!...
erTxel erTi Tavxedi iyo amosuli, xalxs velaparakebodi, sityva gamawyvetina da miTxra: `sad arian wmidanebio?.. da Tu arian, ras gvemalebian? ratom ar gvexmarebiano?!~.
_ naxeT, ras mekiTxeboda?!.. mindoda mexeTqa cxvirSi, radgan mas wmidanebi ki ar ainteresebda, armed borotis ZaliT CemTan dava undoda!...
qriste RmerTi CamobrZanda, xalxSi dadioda. rava, daimala Tu? ar Tqva vin iyo Tu?! ar gamoavlina, RmerTi rom iyo.?! aTasobiT mSieri gaaZRo. micvalebulebi aRadgina, xeibrebi da brmebi gankurna. ra sikeTeebi ar Caidina. rava miiRes?!.. igive xalxma ar acva jvars?! Tu imas ityviT, uriebis sinodma ver icno qristeo?... maT icnes qriste, magram mainc jvars acves!.. ver miiRes ki ara, ar miiRes, radgan qriste RmerTma uTxra maT: `Tqven mamaTqvenis saqmes akeTebT. mamaTqveni eSmak arso~. dRes ggoniaT bevri ver xedavs wmidanebs?! xedaven da ar undaT. bevri ki marTlac ver xedavs, isic Tavisi codvebis gamo.
wmidanebi moqmedeben da aRasruleben RmerTis davalebebs da moqmedeben RvTisgan dadgenili normebiT. Sen rom ver xedav, gana wmidanis bralia?!.. amaT undaT, saswaulebiT daumtkicon wmidanebma!...Qqriste RmerTi ki brZanebs: `boroti modgma eZebs saswauls, magram ar miecema, garda ionas saswaulisa.~ saswauli wmidanisaTvis Cveulebrivi ramaa, magram aq saqme imaSia, ra Sedegi eqneba mas codvilze, waadgeba mis suls, Tu codvas ufro daumZimebs. saswaulic ver moaqcevs zogierTebs. wmidanebma ician es da Cveulebriv cxovroben xalxSi. rava, icnes wmidani, iTxoves daxmareba da wmindani ganudga? ar daexmara? ase ar xdeba...
yoveldRe aTasobiT saswauli aResruleba, magram ara im formiT, rogorc codvil da gulborot xalxs ainteresebs, radgan maTi es interesi borotisganaa. mze yvelas erTnairad anaTebs da aTbobs, magram Sen Tu ver grZnob, es arc mzis bralia da arc imas niSnavs, rom mze ar arsebobs! Sen RmerTi ar gainteresebs da ginda wmidani ixilo da dagexmaros?. wmidanebs RmerTi uyvarT, maTTvis RmerTia yvelaferi.   wmidani rwmenis moSurnea. Sen ki RmerTis arc erT mcnebasa da Segonebas ar asruleb. siZulviliT, garyvnilebiT, avazakurad cxovrob da kide pretenzia gaqvs daxmarebisa?!.. daxmareba ar aris, rom RmerTi kidev amdens giTmens da dros gaZlevs moqcevisaTvis?!.. kaci kacs ar hgavs, qali _ qals!.. aRarc adaTi, aRarc zrdiloba. qali ufrosobs, iviwyebs samSoblos, rjuls, ojaxs, saxels, namuss da yvelafers!... eSmakis WurWlebad qceulan da kidev utifrad iTxoven: `sad arian da rad ar gvexmarebian wmidanebio?~
_ vai, Tqve glaxebo! male naxavT, wmidanebi rom arian da mere rogorebi!..
wmidanebi marto keTilebi ki ar arian, aramed sastikebic. wmidanebs mxolod gankurneba ki ar SeuZliaT, senis Seyrac ZaluZT.   wmidanebs mxolod nugeSiscema ki ar SeuZliaT, SiSis zariscemac ZaluZT. wmidanebi marto mSvidobismyofelni rodi arian. isini uZleveli da daundobeli meomrebic arian. Tqven Tqveni avadmyofuri da codviT dabnelebuli gonebiT, warmosaxul wmidanebs eZebT. aseTebi namdvilebi ar arian! Tqven iseT wmindanebs eZebT, rom Wkua iqiT daarigoT da aswavloT. egeTebi RmerTis wmidanebi ar arian. Tqven iseTi   wmidanebi gWirdebaT, rom Tqveni garyvnileba, usamarTloba, samSoblosa da eklesiis Ralati, RvTis gmoba, Zarcva, qurdoba da kidev bevri ram unaneblad-Zmakacurad gepatioT. Tqven Tqveni sulis wmidanebs eZebT gadarCenisaTvis, magram aseTebs gadarCena ar uweriaT. radgan antiqristesi arian. vinc RmerTisgan aris da RmerTi uyvars, ixilavs RmerTs da mis wmidanebs. axla saavadmyofoSi rom wevs da Tveebi ver gamova iqidan, kidev ikiTxavs, arian Tu ara wmidanebio?!... da kidev Tu ver moego gons, tanjvas tanjvaze daumateben… is wmidanebi, romlebic mas Turme emalebodnen!..
saSiSi da sastikia RmerTi TavxedebisTvis.! Tqven ki nu geSiniaT, Tqven RmerTis moyvare xalxi xarT. ucodvelebi ara xarT, magram... (icinis), RmerTi ganaxebT borotebis tanjvas da vaebas.
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16. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, adamiani rodis xdeba wmidani, eklesiis mier misi kanonizirebis Semdeg?
pasuxi: eklesia mxolod adasturebs da aRiarebs pirovnebas wmidanad. misi sayovelTao pativiscemisaTvis da araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar `x d i s~ mas wmidanad!..
wmidanoba aris gansakuTrebuli sulieri mdgomareoba. sulieri Zalmosileba da madlmosileba, romelsac adamiani RmerTamde piradi gaRweviT aRwevs, Tumca wmidaTa cxovrebaSi aris magaliTebi imisa, rom dedis muclidanve wmidanebad movlinebian wuTisofels, rogorc wmida nikolozi. aris aseve magaliTebi, rom RmerTs adreul asakSi Seumosavs misi rCeuli wmidanebi: wmida panteleimoni _ 5 wlis, wmida gabrieli _ 6 wlis, wmida nilosi _ 7 wlis, wmida trifoni _ 14 wlis da a.S. yvelas vin CamoTvlis, magram unda iTqvas isic, rom adamianTa adreul asakSi wmidanoba, aris RvTisa da wmidaTa sistemis saidumlo. wmidanoba aris miwier brZolebSi gamarjvebis beWedi RmrTisagan. ase rom, am mdgomareobas aRwevs sicocxleSi da ara gardacvalebidan   saukuneebis Semdeg, an kidev kanonizirebis _ Seracxvis momentSi! pirovnebas eklesiis mier wmidanad Seracxvis Semdeg morwmuneT oficialurad SeuZliaT emTxvion mis xats, evedron, gamoiTxovon sulieri da xorcieli Semweoba! rac Seexeba kanonizaciis sakiTxebs, aris eklesiis istoriaSi faqtebi, roca esa Tu is pirovneba eklesias wmidanad Seuracxavs gardacvalebidan umokles droSi. aris roca eklesias   pirovneba wmidanad Seuracxavs saukuneebis Semdeg. aris aseve imisi magaliTebi, rom eklesia sicocxleSive scnobda wmidanad, ama Tu im pirovnebas! . rogor hgoniaT, didi giorgi Wyondideli ar iyo sicocxleSive wmidani?... Tu is wmidani mas Semdeg gaxda, rac 900 wlis Semdeg eklesiam aRiara igi wmidanad?!. cocxali adamiani xdeba wmidani   da ara gardacvlili. cocxali adamiani moixveWs suliwmidis madls da ara gardacvlili!   wmidanoba adamians evaleba aq, am miwaze da ara caSi!... cidan wmidanebi aqeT Camodian!... ase, rom wmidani dedamiwidan ukve wmidanad gadis, miuxedavad imisa, xedaven amas Tu ara codvilebi!.. RmerTs Zalian bevri wmidani hyavs, romelTac arc cxovrebaze, arc vinaobaze da miT umetes maT wmidanad gaRwevaze, qveyanam araferi icis!

17. kiTxva:Lmama giorgi, sasuliero pirebi, romlebic axdenen wmidanis kanonizirebas_Seracxvas, aucilebelia Tu ara, rom Tavad iyvnen wmidanebi?
pasuxi: WeSmariti RvTismsaxuri rom wmidani unda iyos, amaSi ori azri ar arsebobs!... miT umetes, roca saqme wmidanis Seracxvas exeba! sxva rom araferi vTqvaT, uxerxulia codvilma Seracxos wmidani!

18. kiTxva:Lmama giorgi, saqarTvelos eklesiis sinods ewodeba w m i d a   s i n o d i aqedan gamomdinare, aucilebelia sinodis wevri iyos wmidani?
pasuxi: ra Tqma unda!... saqarTvelos eklesia wmidaa!.. eklesiaSi arc saxeli, arc wodeba da arc raime simbolo ar aris SemTxveviTi, Seusabamo da Sinaarss moklebuli! yvelafers Rrma sulieri datvirTva aqvs!   “wmida sinodi” es aris wmida mRvdelmTavarTa sabWo, kreba da ara raime wmida adgilze Sekrebili sasuliero pirTa raodenoba!
nu dagvaviwydeba, Tu ra mZime aTwleulebi gamoiara qarTulma eklesiam uRmerTo xelisuflebis xelSi! wmidanebis gamozrda metad rTuli procesia!... ucbad yvelaferi ar xdeba.!.. me adrec vTqvi da kidev vimeoreb, saqarTveloSi modis dro, roca yvela RvTismsaxuri namdvili iqneba. uRirsebs eklesia moicilebs!..

19. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven brZaneT, rom namdvili mRvdeli didia RmerTis TvalSi, is didi ZaliTa da madliT hyavs RmerTs Semosili. xom ver gvetyodiT namdvili (wmida) mRvdelmsaxuris sulier SesaZleblobebze?

pasuxi: ki batono, mogaxsenebT!... magram, sanam namdvil mRvdelze getyodeT, minda daviwyo namdvili diakvniT, radgan dRes bevri ver afasebs namdvili diakvnis SesaZleblobebs.
rodesac monazoni an morwmune diakvnis xarisxSi ahyavT, maSin mas RvTidan exsneba gonebrivi da sulieri SesaZleblobis 30%. mokled getyviT ra Sedis amaSi: n a m d v i l i   d i a k o n i _ arCevs sulebs, xedavs haerSi borot sulebs, kiTxulobs adamianis azrebs da telepatiur doneze SeuZlia isaubros mRvdelTan. RmerTi ismens mis locvebs, magram namdvili mRvdeliviT ver ixedeba adamianis Sinagan samyaroSi (gulsa da sulSi).
rodesac diakvani, masze daSvebul did Zalas Seegueba, uxeSad rom vTqvaT `aiTvisebs~ (es mdgomareoba pirovnulia. zogi amas ufro adre aRwevs, zogic _ cota mogvianebiT). mas akurTxeben mRvdlad. am dros mas kidev emateba _ 30%.
ukve namdvili mRvdeli: _ xedavs adamianis sulsa da guls, icis adamianis codvebi, warsuli. naTlobis saidumlos Sesrulebisas xedavs borots, romelic zis mosanaTlis sxeulSi an sulSic da gandevnis mas. flobs dros da sivrces, SeuZlia sxeulidan gamosvla, Sor manZilze esmis laparaki, icis adamianTa azrebi da zraxvebic, aqvs uwyeba micvalebulis sulis adgilsamyofelze. sulier arsebebze da aseve materiazec zemoqmedebis didi Zala.
namdvil mRvdels SeuZlia usityvod aRZras adamianSi sinanuli, gaaxsenos codvebi, mohgvaros sixaruli da siyvaruli, daidos adamianis codvebi da Zalian mokle droSi TviTon gamoitiros isini, namdvilma mRvdelma icis, gvpatiobs Tu ara RmerTi codvebs, Tu raime sasjels (epitemia) iTxovs, icis adamianis esa Tu is gansacdeli an satanjveli romeli konkretuli codvebis gamo mieca RvTisagan, SeuZlia mouxsnas jado, wyevla.
namdvili mRvdeli   namyofia sasufevelSi da zustad icis, rogor miiyvanos iq misi mrevli.
es aris mokled namdvili mRvdlis SesaZleblobebi.

20. kiTxva: mama giorgi, erTma moZRvarma gviTxra, rom mama gabrieli ar aris wmidanio, radgan masze ar dawerila arc tropari da arc kondakio.

pasuxi: me ver gavige, ratom gixsenaT man tropar-kondaki?! gana tropar-kondaki aqcevs kacs wmidanad?! an kidev, tropar-kondaki rogor daiwereboda jer, roca eklesias oficialurad ar Seuracxavs gabrieli wmidanad! me ar vici, ras fiqrobs is moZRvari gabrielze, mara Cems azrs getyviT _ gabrieli udidesi wmidania RmerTis winaSe, is RmrTisgan aris wmidani da vin da rodis   dawers masze tropars, amas CemTvis ara aqvs arsebiTi mniSvneloba! Tu gwamT gabrieli, evedreT mas da naxavT, Tu SeuSlis xels gabriels Tqvens SewevnaSi is, rom masze tropar-kondakis dawera jer ar gadauwyvetiaT zerele da urwmuno adamianebs!..

21. kiTxva: rodis gaxda mama gabrieli wmidani?
pasuxi: mama gabrieli ki   a r   g a x d a, aramed   d a i b a d a   wmidanad! gasagebia?! Tqven cota iciT da sxvebs amowmebT... daRupavT suls, babua!...  
gabrieli wmidani iyo maSinac, roca mas saqarTveloSi mRvdlebi ar aziarebdnen! gasagebia?!... is mRvdeli iyo RmerTis TvalSi maSinac, roca mas mRvdloba SeCerebuli hqonda!... gasasgebia?!
rodis unda gamoiRviZoT!..   gabrielis devna ar unda iyos qarTveli eris Cakvirvebisa da sulieri gamoRviZebis sagani? nuTu ver xvdebiT ras geubnebiT?! ra dReSi vyofilvarT da varT kidev jerjerobiT!...
gabriels, am WeSmaritad udides moZRvars, saqarTveloSi ar aziarebdnen!... mereda vin, gana isev qarTveli samRvdeloeba ara?!.. gana qarTveli mRvdelmTavrebisagan ar hqonda akrZaluli mRvdelmsaxureba?!   ra didi gansja amas unda. Tavad es faqti metyvelebs yvelaferze!.
raSi iyo saqme?!   ver   s c n o b d n e n   gabriels, Tu ver   i t a n d n e n   mas?! Tu imas ityvian, rom ver cnobdnen; ai me ras getyviT: sasuliero piri iqneba is episkoposi Tu mRvdeli, romelic ver scnobs da suliT ver grZnobs wmidans, miuxedavad imisa, rogoradac ar unda iqceodes garegnulad wmidani, ar SeiZleba CaiTvalos sulier moZRvrad! radgan sulieri xedva ar gaaCnia! aseT sasuliero pirebs codvilis sasufevelSi ayvana ar SeuZliaT, radganac isini aq miwaze, ver scnobdnen WeSmaritebis sulis matarebels!.. amitom veravin sasulieroTagan, romelmac gabrieli ver icno, ver imarTlebs amiT Tavs.
axla vTqvaT meore _ gabrieli bevrma icno kidevac, magram devnidnen swored imitom, rom ar iyvnen misi sulis, radgan kompartias damorCilebuli sasuliero pirebze, romlebsac, RmerTze metad cekas mdivnebis da `kagebes~ SiSi hqonodaT,   ra Tqma unda,   WeSmaritebis suli ar daivanebda!
gabrieli ebrZoda borotebas maSin, roca qveyana borotebis xanaSi imyofeboda, da roca sasuliero pirebi xmis amoRebas ver bedavden!... gabrielis cxovreba da moRvaweoba udidesi movlenaa! da mis pirovnebas sulieri moZRvrebi unda acnobdnen da aswavlidnen ers da ara ise, erTi-orjer rom axseneben _ `gabrieli wmidani iyoo~ _ ki ar iyo, aramed aris! gabriel beri `Cavlili matarebeli~ nu hgoniaT. RmerTi awi ganabrwyinebs mas mTeli didebiT da Tan yvelas mosTxovs pasuxs mis devna-Seviwroebaze. ise, `gemoze~ gabrielis devnas veravin miCqmalavs!.. verc mis Rvawlsa da swavlebas miaCumaTeben ise, rogoradac es maT surT!...
gabrielis Zala yvelas aqvs Tavis Tavze gamocdili, keTilsac da borotsac. keTili ver bedavda gabrielze rames Tqmas, boroti ki mZvinvarebiT anTxevda gesls. kidev vimeoreb_gabrielis cxovreba unda iqnes saTanadod Seswavlili da unda   ganemartos xalxs misi Rvawlis ZiriTadi arsi. radgan iSviaTad aris calke aRebuli wmidani, romlesac egzom rTul da borot dros aseTi mZime jvari da misia etvirTos eris cxovrebaSi.
SimSili, tkivili, sicive, usaxlkaroba, glaxakoba, quCa-quCa wanwali, lanZRva-gineba, sagiJeTi, cixe da devnagamovlil gabrielze ise, sasxvaTaSorisod, ufro ki sakuTari `sulieri Rirsebis~ xazgasasmelad, rom saubroben tanjvagamouvleli, axalgazrda, lamazad da koxtad mowyobili da Tbil taZrebSi mlocveli sasuliero pirebi, guli lamis aris amovardes!...
gabriel beri xSirad ityoda gulgatexili _ `me ver gamigo, qarTvelma erma.~ es `ver gamigo~ imas ki ar niSnavda, rom didebasa da pativs iTxovda vinmesgan, an qonebasa da Tanamdebobas!
gabrielis rom ar esmodaT, dResac naTlad ar Cans?! bevrs weren gabrielze, da weren sazogadoebis mierve wmidanebze Seqmnili ”CarCoebis” farglebSi, ara aqvT Setanili is mTavari, risTvisac ibrZoda gabrieli. weren mis saswaulebze da aseTi saswaulebi sxva wmidanebsac bevri CaudeniaT. me yvela wigni da gamocema wavkiTxe gabrielze da getyviT, bevri ram misi gamonaTqvamebidan Segnebulad ar aris   Setanili. bevri kidev gadakeTebulia da morgebuli `cenzurasa da CarCoebs!..~ an nu dawer da Tu dawer, unda geyos sulieri vaJkacoba, dawero ise, rogoradac es Tavad gabriels gamouTqvams. mas Tqveni daxmareba da Selamazeba ar sWirdeba, mas araferi eSleboda!.. is arasodes moqceula oficiozis CarCoebSi da   mis gamonaTqvamebs saTqvenod nu gamoiyenebT, Torem pasuxs agebT!...
gabriels ar eSleboda, roca ambobda: „RmerTs samyaroSi yvelaze wminda adgili sasufeveli aqvs, xolo aq, dedamiwaze_sveticxoveli“. ierusalimi man Tqvenze adre icoda... Tqven nu `exmarebiT~ gabriels `wesis~ dacvaSi,   man icoda, ras ambobda, es Tqven ar iciT, is ras ambobda!.. da rom ar iciT da ar mogewonaT, „SeusworeT gabriels?!“ Tu ar gesmis gabrielis da ar ici vin aris, ratom wer masze?! sasjelis saqmea es!...
dRes „damkveTebi“, ise alaparakeben bevrs gabrielze, rogorc es Tavad awyobT!.. maT surT iseTi gabrieli gaacnon saqarTvelos rogoric maT awyobT!.. magram icodeT: gabriels vicnobdiT Cven da me vici vin aris is!... sxvaa misi cnoba da sxvaa misi `naxva~. sxvaa misi gageba da sxvaa masTan siaruli.!.sxvaa misi saqmis erTguleba da sxvaa saflavebze yvavilebis mitana da Tundac saflavis movla! gabriels rom   ise eqadaga, rogorc es `cenzuragamovlil~ wignebSi iwereba, ra iqneboda gaugebari?!.. magram gabrielma ise iqadaga, rogorc RmerTma aqadaga. amitom iZaxda mama gabrieli, `me ver gamigo qarTvelma ermao~.   da rom RmerTma aqadaga, vin unda gabedos misi sityvebis `gadasinjva~, `gafiltvra~ sazogado normebTan misadageba.
vinc `tyavs~ ufrTxildeba da ara s u l s,   vafrTxileb: gabrieli male g a m o C n d e b a!... gaigeT es sityva rogorc gindodeT, me ki vici rasac vambob.!..
gabrielis qadagebebs male gangimartavT is, visac yvelaze metad esmis   misi _ vinc Tavad gabrielis gamozrdilia!... gabriels warmoaCens is, visac mieca amis ufleba RmerTidan da ara isini, vinc davalebiT cdiloben da ecdebian amis gakeTebas!....
erTi movida CemTan da gamokiTxva damiwyo: `Tqven rogor da saidan icnobdiT mama gabriels.. me masTan arasodes minaxixarTo!~... Tavxedi!... is gabrielTanac davalebiT dadioda da CemTanac ese movida, sacodavi!..      
gabrieli, TqvenTan mjdomi, keliidan gausvlelad, ise moivlida samyaros, rom Tqven amis `gagebaSic~ ar iyaviT. is elaparakeboda sulierad wmidanebs amerikaSic, maSinac ki, roca Tqvens saubars ismenda xorcielad, Tqven win mjdomi, gasagebia?!
gabrielis madli odnavadac rom SeeSva sulSi im utifars, aseT kiTxvas rava damisvamda, aramed suliT micnobda mec! mara, ra unda ecno, roca sulgayiduli iyo!...

22. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven xSirad axsenebT, rom `eZebT adamians~, ras gulisxmobT amaSi, vis eZebT mamao?

pasuxi: getyviT: veZeb adamians niSnavs, veZeb RmrTis mcnebebis aRsrulebis mosurnes!.. dRes ki adamianebi codvilebi anu 10 mcnebisa da RvTis kanonebis damrRvevni arian.
dRes wmidanebis Zalian didi Zalisxmevaa mimarTuli swored codvilebis gaadamianurebisken. amis Semdgom ki wmidanebi cdiloben am gaadamianurebuli formebis morwmuned gadaqcevas. modi CamovayaliboT sulieri mdgomareobis safexurebi:
I. c odv i l i;
II. a d a m i a n i;
III. m o r w m u n e _ morwmuned iTvleba is, romelsac Cabarebuli aqvs abraamis gamocda anu adamiani, romlisTvisac RmerTia mTavari.
Semdeg modis;
IV. m o n a z o n i   anu morCili. es aris RvTis kanonebis Semecnebis damwyebi. aq igulisxmeba ara mxolod xorcieli yofa monasterSi.
V. b e r i   anu   p i r o v n e b a _ gamocdili, natanji, asakovani monazoni.
VI. aris   w m i d a n i   anu   i n d i v i d i   – Tavisi individualuri SemecnebiT.
      amis zeviT kidev aris sakmao sulieri safexurebi, magram aq SevCerdeT!..     rogorc vxedavT,   sulierebis yvela safexuri iwyeba swored a d a m i a n i s a g a n. amitom aris ase mTavari   adamianis povna, ufro zustad rom vTqvaT,   gaadamianureba. es sakmaod rTuli procesia Tanamedrove yofaSi.                
yvelas SeuZlia Caixedos sakuTar TavSi da aRmoaCinos, Tu romel safexurze imyofeba.
...naxeT, ra dReSi varT dRes, bevrs gaadamianureba ar ganucdia, rom araferi vTqvaT morwmuned Camoyalibebaze da marTaven   qveyanas, partiebs, adamianTa sxvadasxva jgufebs, maswavlebloben, mkurnaloben da mRvdloben kidevac... sicruea es yovelive!... gana morwmuned mxolod imitom SeiZleba CaiTvalos kaci, rom mas RmerTis arsebobisa swams?! eSmakebs gana ufro ara swamT?!... Tu gsurs, gaxde morwmune, jer unda gaxde adamiani anu RvTis mcnebis aRmsrulebeli, amis Semdeg unda Caabaro abraamis gamocda!.. aq cinikurad nuravin ityvis: `rava, Svili unda movklao?~   es keTilgonivrulad unda gaigoT!   RmerTi unda gaxdes TqvenTvis upirvelesi da uniSvnelovanesi!   RmerTi unda giyvardes yvelaze da yvelaferze aRmatebulad!...
Znelia adamianis wmidanad gamozrda, magram aucilebeli!... adamianma yvela aq CamoTvlili safexuri unda gaiaros wmida moZRvris xelmZRvanelobiT wmidanobis gzaze!

23. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, Cven cocxal anu dRes momqmed wmidanebTan urTierTobis gamocdileba ara gvaqvs da arc vicnobT maT. ra rCevasa da kurTxevas mogvcemdiT maTTan misasvlelad, ra aucilebeli moTxoovna unda davicvaT?

pasuxi: roca midixarT wmidanTan, umjobesia sami dRe mainc iyoT namarxulevi.   RmerTis sidiade iTxovs moSiSebas, mokrZalebas da Tayvaniscemas. es ar niSnavs, rom RmerTs ar surs SenTan urTierToba, magram adamianis bunebaa dRes gadagvarebuli da codvis mwikvlSi amosvrili. pirveli da ZiriTadi, rac unda sTxovo wmidans, Cemi azriT, is aris, rom man gagagos, ra aris RmerTis neba Senze. ra surs RmerTs, ras elodeba RmerTi Sengan. ra aris Seni wuTisoflad mosvlis arsi, Seni misia! rogorc amas gaarkvev da es SeiZleba pirvelsave misvlaze ar moxdes, aramed, imisda mixedviT, Tu ra mdgomareobaSia Seni suli, goneba da guli, radgan RmerTis misaRebad codvili adamianis sulsa da gonebas momzadeba sWirdeba! mokled, rodesac gaarkvev amas, mere unda sTxovo RmerTs, dagayenos im gzaze, romelic Tavad mas surs SenTvis. amis Semdeg ki unda gamoiTxovo kurTxeva, Zala da Sewevna, rom RmerTis mier miTiTebuli gza Rirseulad ganvlo da Seasrulo Seni misia. rac axla mokled CamovTvaleT, Cemi azriT, mTavaria adamianisaTvis, romelic irCevs RmerTs, eZiebs cxonebas da saukuno netarebas. magram aqve unda iTqvas isic, rom aris RmerTis neba da aris RmerTis daSveba, anu RmerTi aZlevs adamians Tavisufal nebas, icxovros ise, rogorc surs _ airCios an keTili, an boroti. am arCevanSi RmerTi adamians Zalas ar atans Tumca impulses keTilis asarCevad ki ugzavnis!
dRes adamianTa umetesoba Segnebulad ar eZebs RmerTis nebas, radgan SiSobs, ar dakargos Tavisi xedviTa da surviliT mowyobili cxovreba, an kidev imis SiSiT, rom RmerTma maT monasterSi Sedgoma ar mosTxovos. getyviT: monasteri yvelasTvis rodia! monasteri _ berebis saqmea. da yvela ar aris beri.
bevri Tavisdauneburad dgas RmerTisagan gansazRvrul gzaze: an mSoblebis rCeviT, an moZRvris, an ubralod, Tavisi gaucnobierebeli gadawyvetilebiT ise, rom mas es arc uTxovia RmerTisaTvis. aseTebs kargad aqvT saqme!.... magram mainc unda miiRon dasturi wmidanisagan, gaacnobieron yovelive da iTxovon Sewevna, raTa udrtvinvelad ganvlon miwieri cxovrebis gza.
axla vnaxoT isini, visac garkveuli ara aqvs Tavisi daniSnuleba_misia. maTTvis, ra Tqma unda, ufro Znelia. radgan adamiani unda `gadaewyos~ da Secvalos bevri ram Tavis cxovrebaSi, magram `sjobs gvian, vidre arasdros.~ Tu adamiani ar dgas im gzaze, romelic RmerTma misTvis moisurva, ragind simdidresa da pativSi ar imyofebodes, sulier simSvides verasodes hpovebs. amitom adamianisaTvis mTavari, rogorc giTxariT, aris is, rom gamoiZios RmerTis neba masze da morCilebiT dauTmos RmerTis nebas.
axla gavagrZeloT wmidanebze: aris, roca wmidani geqceva ara ise, rogorc es Sen warmoidgine. wmidans SeuZlia ar mogces saSualeba, rom dausva winaswar gamzadebuli SekiTxvebi. aseT dros nu mieZalebi, radgan wmidans ver aiZuleb,   jer erTi da meorec, wmidanma icis, razec xar mosuli. is upasuxod ar dagtovebs, magram is mTavarze muSaobs, is amzadebs suls RmerTis nebis misaRebad. SeiZleba wmidanma ar `migiRos~, amis gakeTeba mas SeuZlia, rogorc `delikaturad~, aseve `uxeSadac~ da es TavmdablobiTa da Tavis yvedrebiT unda miiRoT. wmidans SeuZlia gamogcados moTminebaSi, rwmenasa da moSiSebaSi da Semdeg migiRos. wmidanTan gamomcdelad da kadnierad misvla codvaa!.. wmidani, TandaTan, dagimyarebs ra sulSi `kontaqts~, SenTvis gasagebi gaxdeba, Tu rogor da ra saxiT moqmedebda SenTan mimarTebaSi. wmidans SeuZlia: codvilad mogaCvenos Tavi, gagexsnas, Zala gamoavlinos, mogeferos, mogces sinanuli, gagaxsenos codvebi, romelic arc ki gaxsovs. amis ostatoba aqvT wmidanebs. wmidanma xalxSi rom ar gamxilos, SeiZleba moyves raRac istoria `mis codvaze~, am dros azrobrivi signali mogawodos Sen ise, rom Sens irgvliv myofT azradac ar mouvaT, rom es Seni codvebi iTqva da ara mamaosi! wmidans SeuZlia pirdapir gipasuxos SekiTxvebze. SeuZlia mesame pirTan laparakSi gauwyos is, rac Sen gainteresebda, an kidev SeuZlia agalaparakos Sen TviTon da sakuTari piriT gaTqmevinos is, rasac misgan elodi ise, rom mxolod saubris dasasruls mixvdebi: es yvelaferi, rac mohyevi, Senve gexeboda da pasuxic iyo masSi.
wmidani sruliad akontrolebs masTan misuls!   wmidani zemoqmedebs adamianze ara marto sityvierad _ mxilebiT an SegonebiT, aramed uCinrad, anu suliT ise, rom xmac ar gagces.
SeiZleba mTeli saaTi Sens axlomaxlo xalxTan ilaparakos, agiar-Cagiaros, ise, rom axlosac ver mixvide. magram nu ifiqreb, rom ar “mogxeda,” an ar `migiRo~!... ara – is manam ar `gagiSvebs~ taZridan, sanam Seni sulisTvis, im momentSi aucilebls ar moimoqmedebs ise, rom Sen arc ki gamogesaubros.
wmidans SeuZlia, zogjer Tavi Zalian   ucodinar da codvil adamianad warmogidginos im dros, roca Sen hgoneb, rom is wmidaa. aseT dros nu amCatdebiT!.. an SeuZlia ise warmogiCinos Tavi, rom Seni problemis gadaWra mas ar ZaluZs. nurc aseT dros iqnebi sulmokle. aris, roca wmidani masTan kadnierad da Tavxedad misuls TviTon gamoiwvevs, gauRizianebs pativmoyvareobas. SeiZleba `Seuracxyos~ kidevac, ris gamoc es kaci `garbis~. riTac wmidani icavs mas da ganaridebs im codvisagan, romelic SeeZlo mas Caedina wmidanTan kadnieri da uxeSi miaxlebiT!.. zogjer wmidani gamoiwvevs adamians, romelic morwmune da patiosani kacis niRabSi borot sulsa da guls malavs. mokled, wmidans SeuZlia aTasnairad moiqces. mas yvela sityva, moZraoba, gaTvlili aqvs. gaTvlili aqvs isic, ramdeni adamiani miiyvanos masTan erT konkretul dRes. wmidani, Tavisi kacTmoyvare bunebidan gamomdinare, erideba adamianTa wyeninebas, magram xandaxan, roca es sulisaTvis aucilebelia, Zalianac atkens mas... dascems SiSsac!... Tumca, SiSs wmidanebi ukidures SemTxvevaSi iyeneben. wmidanma SeiZleba gagiSvas `nawyeni~, rom masze didi warmodgenis ar iqne da verc madliereba gamoxato raime saxiT.
nu ggoniaT, vinme `SemTxveviT~ mivides wmidanTan!... bevrs hgonia ase!..TiTqos   megobarma miiyvana, an axlobelma daaZala da a.S;   wmidanTan, rom midixar, es TviTon wmidanis `Cawyobilia!..~ is amas winaswar gegmavs da angariSobs, Tu ra sababiT da ra xerxebiT migiyvanos RmerTTan. adamianis sulze gaafTrebuli brZolaa wmidanebsa da borotebs Soris. wmidani gegmavs, boroti ki xels uSlis adamianis miyvanas eklesiaSi. amitom nu fiqrobT, rom iyaviT wmidanTan, magram rame sasargeblo Tqven ar migiRiaT. is ki ara, `zedac ar Semouxedavs~. ai, im dros, roca man `zedac ar SemogxedaT~ _ wmidani didi ZaliT, uxilavad muSaobs Tqvens sulze, gaaqvs cudi da gavsebs madliTa da energiiT, aseve moqmedebs Tqvens gonebaze da fizikur sxeulzec. wmidanebs Zalian uyvarT adamianebi. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi RmerTi ar miscemda maT aseT Zalas. wmidanebi SeiZleba `gagiwyrnen~, magram   arasodes   g a n g i k i T x a v e n ,   radgan maTac codvebis didi gza aqvT gamovlili.
romelime Tqvengans Tu mosvlia TavSi aseTi kiTxva: - ratom RmerTma angelozebi ar daadgina mRvdlebad? maTac xom SeuZliaT xorcieli sxeulis miReba? arc mogividodaT da rom mogsvlodaT, verc upasuxebdiT!... me getyviT ratom: _ imitom, rom angelozebi ucodvelni arian, maT   a r   i c i a n   c o d v a !..   isini RmerTis nebas zedmiwevniT aRasruleben da amasve iTxoven adamianTa modgmisaganac. radganac codva ar ician, isini mkacrebi arian codvilTa mimarT!..   m a T i   b u n e b a   c o d v a s   v e r   i t a n s !   erT-erTi wmida mamis gadmocemiT mfarveli angelozi ar ekareba sigaretis mwevel adamians. dRes sigareti ki ara, ra saZagel codvas ar Cadian adamianebi!..
aba vnaxoT wmidanebi!.. radganac isini xorcieli bunebis arian, maTTvis ucxo ar aris codvebi. maT ician codva, codvis simZime. is, Tu ras ganicdis da rogor itanjeba codvili. amas wmidanebi sxvisi naTqvamiT ki ar ganicdian, aramed sakuTari gamocdilebiT. maT Tavadac aqvT Canadeni codvebi, da vinaidan RmerTma apatia maT codvebi da ician Sendobis sixaruli, erTi suli aqvT daexmaron codvilebs, Tan isini movalenic arian, miutevon codvils, radgan maTac miuteva RmerTma!... ziarebis wina locvebi geqnebaT wanakiTxi.... iq wmida mamebi codvebs rom CamoTvlian, ggoniaT,   mxolod Cvens saswavleblad da momavali codvilebis wasakiTxad dasweres marto? ara babua, isini am sityvebiT TavianT codvebzec swerdnen da tirodnen. wmidani codvils rom uyurebs,   Tavisi yofa axsendeba da mis mimarT siZulvils ki ara, sibralulsa da siyvaruls ganicdis. kidev gimeorebT: wmidanebs ise uyvarT adamianebi, rom sikvdilzec midian codvilis gadasarCenad. wmidanebi TavianT Tavze iReben adamianTa codvebs da exmarebian maT codvis gamotirebaSi.
adamianebze meoxeba ki ara, yofilan berebis istoriaSi wmidanebi, romlebic evedrebodnen RmerTs, rom mas Seendo borotisTvis Secodebani. aseT dones aRwevda wmidanTa siyvaruli codvilebis mimarT.
angelozebi bilwi da garyvnili adamianebis sazogadoebas arc ekarebian, miT umetes, maT sxeulebSi ar Sevlen TavianTi bunebidan gamomdinare! wmidanebi ki ucodviles adamianTa sazogadoebaSi trialeben da suliTac Sedian aseTi adamianebis sxeulSi, raTa aRZran maTSi RmrTisadmi swrafva, ase vTqvaT, `daqoqon~ da daicvan im borot sulTagan, romlebic Cabudebulebi hyavT maT da romelTa uxilavi ZafebiT arian Sekrulni. wmidanebs es SeuZliaT, radganac maT didi simtkice gamoumuSavdaT.

24. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, ratom aris, rom Cvens droSi   wmidanebi ar aRasruleben iseT saswaulebs, rogorc es Zvel droSi xdeboda wmida mamaTa mier. ra aris amis mizezi?


pasuxi: vin giTxraT, rom dRes wmidanebis mier ar aResruleba saswaulebi?! Zveli drois saswaulebs im Jamis adamianebisaTvis sxva datvirTva hqondaT _ maTi zogadi ganviTarebis Sesatyvisi. dRes adamiani ki ganviTarebis sxva safexurze imyofeba. dResac xdeba saswaulebi da ara erTi da ori, magram yvelaze didi saswauli, yvelaze aucilebeli da macxovnebeli saswauli, rac odiTgan dRemde aRusrulebiaT wmidanebs, aris uxilavi saswauli, anu saswauli ara adamianis gareT, aramed adamianis SigniT!.. es aris saswauli, romelic gardaqnis mis Sinagan samyaros. es aris sulis gawmenda da qriste macxovrisaTvis gulis momzadeba. am garegnulad uxilavi, magram yvela saswaulze aRmatebuli saswauliT qriste imkvidrebs adamianis gulSi da amis Semdeg ki adamiani amCnevs mis gareT yovelwuTierad aRsrulebul   uamrav saswauls qveynierebaze. wmidanis mier aRsrulebul am saswauls adamiani TvaliT ver xedavs, is mxolod grZnobs amas mis SigniT!..   am saswaulis wyalobiT adamiani Seicnobs sakuTar Tavs, mis sulier samyaros. wmida mamebi ki weren: _ `adamiani, romelmac SeZlo sakuTari Tavis Secnoba, ufro didia imaze, vinc ixila angelozio~_ ai, ratom aris, rom wmidanebi ar mieltvian xilul saswaulebs, Tumca SesaZlebelia es maTTvis!..
wmidanis daniSnuleba adamianis mimarTebaSi aris misi gadarCena, ganwmenda da RmerTamde miyvana da ara RmrTisagan boZebuli Zalisa da SesaZleblobebis gamovlineba-demonstrireba!
Tu adamians sulieri samyaro ara aqvs dasufTavebuli da momzadebuli, ra azri aqvs gauxeSebuli gulis adamianis Tvalwin,   micvalebuli rom aRadginos wmidanma?... an kidev gaCndes da gaqres?!... es saswaulebi   wamiT gaakvirvebs codvils, magram cota xanSi isev urwmunoeba daabnelebs eWvebiT! aseTi saswauliT urwmunoTa mcire nawilma SeiZleba iwamos RmerTi, magram   es ver Secvlis maT sulier samyaros, radgan suli mxolod masze uSualo zemoqmedebiT iwmindeba da icvleba,   da ara mis gareT nanaxi wmidanis Zalis dafiqsirebiT. adamianis gareT aRsrulebuli yvela saswauli mxolod ubiZgebs adamians rwmenisken, magram Tavisi mniSvnelobiT da SedegebiT ver Seedreba im saswauls, rasac wmidanebi adamianis sulze, mis Sinagan samyaroze uSualo zemoqmedebiT axdenen. wmidanis es saswauli anTebs adamianis gulSi rwmenis, sasoebis da siyvarulis Cauqrobel cecxls. cecxls, romelic wvavs masSi yovelgvari codvis fesvebs da aseve garedan momavali codvebis badesa da xlarTebs. es udidesi saswaulia, es adamianis Secvlis saswaulia, rac yvelaze Znelad   a R s a s r u l e b e l i a!
did wmidanebs dResac ar uWirT purisa Tu oqros gaCena, materiis Secvla, kurneba, drosa da sivrceSi gadaadgileba, magram adamianis sulis Secvla gacilebiT Zneli saqmea da amasac aRasruleben dRes wmidanebi. Tumca am saswauls veravin xedavs adamianTagan garda imaTisa, viszedac aResruleba es saswauli. maSin, roca adamianis gareT aRsrulebul saswauls SeiZleba Zalian bevrma mohkras Tvali. gavixsenoT TviT qriste macxovris xiluli saswaulebi, rava, eqnaT uriebs sargebeli?! puri ganumravla, aTasobiT mSieri ganaZRo, xeibrebi da brmebi gankurna, lazarec aRadgina mkvdreTiT da kidev uamravi sxva saswauli, romelsac asobiT da aTasobiT ebraeli adevnebda Tvals, magram am garegnulma saswaulebma ver Secvales maTi gacivebuli da gandgomili   guliebi!... maT rogoradac miiRes es saswaulebi, iseve uarhyves isini. magram naxeT saswauli qriste macxovrisa, romelic ar yofila xiluli, romelic aravis SeuniSnavs da romelzedac eWvic ki ar gaCenia, vinmes _ is jvarcmuli, sikvdilis momlodine, Tavisi RvTaebrivi madliT   u x i l a v a d Seexo avazakis guls, wamebSi Secvala misi sulieri samyaro, misca mas sakuTari Tavis Secnobis unari da Zalac!... ai, es saswauli aris udidesi saswauli, Tumca aravis unaxavs, garda jvarcmuli avazakisa, romelmac qristes madliTve icno Tavad q r i s t e   R m e r T i   da es saswauli eqmna mas macxovnebeli, roca aTasobiT adamians, romlebic Zalze xSirad hxedavdnen macxovris xilul saswaulebs, ver eqmnaT sulis macxovnebeli, aramed piriqiT_dasasjeli!.. xuTi aTasma kacma puri Wama. naxeT ramdeni vinme afiqsirebda am saswauls? maT xorcieladac ganicades, radganac sWames, magram ver Seicvalnen!.. maT mxolod muceli gauZRaT!... xolo naxeT avazaki_jvarcmuli, natanji, sikvdilis momlodine, wesiT RmerTze umaduri unda yofiliyo, adamianuri bunebidan gamomdinare, magram rogorc ki Seexo uxilavi madli,   g a n i c a d a   s u l i e r i   c v l i l e b a, aexila sulieri Tvalebi da icno   q r i s t e!   pirveli iyo xorcielad xiluli saswauli, romelic xuTiaTasma ixila, magram iseTiveni darCnen, rogorebic iyvnen. xolo meore aris xorcielad uxilavi saswauli _ saidumlo, is aravis unaxavs garda avazakisa, romelic am zemoqmedebis Sedegad Seicvala da icno qriste da aRiara kidevac !... is amas ver izamda, rom ara es saswauli!.. es saswauli ar yofila aRtacebis sagani   m a s e b i s T v i s, es maTgan dafaruli iyo!.. magram macxovnebeli aRmoCnda erTisTvis! es igrZno mxolod erTma da verc moaxerxa xalxisTvis eTqva, rac moxda masSi! es aris swored is saswauli, risTvisac gardamoxda Ze RmrTisa qveynad!...mTeli misi amqveyniuri cxovrebis arsi, jvarcmis mizani _ codvilTa   cxoneba!.. amitom WeSmariti morwmune unda eZebdes swored aseT saswauls! xolo urwmuno iTxovs xilul, xorciel saswauls _ mas “puri” unda. ki batono!.. wmidanebs SeuZliaT miscen maT es puri, magram iqneba es saswauli maTTvis mamxilebeli da dasasjeli, radgan, rogorc ki isev moSivdebaT, es saswauli maT daaviwydebaT!
xorcieli saswauli TviT qriste RmerTs ar daufasda. maT ixiles, magram ar iwames. qriste macxovarmac uTxra uriebs : `rom ar genaxeT, codva ar geqnebodaTo!” amitom ar aResruleba dRes urwmunoTaTvis xorcielad xiluli saswaulebi, raTa codva ar gauorkecdeT!!! saswaulis arsi da mizani, vimeoreb, mdgomareobs ara imaSi, rom wmidanis Zala dafiqsirdes, aramed imaSi, rom macxovnebeli eqmnes codvilebs!...
saswaulis Cadena SeuZliaT borotebsac, radgan Zalis gamovlineba maTac SeuZliaT, magram maTi es `saswaulebi~ mimarTulia adamianebis dasapyrobad da dasaRupad. wmida mamebi gvafrTxileben bolo Jamis saswaulebze!...
isini, romlebmac   igrZnes wmidanis uxilavi saswauli, anu ganicades sulieri cvlileba, arasodes miidrikebian sxva `saswaulebisken~, da arc   borotis `saswaulebs~ miiReben!
aqve minda giTxraT isic, rom wmidanma es uxilavi saswauli rom moaxdinos Tqvens gulSi, amisTvis Seni survili da Tanxmobac aris saWiro, Seni neba. es Sen unda gindodes RmerTs gauRo guliskari da amisTvis aitano droebiTi simZime, tkivili da tanjva!
me gisurvebT Tqven, rom wrfeli guliT SesdgomodeT RmerTs da mogcemodeT mgznebare survili maradiuli cxovrebisa; da Tqvens gulSi qriste damkvidrdeba! da roca es saswauli moxdeba TqvenSi, merwmuneT, yvela sxva danarCen saswauls ixilavT Tqven, radgan maSin sxva_ xorcieli saswauli ar iqneba TqvenTvis sasjeli da saziano, maSin TqvenTvis wmidanebi ar iqnebian dafarulni da `gaugebarni~. wmidanis cxovrebac xom saswaulia.
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25. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, wmidans SeuZlia Tqvas, rom is wmidania _ aRiaros Tavisi sulieri mdgomareoba?

pasuxi: gaaCnia vin da rogori sulieri mdgomareobis adamiani ekiTxeba mas!.. wmidans SeuZlia gaexsnas adamians, romelic WeSmaritad eZebs RmerTs. mas es evaleba kidec. aseve, daamtkicos Tavisi Zalis saRmrTo warmomavloba da daasaxelos im wmida moZRvris vinaoba, visi meSveobiTac gaaRwia RmerTamde!..
wmidans Tavisi wmidanobis aRiarebis ki ar eSinia, rogorc es warmoudgenia bevrs. TiTqos wmdani `qebis SiSiT~ gamudmebiT gaiZaxis, rom is   codvilia. wmidans qebis ki ar eSinia, aramed, ar unda   es!... _ mas esmis, rom dideba ekuTvnis mxolod   R m e r T s !
wmidani Tu faravs Tavis wmidanobas, es imitom, rom mis irgvliv cotaa iseTi,   v i n c   W e S m a r i t a d   e Z e b s   R m e r T s !..
wmidani Tu ambobs, rom is codvilia, srulebiT ar niSnavs imas, rom is im konkretul momentSia codvaSi, aramed is Tavis w a r s u l s gulisxmobs.
wmidans wmidanoba `SemTxveviT~ an kidev `proteqciiT~ ki ar eZleva. is RmerTs gamozrdili da gamowrTobili hyavs. mas sakmao simtkice da Tavmdabloba gaaCnia saimisod, rom `gauZlos~ adamianTa mier qebas!
RmerTi Zalas ar miscems adamians, romelsac am Zalis dateva ar SeuZlia, an kidev am adamianis daRupvis mizezi gaxdes!.... wmidanebi sakmaod arian daculni!... wmidanisaTvis wmidanoba srulebiT ar aris `privilegiisa~ da ampartavnobis sagani. es codvilebs eCvenebaT ase!.. wmidanisaTvis Tavisi sulieri mdgomareoba did Zalasa da madlTan erTad, umZimesi pasuxismgeblobacaa! es yoveldRiuri Seuwyveteli Sromaa! da Tu gnebavT, udidesi tkivilic aris. wmidanebi dedamiwaze cxovroben sxvebisTvis! codvilis gadarCenisaTvis Sroma, urTulesi da piradi tkivilebiT aRsavse cxovrebaa!
marTali rom vTqvaT, dRes wmidanebs ki ar uWirT imisi Tqma, rom isini wmidanebi arian, aramed sazogadoeba ar aris mzad amisaTvis. jer samocdaaT welze met xans umtkicebdnen xalxs, rom RmerTi ar arsebobso da miT umetes wmidanebi. mere ki daiwyes imis mtkiceba, rom yvelani aucileblad codvilebi unda iyvnen!... amaSi unda amoicnoT eSmakis mzakvroba! es mas awyobs, rom wmidanebi ar arsebobdnen! rom xalxi ar scnobdes maT! swored mas awyobs codvili samRvdeloeba. Tanac dRes sazogadoebaSi arsebobs azri, rom   wmidanebi uiSviaTesi gamonaklisebi arian da Tanac warsulis kuTvnileba. an kidev arian wmidanebi, magram sxvagan da arafrisdidebiT CvenTan! CvenTan `yvela codvilia~ _ es aris sazogadoebis warmodgena `Tavmdablobaze~ _ getyviT, rom aseTi `Tavmdabloba~ aris borotis gamogoneba! aseTi religiuri cnobierebis pirobebSi wmidani, ra Tqma unda `daifareba~!... magram modis dro_qarTvel ers ukve gauCnda wmidanebze sulieri moTxovnileba.   morwmune ukve eZebs WeSmarit maswavlebels, mkurnalsa da sasufevlis megzurs! _ `iTxovdeT da mogeceT!~...
saocaria RvTis gangeba da sainteresoa wmidanTa cxovreba. Cvens gverdiT cxovroben, garegnulad arafriT gamoirCevian Cvengan, magram udidesi sulieri samyaro gaaCniaT, maTSi cxovreba mimdinareobs_WeSmariti cxovreba!
gana wmidans ar unda Cagaxedos am samyaroSi?... magram Cven ar varT mzad. am mzadyofnaSi me raime erTi kuTxiT mzadyofnas ar vgulisxmob, aramed aq Zalian bevri ram igulisxmeba!... wmidans `ampartavnulad~ ki ar uxaria, rom Sen icani is, aramed is uxaria, rom Sen swor gzaze gamoxvedi da miaRwie sulierebis raRac dones, rom man ufro didi simaRleebisaken gagqaCos. wmidans Seni sulieri Tvalebis axela uxaria, radgan amis Semdeg ukve midixar RmerTis gzaze!
wmidanTa sistema_ es sulieri s a x e l m w i f o a, Tavisi i e r a r q i i T, Tavisi j a r i T. aq yvelas Tavisi daniSnuleba da adgili aqvs! am saxelmwifos ki ebrZvis boroti sistema, aseve sulieri saxelmwifo da es brZola qriste RmerTis didebiT mobrZanebiT dasruldeba! yvela qristians evaleba, gaxdes am keTili saxelmwifos moqalaqe da miT gaaZlieros es saxelmwifo!   yvelas gisurvebT am wmida saxelmwifos moqalaqeobas!..

26. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, wmidani Tu ganicdis xorciel uZlurebas, fizikur tkivils an kidev SimSilis grZnobas?
pasuxi: wmidani ganicdis xorciel tkivils   da avadmyofobasac. magram yovelive amas is adamianebis gamo ganicdis, loculobs ra maTze, is iRebs adamianTa codvebs, aseve sneulebasac. Tumca minda giTxraT, rom wmidani Tavisi sulieri mdgomareobidan gamomdinare, sruliad flobs Tavis fizikur sxeuls da amdenad   mas SeuZlia ar gaxdes avad. miT umetes, ar Seeyaros raime ukurnebeli xorcieli seni. sulis gansakuTrebuli madlmosili mdgomareoba aZlevs mas TviTaRdgenis saSualebasac. suliwmidis madliT Semosilni savsebiT janmrTelebi arian xorcieldac. is rom wmidanebis cxovrebaSi gvxvdeba Zalian mZime sneulebis magaliTebi, es imiT aixsneba, rom isini adamianTa codvebs iRebdnen Tavze. exidebodnen maT da amitom sakuTari nebiT iRebdnen xorciel satanjvels, sxvadasxva saxis avadmyofobas da sxva saxis Seviwroebebs!..
aris meore garemoebac imisa, Tu ratom miaqvT wmidanebs xorcieli tanjvebi: wmidani, sulieri ganviTarebis axal safexurze gasaRwevad, aucileblad gadis tanjvas `gaTiSul~ mdgomareobaSi, anu Cveulebrivi xorcieli adamianis saxiT. am dros mas iseve stkiva, wyuria, Sia, rogorc sxva codvil adamianebs. aseT mdgomareobaSi is wmidanur Zalas ver gamoiyenebs!
rodesac wmidans codvili gamohyavs raime gansacdelisagan, an kidev codvisagan, is aucileblad gadis (iRebs Tavze), raRac saxis tanjvas da iseve ganicdis mas, rogorc Cveulebrivi adamiani – wmidanuri Zalis gamouyeneblad. wmidani iRebs ra codvilis codvebs, iseve unda itanjos xorcielad, rogorc is codvili, romlis codvac Tavs idva.
wmidanuri ZaliT is mxolod droSi amoklebs codvilis tanjvas. idebs ra codvebis did moculobas erTabaSad. ise, tanjvis gauReblad ar xdeba codvis amowva da codvilis gaTavisufleba!... codvebis tyveobaSi myofi, eSmakis borkilebSia da is ise iolad ver daaRwevs Tavs. boroti ar miscems mas Tavis awevis, welSi gamarTvis saSualebas. aramed piriqiT, sul axal-axali codvebiT koWavs. swored aseT umZimes sulis mdgomareobaSi myof codvils exideba wmidani, idebs mis codvebs da am codvebis gamosasyid tanjvebsac, sneuleba iqneba es Tu kidev sxva ram!...
wmidanebi RmerTamde gaRweviT, wmidanTa sistemis wevrebi xdebian da iq yvelas Tavisi davaleba da amocana aqvs, moqmedeben ra msoflios gadasarCenad. amitom udides wmidanebs ara erTi da ori adamianis codvebi awevT, aramed_aTasobiT. Sesabamisad maT didi tkivilebi, sneulebebi da tanjvebi miaqvT!
ise ki, kidev vieoreb, wmidani srulebiTT janmrTelia da Tu xedavT rom is mimarTavs eqims, samedicino preparatebiT mkurnalobs, an kidev qirurgiul Carevas saWiroebs, es mas codvil adaianTa siyvaruliT emarTeba. wmidans SeuZlia, ar stkiodes, magram is amas nebayoflobiT, adamianTa usazRvro siyvaruliT akeTebs. radgan odesRac TviTnac yofila codvili da RmerTis siyvaruli avaldebulebs mas yovelive amas!..
wmidans Tavis mdgomareobaSi arc stkiva da arc Sia. rogor SeiZleba, mas stkiodes, roca SeuZlia, g a q r e s   da   g a C n d e s. SeuZlia, gaCndes ramdenime kilometris moSorebiT da ara mxolod suliT, aramed xorcieladac. ai, ase floben wmidanebi dros, sivrces da sakuTar sxeuls. magram wmidanebi dedamiwaze Camodian satanjvelad_adamianTa gadasarCenad. ai, amitom aris, rom isini avlendnen did Zalas _kurnavdnen sxvebs, magram amave dros avlendnen did uZlurebasac. saWiroebdnen eqimebis daxmarebasac, adamianTagan nugeSs, siTbosa da siyvaruls.
aris sxva ramec, ris gamo wmidanebi avlendnen uZlurobebs, anu ratom `exmarebodnen~ maT. getyviT, Zlieri da aravisze damokidebuli - mainc Suris sababi xdeba codvil adamianebisTvis. da roca wmidani `avadaa,~ an `sawyalia~, codvili mas SuriT ki ar uyurebs, aramed sibraluliT. aseTi wmidani misTvis ufroa axlobeli. codvili grZnobs, rom is codvili ki aris, magram SeuZlia wmidans daexmaros. ai, magaliTisTvis: vTqvaT wmidans miutaneT raime kerZi da is mas xels ar axlebs. jer erTi gatkenT guls, meoreda, Sen codvilis Suri Segipyrobs _ es kaci xsnilSiac marxulobs-o, mesame_ampartavnebiT aRtkinebuli ityvi: `Cemi motanili rom aris, imtom ar axlo xeli?!~ da kidev aTasi ram mogivaT TavSi. aba vnaxoT, Tu wmidani iqve Senis TandaswrebiT gasinjavs, madlierebas gamoxatavs da getyvis, rom `sulze miuswari, mTeli dRe mSieri iyo da riT gadagixados pativiscema~. maSin xom gaixarebT. jer erTi imitom, rom wmidanma miiRo Seni Sroma, rogorc ician Tqma, `Seiwira~ (es gamoTqma ar aris marTebuli). meoreTi da `dagafasa~ da Rirsi gagxada madlierebis da mesamedac, daexmare: `Sen, rom sulze ar migeswro, xom darCeboda mSieri~!.. naxeT, rogori saWiro adamianebi xarT? ... Temas gadavuxvie, magram vfiqrob ar gatkineT Tavi.
rac Seexeba wmidanis `SimSils~, getyviT, wmidans Tavisi madlmosilebisa da Zalmosilebidan gamomdinare SeuZlia ar   `moSivds~. mas `Sia~, imitom rom miaqvs tanjva da kidev imitom, rom Sen gSia. Tu wmidans ar `moSivda~, es Sen dagaRonebs, `Sewuxdebi~, rom is sakvebs ar Rebulobs_gaixseneT wmidaTa cxovreba.
codvilisaTvis wmidanis Wama, keTil motivTan erTad, imasac   gulisxmobs, rom `isic Wams...~   e. i. isic miwazea, angelozi araa, `isic Cveneburia~_marto me ki ara var xorcieli, aramed wmidanic. da is amiT amarTlebs Tavis miwier midrekilebebs vnebebisadmi da codvili `mSviddeba~.
swored es aris mizezi imisa, rom wmidanebi xalxs codvilebad aCvenebdnen Tavs. codvili ufro axlobelia codvilisaTvis. didi gabriel beri xSirad usvamda masTan mimsvlelebs amgvar SekiTxvas:
_ wmidani xar Tu codvili moyvaso?...
da roca dabneuli adamiani pasuxobda
_ ra Tqma unda, codvili, mamao.
gabriel beri siyvaruliT etyoda
_ Cemi Zma yofilxaro....
da es aris mTavari _ siyvaruli! siyvaruli ki siaxloviT iwyeba. wmidanebs saocari talanti aqvT RvTisagan adamianebis daaxloebisa, Seyvarebisa da maTi gadarCenisa.
giTxraT marTali, (mamao icinis) wmidanisTvis Wama ufro mtanjvelia, vidre SimSiloba!... ise `mWameli~ wmidani ufro axlobelia codvilisTvis, vidre wmidani, romelsac SeuZlia saerTod ar Wamos. mTavari ki dedamiwaze ara wmidanis SesaZleblobis gamovlinebaa, aramed codvil adamianTa gadarCena. visTvisac ewama qriste macxovari.
wmidani sul sxva ganzomilebis sakvebiT ikvebeba, mis suls ZaluZs gamokvebos misi sxeuli, ise, rom mas mwvadi da xaWapuri ar dasWirdes amisTvis (icinis).

27. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, wmidanebs aqvT TuU ara codviT dacemis safrTxe.?
pasuxi: wmidanebi xuliT sxva ganzomilebaSi arian. maT vnebebi Zleuli aqvT. amdenad maT   m i w i e r i   codvebiT dacemis safrTxe ar emuqrebaT! ise maT aqvT saSiSroeba, magram es ar aris   x o r c i e l i   codvebi! maT TavianT ganviTarebis safexuris Sesabamisi safrTxeebi aqvT, magram es Cveulebrivi codvili adamianis TvalisTvis SeumCnevelia!.. amasTan dakavSirebi minda giTxraT: erTxel iyvnen CemTan morwmuneni da mkiTxes, Tu ratom daeca ilia WavWavaZis `gandegilSi~ berio. kiTxvis amgvar formulirebaSic Canda, rom isini wmidanis namdvil arsSi ver erkvevodnen!... unda iTqvas isic, rom `gandegilSi~ seriozul Seusabamobas aqvs adgili! nawarmoebSi aRwerili beri yvela niSniT Seesabameba wmidans. magram misi aseTi dacema yovlad Seusabmoa   wmidanisTvis!.. am donis sulieri Zalis mqone beris aseTi dacema SeuZlebelia!   wmida beri sruliad akontrolebs Tavis suls, gonebasa da sxeuls. wmida bers gamocda Cabarebuli aqvs RmerTTan, Torem ise RmerTi Zalas ar miscemda!.. wmida bers gaaCnia imnairi sulieri xedva, rom SeuZlia Zalian Sori manZilidan daafiqsiros ara mxolod masTan mimsvlelebi, aramed maTi azrebi da zraxvebic ki!.. aseT bers SeeZlo sulieri zemoqmedebiT yovelnairad Seeferxebina nebismieri arseba, Tundac eSmakis aRZrulic. dascemda SiSs, SeeZlo gaexada SeuZlodac, emoqmeda gonebaze, an keliidan gausvlelad daxmareba gaewia gansacdelSi CavardnilisaTvis. mokled wmidans hqonda Zalian bevri SesaZlebloba, aTasnairad ganeridebina is qali da yvelaze mTavari, aseT berebs ara Tu Tavis dacva, aramed nebismieri adamianis Secvla da sulieri damuSaveba xelewifebaT. ase, rom `gandegilSi~ moyvanili wmida beris sulier dones aranairad ar unda mosvloda aseTi ram! aseTi, ram SesaZloa mosvloda moRvawes, magram   u Z l u r s, romelic jer   w m i d a n i   a r   g a m x d a r a.   magram nawarmoebSi aRwerili beri, kidev vimeoreb, Cans, rom Zalmosilia. Zalmosils ki aseTi SemTxveva SeuZlebelia SeemTxvas. saqme imaSia, rom ilia WavWavaZes_dRes ki wmida ilias, miuxedavad misi udidesi damsaxurebisa samSoblosa da qarTveli xalxis   winaSe, am nawarmoebebis Seqmnisas naTlad ar esmoda wmidanis raoba da sulieri samyaro! amasTan dakavSirebiT gavixseneb Ggabriel berTan Cems Sexvedras rusTavelze. gabrieli Tavis `formaSi~ iyo. modioda, boboqrobda, brazobda da xmamaRla yviroda. is iyo mec mivuaxlovdi_gabrieli Tavis teqsts agrZelebda _ `ra icoda ra iyo namdvili beris Zala! _ `brazobda~ iliaze_eg rogor dawerao!... ar esmoda mas wmida beris Sinagani. gabriel episkoposmac (qiqoZe) ar amxila da ar miuTiTa megobrobis gamoo!... hoda, RmerTic gaunawyendao! bers ra waaqcevs!.. bers qali ki ara, eSmakic ver waaqcevs!.. bers ras uzams qalio. beri cecxlia! beri moRriale lomia!.. xom meTanxmebi, Cemo Zmao!~
gabrieli piruTvneli da marTlismTqmeli iyo yovelTvis. mere `damSvidda~, sul gulSi ixuta ilia, cremlebi Rvara: `rogor gaimetes, rogor gaimetes, saqarTvelos didi Svili!~
adre giTxariT, rom wmidanebze realurad Zalian bundovani codna arsebobs dRes sazogadoebaSi. wmidani beri sxvaa da wmidad mcxovrebi ki – sxvaa!.. wmida beri Zalmosilia, wmidad mcxovrebi ki, miuxedavad keTil- moSurnoebisa, sanam ar gaaRwevs RmerTamde, uZluria. TandaTan wmidanebi namdvilis arsSi gagvarkveven.


28. kiTxva: mama giorgi, wm.mamis Semdegi sityvebi: `dRes urwmuno ufro gaugebs morwmunes, vidre morwmune wmidans~ – rogor unda gavigoT?
pasuxi: es imitom, babua, rom dRevandeli `morwmune~ cotaTiRa Tu gansxvavdeba urwmunosagan. urwmunos RmerTi ar swams. morwmunes ki dRes ar esmis RmerTis. isini Zalian axlos arian suliT erTmaneTTan!.. urwmuno ar eZebs RmerTs, xolo morwmunes ki hgonia, rom eZebs, magram ise, rom ver aRwevs RmerTamde! sul sxvaa wmindani! is qristes naTliT aris Semosili. man sZlia wuTisofels. is metyvelebs sxva enaze, misi codna da swavleba emyareba pirad gamocdilebas da ara mxolod wignebs. wmidani suliT sxva ganzomilebaSia, roca dRevandeli morwmune ver gascdenia wuTisofels. misi codna SezRuduli da   bundovania is RmerTze mxolod ismens da kiTxulobs, roca wmidans gaRweuli aqvs RmerTamde da codna RvTisgan aqvs!
radganac dRevandel morwmunes ver uZlevia wuTisoflis suli da   piradi vnebebi, icnobs mxolod warmosaxul, da ara namdvil RmerTs!. wmidans ki gaRweuli aqvs RmerTamde. is icnobs da ganicdis RmerTs realurad. aqedan gamomdinare, dRevandeli morwmunis sulieri samyaro Zalian gansxvavdeba wmidanis sulieri samyarosagan. Sesabamisad, gansxvavebulia maTi xedva, codna da religiuri midgoma.
wmidani cxovrobs WemaritebaSi. is piruTvnelia rogorc sakuTari Tavis, aseve sxvebis mimarTac. is aswavlis RmerTze imas, rac Tavad RmerTma gauxsna mas. aswavlis ise, rogorc es RmerTs unda da ara ise, rogorc awyobT da warmoudgeniaT adamianebs! Sesabamisad misi codna da swavleba ar emTxveva morwmunis warmosaxviT codnas. wmidanis sityva amxels da angrevs morwmunis warmosaxviT, araWeSmarit samyaros. es ki saSinlad mtkivneulia morwmunisaTvis. radganac is ampartavania!   misTvis miuRebeli xdeba axali realoba. is miCveuli iyo gamogonil, warmosaxul da misTvis sasurvel `sinamdviles~ RmerTze. ampartavan suls Caketili aqvs WeSmaritebis Secnobis karebi!.. mas ki hgonia, rom morwmunea, magram is codvis fesvebs arc ki SebrZolebia WeSmaritad da ar aris Tavisufali codvebisagan.. rodesac ar ebrZvi wuTisofelis suls, es suli Semodis   adamianSi da aseT adamians ukve awyobs iseTi `WeSmariteba~, romelic mis sinamdviled iqceva da romelic aranairad ar amxels mas!.. is marxulobs, loculobs, swams `R m e r T i~, magram iseTi,   romelic mas   s u r s     da   a w y o b s!     R m e r T i     k i   a s e T i     a r   a r i s!!!   wmidanis codna RmerTze WeSmariti da zeciuria, xolo aseTi morwmunisa ki cru da xorcieli, swored amitom ver `jdeba~ wmidani dRevandeli morwmunis arsebaSi da roca morwmune ver Rebulobs WeSmarit sityvas, is   an   g a u r b i s,   an   kidev   e w i n a a R m d e g e b a   m a s.!
aseTi morwmune cdilobs daicvas ara WeSmaritebis suli, romelic amxels mas, aramed wuTisofelis suli, romelic aamebs mas.   aseT dros morwmunisaTvis   urwmuno ufro `axlobeli~ xdeba, radgan urwmuno ar exeba mis Sinagan samyaros. xolo wmidani, ki piriqiT_miuRebeli, radgan is erTianad ungrevs mis `WeSmarit~ samyaros, sulier codnas, `Rvawls~, miznebsa da cru imedebs!...
gavixsenoT, rogor eubneboda qriste macxovari ebrael morwmuneT: Tqven imitom ver migebT da mewinaaRmdegebiT, rom wuTisoflisani xarTo. da dResac, morwmuneTa didi umetesobis rwmena da Sinagani wyoba xorcielia da wuTisoflis suli aSTobs maT da ver Rebuloben zeciur swavlebas! aqve moviyvanoT pavle mociqulis sityvebi korinTelTa mimarT Tqmuli: `me ar SemeZlo TqvenTan laparaki, Zmano, rogorc sulierebTan, aramed rogorc xorcielebTan, rogorc qristeSi CvilebTan (kor.3.1)         r Z e s   gasmevdiT Tqven da ara   m a g a r   saWmels, vinaidan maSin ar SegeZloT da axlac ar ZaligZT (kor.3.2) imitom, rom jer kidev   x o r c i e l n i   xarT (kor.3.3)~
wmidani sulieri ganviTarebis maRal safexurzea, amitom misi sityvis miReba morwmunis mxridanac moiTxovs garkveul sulier dones. SeuZlebelia, nul klasSi bavSvma gaigos umaRlesi maTematikis sakiTxebi. amitom wmidanis sityvis miReba morwmunisaganac moiTxovs sulier wvrTvnasa da keTilgonivrul ganviTarebas. es morwmunezea damokidebuli. vinc muSaobs sakuTar Tavze, eZebs WeSmaritebas, eZebs RmerTs uangarod da ara amsofliuri keTildReobisTvis, aucileblad miuaxlovdeba RmerTs. roca RmrTisadmi swrafva gulwrfelia, Tavisufali   miwieri angarebisagan, maSin aseTi swrafva xdeba misi sulieri zrdis sawindari.
radganac morwmune isev nul klasSia, mas ar SeuZlia wmidanis   sulieri swavlebis, didi codnis miReba, amitom aris bevri ram dafaruli. ase vTqvaT, Caketili TviT wmidanebis mierve, radgan didi codna, ubralod rom vTqvaT, Zalze saxifaToa sulierad moumzadebeli adamianebisaTvis..
pavle mociqulis sityvebi `Cven bevri gvaqvs salaparako, magram Znelia ganmarteba, vinaidan yurmZimeni gaxdiTo~ – sruliad exeba dRevandel morwmunesac `vinaidan, drois mixedviT Tu vimsjelebT, Tqven maswavleblebi unda yofiliyaviT, magram Tqven kvlav unda gaswavlon RvTis sityvis pirveli sawyisebi. Tqven m a g a r i saWmeli ki ara, r Z e gWirdebaT (ebr,5.12) vinaidan yoveli, vinc rZiT ikvebeba, gamoucdelia simarTlis sityvaSi, radgan Cvilia (ebr.5.14). m a g a r i   s a W m e l i gankuTvnilia srulyofilTaTvis, romelTa grZnobani CveviT gawafulia keTilisa da borotis gasarCevad (ebr.5.14)~
swored am srulyofilebisaken unda miiRvwodes morwmune.   esaa misi   m i z a n i   da   d a n i S n u l e b a! rogorc pavle mociquli ambobs- `magari saWmeli gankuTvnilia srulyofilTaTvis~ e.i. maTTvis, romelTac keTilisa da borotis garCeva SeuZliaT. swored aseTebs miecemaT RmrTisagan `magari saWmeli~ –anu sulieri codna, swavleba da saidumloebani. `magari saWmlis miReba” morwmuneTaTvis droSi _ sulieri zrdis da ganviTarebis pirobebSia SesaZlebeli da ara sulierad Cvilobis asakSi. swored amitom dRevandel morwmunes, romelic sulierad aris `Cvili~ da rZiT gamokvebas saWiroebs, ar SeuZlia wmidanis m i R e b a   da   g a g e b a. pavle mociquli jer kidev oriaTasi wlis win eubneboda maT, rom drois mixedviT Tqven ukve maswavlebeli unda iyoTo da ara Cvilebi!.. da Cven vxedavT, rom oriaTasi wlis Semdegac samyaros sulieri mdgomareoba isev Cvilobis asakSia, romelsac `rZiT kveba~ sWirdeba, metic, es   r Z e c   s u f T a   da   u v n e b e l i   saxiT ukve Zneli saSovnelia!... vinaidan, rZec mowamlulia borotis mzakvruli manqanebiT qveynierebaze.!..
rogorc vxedavT, morwmuneebs pavle mociqulis xanaSic ar esmodaT da ver igebdnen wmidanis swavlebas da raRa unda iTqvas Semdgom aTaswleulebze. marTlmadideblobis mTeli istoria, marTali rwmenis, wmidanebis swavlebis devnis istoriaa. wuTisofeli ver Rebulobda `magar saWmels~, xolo mis momwodeblebs fizikurad spobda, radgan ar iyo misi `sulis~. morwmune Zalian nela viTardeboda. amitom misTvis yovelTvis miuRebeli iyo `magari saWmeli~. gavixsenoT Tundac wmida maqsime aRmsarebeli, romelic marto icavda marTal sarwmunoebas. gana isini, vinc ebrZodnen wm. maqsimes – mefe, patriarqi, rigiTi adamianebi, Tavs morwmuneebad ar miiCnevdnen?! gana maqsime maTTvis ar iyo miuRebeli da gaugebari?! an wm.kirioni, Cveni patriarqi, romelmac maSin sasuliero pirebs uTxra:   Tu xelmeored ar iSobiT, Tqven aRaraferi geSvelebaTo!.. mis sikvdilSi marto policielebis xeli ki ar urevia, aramed im urwmuno da gadagvarebuli sasuliero pirebisac...! adamianTa miwieri, vnebebiT aRsavse yofiereba ebrZoda da dResac ebrZvis WeSmaritebas!..
fizikurad spobda Bboroti WeSmaritebis matarebel, didi sulis adamianebs. man yvelafers Seaxo Tavisi binZuri xeli, gadaakeTa da daamaxinja swavlebebi, wignebi, gadmocemebi, `Sealamaza~ da adamianTa miwier moTxovnilebebs miusadaga wm.mamaTa tanjviT mopovebuli codna da swavlebani. mowamla da gadaagvara adamianTa cnobiereba, mTeli erebi moswyvita marTal sarwmunoebas. gamozarda sakuTari `kadrebi~, `sulieri winamZRvrebi da moZRvrebi~, moamzada msoflio misi Zalauflebis gabatonebisaTvis!
rogorc ukve vTqviT, morwmune adamiani da saerTod sazogadoeba, mociqulebis droidan moyolebuli, Zalian nela viTardeboda religiur cnobierebaSi, da radganac sazogadoeba CamorCeboda WeSmaritebis   codnaSi wmidanebs, is am naklovanebas `avsebda~ Tavisi sulieri xedvisa da   warmosaxviTi codnis   xarjze, romelic Semdgom, droSi, Camoyalibda mis   religiur xedvad romelic aqcia normad _ erTgvar “CarCod” da am CarCoebSi moaqcies   R m e r T i,   wmidanebi da swavlebebi!. saukuneebis manZilze iwereboda wmidanTa cxovreba swored am CarCoebis farglebSi. sazogadoebam Seqmna TavisTvis `wmidanis~ iseTi saxe, rogoric mas esmoda da warmoedgina. misTvis wmidani Camoyalibda, rogorc mxolod zneobrivi kategoria: _ asakovani, TeTri wverebiT, mmarxveli, gaucinari, magram mis namdvil Zalasa da moqmedebis Taviseburebaze aranairi WeSmariti codna ar gaaCnda. sazogadoebis warmosaxvis CarCoebSi momwyvdeuli wmidani, ra Tqma unda, ar iyo realuri wmidanis saxe. wignebSi iwereboda wmidanis cxovrebisa da moRvaweobis is mxare, romelic esmoda sazogadoebas, xolo is, rac ar esmoda da miuRebeli iyo misi warmosaxvisTvis_ar iwereboda.
ra Tqma unda, WeSmariti wmidani, romlis misia adamianTa gadarCenaa, aranairad ar moTavsdeboda am `CarCoebSi~. wmidani adamianTa sakeTildReod da piradi saxelis `SelaxviT~ amsxvrevda am CarCoebs da moqmedebda ase vTqvaT `kanongareSed~. sazogadoeba ki mkacrad icavda mis mierve Seqmnil `CarCoebs~ da misgan gadaxras aravis patiobda!.. morwmune mematiane da wmidanTa cxovrebis aRmwernic iZulebulni iyvnen angariSi gaewiaT am CarCoebisaTvis. icodnen ra sazogadoebis ganwyoba da religiuri xedvis mdgomareoba. gansakuTrebiT `ifiltreboda~ salosebis cxovreba, romelTa moqmedeba aranair CarCoebSi ar jdeboda. ar werdnen maTze Zalian bevr rames da, rasac ki dawerdnen, iqac cdilobdnen `Selamazebuli~ da `gakeTilSobilebuli~ warmoeCinaT sazogadoebisTvis. avtorebi cdilobdnen sazogadoebisTvis maTi `idealuri~ wmidanis suraTi miewodebinaT da bunebrivia, es xdeboda WeSmaritebis damaxinjebis xarjze. es wignebi modioda saukuneebi. kidev da kidev ganicdida saxecvlilebas, ukve Tanamedrove sazogadoebis `moTxovnaTa gaTvaliswinebiT~. Cven SemTxvevaSi ki isic unda davumatoT, rom or saukuneze meti sxva eris religiur cnobierebas viyaviT `morgebuli~. dRes eri icnobs mwignobrebis mier Selamazebul da saxeSecvlil wmidanebs da ara wmidanebis namdvil saxes!
wmidanebs Selamazeba ar sWirdebaT! isini isedac lamazebi arian. isini   iseTebi arian, rogorebic surs RmerTs da ara iseTebi, rogoric codvil adamianTa bindiT mocul gonebas warmoudgenia.
da radgan sazogadoeba damaxinjebuli warmodgenebis gamo ver Rebulobs wmidanebis WeSmarit saxes, wmidanebi ki ar unda `gadaakeTon~, aramed   sazogadoeba unda amxilon, gamoaRviZon da gananaTlon WeSmaritebaSi. es codvilma unda icvalos saxe da ara wmidanma!
is salosebi, romlebic dRes CvenTvis saTayvaneblebi arian, TavianT TanamedroveTagan xom sastikad idevnebodnen. maT wmidanebad ki ara, adamianebadac ar Tvlidnen! maTze Zalian bevri ram Segnebulad ar dawerila da Cvenamde ar mouRwevia.
sazogadoeba ara mxolod ver ugebda, aramed ar iRebda maT, radganac isini amxeldnen, miwasTan asworebdnen maT cru, yalb warmodgenebs, maT codvebs, ampartavnebas, yofiT simaxinjeebs. wmidanebs Zalian bevri ramis Cadena uwevdaT adamianis sulis gadasarCenad, romlis gamo isini sazogadoebis mxridan idevnebodnen, rogorc ucodvilesni. Tavis droze salosTa moRvaweoba Seulamazeblad rom aReweraT, dRes ufro meti codna gveqneboda wmidanebis `ucnaurobebze~, `codvebze~. maT Zalaze, sulis macxonebel zemoqmedebebze. dReisaTvis morwmuneTaTvis cnobilia mxolod `wmidad mcxovrebis~ saxe, da ara wmidanis, romelTa Sorisac Zalian didi gansxvavebaa!
wmidanTa cxovreba ise rom aReweraT, rogorc es mimdinareobda, erisTvis advili misaRebi gaxdeboda dRes moqmedi wmidanebi da gaugebari ar iqneboda, Tu ratom aiyvana xelSi isidore salosma Cvili bavSvi, daaxeTqa iatakze, mokla da gaiqca, xolo mesame dRes dasaflavebaze misulma xelis SexebiT Cvils sicocxle daubruna, an kidev, ratom iZaxda 7 wlis   wmida nilosi iseT codvebs Tavis Tavze, romelsac erSi didi codvilic   ver Caidenda, an kidev ratom Sevarda gabriel beri erT-erT taZarSi da joxiT daamsxvria xatebis minebi, an kidev wm.pamfuti ratom uyrida monazvnebs keliis win garyvnil gamosaxulebian suraTebs. an kidev, ratom uyviroda gabriel beri   monazvnebs: `Tqve, orSauriano bozeboo~, an kidev, ratom Tqva wm.Teodosim me 1000 wlisa varo, an kidev wm.eqvTimem, romelic wyalze fexiT gadioda, ratom Tqva _ wmida giorgis xnisa varo, risTvisac kinaRam Caqoles, magram wm.giorgis gamocxadebiT iZulebuli Seiqmnen daebrunebinaT monasterSi. an kidev, rogor `daTvra~ ioane salosi da ukanaskneli sityvebiT lanZRa episkoposi da amxila borotebaSi, an kidev ratom `dasdevda~ wmida beri mixeili qalaqSi qalebs da lamis exveweboda, gayolodnen mas colad. an kidev, ratom waukida wmida iakobma xats cecxli da daswva. an kidev ratom Seuvarda meduqnis cols wmida simon salosi, an ratom dediSobila darbodnen da iginebodnen wmidanebi!... da bevri ramis CamoTvla SeiZleba. ar werdnen, viTomda maT `icavdnen~ sazogadoebis zneobrivi risxvisagan. es udidesi wmidanebi ar Tavsdebodnen adamianTa sazogadoebis aranair CarCoebSi, magram maT rame eSlebodaT zneobaSi, WeSmariti rwmenis dogmebsa da kanonebSi?! _ ara, babua, ara! am udides wmidanebs yvelaferi gaTvlili hqondaT: yoveli sityva, yoveli moZraoba, Jesti, qmedeba, azri. isini moqmedebdnen adamianebis gadasarCenad adamianTa kanonebis darRveviT. rac ufro mZimea sneuleba, miT mZimea da mtkivneuli kurnebis xerxebi da saSualebebi. wmidanebi ar eridebodnen arafers adamianTa sulis gadasarCenad. isini arRvevdnen wesebs, normebs, kanonebs _ es xilulad, sinamdvileSi isini arafers ar arRvevdnen, es codvilebs eCvenebodaT ase, radgan,   isini xedavden mxolod xilul “cud saqciels”, magram ver xedavdnen, Tu ra sulis sasargeblo uxilavi qmedeba imaleboda am saqcielis miRma.
is, rac morwmuneTaTvis kanonia,   wmidanisTvis kanoni araa!   wmidanebi `kanongareSeni~ arian. morwmune Tavisi gadasaxedidan iyureba. misi goneba ver wvdeba. wmidani sul sxva safexurzea da misTvs sul   s x v a   kanonebis dacvaa savaldebulo!...
wmidani didi Zalaa. is flobs drosa da sivrces da materias. codvilis gawmenda mxolod SegonebiT SeuZlebelia.   c o d v i l i     i w m i n d e b a   s u l z e   Z a l i s   u S u a l o   z e m o q m e d e b i T!   suls qmedebis wmida cecxli unda Seexos!
wmidanebi am garegnuli `uzneo~ da `ucnauri~ moqmedebiT wvavdnen codvilebSi vnebaTa fesvebs, magram es sulieri zemoqmedeba dafaruli rCeboda im sazogadoebisaTvis, romelic mxolod am qmedebebis xilul, garegnul mxares afiqsirebda!
maxsovs: morwmuneT, rom `gaerkviaT~ gabriel beris wmidanoba, didxans   eZebdnen wignebSi imas, SeeZlo Tu ara wmidans Rvinis daleva, an kidev `daTroba~, magram wignebSi ver poulobdnen. gaorebulni iyvnen. mec mkiTxes. guliT ki grZnobdnen, rom gabrieli didi wmidani iyo, magram meore ukiduresobas awydebodnen: gabrieli `Tvreboda~ da radganac   wmidanis namdvili arsi ar esmodaT, xolo maTi TvaliT nanaxis wignebidan axsnas ver poulobdnen, Zalian dabneulebi iyvnen!...
dRes morwmune wignebiT eZebs wmidans, magram Zneli saqmea es!... wmidans guliT da suliT miagnebT!... morwmune dRes ver xsnis wmidanis moqmedebas, is mxolod   wignebiT   „a m o w m e b s“   mas. wignebSi ki, giTxariT, wmidanis namdvil arsze bevri ram ar dawerila!.
is, rom wmidanebis cxovrebas `SelamazebiT da damaxinjebiT~ aRwerdnen, kargad gamoiyena borotma. swored sazogadoebis mierve Seqmnil „CarCoebs” iyenebs is WeSmariti wmidanebis winaaRmdeg!... boroti male SesTavazebs sazogadoebas, mis mier gamozrdil `wmidanebs~   da maT garegnulad verc ki gaarCeven namdvilebisagan!... aq guli da sulia saWiro!... swored amitom cdilobda ase gamalebiT boroti eklesiaSi SeRwevas. mis gamocdil kadrebs swored am `CarCoebis~ wyalobiT ukeTesi pirobebi aqvT eklesiaSi WeSmarit wmidanebTan SedarebiT, adamianTa dabali religiuri cnobierebis gamo!...  
`CarCoebiT~ SezRuduli morwmunis gonebisaTvis am `CarCoebiT~ SeniRbuli borotebi ufro axloblebi arian, vidre is WeSmariti da dauRalavi wmindanebi, romlebic aranairad am CarCoebSi ar Tavsdebian TavianTi `ucnaurobebiT~.
eklesiaSi mokalaTebuli borotebi veragulad iyeneben am “CarCoebs” wmidanTa winaaRmdeg. isini am CarCoebidan gamosulebs _ borotebad da eklesiis mtrebad moixsenieben. miweren   maT: xiblSi yofnas, mwvaleblobas da a.S.. yovelive amaSi, isini ostaturad ajereben dRevandel morwmunes. magram me bevrjer   miTqvams da kidev vimeoreb, ra gind `keTilmsaxurebis~ niRabi ar hqondeT afarebuli am `cxvris tyavSi gaxveul mglebs~ da ragind `ucnaurobebiT~ ar gamoirCeodnen wmidanebi, mainc SeiZleva maTi garCeva, Tu morwmune TviTon gulwrfelad eZebs RmerTs.
WeSmariti morwmunis guli gaarCevs maT, ragind aRtacebaSi ar unda miiyvanon am mglebma `CarCoebis~ zedmiwevniT SesrulebiT adamianis goneba da ragind ucnauri da `kanondamrRvevebi~ ar gamoCndnen wmidanebi, isev da isev WeSmariti morwmunis guls qriste auwyebs maT namdvil saxes!
miuxedavad imisa, rom sakmaod arian bolo Jams   dedamiwaze, `brma~ da `cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi~ sulier moZRvrebad da maswavleblebad, aqve arian WeSmariti moZRvrebic – wmidanebic!
29. kiTxva:L mama giorgi, xom ver dagvisaxelebT saqarTveloSi dRes moqmed   wmidanebs - namdvilebs?
pasuxi: bijos?!... (ironiulad gamogvxeda mamaom) wesiT wmidanebs Tqven unda eZebdeT, radgan Zieba ganviTarebaa! Zieba moicavs Rvawls, Rvawli ki wmends suls. wmidanis xazze gasvla ukve sulieri safexuria. RmerTma icis, romel safexurze visi ayvana rodis aris mizanSewonili.
• wmidanis naxva sargebeli ar eqnebaT imaT, visac sakuTar sulze ar uSromiaT, da arc maTTvis, visTvisac cxovrebis arsi sulieri srulyofileba ar aris.
• wmidani didi sulieri maswavlebeli da aRmzrdelia, da ra azri aqvs maswavleblis Zebnas, Tu moswavle ara xar ?!
• wmidani gamocdili winamZRolia brZolebSi da ra azri aqvs winamZRolis Zebnas Tu qristes mxedrobaSi ara xar?!
• wmidani iZleva RvTidan momdinare sibrZnisa da madlis wyaros, da rogor mogces is, Tu wyurvils ar ganicdi?!.
wmidani dafarulSi rom ggoniaT, rava, ar iRvwis da ar gexmarebaT? an kidev, radgan dafarulSi ggoniaT, ar SeiZleba maTi migneba?! wmidani sinamdvileSi ar aris dafaruli, mas Cven ver vxedavT mxolod – codvebis gamo. es iseTia, brmas rom mze daemalos. dafarulia is xorcieli TvalisTvis. aba, scadeT sulieri Tvalis axela da Tu ar naxoT!... me rom vambob: cocxali wmidanebi eZebeT-meTqi, imas ki ar niSnavs, rom irbinoT gamoqvabulebSi, an kidev mTebSi. an RamiT fanriT eZeboT is.   e Z e b o T   w m i d a n i,   n i S n a v s,   _   i S r o m o T   s u l i e r a d ! sulieri Sroma ki wmends suls, guls, gonebas, rac agixelT sulier Tvalebs da aRmoaCenT, rom wmidani Tqvens gverdiTaa.
Tu cxoneba Tavad ar gsurs, wmidani ver giSvelis, babua.! suli piradi RvawliT Tu ar aris momzadebuli da ar aqvs garkveuli _ `ra unda~, maSin ra azri eqneba, me rom imas asi wmidani davusaxelo?!... megzuri imas sWirdeba, vinc gzad aris Semdgari, an kidev vinc mgzavrobas apirebs. me rom wmidani dagisaxelo, daijereb Cems sityvas?! da Tu metyvi _ Seni sityviT virwmunebo, maSin SegekiTxebi _ rogor irwmuneb Cems sityvas, roca me ar micnob da ver mxedav?! Tu metyvi, rom Sen me mxedav, maSin sxvebs ratom ver xedav?! kargi, batono, me migaswavle da giTxari _ esa da es aris wmidani, mereda Sen ra amiT?! roca sulis cxonebis aucileblobac ver gagicnobierebia!...
Sen isic ar ici, risTvis gWirdeba wmidani!.. rava, mixval, kiTxav momavals da gaigeb?!... amisTvis wmidani ar moiclis, babua! is dRe da Rame sulier SromaSia da Tu RmerTs ar eZeb, is SenTvis ar gacdeba. Tavs codvilad mogaCvenebs da TviTon Senve gascildebi mas. magram Tu sulier brZolebSi xar, eZeb WeSmaritebas, da zrunav maradiul cxovrebaze, da gaqvs ganzraxva,   d a e m o r C i l o wmidans da   a i t a n o   wrTvna, ai, maSin   m i g i R e b s   wmidani Sen siyvaruliT da Cagricxavs Tavis `batalionSi~. (icinis)
wmidanma icis, rom is wmidania da ar “hyviris” amas ara imitom, rom mas amis Tqma xmamaRla ar SeuZlia, an vinmes Sefasebisa eSinia. ara babua, is amas imitom ar amJRavnebs, rom bevri iseTi vinme miva masTan, romelic RmerTs ar eZebs, aramed eZebs wmidanis SesaZleblobebs!... magram naxeT, roca is `dafarulia~, mas mxolod is miagnebs da aRmoaCens, vinc eZebs WeSmaritebas. mTis brols is hpoulobs, vinc mTis viwro bilikebs miuyveba da ara is, vinc zRvis napirze irujeba!... gasagebia?!   amaSia   a u c i l e b l o b a !!!
radgan Tqven pirvelebi xarT, vinc aseTi SekiTxva damisviT, me davuSveb Tqvenze “aministias” (icinis).  
1. namdvilia _ dekanozi l e o n t i (Jvania), mas afxazebi iaraRiT xelSi daadgnen taZarSi da mosTxoves eqadaga _ “afxazeTi saqarTvelo ar ariso...” leontim iseTi cecxli daayara, rom Tavqudmoglejilebi garbodnen!!! (icinis) mas didi xania vicnob, masac aTi “siCqare” aqvs.
2. namdvilia _ iRumeni f i l a r e t i (kudinovi) – is Cemi Zmaa, didi natanji da sulieri Rvawlis mqone beria.
3. namdvilia _ i l a r i o n samxaraZe   (episkoposi) – didi Rvawlis pirovneba, devna da gaWirveba gamovlili.
4. namdvilia _ iRumeni g a b r i e l i (odiSeliZe)
5. salosi da winaswarmetyvelia ruseTSi ioane (olari) – peterburgSi.
xuTni xom xarT?!.. hoda, xuTi dagisaxeleT. arian wmidanebi mRvdelmTavrebSi, samRvdeloebaSi, berebSi da erSic. wmidanebis amosacnobi `paroli~ aris Tavmdabloba da siwminde. moindomeT, SeudeqiT RmerTs da wmidanebi gagiyvanen RmerTamde!
daglocoT RmerTma Tqven da yvela qarTveli da agixiloT Tvalebi deda RmrTismSobelma da siwmindis gzaze SegweodeT yvela wmidani!

30. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven Tu icnobT Ggabriel beris sulier Svils da mowafes   mama nikolozs? da ra azris xarT masze?...
pasuxi:   vicnob mas!   ra azris unda viyo udidesi wminda beris gazrdilze. is namdvilia da yvela namdvili saqarTveloSi da, ara marto saqarTveloSi, elodeba mis gamoCenas. Mmisi devna Tqven nu gikvirT. devna namdvilebis xvedria!... nu nerviulobT, nikolozi ukve formaSia! (icinis).@`uyure RmerTsa, ra uyos mtersa!~ es gamoTqma Zalian miyvars, maSin Cemi angelozi am sityvebiT mamxnevebda.

31. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven rogor miiReT Zala?
  pasuxi: me mRvdeli var da simarTle unda vTqva rogorc sxvebze, aseve sakuTar Tavze, kargi iqneba es Tu cudi.… me maqvs Zala, magram ara ise, rogorc eqstrasensebma ician: `daviZine, gaviRviZe da Zala miviReo~. (icinis).
mase, CvenTan ar xdeba!... RmerTi daumsaxureblad Zalas aravis aZlevs!.. Tu gaZlevs, ara imitom, rom sxva daipyro, daimorCilo, ganacvifro da mere Tavi ganidido. ara, babua, ara, RmerTi Zalas imitom gaZlevs, rom RmerTs, samSoblos da adamianebs emsaxuro!...
adamiani, sanam RmerTisagan did Zalas miiRebs, gadis gamocdebs RmrTisagan erTgulebis, Tavmdablobis, siyvarulis, morCilebis, simamacis, simtkicis, samarTlianobis da sxva kuTxiT. didi Zalis mflobelebi warsulSi didi codvilebic iyvnen, imitom, rom   sxvebs RmerTad ar mieRoT da odesme   Tavadac ampartavnebiT ar daRupuliyvnen!
Zalis meti ra hqonda borots?!.. upirvelesi angelozi iyo da swored Zalis sacdurs ver gauZlo. swored Zalam daRupa is!... amitom, RmerTs wmidanebi winaswar daculi hyavs codvebiT: `codva Cemi winaSe Cemsa ars maradis~ _ gaixseneT didi wmida winaswarmetyveli mefe - daviTis sityvebi.
erTxel erTi budisti iyo mosuli mowameTaSi. naxevari dRe dahyo aq. saubarSi miTxra: `am adgilze didi energia ariso~... mec daveTanxme. vusmine, maT aqvT codna Zalebze. ar vityvi, rom isini Zalas uSromlad Rebulobdnen, magram ara suliwmindisgan. mere meubneba:
_ Tqven Zalian didi Zala gaqvTo...
_vgrZnobdi, saiT mihyavda saubari da vinc alaparakebda...
_ ra vici, `brusli~ ara var, mara ara uSavs vurtyamdi – meTqi.
_ar moewona... radgan Zala masac hqonda da xumroba damcirebad miiRo. cota xnis Semdeg mkiTxa:
  _ TqvenisTanebi bevri xarTo?
  _ sakmarisad-meTqi;
  _ Tqven xom omis mogeba SegiZliaTo! – sruli seriozulobiT mkiTxa.
  _ rogorc ki qriste brZanebs –meTqi. _ vupasuxe;
  _ ra omze gekiTxebaT? _ mkiTxa gakvirvebulma Tarjimanma, vuTxari ra omzec... gaognebulma Tavi gaiqnia. ara da,   im budistma, marTali Tqva!..Q xom iciT,   wmida daviT da konstantines   ori   omi   ujarod aqvT mogebuli!..
aqve gagaxsenebT wmida ioane oqropiris sityvebs: `gaiyvaneT brZolaSi asi aTasi kaci da   e r T i   w m i d a n i, vnaxoT vin mets SeZlebs?! isu navesi gavida sabrZolvelad da   m a r t o m   gaakeTa yvelaferi~.
wmidanebs SeuZliaT zemoqmedeba stiqiaze, adamianebze, rogorc sulierad, aseve xorcielad. nebismier myar materiaze, saerTod Zalian bevr rameze _ gaaCnia, ra Zalas floben RvTisgan. maT SeuZliaT imoqmedon asidan aTasobiT mtris cocxal Zalaze, mogvaron SiSi, panika, Zili, dabneuloba. SeuZliaT mwyobridan gamoiyvanon eleqtro da radio sistemebi, sabrZolo masala   da teqnika. mokled, Zalian bevri ram, magram yovelive amisTvis, wmidanebs RmerTis nebarTva, kurTxeva sWirdebaT! RmerTis neba ki mimarTulia eris sulieri gadarCenisaken.
RmerTma icis, rodis aRgvidginos teritoriuli mTlianoba. rodis gvepatieba codvebi. SemTxveviT ki ar davkargeT miwebi, an imitom, rom `cotani varT da dagvCagres~. ara, RmerTi gvwmendda da gvasufTavebda. mTavaria, RmerTTan movagvaroT codva-madlis sakiTxi da mere vnaxavT, RmerTi rasac moimoqmedebs!... amitom saqme wmidanebze ki ara, Cvenzea. Torem roca wmidanebi RmerTisgan miiReben nebarTvas, naxavT da ara marto Tqven, aramed mter-moyvare, mTeli msoflio, ra moimoqmedon wmidanebma da Cvenma jarma...
me arafers vaWarbeb, vambob imas, rasac vambob da pasuxismgebeli var RmerTTan TiToeul sityvaze!!!... vis ra sjera, es maTi saqmea. kidev vimeoreb, mTavaria Cven RmerTisagan gamoviTxovoT omSi gamarjvebis ufleba, RmerTTan miaxloebis, sinanulis da ganwmendis gziT.   hoda, wm.giorgi isev iqneba Cveni jaris saTaveSi. is ukve aq aris... aq arian sxva didi wmidanebic da elodebian im dRes, roca RmerTi dagvrTavs nebas, mters yvelaferze Zalian mwared vazRvevinoT. iloris wmida giorgi aq aris....   Tqven ver scnobT... me nasaubrebi var masTan da getyviT: Cveni gamarjvebebis dro Zalian axloa!... samSoblosTvis Tavdadeba igive RmerTisTvis Tavdadebaa da am gziT Zalian bevri daimkvidrebs sasufevels... ar SeorguldeT...   C v e n   a u c i l e b l a d   g a v i m a r j v e b T!… me es nanaxi maqvs... sul gaxsovdeT   es sityvebi:
`u y u r e T   R m e r T s a,   r a     u y o s     m t e r s a ! ~

32 kiTxva: mama giorgi, rusi wminda mama Teodosi kavkasielis (kaSini) cxovrebis Sesaxeb wignSi wavikiTxeT, rom sulieri Svilis kiTxvaze, Tu ramdeni wlis iyo, wm. mamam upasuxa: - 1000 wliso _ rodesac igive kiTxva ramdenjerme gaumeores, man jer - 600, xolo Semdeg – 400 weli daasaxela. Cven Tqvenamde ramdenime moZRvars vkiTxeT, Tu ras niSnavda wm.Teodosis aseTi pasuxi. zogma kiTxvas moxerxebulad aarida Tavi, zogmac gviTxra: _ wm. mamas es pasuxi salosobiT eqneboda naTqvamio.   Tqven ras gvetyviT amis Sesaxeb?

pasuxi: ara, eg salosobiT naTqvami ar aris!... salosoba moCvenebiTi sigiJea, gineba, loToba, SiSveli siaruli, wyevla da a.S. iq ki naxeT, wm.Teodosi rogor pasuxobs: _ `RmerTia mowme, rom ar vtyui da WeSmaritebas geubnebi, rom me 1000 wlisa varo~. hoda, raxan ase ambobda _ e.i. iyo!.. is sicocxleSive didi wmidani iyo, wmidanis maxsovroba da codna gaaCnda.
amitomaa eg sityvebi TqvenTvis gaugebari. yvelafers Tavisi dro aqvs!..…      

33. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tu uxerxuli ar iqneba, gviTxariT, Tqven ramdeni wlis brZandebiT?

pasuxi: brZanebis ra mogaxsenoT!... getyviT ager,   75-e welSi gadavabije. rogor matyobT, gavZleb me 100 wlamde?(icinis)    
_   RmerTma gacocxloT! _ vupasuxeT Cven.
_ hoda, daimaxsovreT, rasac getyviT: elia winaswarmetyvelis gamoCenis dro rom dadgeba, im dros unda gavide me mowameobrivi aRsasruliT... sikvdilis ki ar meSinia, ubralod, miyvars me adamianebi, Cemianebi miyvars! hoda, roca magrad momenatrebiT, qe Camoval isev aqeT (icinis)


34. kiTxva: mamao, xilva gqondaT,   gasvlis dro rom iciT?

pasuxi: sulieri kacis saqme sakuTari Tavis Secnoba da codvebis gamotirebaa. miwieri xvedri ki - tkivli da tanjvaa, da ara xilvebsa da gamocxadebebze ocnebebi!... RmerTs uyvars adamiani da uxaria masTan laparaki, magram amisaTvis didi simdablea saWiro. gaWirvebis Jams Tavis nebisaebr, mowyale RmerTi sxvadasxva saSualebebiTa da gzebiT cdilobs Sens gamoyvanas, gamxnevebas, gaZlierebas da es im dros xdeba, roca Sen amas arc ki moeli.
...movxucdi awi, zogjer Wamac maviwydeba... erTxel ise moxda, 20 dRis uWmeli viyavi. mxneobas arasodes vuCiodi, magram, marTali giTxra, cota davRaldi da CameZina. da swored am dros deda RmrTisagan meuwya Cemi gasvlis dro. adrec yofila deda RmrTisa mobrZanebuli. erTxel aseTi ram mibrZana:
_ giorgi,   V saukuneSi wmida   episkoposi awames samkveTeloSi. misi nakveTi sefiskveri dResac gaqvavebuli devs da Sen unda ipovoo!
didxans veZebdi. bolos ki vipove... saswaulia RmerTis Zala!
getyviT kidev: _ erTxel fuli damWirda Zalian, magram aravisTvis miTxovia. viyavi ise. erT dRes taZridan wamovedi qalaqisaken, sanam trasamde gavidodi, gzad rusis qali Semomxvda, mkiTxa:
_ mowameTel giorgis veZebo.
vuTxari, rom me viyavi.
meubneba: quTaisidan var. naTesavma ruseTidan 100 dolari gamomigzavna da mTxova, TqvenTvis amometana da sityviTac gadmomeca `serafime iyo mosuli da miTxra, giorgis fuli gaugzavneo.
_ vin serafime _ meTqi?
_ ar vici, batono, ase miTxra naTesavma aniCqamo.
_ morwmunea mere is aniCqa-meTqi?
_ kio - miTxra.
  hoda, mivxvdi, vin iyo serafime... is fuli ar damixarjavs. anda, rogor unda damexarja (amoiRo jibidan da gviCvena). aq saqme fulze rodia, es xom didi siyvarulia. wmida aleqsi SuSania bevrjer damxmarebia... giorgi brwyinvale Zalian didi sulia... stalini samoTxeSia!!!


35.kiTxva: mama giorgi, ratom geZaxian `fexiTmosiarules?~
...aba frTebi me ar maqvs da... fexiT davdivar, albaT amitom (icinis) ise 35-jer var namyofi fexiT TbilisSo. 4-jer leseliZemde, 4-jer aWaraSi, saingiloSic, saqarTvelos mTianeTSic, svaneTSic vyofilvar fexiT.
erTxel giorgobis Tve idga. cioda. fexiT mivuyvebodi Tbilisisaken. gvirabSi erTxelac ar gavsulvar. rikoTis Zvel gzas vadeqi. moulodnelad mglebis xrovam wre Semomartya. ar SemSinebiao ver getyviT, xelT araferi mqonda. hoda, RmerTis nebas mindobili videqi, radan uazroba iyo rame geRona. am dros cxenze amxedrebuli kaci gamoCnda da mkacrad mkiTxa:
    _ kaco, ra ginda amRam tyeSi da vin xaro?
    _ giorgi var, Wognareli meTqi.
    _ sxva giorgi Tu gagigia vinmeo?!
da im wams vifiqre- wm.giorgi aris ueWvelad meTqi...
fiqrze pausxi momago:
    _ ho, ho, xedav gadamirCenixaro...
hkra maTraxi cxens da gaaWena. rom mivixed-movixede mglebi aRarsad Candnen. ise es Tqvenamde aravisTvis momiyolia.(icinis)


36. kiTxva: mama giorgi, `iaRovas mowmeebi~ Zalze momravldnen. Tanac maT aRmsareblobiT uflebebs da Tavisuflebas saxelmwifo icavs. aseT pirobebSi Cven, marTlmadideblebma, rogori pozicia unda davikavoT maT mimarT? visxdeT gulxeldakrefili da velodoT, sanam isini aqeT Semogviteven?

pasuxi: nu geSiniaT Tqven `iaRovelebis~, nurc sxva romelime seqtis, nurc sxva religiebis da nurc eSmakis, geSinodes mxolod RmerTis da codvebis qmnis. `ieRovas mowmeebis~ swavleba borotis gamogonebaa!.. maTTan ra unda WeSmaritebas?! da visTanac ar aris WeSmariteba, isini ganwirulni arian da maTTan ra esaqmeba qarTvelebs!. qarTveli bunebiT qristiania da Tu vinme mciredmorwmunebis gamo, an motyuebiT, raime danapirebis gamo aris maTTan _ TuU qarTvelia, gamova iqedan da daubrundeba marTlmadideblobas. Tu ar gamova... da   iyos iq !..   sulgayiduli vis raSi argebs?! ra dRes, ra xval isini mainc uRalateben RmerTsac da ersac!..
Cven ra unda vqnaT da Cvens Tavs unda vebrZoloT!... roca qarTveli marTlmadideblobaSi mtkiced idgeba, roca mTeli misi cxovreba RmerTisaken iqneba mimarTuli, vin ra unda dagvaklos? iaron da iaron mag iaRoveleba wignebiT, ras dagvakleben!.. daiRlebian da miatoveben!...
magram   dRes Cven TviTon varT meryevni. Cven ar varT mowodebis simaRleze. Cven TviTon bevr rameSi vcodavT da vaZlevT biZgs adamianebs, ar gaekaron mRvdlebs da eklesias!...
ucxoeTi amden fuls ggoniaT windauxedavad xarjavs `Cvenze?~ maT kargad aqvT Seswavlili Cveni eris rogorc sulieri, ise materialuri yofis problemebi. hoda, imedovneben mRvrie wyalSi Tevzis daWeras.
cota xnis win erTi kaci miyveboda, rom somxeTSi Cinelebs araferi gamouvidaTo. kaci ar Sedis maT maRaziebSio... Tu ar gayida Cinelma, somxeTis qvebis sayureblad ki ar Casulan Cinelebio!.. hoda, iaron iaRovelebma mag lamazi wignebiT da roca qarTveli ar mousmens, maSin TviTonve mogveSvebian. am iaRovelebis didi nawili sacodavi xalxia. nawili ki - borotis modgma.   Cven `iaRovelebi~ ki ara, Zalian mzakvari da daxvewili mwvaleblebic ver mogvrevian!...   e r i   i w m i n d e b a   da   i c r e b a !   unda gamoCndes, vin, vinaa. Zalian bevri gadamTieli `gagviqarTvelda~, qarTuli gvarebiTa da saxelebiT daijgimebian. hoda, RmerTi gvexmareba imis garCevaSi, vin aris qarTveli da vin ara!... CvenTan vin ar cxovrobda, romeli eris warmomadgeneli. aravin ar dagviCagravs da arc maTi aRmsarebloba SegvizRudavs. yvelas Tavisi rjuli aqvs. icxovron, visac rogor unda, da Tu saxelmwifom kanoniT ganisazRvra, ra aris amaSi saSiSi? dRes msoflio mainc mogvTxovda da gvaiZulebda ase gagvekeTebina `demokratiuli Rirebeulebebidan~ gamomdinare. icxovron batono, magram!... Cvensas nu Seexebian!!!
ise safrTxe sxvebSi ki ar unda veZeboT, aramed sakuTar TavSi. Cveni safrTxe is aris, rom Cven TviTon vera varT WeSmariti marTlmadideblebi!.. ar gewyinoT, Tqvenc, vinc aq dgaxarT, arc Tqven ara xarT marTlmadidebelni!... marTlmadidebloba partiis wevroba ki ar aris, rom gaecno wesdebas da ixado sawevro. marTlmadidebloba _ es aris RmerTis mier dadgenili cxovrebis wesi. es aris sicocxle RmerTSi. RmerTTan urTierTobis erTaderTi WeSmariti gza! es aris yoveldRiuri cxovreba, romelsac didi gafrTxileba, zrunva, mondomeba, srulyofa da mecadineoba sWirdeba.
marTlmadidebloba, es sisavsea da amitom marTlmadidebeli ver gaxdebi mxolod erTi niSniT. marTlmadidebloba ar aris mxolod gulis an gonebis, marto.…sanaxevrod marTlmadidebloba iseve ar aris cocxali, rogorc xorci ar aris cocxali sulis gareSe!...
marTlmadidebloba aris RmerTis marTali, swori, WeSmariti dideba. rogor ggoniaT, isini, vinc dRes aramarTlmadideblebi arian, yvelani borotebi iyvnen?! ara, babua; bevri eri sxvagan imitom gadavida, rom marTlmadidebloba Zalian mZime da Zneli aRsasrulebelia. Znelia, babua, Zneli!!! mxolod marTlmadideblebs devnis ase sastikad boroti. Tu siZneles, tkivils, mwuxarebas ar grZnob, es imas niSnavs, rom Sen mxolod pirjvars iwer marjvnidan marcxniv da meti rame saerTo ara gaqvs WeSmaritebasTan.
marTlmadidebloba ar aris raime kanonis, an wesis, an ritualebis erToblioba. yovelive es adamians ise SeuZlia aRasrulos, rom raime saerTo ar hqondes marTlmadideblobasTan. gaixseneT makar didisa da eSmakis dialogi.
`marTlmadidebloba aris sulis iseTi mdgomareoba, roca adamians ar SeuZlia RmerTis gareSe. ar SeuZlia RmerTis dakargva da Ralati.~
marTlmadidebeli grZnobs RmerTs. sunTqavs RmerTis siyvaruliT. misTvis RmerTi umTavresia. kanonebi da wesebi ki, is saSualebebia, romlebsac mihyavxar am mdgomareobamde. magram ugulod Sesrulebuli kanonebi, TavisTavad arafris momcemia!..
marTlmadidebels stkiva suli da guli, roca xedavs usamarTlobas. RmerTTan orgulobas, roca xedavs daCagruls, gaWirvebuls, avadmyofs. roca xedavs uwesrigobas, siyalbes, qveynis gaCanagebas. ukanonod moWril xeebs, dangreul quCebs, yaCaRobas da kidev bevr umsgavsoebasa da uRmerToebas!    
SeiZleba dRe da Rame eklesiaSi dadiodes kaci, magram WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli ar iyos. SeiZleba Zalian bevrs loculobs da marxulobs kaci, magram marTlmadidebeli ar iyos. gaqvs rwmena, magram ara gaqvs siyvaruli - ara xar srulyofili marTlmadidebeli! gaqvs siyvaruli, magram ar misdev da ar icav simarTles - ara xar marTlmadidebeli! icav marxvebs, eziarebi, magram gZuls moyvasi - ara xar WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli! mRvdeli xar, wirav, iRvwi, magram ar ganicdi gaWirvebulisadmi sibraluls - ara xar sruli marTlmadidebeli!   mowyalebas gascem, aSeneb eklesias, magram yovelive amas angarebiT akeTeb ara xar namdvili marTlmadidebeli! sufTa xar, keTilsindisierad aRasruleb RvTismsaxurebas (mRvdeli), mgram usamarTloba suls ar gtkens da laCrobiT xuWav Tvalebs - ara xar WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli!.. patiosnad Sromob, gaWirvebuls exmarebi, cols ar Ralatob, magram Svilebs ver zrdi Rirseulad – ara xar marTlmadidebeli! kargi morwmune, meojaxe, qmris erTguli qali xar, magram Suri gWams sxva qalebisa, an keTildReobis, an garegnobis – ara xar marTlmadidebeli! da ramdeni ramis Tqma SeiZleba. xedav, babua?!... marTlmadidebloba eris sisrulea! eris srulyofilebisaken SesaSuri swrafva! marTlmadidebloba, RmerTis saTno, RmerTis gasaxari cxovrebis wesia da ara mxolod mkerdze jvris tareba da kanonebis, wesebis yalbi Sesruleba.
Cven, roca mTeli arsiT SevudgebiT RmerTs, vis SeuZlia Cveni damarcxeba. `iaRovelebs~, kaTolikebs, budistebs, uriebs Tu Cinelebs?! aravis, babua!... Cven, rom samRvdeloebaSi sruliad wmidanebi gveyoleba, iqneba vinme gulgatexili qarTveli? _ ara! hoda, es kargi droebac iwyeba da yvelam erTad unda movindomoT.

37 kiTxva: bolo Jamis erT-erTi rusi wmida mama, n i k o n i, romelic komunisturi reJimis dros ewama, sicocxlis bolo dReebSi, gadasaxlebidan axloblisadmi miweril werilSi wers: `veragi da gandgomili droeba dadga!.. xalxs ras mosTxov, roca sulieri winamZRvrebi danebdnen!... guldawyvetiT minda giTxra Cemo suliero Zmao, droeba awi sul ufro xarbad da muxanaTurad STanTqavs adamianTa sulebs!...~
`... radgan im dros sulieri moZRvrebic nebayoflobiT aRasruleben antiqristes neba-survils ise, rom arc sindisi da arc saRvTo movaleobis grZnoba aRar SeawuxebT.
`... droSi naxaven, TiTqos raRac gamoswordeba, TiTqos xelisufleba molba, mere Seicvleba kidevac, TiTqos suliereba aRorZinebas daiwyebs da aRdgeba eklesia-monastrebi, magram icodeT, Cemo suliero Zmebo da debo, sul ufro daumegobrdiT sifrTxiles! sul gaxsovdeT mociqulis sityvebi: `ara `adgili~ gaswmends kacss, aramed kaci gaswmeds adgils?... ifxizleT `sulierad, radgan didia mzakvris Canafiqri!..~
`... imxanad, qveyana sulier `TviTkmayofilebas~ miecema, sulier aRorZinebaze kvexnas daiwyeben, fexis xmas ayolilebi, sxvaTa mosaCveneblad morwmunis garegnobiT taZrebs simravliT Seavseben. qveynis didebulebi da warCinebulnic `morCilad~ moixrian qeds wirva-locvebze, magram cxonebis gzas acdenilebi, farisevlebis mier miwodebuli `maTrobelaTi~ gabruebulni jojoxeTSi CaeSvebian!~
`... magram mowyalea RmerTi, romelic Tavis rCeulebs aRuxels sulier Tvalebs da isinic SeZleben, aRmoaCinon im droisaTvis qveynad sasuliero pirTa aseTi `nairferovneba~:

1. patiosani, naswavli, locvismoyvare da Tavmdabali pirovnebebi, romelTac, samwuxarod, sulieri xedva da gamocdileba ar eqnebaT, ris gamoc droSi brZolebis matebasa da adamianTa codvebis mozRvavebasTan erTad, SesaZloa, ver gauZlon da danebdnen. nawili - gaaRwevs RmerTamde, wmindanTa xazze gasvliT.
2. zerele da nelTbili `msaxurni~. didi iqneba maTi ricxvi, isini samwysos RmerTamde ver gaiyvanen.
3. urwmunoni _ adamianTa es jgufebi, samRvdeloebaSi mokalaTdebian, materialuri keTildReobis da sxvadasxva `aucileblobebis~ gamo, an sxvaTa rCeviTa da davalebiT. sinamdvileSi, isini, Tavidanve, ver iqnebian mRvdlebi da maTi `samwyso~ did gansacdelSi aRmoCndeba.
4. codvilni _ vambob did codvebze, romelTa Camdenni, ar SeiZleba, rom taZrad msaxurebdnen. maTi samwyso daRupvis pirze iqneba.
5. sulgayidulni _ es is adamianebi iqnebian, romlebic MmTavrobis SiSiT, an miwieri pativis JiniT gahyidian suls. aqve iqnebian, viRacis an raRacas gamoqceulni, romelnic eklesias Seafareben Tavs da `CekistebTan~ iTanamSromleben.
6. borotis msaxurebi _ nu gagikvirdebaT, Cemo megobrebo, imxanad taZrebSi aseTebic iqnebian, yvelaze saSiSni da veragni, radgan sulieri xedvac eqnebaT da Zalac. isini Caixedaven adamianis SinaganSi, auwyeben maT warsulsa da momavals, adamianTa dasanaxad didxans iloceben da `gonierad~ iqadageben.
garegnulad saTnoebis bevri xiluli niSniT iqnebian `Semosilni”, piriT sul uflis nebisadmi morCilebas mouwodeben, saqmiT ki, samwysos, jojoxeTurad daimorCileben, raTa advilad marTvadi mrevli Caabaron TavianT borot brZanebels. aseTi `moZRvrebis~ neba-survils damorCilebuli sabralo adamianebi azrovnebas Sewyveten da maTTvis marTlmadideblobis mterni, maTive `moZRvrebi~ gaxdebian.
RmerTo, dagvifare! mZime yofas grZnobs Cemi suli!...
es mtaceblebi moxiblaven, Tavs Seayvareben gulubryvilo adamianebs da maTi ZaliT daSterebuli da sulier xedvas moklebuli adamianebi simarTlis `damcvelebad~, mowyaleebad da madlmosilebad aRiareben maT.
am sulier mtaceblebTan miaxlebac saSiSi iqneba, araTu maT winaSe aRsareba da maTi nebelobaSi SemoSveba, radgan maTTan urTierToba daasneulebs adamianebs rogorc fizikurad, aseve sulierad.
magram Cemda da Tqvenda sanugeSod, getyviT imasac, rom RmerTs imxanad eyoleba:
7. wmidanebi _ wmindanTa locva akavebda uflis risxvas, maTi locviTa da tanjviT iZleoda boroti da im bolo gamocdis Jamsac isini Segifareben, dagicaven, gamogzrdian da migiyvanen RmerTTan!...~ (avtoris Targmani).
mama giorgi, ras gvetyodiT wmida mamis am werilze?
pasuxi: ver gavige ras mekiTxebiT?!... ra unda giTxraT?! es wmida mowamis sityvebia!... hoda, ra unda gadaamowmoT?!...
mowame mRvdelma es gafrTxileba adamianTa usazRvro siyvaruliTa da maTi gadarCenis didi surviliT gamogzavna, rac sicocxlis fasad daujda!... man SesaniSnavad icoda, am mokle, magram zusti aRweriT, rom antiqristes msaxurebs è`etakeboda!~, magram is wmidani iyo da sxvanairad arc moiqceoda!...
man es sityvebi, RvTis CagonebiT, bolo Jamis morwmuneTa gamosafxizleblad dawera, da amdenad, morwunes evaleba yurad iRos, aRmoaCinos da darwmundes wmida mamis sityvebis WeSmaritebaSi.
ar gewyinoT, magram Tqven tvinis ganZrevac ar gindaT da ise elodebiT wmida mamaTagan cxonebis mza receptebs da mza pasuxebs!... me geubnebiT, Tu sulierad ar viRvaweT, cxonebisTvis piradad ar viSromeT da sulierad ar vifxizleT, ratom ggoniaT wmida mamis es werili, rom mxolod rusebs exeba da sxvas aravis ar Seexeba?!...
droeba yvelasTvis erTia, wmida mamebi mTel dedamiwas afrTxileben!...
am werilSi pasuxic aris, gafrTxilebac da gamosavlis miniSnebac!...
getyobaT, rom mogewonaT wmida mamis mier gakeTebuli daxasiaTeba bolo Jamis samRvdeloebisa, Torem am werils ar wamikiTxavdiT aq me!...
mogewonaT, radgan masSi simarTle aRmoaCineT, Tqven raRac gecnoT iqidan, magram imdenad damokidebuli xarT sxvebze da imdenad SezRuduli sulier azrovnebaSi, rom CemTan raRacis dasturis misaRebad moxvediT!. nu geSiniaT, eg ar aris codva!...
`TeTrisa da Savis garCeva~ _ es macxovris gafrTxilebaa!... es aucilebeli nabijia. hoda, unda gaarCioT kidevac!... cudi droa!... saxifaToa gulubryviloba da gaurCevlad sxvaTa mindoba!...
`iyaviT mecnier, viTarca gvelni da umankoni, viTarca tredni~ _ gvafrTxilebs macxovari.
jer erTi, es natanji da wamebuli wmida mamis sityvebia, meore, Tu ki Tavadac grZnob, rom marTali sityvaa, raRad unda mas gadamowmeba?! ver gamigia?, Tu ufro, me mamowmebdiT?!... me sul mamowmeben, babua, `Cvenianebic~da `sxvisnebic~. jariskacis mamis ar iyos, rom iZaxis: „gde nemci... gde naSi?“ (icinis).
me aravis ar meSinia, babua!.. marTali sityva es RmerTamde misvlis umoklesi da utyuari gzaa!... Cemi azri Tu gainteresebT, am werilis Sesaxeb, ra Tqma unda veTanxmebi wmida mamis am winaswarmetyvelebas!
Tqven ki nu geSiniaT, saqarTvelo bevri ramiT aris daculi, saqarTvelo qristes qveyanaa. Cveni eris aTaswlovani tanjva da qristesTvis daRvrili zRva sisxli aris swored is sulieri zRude, rac dagvicavs bolo Jamis qarTvelebs. Cven namdvili samRvdeloeba gveyoleba!...gadarCenis msurvelT mowyale RmerTi dedamiwis arcerT kuTxeSi ar datovebs Seuwevnelad.

38. kiTxva: mamao, Cven patara eri varT, mteri da arakeTilmosurne bevri gvyavs, gavuZlebT?

pasuxi: jer erTi - sulac ara varT patara eri. meore kidev - Zala simravlesa da tankebSi rodia!   Z a l a   W e S m a r i t e b a S i a!   ricxviT Tormetni iyvnen mociqulebi, mere-da gana damarcxdnen?!..
Cven sazepuro eri varT. saqarTvelo qristes qveyanaa da qriste ar daTmobs mas. qristes arasodes miutovebia saqarTvelo, mxolod Cven ar mivatovoT qriste RmerTi. is ruseTica da is amerikac qristes xelSia. verc erTi verafers dagvaklebs, gjerodeT es! yvela da yvelaferi uZluria iq, sadac RmerTi Zalas gamoavlens.
saqarTvelos istoria xiluli da uxilavi omebis istoriaa! xom xedavT, ver Cakles CvenSi RmerTis siyvaruli, swrafva Tavisuflebisa da srulyofilebisaken. dRes qarTveloba axali ZaliT daiZra RmrTisaken. iwyeba didi gamoRviZeba!   saqarTvelo msoflio donis sulieri aRmoCenebis wina periodSia. gamaognebeli zogadsakacobrio mniSvnelobis saidumloebebi gamJRavndeba saqarTveloSi. RmerTi msoflios daanaxebs qarTvelobis namdvil saxes da es male iqneba. es ar aris legenda - es simarTlea. RmrTisagan dafaruli uzarmazari codna, romelic saidumlod gadaecemoda wm.berebs Taobidan TaobaSi da romelsac wignebSi ver amoikiTxavT, male gagvexsneba. amitom cocxali wmindanebi unda veZeboT. nuravin getyviT, rom dRes ar arian didi Zalis, madlisa da codnis matarebeli adamianebi, miTumetes CvenTan, saqarTveloSi. isini arian da arian saidumlod; oRond saqme isa, wmindanis amocnoba Tavad siwmindes moiTxovs. saqarTvelo wmindanTa samWedloa! mTeli msoflios keTili sistema elodeba qarTvelTa gamosvlas. es icis borotma sistemamac, amitomac ar gvanebebs Tavs, rogorc sulierad, ase politikuradac. magram fuWia maTi Sroma, ver mogverevian!... is, rac RvTisgan daigegma da winaswarmetyvelebiT gveuwya, yovelive aRsruldeba. oRond didi Sromaa saWiro. es Sroma qarTvelebisagan udides Zalisxmevasa da pasuxismgeblobas moiTxovs. arc sxvaTa mibaZviT da arc sxvebis imedad araferi gamova. Znelia qarTveloba, magram aucilebeli!...
mTavaria sulieri ganwmenda, namdvili rwmena da siyvaruli RmrTisa. ganwmenda eklesiidan daiwyeba. roca ers RmerTTan Suamavlad Rirseuli da wminda adamianebi eyoleba, eri metad ganmtkicdeba rwmenasa da siyvarulSi da warmatebac ar daayovnebs!
omis bedi   c a S i   wydeba. oms jer berebi(sulier RvawlSi dabrZenebuli) igeben - sulier oms, mere ki xiluli (politikuri) gamarjveba miwaze xdeba. jer wmidanebi amarcxeben codvebsa da borotebas, mere ki eri Rebulobs politikur damoukideblobas da daiwyebs aRorZinebas.  
saqarTvelo yvela dakargul miwa-wyals daibrunebs! daimaxsovreT es!

39. kiTxva: mama giorgi, ras ityviT didgoris omze. dRes gamoCndnen pirebi, romlebic eWvqveS ayeneben istoriul wyaroebSi moyvanili samxedro Zalebis raodenobas.

pasuxi: didgoris omi Tavis istoriuli da religiuri mniSvnelobiT udidesi omia. maSin saqarTvelom saRmrTo omSi gaimarjva. omis warmoebis rogorc strategiuli, ise taqtikuri da sulieri TvalsazrisiT man, Tavisi gansakuTrebuli adgili daikava msoflio istoriaSi. maSin didgorze wydeboda ara marto qarTvelTa bedi, aramed mTeli marTlmadidebeli saqristianosi!... es omi jer kidev ar aris srulyofilad Seswavlili. da rom ambobT, viRac gamoCnda da raRac eeWvebao. getyviT, me ratomRac   qarTveli ar mgonia is, SeiZleba somexi iyos…..eseni ver gaZRnen qarTvelTa SuriT, rogorc sxva Cveni `moZmeni~, Cvendami religiuri SuriT. me vurCevdi maT, daanebon Tavi qarTvelTa istoriaSi da aseve qarTvelTa sulSi xelebis faTurs, sanam RmerTis risxva daatydebodeT!..   daviTma moigo es omi da moigo didi saxeliT da mitom aris is daviTi. daviT mefe gacilebiT ufro didia, vidre   ubralod wminda keTilmsaxuri mefe!. naxeT, ras wers daviT mefeze Cveni didi wminda mama arsen iyalToeli: `bunebiT RmerTi, madliT RmerTqmnilTa Soris~ _ madliT RmerTqmnili e.i ganRmrTobilebi arian wmidanebi, romlebmac ganRmrToeba miiRes RmerTis madliT, xolo d a v i T i   k i   b u n e b i T   R m e r T i a o! amas daakvirdiT!... da rom es momenti dRevandeli morwmuneebisTvis gaugebaria, metyvelebs imaze, rom Cven dRes ara varT Cveni winaprebis religiuri cnobierebis doneze, da amaSi marto Cveni istoriis umZimesi pirobebi ki araa damnaSave, aramed Cveni sulieri winamZRvrebis daudevroba da sulieri xedvis uqonlobac. Magram, RvTis madliT, dgeba Jami, roca yovelive gamJRavndeba da yovelives Tavisi saxeli daerqmeva. cnobisTvis getyviT aseve: Cveni udidesi mefe _ giorgi V brwyinvalec_aris bunebiT RmerTi da ara madliT RmerTqmnili!
bevri ram aris iseTi, rasac axla ver getyviT, ara imitom, rom meSinia. eSinodes borots da matyuaras _ me simarTles vambob, magram jer Tqveni goneba ar aris mzad aseTi codnis misaRebad.
daviT mefes brZolis velis imnairi xedva gaaCnda, rogor giTxraT... xom ginaxavT filmebSi Senelebuli kadrebi? hoda, amnairad xedavda daviTi misken   gamosrolil Subebsa da isrebs da xmliTac SeeZlo Camoeyara isini. male moqmedi wmidanebi, Zalian bevr, dRemde ucnob rameebs gagixsnian rogorc daviT mefeze piradad, aseve Tavad didgoris omze.
Cveni samSoblos bolo, gadamwyvet brZolebSi monawileobis misaRebad RmerTi gamogzavnis didgorze naomar wmidanebs iseve, rogorc maT   didgorze miuvlina didi wmida giorgi xiluli mxedris saxiT!.
Tu jojoxeTidan amosul sulebs SeuZliaT xorcieli saxiT iaron_ Cven dasaRupavad. rava, wmidanebs ar SeuZliaT Cvens gadasarCenad Camosvla?! rogor fiqrobT, Tu eSmakebs SeuZliaT wmidanebis saxis miReba, TviT ufalisac (garda yovladwminda RvTismSoblisa), rava wmidanebs ar SeuZliaT borotis saxis miReba da maT sistemaSi SeRweva, maTi gegmebis CasaSlelad?!   SeuZliaT, babua!!!
eSmakebsa da uria bolSevikebs (garda trockisa) didxans egonaT stalini eSmaki ara imitom, rom Wkuasustebi iyvnen, aramed imitom, rom stalinma bevri iseTi ram Caidina, riTac   umtkicebda maT Tavis `borotebas~, raTa SeeRwia maT sistemaSi. SeaRwia da Tavebi waacala! stalinma   SeZlo masonebis msoflioze gabatoneba aTeuli wlebiT SeeCerebina!.. ise, vin Caxedavs   RmerTis gangebas!.. arc giorgi saakaZeze viciT Cven WeSmariteba. is RmerTs Zalian uyvarda da ebraleboda.
40. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven xSirad ambobT, rom afxazeTSi male davbrundebiT. mainc, Tqven rogor xedavT,   es dabruneba omiT iqneba Tu mSvidobiT?

pasuxi: Tqveni SekiTxva mxolod sulier mxares, rom moicavdes, ufro Tavisuflad gipasuxebdiT, magram rogorc xedavT, kiTxva mainc moicavs politikur mxaresac. Tumca sasuliero pirma pasuxi mainc ise unda gasces, rogorc amas misi sulieri xedva moiTxovs... moewoneba es viRacas Tu ara!...
Cven afxazeTSi aucileblad davbrundebiT, surT Tu ara es afxazebs, rusebs da kidev viRac-viRaceebs!... Cven davbrundebiT, miuxedavad imisa, moegebian gons Cveni afxazi Zmebi, Tu kidev ufro gaisastikeben guls Cvens mimarT!...
Cveni dabrunebis politikuri winapirobebic gamoikveTa, vgulisxmob xelisuflebis pozitiur nabijebs sagareo politikaSi da, aqedan gamomdinare, saerTaSoriso sazogadoebis damokidebulebas saqarTvelosadmi.
afxazeTSi Cveni dabrunebis ramdenime gegma `d e v s~ RmrTis winaSe da TiToeuli gegmis ukan sxvadasxva Zalis angelozebi da aseve saqarTvelosaTvis meoxi sxvadasxva wmidanebi dganan.  
yvelaferi damokidebulia Cvenze _ qarTvelebze! imaze, Tu rogor davuaxlovdebiT RmerTs. mTavari aris RmrTis winaSe gamocdis Cabareba!..   eris gamoRviZeba da masze RvTiT dakisrebuli sulieri misiis gacnobiereba, gaTaviseba da ganxorcieleba. swored am misiisaTvis gvamzadebda RmerTi. erTxel ukve giTxariT: amdeni tkivili, tanjva, simware da sisxli iyo Cveni gansabaneli codvebisagan. Torem Cven ver mogverevian, ufro metic, Cven ver gagviZleben!... me am sityvebiT aravis ar vaSineb, aramed vambob simarTles!... es asea!...  
mowyale RmerTi afxazebsac aZlevs drosa da Sanss sulieri gadarCenisaTvis, qarTvelebTan Tanacxovrebis gziT!... amas isini odesRac mainc mixvdebian, magram me vusurvebdi droze aRmoeCinoT maT es. saqarTvelo msoflio sulieri misiis qveyanaa, ara imitom, rom es Cven gvindoda ase, aramed imitom, rom ase RmerTma ineba!...
Tu qarTvelebma ase mwared vzReT codvebis gamo. geubnebiT: _ RvTis risxva gacilebiT sastiki iqneba afxazebisaTvis!... urCobis, gandgomis, RvTisgan boZebuli gzis uaryofisaTvis!...
is Tu, afxazeTis dabrunebis, romel gegmas aamoqmedebs RmerTi, damokidebulia isev Cvenze da afxazebzec!... yvela gegma dagvabrunebs afxazeTSi, magram ris fasad?!... Tu qarTvelma erma SesZlo didi sulieri ZvrebiT winsvla, xolo afxazebma ki   RvTis gangebulebis gulisxmiyofa _ afxazeTi dabrundeba mSvidobianad, magram   Tu Cveni eri CamorCa sulieri ganviTarebis RvTiT gansazRvrul vadebs da aseve Tu afxazebi sulierad ver gamoixedaven TvalebSi, geubnebiT:   o m i   g a r d a u v a l i a!!!... es aris Cemi sulieri xedva da ara politikuri prognozi!...
bevrs SeuZlia ganmikiTxos imis gamo, rom sasuliero piri omnze vlaparakob, magram minda vuTxra maT: _ ara mgonia, Tqven, berebze ufro faqizi suli gqondeT!... da meorec, Tu omi RvTisagan daiSva, maSin ras gvibrZanebT sasuliero pirebs?! – rava, `msoflios mbrZanebelTa~ saameblad viZaxoT, `mSvidoba da mxolod mSvidobao?!~ es SeuZliaT politikosebs, sasuliero pirebs ki yvelaferSi RvTis morCileba gvmarTebs! RvTis yvelanairi gadawyvetileba madlierebiTa da morCilebiT unda miviRoT!...
msurs, sworad gamigoT!   omi ar minda da aqedan gamomdinare, aravis movuwodeb omisaken, magram dRes-dReobiT Cveni sulieri winsvlis tempebi da Tavad afxazebis sulieri mdgomareoba, samwuxarod, maZlevs im varaudis safuZvels, rom SeiZleba RmerTma dauSvas afxazeTis dabrunebis `omis gegmis~ amoqmedeba!...
isev vimeoreb, m T a v a r i a   R m e r T i!... gaero, evrokavSiri,   amerika, ruseTi, safrangeTi... ise alaparakdebian, rogorc RmerTs surs CvenTvis! saqarTvelos gaerTianebis da aRorZinebis gasaRebs tyuila daeZebs bevri amerikaSi da bevric ruseTSi! es gasaRebi aqve aris _ saqarTveloSi, ufro metic _ TiToeul qarTvelSi! es aq, da `zeciur saqarTveloSi~ wydeba!...
CvenTvis umTavresia RvTiT dakisrebuli misiis aRsruleba, amisTvis ki wmidanebis `gamoWedvaa” saWiro!... marTalia es procesi karga xania masebisaTvis SeumCnevlad mimdinareobs, magram ara im tempebSi, rasac RmerTi moiTxovs Cvengan!...
Tu droSi “CaveteviT”, maSin RmerTi dauSvebs dabrunebis `mSvidobian gegmas~ da Tu RmerTma mainc aamoqmeda `omis gegma~ – isev Cveni `dagvianebis~ gamo, getyviT, Cven mainc gavimarjvebT am umZimes omSi, Tumca, didi sisxlis fasad!... amitom, yvelas gvevaleba droze gavacnobieroT Cveni piradi misia da Cveni samSoblos sulieri davalebis aRsrulebisaTvis Tavdauzogavi da Segnebuli Sromis aucilebloba!... qarTvelebma WeSmariti sulieri xedva unda movimuSakoT da amave dros viswavloT saxelmwifoebrivi azrovneba!...
ar gikvirT, Txutmeti wlis dagvianebiT ratom aRiara gaerom qarTvelTa `genocidi~ – eTnowmenda?! gana es `araRiareba~ mxolod `sainformacio omis wagebiT~ iyo ganpirobebuli?! ara, amas antiqristes `msoflio mafia~ ar akeTebda da arc gaakeTebda misdRemCi!... gaeros es nabiji qarTvel wmidanTa TxuTmetwliani locvisa da brZolis Sedegia da aseve xelisuflebis didi Zalisxmevac. TxuTmeti weli dasWirdaT wmidanebs, rom gaerRviaT is uxilavi, sulieri rkali, romelSic Segvityues SevardnaZem da misma `Crdiloelma~ Tu `dasavlelma~ masonma Zmebma.
`gaeros~ es nabiji qarTvel wmidanTa gamarjvebaa, rasac udidesi sulieri zewolis Sedegad miaRwies. es procesi erisaTvis uxilavad mimdinareobda, eri mxolod miRweul politikur nabijebsRa afiqsirebs...
amisTvis loculobda yvela namdvili... didi sulieri, uxilavi Sroma aqvs gaweuli u w m i n d e s s... amisTvis vloculobdi me piradadac!....
Cven antiqristes sistema gvebrZvis, magram minda SegaxsenoT qarTvel wmida mamaTa nugeSis sityvebi: `antiqriste saqarTveloSi taxts ver daidgams! saqarTveloSi mas Tavad q r i s t e   R m e r T i   daxvdeba!!!...~  
aucilebelia ufro bejiTad viRvawoT sulierad!.. dro ar iTmens!... RvTis gegmis Sesrulebas Cveni dauRalavi, gonivruli da sulieri garja sWirdeba! qarTvel wmidanebs udidesi sulieri codna da Zala gaaCniaT, magram es codna da Zala rom gadmogabaron, Tavad unda iyoT mzad, amas ki sulieri Rvawli sWirdeba!...
Cven aucileblad gavimarjvebT!

41. kiTxva: mama giorgi, patriarqis cnobil qadagebaSi xazgasmuli axali azri `saqarTveloSi samefo taxtis aRdgenis Sesaxeb~, politikuri partiebis mier gamoyenebul iqna saprezidento mmarTvelobis gauqmebis moTxovnis sababad. Tqven ras ityodiT amis Sesaxeb?.

pasuxi: saqarTvelos mefe eyoleba!... da eyoleba TviT qriste RmerTis mier gansazRvrul Jams!!!
    bolo Jamis saqarTvelos RvTiTkurTxeuli mefe nawinaswarmetyvelebia ara erTi qarTveli wmidanis mier... qarTveli wmidanebis mTeli Taobebi iRvwodnen da dResac iRvwian erisaTvis am umniSvnelovanes sakiTxze. amis Sesaxeb naTqvamia didi SoTa rusTavelis “vefxistyaosan”-Sic.
mefe iqneba saRmrTo xedvisa da didi sulieri Zalis mflobeli pirovneba da ara mxolod politikuri figura, an kidev, ubralod, simbolo `frTebSekvecili~ mmarTvelisa, rogorc es warmoudgeniaT da surT calkeul politikosebs!!! ara! mefe iqneba   s v e t i   marTlmadideblobisa, Zlieri mmarTveli!   m e f e _ d i d i   d a v i T i s   s u l i T !!!
mefis gamoCena aranairad ar aris damokidebuli raime politikur situaciaze. rogorc giTxariT, is gamoCndeba Tavis droze da am dros verc veravin daaCqarebs da verc veravin daayovnebs! piradi politikuri ambiciebiTa da Zalauflebis JiniT Sepyrobil adamianTa yvela mcdeloba, saTavisod gamoiyenon uwmindesisa da unetaresis ilia II-is qadageba samefo dinastiis aRdgenis Sesaxeb, didi codvaa da ganwirulia damarcxebisTvis. Tumca am daZabul viTarebaSi rom uwmindesis sityva araerTazrovnad iqneboda aRqmuli sxvadasxva Zalebis mier, imTaviTve iyo naTeli.
vimeoreb, cxebuli mefis mosamzadeblad moqmedi wmidanebi didi xania, rac iRvwian. ase rom, es procesi xval ki ar iwyeba yrma bagrationis SerCeviT, aramed mimdinareobs da es wmidanTa saidumloa!... vurCev yvelas, vinc konstituciuri monarqiis SemoRebas imitom moiTxovs, rom sakuTari politikuri miznebis ganaxorcielebas moiazrebs amaSi, an kidev arasasurveli pirovnebis maTTvis xelsayreli figuriT Secvlas, SeeSvan cecxlTan TamaSs!!! mefe ar gamoCndeba im dros, rogorc es Zalauflebis wyurviliT suldabnelebul adamianTa jgufs swadia!.. da ar iqneba is pirovneba, vizedac isini imeds amyareben!... RmerTs gansazRvruli aqvs droc da is didi sulis RvTismoyvare pirovnebac, romelic unda mogvevlinos mefed!
mefis kurTxevisaTvis upirvelesad Tavad eria mosamzadebeli! aucilebelia eris rogorc sulieri, aseve politikuri cnobierebis amaRleba. erma unda gamoxatos survili da mzadyofna upirobod aRiaros RmrTiT rCeuli mefis Zalaufleba! eri unda daekiTxos RmerTs, RmerTi ki winaswarmetyvelis piriT auwyebs xalxs Tavis rCeuls! da mxolod amis Semdeg patriarqi akurTxebs mefes!        
bolo Jamis qarTveli maTlmadidebeli mefis movlineba udidesi istoriuli da mistikuri momentia, ara mxolod Cveni eris cxovrebaSi, aramed zogadad mTeli kacobriobisaTvis! rogorc antiqriste emzadeba msoflio politikur arenaze gamosasvlelad, aseve emzadeba didi qarTveli _ qristesmoyvare mefe bolo Jamis gadamwyveti brZolebisaTvis!!! da am sakiTxTan pozicia – opoziciis `TamaSi~ danaSaulebrivi windauxedaobaa, amave dros mZime codva RmrTisa da eris winaSe!..
RmerTTan omi aravis mougia!... damarcxebiT ki ise damarcxebulan, rom mTeli modgmiT aRgvilan pirisagan miwisa!!!
42. kiTxva. mama giorgi, rogor SeafasebdiT avadsaxsenebel 7 noembris movlenebs?
pasuxi: ra Sefaseba unda mieces yovelive imas, rac moxda!!! qarTvelebs istoriis manZilze arc tanjva-wameba dagkvlebia da arc sircxvili!.. magram is, rac rusTavelsa da riyeze xdeboda, gegoneboda aRa-mahmad-xani utevdao Tbiliss! maSin iaraRiT xelSi da Rirseuli brZoliT vixevdiT mravalricxovani momxvduris winaSe, dRes ki qarTvels qarTveli misdevda msoflios dasanaxad _ umowyalod da gamZvinvarebuli _ es sazareli ram iyo!
erTxel ukve vTqvi, rom rogorc pozicia, ise opozicia eTamaSeboda cecxls! rac unda argumentebi moiyvanos orive mxarem, rogorc unda imarTlos Tavi, orive mxare Sercxvenili da damnaSavea rogorc RmerTis, ise eris winaSe! maT saqciels aranairi adamianuri gamarTleba ara aqvs. es sijiute, ampartavneba, Tavdajereba, urCoba da mamlayinwoba am `patara biWebisa~, vgulisxmob orive mxares, SeuZlebelia RmerTisgan dausjeli darCes! qriste mosTxovs pasuxs yvelas am qveynis Rirsebis gaTelvisa da upasuxismgeblo mopyrobisaTvis.
didi sulieri da politikuri xedva ar iyo saWiro imisaTvis, rom mivmxdariyavi, Tu saiTken mihyavda orive mxares movlenebi. is ybadaRebuli `dialogi~, romelsac TiTqos orive mxare moiTxovda, iyo sicrue! arc erT mxares ar awyobda dialogi. isini qveynis keTildReobisaTvis mebrZol, gansxvavebuli xedvis politikosebs ki ar hgavden, aramed ori mtruli Zalis snaiperebs, romelTac erTmaneTi mizanSi hyavT amoRebuli da mowinaaRmdegis odnav Secdomas elodebian: opozicia eloda xelsayrel moments xelisuflebis dasamxobad, xolo xelisufleba umcires mizezs _ opoziciis dasasjelad. orive mxares SeeZlo da valdebulic iyvnen, gaeTvalaT movlenebis aseTi ganviTareba Tu sadamde miiyvanda qveyanas. Tu momxdari winaswar ar hqondaT dagegmili!!! arc opoziciisaTvis iyo Zneli misaxvedri xelisuflebis SesaZlo nabijebi da arc xelisuflebisaTvis iyo dafaruli is, Tu saiT eqaCeboda opozicia xalxs! orive mxarem es icoda da usindisod da umowyalod gaTeles da sulSi CaafurTxes gadaRlil, gaWirvebul da motyuebul xalxs! xalxTan `TamaSs~ ki RmerTi aravis SearCens, batonebo!!!
saqarTvelo nurvis hgonia dolarebze SeZenili kerZo sakuTreba, is aris Cveni _ qarTvelebis erTaderTi samSoblo, romlisTvisac qarTvelebs milionobiT sicocxle aqvT Sewiruli da am zRva sisxlis fasad dRemde moyvanili. es aris udidesi sulieri misiisa da itoriis mqone qveyana! es aris eri, romelsac RmerTi gansakuTrebulad zrdis!...
axla ki, rogorc sasuliero pirma, minda mivmarTo orive mxares: ”vinc RmerTis gareSe moindomebs qveynis marTvas, yovelTvis ganwirulia damarcxebisa da sircxvilisaTvis. yvelaferi es imitom mogividaT, batonebo, rom RmerTs ar ekiTxebiT qveynis bed_iRbals!!! gindodaT qveynis marTva-gamgeoba Tqvens Wkua-gonebaze!!! uRmerTod saqarTvelos marTva aravis SeuZlia, radgan saqarTvelo qristes qveyanaa da qriste ar daTmobs saqarTvelos!!! Tqven mtrebs eZebT gareT, Sinac... mteri Cven arasodes gvaklda, magram is mTavari mteri ar gaxsovT, romelic saqarTvelos daarsebis dRidan ebrZvis _ es mteri eSmakia. . . es eSmaki sakuTar TavSi ar aRmogiCeniaT da rogor SeZlebT mis damarcxebas?!   marto ganaTlebiT, inteleqtiT, fuliTa da momxreebis simravliT ar SeiZleba iyoT qveynis WeSmariti xelisufalni! amas RvTiTdayolili niWi, mowodeba, saRvTo xedva, sulieri Zala, qveynisa da eris WeSmariti siyvaruli sWirdeba!
`RmerTi ars CvenTan!~, `RmerTma daifaros saqarTvelo!~, `Cven gvwams RmerTi~... mxolod am sityvebis mowodebiT ver iqnebiT RmerTisagan nakurTxi da uflebamosilni am urTules saqmianobaSi!!!
pasuxismgeblobas arc sasuliero pirebi gaveqceviT. eklesia bolo aTwleulebis manZilze, saqarTveloSi mimdinare movlenebis mimarT sul momlodine da moridebuli keTilmsurveli mayureblis poziciaze rom videqiT, es politikaSi Caurevloba ki ar iyo, aramed uprincipoba, eris ukiduresi gansacdelis Jams eklesiis upirvelesi movaleoba aris simarTlis miukerZoebeli aRiareba da dacva.!!!
me Tu mkiTxavT: eklesia grZnobda ra moaxloebul safrTxes, ar unda dalodeboda pozicia-opoziciis mier ugulo miwvevas, aramed uSiSrad unda gamoexata Tavisi pozicia.   madloba RmerTs, rom ase gadavrCiT da ar mieca borots Tavisi mzakvruli Canafiqris ganxorcielebis saSualeba!
qristianoba siyvarulisa da mitevebis religiaa da Tu Cven varT qristeanebi, sulgrZelobiT SevundoT erTmaneTs, davdgeT pirad interesebze maRla da erTad vibrZoloT Cveni samSoblos sakeTildReod!. jer kidev ar aris gvian, mTavari brZolebi win gvaqvs!!! veZeboT RvTis neba, uangarod vemsaxuroT Cvens qveyanas da mteri verafers dagvaklebs. Cven daumarcxebeli qveyana varT! RmerTma mogvces yvelas suli siyvarulisa, mitevebisa, simSvidisa da keTildgonierebisa!!!
(es sityvebi mama giorgim 9 noembers warmosTqva, magram im dros yvela gazeTi ratomRac ikavebda Tavs amis gamoqveynebaze)
43. kiTxva. mama giorgi, Tqven brZaneT, rom mefe ers winaswarmetyvelisagan euwyeba.   dRes saqarTvelos hyavs winaswarmetyveli?

pasuxi: saqarTvelos hyavs winaswarmetyveli!... da rom is ar Cans presis furclebze, rogorc sxva `winaswarmetyvelebi~ TavianTi `xilvebiT~, sizmrebiT, prognozebiT, varskvlavebze dakvirvebiT, Tqven amaze nu SfoTavT.
WeSmariti anu wminda winaswarmetyveli gamoCndeba ara ise, rogorc dRes momravlebuli cru winaswarmetyvelebi da naTelmxilvelebi, romelTac yovelnairad uwyobs xels masmedia _ `naxeT vin gvyavso~. wminda winaswarmetyvels aravis daxmareba, xelSewyoba, aranairi reklama ar sWirdeba. misi mfarveli da warmmarTveli mxolod RmerTia!!! mas Zala da madli RmrTisgan aqvs!... da is, rom TviTmarqvia winaswarmetyvelebi ase Tavisuflad axveven ers TavianT azrebs, metyvelebs   isev Cveni rwmenis sisusteze. maTi mizania ara WeSmariteba, aramed adamianTa sulebze gavlenisa da kontrolis mopoveba, maSin, roca wmida winaswarmetyvelis mTeli sulieri Sroma mimarTulia adamianTa RmrTis gzaze gasayvanad, codvisa da eSmakis borkilebisagan adamianis gasaTavisufleblad.

44.. kiTxva. mama giorgi, namdvili winaswarmetyvelis cru da TviTmarqvia adamianisagan gamorCevis ra niSnebs etyodiT xalxs?

pasuxi: daviwyoT ase:   wmidani   aravin   gamxdara   erT   dReSi, miT   umetes   w i n a s w a r m e t y v e l i! ise, arsaidan, saRmrTo Rvawlis gareSe adamians wmidanis Zalas da madls vin mianiWebs?! yovel SemTxvevaSi, RmerTTan aseTi ram ar xdeba!... wmidans Zalian rTuli da tanjviT gamocdili gza aqvs gavlili. amave dros mas hyavs Tavisi aRmzrdeli - moZRvari, aris es xiluli Tu saidumlod, sxvebisagan dafarulad.
adamians, romelic avlens zebunebriv Zalas, momavlis xedvis niWs, unda SeeZlos dasabuTeba am Zalisa da niWis RvTiuri warmomavlobisa, agreTve,   wminda moZRvris dasaxeleba, visi xelmZRvanelobiTac saidumlod gaaRwia RmerTTan. sxvanairad: dResdReisobiT moRvawe `winaswarmetyvelTa~ da `naTelmxilvelTa~ yvela gulisamaCuyebeli xilvebi da gamovlinebani, RmerTTan maTi siaxlovis sakuTari mtkicebulebani, ubralod, moklebulia WeSmaritebas da raime saerTo suliwmidasTan ara aqvT.
winaswarmetyvelebis niWi _ suliwmidis niWia da is codvil adamianebs ar eZleva! ragind lamazi xatebiT unda hqondeT morTuli TavianTi `mistikuri Wvretis~ kabineti da rogori sisxartiTac ar imeorebdnen wminda werilis sityvebs.
wminda werilidan viciT, Tu rogor gamoicdeboda winaswarmetyvelis utyuaroba, mas unda moeyvana wvima... da rodesac winaswarmetyvels xelewifeboda RmerTidan Zalaufleba wvimaze, eri aRiarebda mas. miuxedavad Zalqmedebisa, borots ar ZaluZs wvimis moyvana..
bolo Jamis cru winaswarmetyvelebze bevri gafrTxileba gvaqvs wminda mamebisagan. isini maT `cxvris tyavSi gaxveul mglebad~ ixsenieben. is, rom amgvari winaswarmetyvelebis bevri gamonaTqvami, moklevadiani prognozebi, zogjer sruldeba kidec, sruliad ar aris maTi wm.   winaswarmetyvelebis dasturi. momavali borotebmac ician, Tumca ara yvelaferi. gaxsovT saxarebidan, rom qveynad mosuli qriste RmerTi pirvelad swored borotma sulebma icnes da aRiares. e.i. Tqves marTali, rom qriste iyo RmerTi, magram naxeT, am simarTlis aRiarebis gamo isini wmidanebad ki ar qceulan!... im `winaswarmetyvelebs~, `naTelmxilvelebs~, romelTac aqvT xedva borotisagan da ara suliwmidisagan, ra   sargebeli unda uyon xalxs!? maTi naTqvami, rogor simarTlesac ar unda Seicavdes, mxolod zianis momtania adamianebisaTvis!...
me adrec miTqvams, kidev getyviT wmidanis amocnobis ramdenime niSans: wmidans aqvs Zala da madli, ixedeba adamianis Sinagan samyaroSi. es ar aris mxolod azrebis kiTxva, aramed, rac mTavaria, xedavs adamianis guls, icis codvebi, aqvs saswaulmoqmedebis Zala, SeuZlia usityvod aRZras adamianSi sinanuli, erTi SexedviT moggvris lmobierebis cremlebs, aRZravs siyvarulsa da sixaruls, aris Zalze ubralo, Tavmdabali da SenTvis Zalze axlobeli adamiani. wmidani ar faravs Tavis warsul cxovrebas, SeuZlia mogiyves Tavisi codvebic. wmidani iZleva did nugeSs da aranairad ar moqmedebs adamianis gansacvifreblad da dasamorCileblad! kidev getyviT, WeSmariti qarTvelis guli grZnobs da cnobs wminda suls! borots mxolod gonebis moxibvla SeuZlia!..

45 kiTxva. mama giorgi, winaswarmetyveli, romelic Tqven axseneT, iqneba samRvdelo dasidan, Tu eriskaci an qali?
pasuxi: rac Seexeba qal winaswarmetyvels, cnobebi gvxvdeba wm.werilSi, magram Zalze cota... is ki vinc mefes warudgens ers,   Z v e l i   winaswarmetyvelia da aris   k a c i !.. meti miniSneba _ samRvdeloebidanaa Tu ara _ vfiqrob dRes ar aris saWiro, is TviTon gamoCndeba!... winaswarmetyveli RmerTis rCeulia da adamianis dasaxmareblad da gadasarCenad aris movlinebuli. ase, rom mas yvelani naxavT da masTan misasvlelad arc nacnoboba, da   arc `misi kabinetis rigSi~ Cawera dagWirdebaT!.. is yvelasi iqneba, visac RmerTis SiSi da siyvaruli aqvs da zrunavs sulis cxonebaze.

46. kiTxva: gazeT `kviris palitraSi~, mefis Taobaze Tqveni mosazrebis gamoqveynebidan oTx TveSi, imave gazeTSi (3-9 marti) gamoqveynda jvrismamis winamZRvris_dekanoz tariel sikinWilaSvilis interviu saTauriT: ”vin iqneba
saqarTvelos mefe?”, sadac dekanozi tarieli ambobs: ”darwmunebuli var saqarTvelos mefe am weliwadSive eyoleba...” “...is samyaros maSin moevlina, rodesac Cveni patriarqis aRsaydreba moxda da ukve 30 wlisaa...”
`...sulieri TvalsazrisiT, uxilavad is ukve gamefda, roca uwmindesma amaze
sajarod iqadaga...~ `...mefe   R v T i s g a n   S o b i l i   da bagrationTa STamomavalia...~
mama, giorgi Tu saidumlo ar aris, xom ver dagvikonkretebdiT dekanoz tarielis miniSnebebs?   da kidev, rogor unda gavigoT, rom `mefe aris RvTisgan Sobilio?...~

  pasuxi: rac Tqven wamikiTxeT, rogorc TqviT aris dekanoz tarielis sityvebi da mosazrebebi da amdenad me verafers dagikonkretebT. Tu dakonkreteba gsurT, amas isev am statiis avtorTan SeZlebT.
  piradad me msgavsi uwyeba ar mqonia, arc RvTidan da arc kacTagan!...
me ar vici, vis gulisxmobs dekanozi tarieli da vin hyavs mxedvelobaSi, roca saubrobs mefeze da arc is mesmis _`mefe ukve sulierad gamefdao~_ rom ambobs. es kiTxeT mas TviTon. me ki piradad am mosazrebas ar veTanxmebi!...
me is vici, rac   me meuwya!,.. yvela Tavis sityvazea pasuxismgebeli!..
verc imis Taobaze getyviT rames, Tu ra sulier paralelebs avlebs dekanozi tarieli mefis dabadebasa da uwmindesis aRsaydrebas Soris, kidev vimeoreb, es misi xedvaa. mefe rom gamoCndeba, erisTvis naTeli gaxdeba misi asaki, warmomavloba da kidev bevri sxva ram masze!.. piradad me ver vxedav, rom mefe dRes iyos 30 wlis!..
rac Seexeba Tqveni kiTxvis meore nawils, Tu ras niSnavs “RvTisgan Sobili” _ getyviT: eklesias aqvs amaze dogmaturi pasuxi!.. mxolod ver getyviT, Tu ras gulisxmobs dekanozi tarieli?...   Tu qristeSi Sobas gulisxmobs, es xazgasma namdvilad ar aris mizanSewonili, roca saqme bolo Jamis saqarTvelos udides wmida mefes exeba, rameTu “qristeSi Soba” yvela qristianze vrceldeba naTlobis gziT. yoveli adamiani   naTlobisas iSoba sulierad   qristeSi. da Tu dekanozi tarieli   gulisxmobs namdvil arss, maSin CemTvis gaugebaria, kacTagan vin SeiZlos `RvTisgan Sobilis~ mefed kurTxeva! es dedamiwaze mxolod   yovladwmida   s a m e b i s   s a x e s xelewifeba!
47. kiTxva: mama giorgi, winaswarmetyvel danielis wignis IX TavSi wavikiTxeT Semdegi sityvebi: `jer kidev locvaSi viyavi,   kaci   g a b r i e l i xilvaSi rom vnaxe pirvelad, anazdad mofrinda da momiaxlovda saRamos msxverplSewirvis Jams, Semagonebda igi da melaparakeboda. miTxra: `daniel! axla gamovedi,   rom Wkua dagarigo!...~ _ mamao, winaswarmetyveli am sityvebSi mTavarangeloz gabriels gulisxmobs?

pasuxi: Ddanieli didi winaswarmetyveli iyo, romelsac didi sulieri xedva hqonda. is xedavda angelozebsac da ara mgonia, rom mas mTavarangelozi gabrieli kacad moexsenebios da meorec, danieli, romelic RmerTs elaparakeboda, aranairad ar iqneboda mokvdavi kacis `Wkuis dasarigebeli~… aq xsenebuli kaci   g a b r i e l i   aris   u k v d a v i !... is Cvens droSic aswavlis da Wkuas arigebs rCeulebs!!!
sulxan-sabas leqsikonSi ganmartebulia saxeli gabrieli Semdegnairad :   `g a b r i e l i   _   k a c i   R m r T i s a,     g i n a   R   m   e   r   T   i   d a   k a c i ;   g i n a   s a x e   R   m   r   T   i   s   a.~

48. kiTxva: mama giorgi, bibliuri melqisedek mefeze ras gvetyodiT? moZRvrebma gviTxres, rom melqisedekis warmomavloba gaurkveveliao!..

pasuxi:   wminda mamebi gvaswavlian, rom - `nurafers ityvi RmerTis Sesaxeb iseTs, rac Tavad RmerTisgan ar giswavliao!~
getyviT mokled: bibliuri melqisedeki, salamis mefe - aris s a x e     m a m a   R m r T i s a! ai, rogor sweria masze mociqul pavles werilSi ebraelTa mimarT (ebr.7.3); - “umamo, udedo, ugvartomo, arc dReTa dasabami aqvs da arc sicocxlis dasasruli” kargad CaakvirdiT am sityvebs!.. d a u s a b a m o o   d a   d a u s r u l e b e l i   a r i s   m x o l o d   R m e r T i.!   Tan umamo, udedo, ugvartomo!.. qriste macxovari Ze RmrTisaa, is mamis Zea. pavle mociquli agrZelebs: `RvTis Zis msgavsad, rCeba mRvdlad samudamod~ (ebr.7.3).   amdenad u m a m o,   u d e d o,   u g v a r t o m o! romelsac arc dasabami aqvs da arc sicocxlis dasasruli, da rCeba RvTis Zis msgavsad mRvdlad samudamod _ aris cisa da qveynis Semoqmedi, dasabami da mizezi yoveli sicocxlisa _ mama RmerTi.
Tqven iciT, ebraelebs, rjulis Tanaxmad, meaTedi mihqondaT taZrad _ samRvdeloebisaTvis. abraamma ki meaTedi miarTva m e l q i s e d e k s. pavle mociquli aqve ganmartavs, rom pirvel SemTxvevaSi _ `aq meaTeds Rebuloben mokvdavi adamianebi~ _ laparakia samRvdeloebaze, xolo meore SemTxvevaSi ki `visac mowmoba aqvs rom cocxalia~ _ laparakia melqisedekze.
pavle   mociquli   gasagebad   usvams   xazs   imas,   rom   melqisedeki   u k v d a v i a!!!
aris kidev bevri sxva dauwereli dasturi yovelive amisa.!

49. kiTxva: mama giorgi, dabadebis meeqvse TavSi vkiTxulobT: `rodesac adamianebma gamravleba iwyes dedamiwaze da asulebi   SeeZinaT,   dainaxes     R v T i S v i l e b m a, rom mSvenierni iyvnen a d a m i a n T a   a s u l e b i   da mohyavdaT colad, visac vin moewoneboda~_ mamao, vin arian aq xsenebuli RvTisSvilebi? rogori warmoSobisani arian isini da arian Tu ara dRes dedamiwaze RvTisSvilebi?~

pasuxi: am SekiTxvas me misvamT gamosacdelad Tu sxvebisaTvisac dagisvamT?! (icinis). bibliis kiTxva azrovnebis simamaces moiTxovs da amave dros gonebriv Tavmdablobasac!.. rac mRvdeli var, ar maxsovs, vinmes es SekiTxva daesvas CemTvis _ rogorc sasulieros ise eris kacs!
keTili! getyviT. biblia miuTiTebs, rom RvTisSvilebi   C a m o d i o d n e n o _ e.i gasagebi unda iyos is, rom isini adamianuri warmoSobisani ar arian da amave dros isini,   arc angelozebi arian!.. amis dasamowmeblad isev bibliidan Tqvenive SekiTxvis sityvebi gamodgeba: `dainaxes RvTisSvilebma, rom mSvenierni iyvnen adamianTa asulebi da   m o h y a v d a T   c o l a d   visac   vin   moewoneboda~ _ ramdenadac viciT, angelozebi ar   q o r w i n d e b i a n! - arc Txovdebian da arc cols irTaven!
biblia uCvenebs, rom Zvel droSi adamianebi icnobdnen RvTisSvilebs. gavixsenoT nabuqodonosor mefis sityvebi: `aha, oTx xel-fex gaxsnil kacs vxedav, Suagul cecxlSi mimodian isini uvneblad, meoTxe SexedulebiT RvTisSvils hgavs!~ moviyvanoT kidev magaliTi iobis wignidan: `erT dRes movidnen RvTisSvilebi uflis winaSe warsadgomad, satanac movida maT Soris (iob.T.1.6)”.
Cveni winaprebic cnobdnen RvTisSvilebs. maT sakmao codna gaaCndaT   maT raobaze. qarTul miTologiaSi bevri sulieri codna aris dafaruli. qarTvelTa devnis erT-erT mizezs swored gansxvavebuli religiuri codna warmoadgenda. erTmorwmune `moZme~ erebi aranaklebi sisastikiTa da mZulvarebiT gvdevnidnen, swored maTTvis gaugebari da maTze aRmatebuli religiuri codnis gamo, amitom Cvenma winaprebma codna dafares. zogi maTgani ki miTebisa da zRaprebis saxiT vrceldeboda erSi. samwuxarod, qarTvelebma bevri am codnidan davkargeT JamTa siavis gamo. davkargeT sulieri xedvac da gasaRebic am miTebSi dafaruli codnisa, ris gamoc bevri   miTi mxilod miTadve rCeba da sxva raime seriozuli Cakvirvebis sagans aRar warmoadgens!..
RvTisSvilebi dResac dadian dedamiwaze, gansakuTrebiT ki qarTvelebSi!...
isini Cveni msgavsi fizikuri sxeulebiT arian CvenSi, Tumca maT ganmasxvavebeli niSnebic aqvT; rac Cveulebrivi adamianis TvalisTvis Znelad aRmosaCenia. wmidanebi ki xedaven maT!.. SemiZlia giTxraT mxolod is, rom maT sami ZiriTadi niSani aqvT ganmasxvavebeli.
Tu iSromebT da miaRwevT wmidanobamde, Tqvenc amoicnobT RvTisSvilebs. jerjerobiT es pasuxi ikmareT!... meti dakonkreteba kidev axal SekiTxvebs aRZravs TqvenSi da amisTvis ki mzad unda iyoT, rogorc sulierad, aseve gonebrivad!

50. kiTxva: mama giorgi, rogor unda gavigoT eklesiastes Semdegi sityvebi `briyvs guli marcxniv aqvs, xolo brZens marjvniv?!~

pasuxi: briyvs, anu saRmrTo xedvis uqonel adamians - guli marcxniv aqvs. es imas niSnavs, rom `briyvs~ aqvs `marcxena~- anu codvili zraxvebiT, vnebebiTa da wuTisoflis sazrunavebiT aRsavse guli. xolo `brZens marjvniv aqvs gulio~. niSnavs imas, rom suliwmidis madliT gabrZnobils aqvs WeSmaritebis maZiebeli, RvTis siyvaruliT anTebuli guli, anu `marjvena~ guli.   `marcxena~ guli, es aris adamianis xorcieli guli, xolo `marjvena~ ki sulieri.

51. kiTxva: mama giorgi,   xSirad xdeba, rom adgili sadac pirvelad var, ise mecnoba, TiTqos iq namyofi viyo, an kidev saqme, romelsac vakeTeb, adre gamekeTebinos. aseTi gancda ramdenime wami meufleba.   mamao, ra unda iyos es. xom ar aris es yvelaferi eSmakis manqanebiT?

pasuxi: ar SeiZleba yvelaferi borots mivaweroT, Tumca safrTxes misgan yovelTvis unda velodoT. is, rom adgili, raRac garemoeba, situacia, saqme an kidev adamianebi TiTqos gecnoba, ara mxolod Sen gemarTeba, aramed ber sxvasac. yovelive es sulis maxsovrobaa!... suli gacilebiT ufrosia Cvens fizikur sxeulze. es Zalian didi da amave dros dafaruli Temaa. eklesia Tavis droze gascems pasuxs CvenTvis dResdReobiT bevr gaugebar sakiTxze.
ise, eklesiaste ambobs: “rac yofila, igive iqneba, rac momxdara, igive moxdeba, araferia mzis qveS axali”.

52. kiTxva: mama giorgi, sad ibadeba suli?

pasuxi: kiTxvac aris da kiTxvac!... Tumca radgan es kiTxva mogividaT TavSi, unda dagesvaT, visganac unda iyos is TqvenSi aRZruli..! ar arsebobs kiTxva, romelic gauCndes adamians da romlis pasuxic ar hqondes RmerTs.!...am kiTxvis pasuxi aris didi saidumloeba.! ... getyviT mxolod imas, rasac wminda mamebi weren: `Cveni samSoblo zecaSia, saidanac movediT da sadac unda davbrundeT.~ aqedan gamomdinare, sulic ibadeboda da ibadeba zecaSi!
Cven, qarTvelebi fexmZime qals orsuls mas Semdeg veZaxiT, roca muclad myof nayofSi Camodis suli. orsuli _ anu dedis suli da bavSvis suli. n a y o f S i     C a m o s u l   s u l s   u k v e   a q v s   z e c i u r i   s a m S o b l o   d a   m a x s o v r o b a. Tumca dedamiwaze muclad Camosvlisas `iTiSeba~ da mTel miwier cxovrebaSi SeiZleba darCes `gaTiSuli~. xolo gardacvalebisas_sxeulidan gasvlis Jams gaexsneba misi zeciuri samyofeli. wmidanebs ki RmerTi miwier cxovrebaSive gauxsnis zeciur maxsovrobas. unda iTqvas erTi ramec: dRes dedamiwaze mcxovreb yvela adamians ara aqvs zecidan Camosuli suli!... yvelafers aqvs Tavisi dro!... RmerTi da wmidanebi bevr rames malaven isev adamianTa sakeTildReod.

53. kiTxva: mama giorgi, amiranis miTSi vkiTxulobT, rom `amiranma gamoarTva patara mwyemss puri, mouWira xeli da sami wveTi sisxli gamoadina, mere Tavis purs mouWira xeli, rZe gamoadina da Tqva: `puri amisTana unda gicxvebodeTo~. am sityvebSi raime saidumlo xom ar imaleba?!

pasuxi: sainteresoa, ram aRgiZraT aseTi SekiTxva?! saidumlo?!.. es namdvilebma ician!... mec getyviT: puri, romelsac Cven dRes miviRebT, aris codvis puri!... xolo namdvili puri, romelsac `rZe gamodis~ mogvecema qriste macxovris mier! eklesiam icis, rom xorbali sxvaa da puri sxva! es pasuxi ikmareT jerjerobiT. kargi SekiTxva iyo!... srul pasuxs male gaigebT!...

54. kiTxva: Tqven brZaneT vaJa-fSavela 20 weli esvena miwaSio, riTi axsnidiT amas?
pasuxi: diax, vaxsene didi vaJa da aq asaxsneli araferia. vaJa namdvili iyo! is udidesi wmida sulis pirovneba gaxldaT!...
mis SemoqmedebaSi Zneli ar aris aRmoaCino is, rom vaJas, garda didi niWisa, samSoblos siyvarulisa da vaJkacobisa, udidesi sulieri xedva da dafaruli codnac gaaCnda!... mas RvTidan Zalian bevri sulieri saidumlo hqonda gaxsnili!
sulieri xedvis adamiani Tavadac aRmoaCens vaJas leqsebsa da poemebSi dafarul saidumlo qveteqstebs.
naxeT vaJas leqsi _ `qeifi~:

`damisxi, damalevine
e Rvino oxer-tiali,
egeba waRma vifiqro
soflis ukuRma triali~.

vaJa aq `soflis ukuRma trialSi~, erTi SexedviT, wuTisoflis ukuRmarTobasa da gautanlobaze saubrobs, magram es mxolod erTi SexedviT, ase vTqvaT zogadad, imaT ki, `visac yuri aqvs isminos~, vaJa am strofiT mianiSnebs im cvlilebaze, rac dedamiwam ganicada warRvnis Sedegad!..
kidev vnaxoT mis `simReraSi~:

`mTlad me mekuTvnis qveyana
mTaSi-mTa, barad-baria,
zRva da xmeleTi erTian,
cas-varskvlavebis jaria...

namdvilebma ician Tu ras ambobs amiT vaJa.
naxeT kidev: `mTas viyav~:

`mTas viyav-mwvervalze videg
TvalT win mefina qveyana,
gulze mesvena mze-mTvare,
vlaparakobdi RmerTTana~.

vaJas sulieri _ dafaruli codnis gamovlinebaa misi `gvelismWameli~.
me piradad Zalian miyvars `uiRblo iRbliani~. es gulisSemZvreli nawarmoebi, Rrma sulierebis naSromia:
`marTals nugeSad esa aqvs,
gulSi Seudrkel burjada,
rom RmerTi kai-kacobas
mas ar CauTvlis fuWada
SemdegisTvisac mas fiqrobs
ar uRalatos simarTles,
eridos mwikvlsa yovelsa,
daumegobrdes sinaTles.
rac unda avi SaemTxvas,
Tunda gaakran jvarzeda,
ar uRalatos simarTles
erTgulad idges mazeda.
mihyves bolomde keTilsa,
iaros keTils gzazeda.~

imdenad didi iyo vaJas sulieri xedva, rom is cnobda qveynad mosiarule RvTis saxes. vaJas dros aseTi sulieri codna uiSviaTesi gamonaklisi iyo, radgan imxanad mraval mizezTa gamo, Tavad sasuliero pirebsac, samwuxarod, dakarguli hqondaT aseTi xedva da codnac.

`RmerTia, _ fiqrobs TavisTvis, _
eg xorcieli ar ari:
_ ara mkadrulob, ufalo,
Tumc ar var Seni sadari,
rad momiZule, meufev,
Tavisi mona sawyali!!
mobrZandi, magram gulSi maqvs,
rom agiSeno taZari
da veqmna mudam mfarvelad,
vinc ki sadmea sapyari.
daiwyo wera pirjvrisa,
sTxovs codvaT motevebasa.
Tu ram Sescoda, Seundos,
rom ver mivida cnebasa,
ver icno RmerTi.... SesTxovda:
nurafers momcem vnebasa,
mudam dRe msxverpls Semogwirav
mogiZRvni qebaT-qebasa.

im dros, roca erSi dakninda sulierebis done da erovnuli TviTSegneba, roca, samwuxarod, sasuliero pirebic ver iyvnen mowodebis simaRleze, mowyale RmerTi swored am didi sulis adamianebiT _ eris mamebiT, eqaCeboda xalxs WeSmaritebisken.
me literatori ar var, ubralod, miyvars Cveni eris geniosi Svilebis sityvaSi Sefaruli sulieri sazrdo!... amitom msurs akakizec oriode sityva vTqva: me mis Semoqmedebas ver ganvixilav, magram msurs xazi gavusva Tu rogor ganicdida da ebrZoda didi mgosani, erTmorwmune eris mier Cveni miwa-wylis mitacebasa da religiuri cnobierebis dapyrobas.
gavixsenoT misi leqsi: `ninoobas~:

`itire, miwav samSoblov!
zari auSvi, zecao!
istoriulma RvTis risxvam
dRes CvenTvis iorkecao!...

enac wagvarTves da rjulic
naTeli ramRa gvfinoso?
`Tamar~ monaTles `Tamarad~
`nina~ daarqves `ninoso!~

sad aris kubo Tamaris,
qveynisgan naamborisa?
vis xelSi aris saflavi
nino mociqulT sworisa?...

sadRaa jvari vazisa,
Sekruli wmindis TmebiTa?
dasdumda misi troparic
qarTulis kilo-xmebiTa!

qristes saxeliT, qristes sjuls,
wvaleba Semoeria
da Cvens erovnul ficarze
`qarTveli aRar sweria!

vitiroT!... ara! vaJkacsa
ar Svenis cremliT glovani!...
`sjobs sicocxlesa nazraxsa
sikvdili saxelovani~.

akakis naTlad esmoda, Tu ramdenad aRmatebuli iyo qarTuli religiuri xedva da cnobiereba. metic, bevri iseTi ram, rac swavlebebidan Tavs mogvaxvies da, rasac, didi akaki, `wvalebas~Uuwodebs. akaki qarTuli qristianuli sulieri xedvis pirovneba iyo. ai, Tundac `yrmoba, monoba qristes sZuls, man Zmoba dagviwesao~. es iyo qarTveli samRvdeloebis ZiriTadi principi samwysosTan mimarTebaSi. istoriidan gvaxsovs, Tu rogor gadauxada madloba qarTvelma mRvdelmsaxurma mrevlis saxeliT madloba rus mRvdelmTavars mxolod imis gamo, rom mRvdelmTavarma wirva ise Caatara, rom aravin ar ucemia!...
droa saWiro, rom eri umtkivneulod dadges, daubrundes Cvens qarTul, religiur xedvas da azrovnebas. ukve vTqvi: jer erTi _ aucilebelia wmida mamebis aRmoCena, radgan isini arian im didi codnisa da sulieri   Tvisebebis matarebelni, romelic uwyvet jaWvad gadmoecaT Zveli wmida mamebisgan da meorec, eri unda momzaddes sulierad da cnobierad, raTa SeZlos am uzarmazari codnisa da Zalis miReba da gaTviseba.

55. kiTxva:   giorgi papuaSvilis `Soreuli ciali~ (gv. 155) anton kaTalikosze sweria: `... aqamde mxolod is sjeroda, erTi da igive suli sxvadasxva gvamSi rom ganagrZobda arsebobas da axla ki amqveyniuri oreulic irwmuna.. samyaros ukvdavebisa aqamdec sjeroda   antons, magram man icoda, rom suli iyo ukvdavi kacSi, xorci ki warmavali. axla darwmunda, rom xorcic ukvdavia, rakiRa erTi da igive adamiani kvlav SeiZleba ganmeordes anda erTsa da imave dros aqac arsebobdes da iq sadRac!...~ (gv.342).
mama giorgi, ris safuZvelze mivida anton kaTalikosi zemoTxsenebul daskvnamde?...
pasuxi: jer erTi, Tqven am kiTxvas Tqveni sulieri moTxovnilebebidan gamomdinare ar misvamT me, aramed cnobismoyvareobiT da ufro ki gamosacdelad!...
meorec, ratom ggoniaT, rom me unda giTxraT anton kaTalikosis sulier mdgomareobaze?! is kaTalikosi iyo!.. ras da rogor xedavda da grZnobda is, iyo misi pirovnuli momenti!...
... ise, dRes mecnierebi adastureben paralelur samyaroebis arsebobas, ganzomilebebs, drois mdinares, oreulebs da bevr sxva ramesac!... Tumca samyaros mowyobis saidumloeba namdvilebs gacilebiT adre da ufro Rrmad hqondaT gaxsnili, vidre Tanamedrove mecnierebs!..

56. kiTxva:   mamia asaTianis _ `xaldes yvavilebSi~ (gv.10) sweria:
`... RmerTi xom sxvisia da sxvisi... ziari RmerTia, berZnebis ziari RmerTi, aman misca saSualeba berZnebs_saukuneebis manZilze Cveni miwa-wylis meufeni   yofiliyvnen~.
Mama giorgi ra igulisxmeba am sityvebSi?

pasuxi: me Tqven kritikosi xom ar ggonivarT?!   me sasuliero piri var da SemiZlia gipasuxoT imaze. Tu ras werdnen eklesiis wmida mamebi, ama Tu im sakiTxze!...
Tqveni kiTxvis sanacvlod me girCevdiT naxoT macxovris serobis qarTuli freska jruWis oTxTavidan da kargad daakvirdiT mas!... Tumca mis gageba sulieri xedvac sWirdeba, magram Tqvenc SegiZliaT iq aRmoaCinoT mniSvnelovani ram!...

58. kiTxva: ratom xdeba mamao, roca sruliad ucnobi adamiani Cagivlis gverdiT quCaSi da iseTi krToma da SiSi Semodis gulSi, rom didxans ver mSviddebi. ra movlenaa es da rogor unda moviqceT am SemTxvevaSi?

pasuxi. ucnobi, vinc SiSsa da SfoTs aRgiZravs gulSi, ar aris Cveulebrivi adamiani. is an Sepyrobilia, an TviTon eSmaki xorcieli saxiT. ubralo adamians ar aqvs meore adamianis SeSinebis arc Zala da arc survili. rom ara RmerTisgan mfarveloba, aseTebs SeuZliaT daazianon adamiani, rogorc sulierad, ise xorcielad. ar isvenebs boroti, gansakuTrebiT bolo Jams. mTeli jojoxeTi gamosulia qveynad adamianTa misataceblad, magram nu geSiniaT, aqve arian wmidanebic. roca aseTi adamiani Segxvdeba quCaSi, transportSi, eklesiaSi, an sazogadoebrivi TavSeyris sxva adgilebSi _ unda iloco. locva da marxva _ es ori iaraRi dagvitova Cven qriste RmerTma. Tu es eSmakeuli Sens zurgs ukan, an gverdiT imyofeba, unda iloco `mamao Cveno~.   es locva, Sens irgvliv wreze, rogorc maRali eleqtro Zabva _ urtyams borots!.. da Tu es boroti Sen win mokalaTda da TvalebSi mtaceblurad giyurebs, maSin imeore locva: `qriste RmerTs dideba” an `qristes dideba~ _ es sityvebi moqmedebs sigrZeze, rogorc ”lazeris” sxivi. boroti imitom girtyams SiSs, rom dagimorCilos, dagipyros da misi Zliereba aRiaro. boroti xarobs, roca qristes morwmune, mis win kankalebs. icis RmerTma, rom Cven uZlurni varT da Seuwevnad ar dagvtovebs borotis winaSe, magram qriste RmerTs unda Cven TviTonac vibrZoloT, ar davemorCiloT da qedi ar movuxaroT borots. Tavidan SeiZleba Zalian SegeSindeT, magram ar danebdeT, boroti cdilobs SiSiT RmerTi dagaviwyoT. Tqven ki unda ivaJkacoT, Zala moikriboT da ganagrZoT qristes dideba _ Sen ki ara, Se boroto, aramed Cems RmerTs dideba! _ `qristes dideba!~_
locvisas TvalebSi nu uyurebT, magram nurc Tavs CaqindravT, aramed uyureT saxis areSi. Tavidan yvelaferi erTad dagatydeba: SiSi, eWvi, uimedoba, uZlureba, magram scadeT da brZola daiwyeT, naxavT ,RmerTi rogor SegewevaT da vin ufro Zlieria!..
ar mogeSveba boroti da arc Sen moeSva locvasa da qristes didebas. ibrZole da RmerTi, romelic am brZolaSi uxilavad SenTan aris, gagaxarebs, daganaxebs qristes saxelis Zlierebas. RmerTs ki ar unda Seni SeSineba, magram roca Tavad igrZnob locvis Zalas, metad gimtkicdeba rwmena.
qristes msaxurebsa da morwmuneebs laCroba ar gvekadreba. qristiani Tavmdabali unda iyos, magram es ar niSnavs mters Tavi dauxaro. qristianebi sxvebze kacTmoyvareebi varT, magram brZolaSi yvelaze mamacebic da sastikebic.
SiSi iZulebiTi morCilebaa da Cven ar Segvferis borotis morCileba. borotTan brZoliT RmerTi avaJkacebs suls. isic icodeT, RmerTi mowyalea da Tqvenze aRmatebul Zalas ar dauSvebs. mas yvelaferi gansazRvruli aqvs. rogorc iswavleba da iwrToba siyvaruli, ise iwrToba da iswavleba simamacec, gambedaobaca da vaJkacobac.
nu geSiniaT borotis sulis Zalis, garegnobis, Tvalebis, xmis, radgan igi maT iyenebs Cveni SeSinebisa da damcirebisaTvis. rodesac SiSi modis, nu miecemiT sasowarkveTilebasa da panikas. am dros RmerTis winaSe unda aRiaro, rom Sen araferi ar xar, rom uZluri xar da arc aravin ara xar RmerTis gareSe da iwyo locva. RmerTi uxilavad TandaTan gagaZlierebT da imasac daganaxebT, es `uSiSari~ da `magari biWi~, rogor aiZurweba da laCrulad gaipareba. didia da uZleveli qriste   RmerTi... ase rom, eSinodeT Cvens mtrebs da ara Cven.   Cven ki unda gveSinodes codvebis.
kidev erTi rCeva: yovelTvis, aseT borot adamianTan Sexvedris Semdeg. aucileblad midiT wmida mRvdelTan, radgan uxilavad boroti mainc azianebs suls da gonebas. wmidanma icis ra saxis ziani mogvayena borotma. isic uxilavad gaasworebs da aRgidgenT Zalebs, gamoitans Tqvengan borotis isrebs da gagaZlierebT Semdgomi brZolebisTvis.

59. kiTxva: mama giorgi, rogor da ramdeni unda vilocoT?
pasuxi: eriskacebisTvis eklesias dawesebuli aqvs locvis kanoni!.. dila-saRamos locvebi sakmarisia! Tu amasac ver asrulebT, maSin savaldebuloa `mamao Cveno~, 50 da 90 fsalmunebi mainc!. locvaSi Cven vadidebT, vmadlobT RmerTs da gamovTxovT Sendobas, mfarvelobasa da kurTxevas. locva eriskacTaTvis zogadad TavdacviTi mniSvnelobisaa. morwmune Tavs icavs uxilavi mtrisagan, xolo berebi ara marto icaven Tavs, aramed anadgureben uxilavi-boroti sistemis xlarTebs!..
berebi locviT miiweven win, eriskacebi ki tanjviT! es unda vicodeT, esaa aucilebeli!... locvas aqvs Zala da es iaraRia. locva gatyorcnili isariviTaa _ is aucileblad esoba borotebs, magram isini amiT ar nadgurdebian da aucileblad ganaxorcieleben sapasuxo dartymebs, da aq morwmunem unda icodes, rogor daicvas Tavi. berebi sapasuxo dartymebs asketizmiT - marxviT, mRviZarebiT, locvebis saukunovani mwyobri sistemiT igerieben. eriskacebs ki zogadad aseTi pirobebi da SesaZleblobebi ar gaaCniaT, amitom eriskacebma zustad unda icodnen, ramdeni ilocon da rogor!... “ra SeiaraReba gaaCnia arsenalSi”, rogori aqvT `zurgi~. locva leqsi ar aris! … locvis sityvebs aqvs Zala da is awuxebs eSmakebs, ris Semdegac isini gadmodian daundobel da sastik Setevaze. radganac eriskacebs wuTisoflis sazrunavi, xorcieli problemebi, Tan vnebebi awuxebT, marTebT didi zomierebiTa da   sifrTxiliT moekidnon locvebs!... amaSi maT wmida moZRvrebi daexmarebian.
rogorc wesi, damwyeb morwmuneT axasiaTebT locvebSi “gaumaZRroba”. ampartavan adamianebs surT raRacas miaRwion Zalian swrafad, undaT bevri `locviT~ waiwion win, Tumca es locvac ar aris.   isini ubralod kiTxuloben locvebs da mainc, zomaze metad iwveven borotebs. borots SeuZlia uceb arc upasuxos, `acalos~ da metic, TviTon aRZras locvisTvis, raTa ufro Rrmad Seityuos da erTianad daazianos, rogorc gonebrivad ise sulierad. yvela saqmeSi aucilebelia maswavlebeli, miTumetes sulierebaSi!... Tu urCebi ar iqnebiT, wmida moZRvrebi gaswavlian locvebs da sulier winsvlaSi Segiwyoben xels.
Zalian bevri garTulia `TviTganaTlebiT~. kiTxuloben auareba wignebs, mere aerevaT Tavi da avaddebian sulierad. bevri TviTneburad marxulobs, `ar akmayofilebs~ eklesiis mier dadgenili marxvebi da maTi aseTi `Tavgamodebac~ savalalo SedegiT mTavrdeba! aucilebelia zomiereba! ganviTareba moiTxovs safexurebriv aRmasvlas! TiTo mopovebul saafexurs ganmtkiceba sWirdeba!
locva mainc aris mlocvelis saqme!..   mas Tavi gamowrTobili hyavs. mas SeuZlia ilocos rogorc sakuTar Tavze, iseve sxvebzedac. sxvaze locva sxva sikeTesTan erTad, moyvasis codvebis garkveuli nawilis dadebasac moicavs. amitom, roca gamocdili ara xar da `SeiaraRebaSi~ mxolod moyvasis daxmarebis surviliRa gaqvs, sxvebze locva droSi, aucileblad dagazianebs!... me imas ki ar mogiwodebT, rom mxolod sakuTar Tavze ilocoT da naTesavebze, megobrebze, axloblebze ar ilocoT!... ara, magram girCevT wmida moZRvrebs SeuTanxmoT yovelive!..
erTi xelis mosmiT adamiani ver ganTavisufldeba vnebebisagan. is rom zogierTi vneba Tvlems da ar aqvs aqtiuri saxe, ar niSnavs imas, rom vneba ara gaqvT, an ukve dasZlieT!... vneba adamians manam eqneba, sanam ar gaaRwevs RmerTamde!... amitom aucilebelia gawonasworebuli midgoma. brZola gonivruli, dinji svliT da ara feTqebadi   da perioduli xasiaTis. wmida moZRvrebi dagexmarebaT Tqveni tvirTis, sulieri Zalebis, brZolis wesebisa da saSualebebis garkveva _ gansazRvraSi. TviTneboba sulierebaSi damRupvelia! eriskacebma unda akeTon is saqme, razec arian dadgenilni RvTiT da akeTon unda keTilsindisierad, uangarod! unda daicvan simarTle, uyvardeT RmerTi da madlobdnen mas. gamoiTxovon misgan kurTxeva da xelSewyoba xorciel da sulier saqmianobaSi!... ase, rom wmida               eklesias dadgenili aqvs adamianisTvis   ra,   rogor,   da   rodis ilocos!... da Tu vinme moindomebs meti ilocos sulieri srulyofilebisaTvis, maSin man bevri ram unda aikrZalos wuTisoflisa!... sxvanairad araferi gamova, orive erTad ar gamova, babua!
RmerTma mogceT WeSmariti moZRvrebi da maTi WeSmariti morCilebis unaric da moZRvrebi gagiyvanen RmerTamde.

60. kiTxva: mama giorgi, SeiZleba Tu ara adamianma imarxulos Cveulebriv arasamarxo dReebSi?                                                                            

pasuxi: wmida eklesiis mier dadgenili marxvebi xels uwyobs adamianis sarwmunoebriv aRzrdas. nebisyofis, simtkicis da sulieri Cvevebis gamomuSavebas. marxva sinanulis xelSemwyobia da ara sinanuli! xdeba cxovrebaSi: adamiani Sescodavs da dadgenili marxva ki jer Sorsaa. mas codva awuxebs. sindisi ise qenjnis, rom saWmlis danaxvac aRar SeuZlia. ki ar Wams, aramed ver Wams... aseTi mdgomareoba ukve marxvaa.!.. Tan sinanuliT. sinamdvileSi sinanuli iwvevs namdvil marxvas da ara marxva _ sinanuls. ase rom, Tu adamians aseTi ram SeemTxva, SeuZlia imarxulos. aseve SeuZlia imarxulos, roca RmrTisagan raRac saqmeSi Semweobas gamoiTxovs. is am dros marxviT ganamtkicebs locvebs. SeiZleba marxva raRac gansacdelis Jamsac. aseve moyvasis sasargeblod, rom Seexidos sulieri tanjvis dros. magram wmida moZRvars unda SeuTanxmdes.
ise sinanulis dros marxva bunebrivia. e. i. roca saWmels ki ar Wam, aramed sulieri mdgomareobidan gamomdinare - ver Wam!.. aseTi marxva ufro didia da saTnoeyofa RmerTs!... radganac mas Sinagani tanjvac axlavs Tan.
sinanuli mZimea. amitom eklesiam daadgina sazogado marxvebi, rac exmareba adamians ganwmendaSi, sindisTan SerigebaSi, didi   saRvTo da saeklesio dResaswaulebis Rirseulad SexvedraSi. SimSili wvavs codvebs. marxva marxvisTvis ki ar unda iyos, aramed sulisaTvis! roca `s a m a r x o   n a y i n s~ eZeb,   es marxva araa, babua,   an kidev   `s a m a r x o   x i n k a l s~, an kidev erTi qvabi lobio SeWamo, zed ori boTli Rvino daayolo da `xorcs ki kbili ar daakaro~ _ esec araa marxva!...
kargis keTeba yovelTvisaa SesaZlebeli!. hoda, marxva kargia!... Tu gaqvs sinanuli da ver Wam saWmels, nu aiZuleb Tavs da nu mieZalebi saWmels imis gamo, rom jer marxvis dReebi ar dawyebula. imarxule da nu Wam!... sinanuliT gamowveuli marxva iSviaTad eZleva adamians!
m a r x v a s,   S i m S i l o b a s   garda bevri sxva sikeTisa aqvs kidev erTi didi sikeTe: SimSilobis dros viTardeba adamianis cnobiereba.   S i m S i l i   tanjvaa da es tanjva xels uwyobs gonebriv ganviTarebasa da sulieri Tvalebis axelas. magram aqac, rogorc locvaSi, aucilebelia wminda moZRvris meTvalyureoba

61. kiTxva: Cemi eklesiurobis gamo daZabuli urTierToba maqvs ojaxis danarCen wevrebTan. rogor moviqce mamao.

pasuxi: es axali ar aris!.. me getyvi, rom zomiereba da keTilgoniereba gaklia! angariSi gauwie ojaxSi danarCenebis arsebobas!.. Sen eklesiaSi veravis ver miiyvan, Tu isini RmerTma ar Seamzada! Sen jibrSi ki nu udgebi maT, rom marxulob da isini ki ara!.. gaixsene, adre arc Sen marxulobdi, magram amis gamo RmerTs ki ar mouklixar! hoda, arc maT mouvaT rame. nu cdilob qveynierebis Secvlas!... Sen Sens Tavs mouare!.. Seni magaliTiT gaxdi misabaZi. maT morwmunis namdvili saxe daanaxe!.. maT TviTon unda ganisazRvron da dainaxon morwmunis upiratesoba da TavianTi nebiT miiRon gadawyvetileba imarxulon Tu ara!.. marxva nebayoflobiTia da ara iZulebiTi! iZulebas aucileblad mohyveba protesti, gaRizianeba. Sen Tu marxulob imaT ki nu `SeWam!~... maT ki Tu undaT, imarxulon, Tu undaT _ ara!     m a r x v a   k i   a r a a   m T a v a r i!...   mTavari aris guli da suli!... is, rom marxva saWiroa, gana maT ar esmiT?!... angelozi maTac misca RmerTma da is sul Seagonebs   maT!.. maT Sen siyvaruli unda anaxo!... Sen ki Seni `moSurneobiT~ ganikiTxav maT da isini amas grZnoben!... G
gabriel bers aqvs aseTi gamonaTqvami: `ar viloce, ar vimarxe, Tavi davimdable da vcxondio~.   xedav, raSi yofila saqme?! Sen rom Tavmdabali iyo, ojaxSi konfliqti aRar geqneba da Tu konfliqturi xar, raRa sargebelia SenTvis marxva!... magi marxva araa, babua!...
Tu xedav, rom ojaxis sxva wevrebs aRizianebs Seni locva, `eSmakeulebad~ nu ki monaTlav maT da nu daudgebi locvaniT xelSi cxvirwin. an kidev saaTobiT nu Caiketebi xatebis oTaxSi moRvawe beriviT!... is, rom ojaxSi daZabulobaa, amaSi RvTis xeli unda dainaxo! es Tqveni RvTismieri damuSavebaa!... isini droSi inaneben, rom gvaviwrovebdnen, xolo Sen ki didi warmodgena ar geqneba Sens `eklesiurobaze!..~ RmerTi siyvarulia da Tu Seni eklesiuroba siZulvilis mizezi xdeba, es ar aris RmerTTan miaxloeba. bevri ram unda daTmo dromde, bevri ki ar unda dauTmo!.. es ar aris Zneli mosagvarebeli. oRond goneba   da Tavmdabloba gvmarTebs. Se dalocvilo, Sen Sens sisxl-xorcTan giWirs qristes mcnebebis aRsruleba, im xalxma raRa Tqvas, visac muslimebisa da sxvadasxva rjulis eqstremistebis garemocvaSi uwevs cxovreba!

62. kiTxva: mama giorgi, bevrs axsovs mama gabrielis (urgebaZe) mier warmoTqmuli es sityvebi: `me var pirveli da ukanaskneli~, `me var ani da hoe~ — samRvdeloebis nawilma gviTxra, rom mama gabrieli salosi iyo da es sityvebic salosobiT eqneboda naTqvamio. Tqven ras gvetyodiT?                

pasuxi: Ggabriel beri ki iyo salosi, magram es sityvebi salosobiT ar aris naTqvami! am sityvebs salosebic ver gabedaven! radgan es RmerTis sityvebia!... gabrieliT ki marTla laparakobda   m a m a   R m e r T i !  
bevri ramis gagebas iTxovT!.. umjobesi iqneba sakuTari gulisTqmebis miyuradeba da garCeva iswavloT! didi codnac veras giSveliT, Tu sakuTari Tavis Secnobasa da ganwmedas ar ecdebiT! s a n a m   v n e b e b i   g a q v T,   R m e r T i   d i d   c o d n a s   a r   g a g i x s n i T!   es icodeT! gabrielis sityvebs ki nu CakirkitebT, aramed ecadeT, sul cotaTi mainc mihbaZoT mas RmerTisa da samSoblos siyvarulSi!   me vatyob, rom dRes bevrs `auwevia~ Tavi, aqaoda gabriel bers vicnobdiTo. mis keliaSi namyofi varTo da misi mowodebuli puri gviWamiao, an kidev gabriels raRaciT vemsaxureTo, an kidev gabriels `vicavTo!..~ ar gargebT, babua, aseTi midgoma!.. rom iZaxiT: gabriel bers vicnobdiTo, me geubnebiT _ ver icnobdiT!.. Tqven gabriels imdenad xedavdiT, ramdenadac Tqveni gonebisTvis iyo SesaZlebeli. gabrieli ki gacilebiT didi iyo Tqvens warmosaxvaze. rom iZaxiT: puri gvaWamao... me gekiTxebiT, mag Sav purTan, man madlic rom `gaWamaT~, mas ra uyaviT?!, rogor daafaseT misi Sroma?!. gaamravleT talanti, Tu miwaSi dafleT!..   Tavi mogwonT: _ `gabriels vemsaxureTo~. gabriels aravisi `msaxureba~ ar sWirdeboda. piriqiT, is mTeli arsebiT emsaxura saqarTvelos! an kidev ra Wirs gabriels `dasacavi?!~ an vin SeZlos misi dacva?!   misi ar esmodaT, da arc dRes esmiT!.. es ra gabrielis bralia!.. TviTon iqnebian dasacavi RmrTis winaSe!...
gabrielis Sromas maSin daafasebT, Tu odnav mainc iswavliT   s i n a n u l s,   T a v m d a b l o b a s   da   s i y v a r u l s! maSin gaaxarebT mas! jer-jerobiT, es ar getyobaT! ar gewyinoT.


63. kiTxva: morwmuneTaTvis aucilebeli aris Tu ara ganaTleba da SeiZleba Tu ara sxva religiebis wignebis kiTxva?

pasuxi: morwmunisTvis aucilebeli aris _`guli wmida dabade, RmerTo, CemTana da suli wrfeli ganmiaxle gvamsa Cemsa~ _daviT mefsalmunis sityvebi.   rac Seexeba ganaTlebas, getyviT: ocdameerTe saukunea da Tu gonebaClungi ara xar, ratom ar unda iyo ganaTlebuli?! roca saamisod yvela piroba gaqvT!...   WeSmariti codna didi Zalacaa da didi iaraRic. yoveli morwmune unda cdilobdes sulieri ganaTlebis miRebas. Kargia, rom gaqvs rwmena. rwmenas ganaTleba ar sWirdeba, magram am rwmenis dacvas ki _ ganaTleba aucileblad sWirdeba!...
udides religiur codnas floben aRmosavleTis   qveynebi da rom maT codnas Cveni qarTuli marTlmadidebluri WeSmariteba davupirispiroT, aucileblad ganaTlebulebi unda viyoT, Torem maT sakmao momxibvleloba da praqtikuli codna gaaCniaT, rom Searyion ubralo morwmune da ara mxolod ubralo!... dRevandeli Cveni religiuri cnobierebis pirobebSi. unda iaroT ganaTlebul da RvTiTganbrZnobil cocxal wm.mamebTan. maTTan urTierToba gamogzrdiT da gangamtkicebT rwmenaSi.
rac Seexeba ucxo religiur wignebs. kargia, roca ici mowinaaRmdegis ena, misi sabrZolo iaraRi da taqtika, magram es mainc sruli adamianis saqmea. Tqven ki jer ganmtkicdiT mSobliur rwmenaSi da   mere   ki   s i f r T x i liT, wmida moZRvrebis meTvalyurebiT waikiTxeT maTi wignebi.   s i f r T x i l i T   vambob imitom, rom yovel wigns aqvs   Z a l a,   Zala im   s u l i s a, vis mier aris is dawerili da imaT suls ki _ zemoqmedebis, sulebis monadirebis, moxibvlis saukunovani `xelovneba~ gaaCnia!

64.kiTxva: mama giorgi, sasowarkveTilebis azrebi mawuxebs, rom RmerTi Cems mZime codvebs ar Semindobs da arc var Rirsi. Zalian davvuZlurdi, sevda mereva, muSaobis Tavi ar maqvs...

pasuxi: RmerTs, rom Seni Sendoba ar surdes, ukve cocxali aRar iqnebodi da rom cocxali xar _ es imitom, rom uyvarxar, da rom uyvarxar ese igi Segindobs!..
ar arsebobs codva, romelic RmerTis mowyalebas aRematebodes!.. Tu adamiani nanobs Cadenils, RmerTi ar gaswiravs mas! is, rom Seundoblobis azrebi geZaleba, es borotisganaa. jer codva Cagadenina, axla ki sasowarkveTilebiT gibnelebs gonebas.
Sendobis Rirsi ara varo, rom ambob, es Seni gadasawyveti araa, es RmerTis xelmwifebaSia! kargia, rom ganicdi Cadenils, magram Sen mosamarTle ara xar, Tundac sakuTari Tavis!
es azrebic borotisganaa, romelmac Seni daRupvis saqme sanaxevrod moaxerxa, axla am azrebiT cdilobs agaridos aRsarebas da sabolood Cagigdos xelSi. xar Rirsi Tu ara xar Rirsi, es   RmerTs miande. Sen ki moikribe simamace da midi wminda mRvdelTan, mas uTxari, man gadawyvitos da ara Sen! iqneb arc ise mZimedaa saqme, rogorc Sen ggonia.!... didi Zala aqvs sinanuliT naTqvam aRsarebas. Sen axla CemTvis Seni codva ar giTqvams, magram xom igrZeni, rogor mogeSva gulze, hoda, aRsarebis Semdeg naxe!.. boroti warmogidgens RmerTs ase sastikad da is gawvdis sulis damRupvel azrebs!. qriste RmerTi codvilTaTvis ewama jvarze, babua, da misi jvarmcmelebic ki Seavedra mamas. Sen im asisTavze meti xom ar Segicodavs, romelmac qristes Subi sca ferdSi, hoda mas Seundo qristem da Senc Segindobs!
Sen uZluri xar, babua, gereva eSmaki, adamianebi, xorci, vneba, wuTisofeli da es yovelive icis mowyale RmerTma da Segindobs!
RmerTs yoCaRebi uyvars!   Tu codvaSi iyavi yoCaRi, axla sinanulSi da RmrTis didebaSi gaxdi yoCaRi!...
wminda mRvdeli naxe. wmidanma icis Senze yvelaferi da isic icis, rac Sen ar ici Sens Tavze da im codvaze, romelic Caidine! is rom Segindobs, RmerTi Segindobs da Tu isev mogawoda borotma azrebi, isev naxe moZRvari da is mogacilebs borotis azrebs.
siyvaruliT dgas qveyana!... RvTis siyvaruli gvpatiobs, Torem simarTliT_v i n   g a u Z l o s   R m r T i s   s a m a r T a l s!
65. kiTxva: ojaxSi mama gamudmebiT svams. veranairi Segoneba ver Wris, fizikuradac ar aris kargad, rogor vaiZuloT, rom Sewyvitos sma?

pasuxi: daviwyoT iqidan, rom Sen mas veranairad ver aiZuleb!... meore da sxvaa vnebisa da codvis tyveoba!.. da Segoneba aq verafers gargebs!.. is smas ar Sewyvets, Tu RvTis madli ar Seexo. RvTis madls ki, rogorc xedavT, TviTon ver moixveWs. amitom es Tqveni sakeTebeli unda gaxdes! Tqven locva gmarTebT da keTili saqmeebis keTeba mis sasargeblod. Tqven mas ki nu ebrZviT, aramed ebrZoleT mis borkilebs, riTac is eSmaks hyavs datyvevebuli! wmindani naxeT. man icis rodidan da an ra codvis sawyisebze hyavs is eSmaks gamoWerili. eqimebic dagexmarebaT.
is rom svams, es Tqveni gansacdelicaa da ara mxolod misi. misi loToba gamdablebT Tqven!
amitom ecadeT, simTvraleSi Cadenili `sigiJeebis~ gamo ar SeiZuloT!.. mas loTobis eSmaki hyavs, amitom aucileblad naxeT wmidani da misi darigeba da kurTxeva SeasruleT! iloceT, rom aseT sulier mdgomareobaSi ar gaiyvanos igi RmerTma. sasos nu warikveTT!.. RmerTi yovlisSemZlea. qriste RmerTma oTxi dRis gardacvlili lazare aRadgina da loTis gankurneba gauWirdeba?!..
arafriT ar ganvikiTxoT! Torem gankiTxva Tqvenc CagagdebT codvaSi. mere Tavad iqnebiT saSveli. boroti misi sxeuliT gebrZviT Tqven. Tqven ki qristes madliTa da SewevniT unda ebrZoloT ara sxeuls, aramed borot suls!..

66. kiTxva: mama giorgi, colis SerTva msurs. Tqven ras mirCevdiT?

pasuxi: ver gavige ras mekiTxebi?!   Sen ambob, rom gsurs.   me ra giTxra, ra pasuxs elodebi Cemgan? SeirTo Tu ara?! – eg Seni gadasawyvetia, babua. Tavisufali neba mogca RmerTma! me rom giTxra:   nu SeirTavo, aseTi pasuxi Sen ar mogewoneba!... rom giTxra: SeirTeo _ es Sen isedac gadawyvetili gaqvs!.. maS ras elodebi Cemgan?! me mxolod daglocav da getyvi:   RmerTma mogces sibrZne, RvTis nebis mignebisa da swori arCevanisa! da Tu Seqmni ojaxs, mogceT RmerTma siyvaruli, urTierTgageba, bevri Svili da maTi gazrdis saSualeba, rwmena da madliereba RmrTisa!
ra magisi pasuxia, mara ... erTi raRac gamaxsenda: erTxel sokratesTan mivida erTi axalgazrda kaci da rCeva sTxova _ SevirTo qali Tu arao! sokrates avi qali hyavda, romelic Zalian cudad epyroboda mas. sokrate dafiqrda da uTxra: `colis SerTva kargiao. Tu kargi qali Segxvdeba bednieri iqnebi da Tu Cemi colisTana Segxvda_ filosofosi gaxdebio~ (icinis).

67. kiTxva: mamao, sazRvargareT mivdivar samuSaod. Tu makurTxebT?..

pasuxi: Tu midixar, awi, me ras mekiTxebi?! ginda Seni gadawyvetileba gavamarTlo da gikurTxo?!.. roca SeniT Rebulob gadawyvetilebas pasuxismgebilic Sena xar!.. Tu axla SegeZlo kiTxva, gadawyvetilebis miRebamdec SegeZlo!.. da es marTebuli iqneboda. axla midixar! da midi!... me daglocav: dagifaros RmerTma eSmakisa da boroti adamianebisagan. fuli geSovos da samSoblos dabrunebode!... nu geSinia, RmerTi yvelganaa. oRond gaxsovdes RmerTi! geqneba fulebi, geqneba (icinis).

68. kiTxva: aris Tu ara patara codvebi momakvdinebeli?

pasuxi: wmida eklesias gansazRvruli aqvs momakvdinebel codvaTa kategoria, magram mciredi codvebi, romlebic sistematur xasiaTs Rebulobs aucileblad gaxdeba droSi momakvdinebeli codvebis sawindari. mciredi codvebiT iwyeba didi codvebi. adamiani mkvlelad ar ibadeba, is mkvlelad yalibdeba da es codva   q e d m a R l o b i T   iwyeba! _ sxvebis Seuracyofa, damcireba da Cagvra aucileblad miiyvans adamians kacis kvlamde. RmerTma gvaSoros!... patara codva ar aris momakvdinebeli, magram patara codvebis erToblioba ukve isedac aris didi codva!.

69. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven sporti axseneT, rogori damokidebuleba gaqvT sportTan?
pasuxi: sporti axlac miyvars, radgan igi nebisyofas, Sromismoyvareobas da sulier simtkices moiTxovs. rac TavisTavad ayalibebs   da avaJkacebs suls. xolo vaJkaci suli saTnoebisken ufroa mimarTuli, vidre borotisaken.
ra Tqma unda, sports bolomde ver gavyvebodi, magram is wlebi da fizikuri momzadebis done mTeli cxovrebis manZilze Zalze wamadga. axlac, am asakSi, 40 km SemiZlia fexiT gaviaro.
mixaria, rom miuxedavad ekonomiuri siduxWirisa, saxelmwifom isev moixeda sportisaken da cdilobs, Rirseulad daufasos Sroma sportsmenebs. es mravalmxriv aris sasargeblo: jer erTi amiT popularizacia eweva jansaRi cxovrebis wess sazogadoebaSi, meore_mozardebs Tavisufali drois gonivrulad gatarebis saSualeba eZlevaT da isini aRar eqcevian quCis, `ZvelbiWebis~ gavlenis qveS, mesame da ufro mniSvnelovani _mas SeuZlia axalgazrdebi gamostacos narkomanias _ am saSinel sens, romelic policiuri meTodebiT ar aRmoifxvreba. sports SeuZlia amis umtkivneulod gakeTeba.
amitom misasalmebelia, rom amdeni sportuli moednebi da seqciebi ixsneba, magram erTi ram mainc minda vTqva:
_ Cemi azriT, cota keTdeba axalgazrda TaobaSi Cveni Zveli saxelovani sportsmenebis popularizaciis kuTxiT. axalgazrdebma Zalian cota da zog SemTxvevaSi TiTqmis araferi ician maTze. cudi araferia, roca mozards surs gaxdes `ronaldo~ an kidev `zidani~, magram dasanania, rom ar icnoben qarTuli fexburTis legendebs. dRes mxolod ufrosi Taobis warmomadgenlebs Tu axsovT, rom didma pelem miSa mesxi _ `wiTel peled~, xolo slava metreveli `samyaros nomer pirvel idealur garemarbad~ aRiara. xalxi da specialistebi ki miSa mesxs `fintebis mefes~,   `uragans~, `mekareTa risxvas~, xolo slava metrevels ki `ugvirgvino mefes~, `qarTvel jiqs~,   `jentlmens~, `reaqtiul avazas~, `premiers~ uwodebdnen. isini Cveni erovnuli siamayeni arian da axalgazrdebi ufro Rrmad unda icnobdnen maT sportul cxovrebas.
dRes sportuli gadacemebi blomadaa. hoda, xom SeiZleba kviraSi erTxel, erTi gadacema TiToeul aseT pirovnebazec momzaddes, aCvenon Zveli da saxelovani matCebi da asparezobani, dokumenturi kadrebi maT varjiSsa da sportul cxovrebaze, didi sportmenebis moqalaqeobriv Rirsebebze. Cemi azriT, aseTi gadacemebi SesaniSnavi stimuli iqneba axalgazrdobis rogorc profesiuli, aseve pirovnuli srulyofisaTvis, rac maT Tavdajerebulobasac SematebT, daanaxebT, rom Cveni fexburTi gagvaCnia da aravis “yidva” ar gvWirdeba. Cven mxolod qarTveli mozardebis aRzrda gvmarTebs.
mjera, Cvenc gavixarebT Cveni erovnuli gundis msoflio CempionobiT.
msurs vusurvo yvela qarTvel sportsmens warmateba, Tavdauzogavi Sroma da qristes rwmenaSi ganmtkiceba.
RmerTis Sewevna yvela saqmeSia aucilebeli, magram isic aris, rom RmerTi uSromel da uqnara xalxs ar Seeweva. Tu kargad moemzadebian da morwmuneebic iqnebian, Cven, mlocvelebic SeveweviT maT gamarjvebSi. Tu sxvebs magebi da jadoqrebi `exmarebian~ da suls iRupaven. Cven ki, cocxali da WeSmariti RmerTis ZaliT davexmarebiT.

70. kiTxva:   mama giorgi, Cven Zalze xSirad SegvimCnevia, roca TqvenTan mosul adamianebs, romlebic madlmosili moZRvrebis ZiebaSi arian,   sxvebTan agzavniT, an kidev aravisze ar miuTiTebT. ratom Tavad ar exsnebiT da ar SesTavazebT   Tqvens   daxmarebas?
pasuxi:   getyviT.   imiT daviwyeb rom Tqven ara xar marTali, roca ambobT yvelas sxvagan agzavnio!... ara, ara yvelas!..   axla imasac getyviT, Tu ratom vagzavni sxvagan:   imitom, rom CemTan mosulebis didi nawili, romelic TiTqos eZebs wmidans, rom daemorCilos mas da miT suli icxonos,   sinamdvileSi srulebiTac ar eZebs wmidans am mizniT. maT sulis cxonebis sakiTxi arc udgaT dRis wesrigSi!...
vinc   marTla eZebs wmidans is ukve raRac sulier doneze imyofeba. raxan mas gauCnda wmidanze sulieri moTxovnileba, misi suli iseT mdgomareobaSia, rom SeuZlia Tavad SeigrZnos wmidani. aseTebi wmidanze miTiTebas ar saWiroeben, isini RvTis suliT SeigrZnoben mas!...
CemTan mosulebi ki maTvaliereben, makvirdebian   wverebze, saxeze da a.S..   mase wmidans ver icnobT, babua!...wmidans   suliT SeigrZnobT. aseTebs vagzavni sxvasTan an saerTod vdumvar... daxmarebiT ra Tqma unda, vexmarebi ise, rom amas isini verc ki grZnoben. ratom ar exsnebio, cota ar iyos, kadnieri kiTxvaa Tqveni mxridan!... me vexmarebi rogorc xilulad, aseve uxilavadac, mets ras mibrZanebT, ra SevTavazo?!... rava, is vuTxra: `me var da Cemi nabadio?!.~... maT madlmosili adamianis cnobisTvis   suli mzad rom hqonodaT, Tavadac mixvdebodnen, Tu vin da ra suli aris CemSi!... da roca adamiani ver xvdeba, Sen xom ar etyvi wmidani varo; xelad ityvis, _   TviTmarqviaao, Tavis Tavze amowmebso da gagecleba. rom vuTxra, _ ara var-meTqi, maSin arafers gagigonebs. amitom me ar veubnebi arafers, arc hos da arc aras. aseT mdgomareobaSi kidev SeiZleba raRac gagigonos da mec vagzavni sxva   moZRvarTan... im moZRvarTan rasac izams, ar aris Zneli warmosadgeni, magram me marTali viqnebi sakuTar TavTan: mkiTxes da mec vupasuxe. verc TviTon daadanaSaulebs sasuliero pirebs, verc me da verc imas, visTanac vagzavni. verc uyuradRebobaSi dagvdebs brals. droSi ki _ damnaSaves sakuTar TavSi aRmoaCens.                  
iseTebi ki, romlebic grZnoben RvTis madls, romc gavyaro, mainc ar momeSvebian. kidev unda iTqvas sxva ram: yvela ki ar aris Cemi `dasamuSavebeli~,   sxvadasxva adamians sxvadasxva moZRvari sWirdeba!.. mec imis da mixedviT, rogorc RmerTi maZlevs, veubnebi sad da visTan mividnen.
me erTxel giTxariT, saqme imaSi ki ar aris, rom wmidani ver aRiarebs Tavis sulier mdgomareobas, aramed imaSi, Tu ras moutans es aRiareba codvils!.. wesiT, wmidanma ki ar unda Tqvas Tavis Tavze, aramed adamiani TviTon unda mixvdes amas!.. da roca ver grZnobs misi suli, uazrobaa mas wmidanze miuTiTo!... radganac is mainc ver miiRebs mas, sanam suli   ar   `d a u m u S a v d e b a~.
is moZRvrebi, romlebzec mivuTiTeb me adamianebs, nel-nela gauwmenden maT suls, mxolod amis Semdeg ki, Tavad aRmoaCenen wmidanebs.
ase, rom sxva moZRvrebTan wasvlas vurCev, Tu CemTan vtoveb, visac cxonebis survili aqvs, RmerTi yvelas Seeweva, xolo visac es survili ar aqvs,   wmidanis gverdiT rom acxovro erTi saukune, mainc ra sargebeli eqneba mas?!   ZaliT cxoneba vis gaugia!    

71.kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven didi gulistkiviliT axseneT, rom saxl-kari gagiuqmes. ris safuZvelze gaakeTes es da ra iyo amis mizezi?

pasuxi: safuZveli aranairi ar hqondaT maT. mizezi ki is iyo, rom me urCi viyavi rogorc xelisuflebisaTvis, ase calkeuli sulgayiduli sasuliero pirebisaTvis. me simarTlis Tqma guSin ar damiwyia!. 80-ian wlebis dasawyisSi gazeTSi iyo Cemi statia, romelsac komlis gauqmeba mohyva. me bevri saxis devna ganmicdia, magram es yvelaze mtkivneuli iyo. imitom, rom   mamiseuli saxli iyo da Cems debsac ekuTvnodaT. bevrjer   momismenia debisgan sayveduri: `ra iqna Seni mRvdloba, riT ver daetie. sxvebisTvis saxlic SeiZleba da manqanac. Sen ki mamaCvenis saxlic dagvikargeo!..~
am sityvebis mosmenas, biZia, nebismieri wameba sjobia. es dResac miklavs guls. me Cemi cxovrebiT ar mqonda ufleba vinmesTvis zianis miyenebisa, Tundac debisTvis. ki, isini Cemebi arian, magram maT ar moeTxovebodaT Cems gamo. Cven Zalian did gaWirvebaSi gazrdilebi viyaviT. mama omSi daiRupa. gvzrdida ufrosi Zma. omianobis dros yvelas uWirda, babua, ar gegonoT vxumrobde _ dResac ver vitan tyemlis wvens. SimSilobis wlebSi imdeni tyemali mqonda naWami, dRes misken gaxedvac ar SemiZlia (icinis). erTxel dedam stumrad wamiyvana naTesavTan, ase 6-7 wlis viqnebodi. naTesavma raRac-raRaceebi gamoitana, isinic xelmokled cxovrobdnen. dedam Tavi moikla: `araferi ar gvinda, maZRrebi varTo~. me gulSi ise gavubrazdi dedas, rom vifiqre: `erTi es qali momakvlevina-meTqi~ (icinis) ise mSioda...
rogorc ar unda yofiliyo Cems gamo, Cems debs da naTesavebs ar unda ganecadaT tkivili. es mawuxebs, Torem pirad devnas me xalisiT vuZlebdi. d e v n a   imisi niSania, rom sworad cxovrob!.. rom   marTlad dgexar!... da CemTvis, rogorc   mRvdlisaTvis amaze umTavresi arc iyo rame da awi raRa unda iqnes!..  
uSiSroebaSi `damuSavebaze~ Tvrametjer vyavdiT sxvadasxva dros!... veraferi momixerxes, an ra unda eqnaT CemTvis. me patiosnad vcxovrobdi, vloculobdi SeZlebisdagvarad. didxans miTvalTvalebdnen. monasterSi Cemi oTaxis gverdiT patara adgili iyo, SeRebes, miumates-moumates da iq TavianTi kaci Seasaxles. didi boroti iyo!...   Rameebi ar Zinavda da arc me maZinebda. yovel diliT cinikurad momesalmeboda. Rame ki ise Sublgarecxilad xmaurobda, rom gagxeTqavda gulze. magram Cven qristes msaxurT gvevaleba, moTminebiT da locviT davamarcxoT isini. ra Tqma unda Znelia. sul cdilobda mwyobridan gamoyvanas, Tan TvalebSi marTaliviT   miyurebda.. yvelaferi ar iTqmis. bevri ecada, magram araferi gamouvida... mere daviT da konstantinem miages is rac ukuRmarTobiT hqonda damsaxurebuli. erTs meore cvlida... iqeqebodnen Cems nivTebSi. Sesawiris yuTidan, Cumad amohqondaT fulebi, raTa me `gamoveWireT~ qurdobaSi. erTxel, ori `mRvdeli~, sxvadasxva mxridan gamoqanda Cems mimarTulebiT. droze movaswari gamorkveva, cdilobdnen mxrebiT damtakebodnen da am simaRlidan gadavegdeT, magram erTi, romelic avicdine, TiTon gadaeSva gaWirvebuli. cocxal-mkvdari amoviyvaneT. mainc ar gaswira RmerTma.
Tavidan RmerTi salosobas mTxovda. Seuracyofa da avi sityva bevri viwvnie. ra saxis ciliswameba ar gaavrceles Cems yaCaRobaze, iaraRis tarebaze, saidumlo bandis meTaurobaze, qalebze, fulze, TamaSze. naTesavebs aiZulebdnen `eRiarebinaT~ Cemi danaSaulebrivi saqmeebi. ZmiSvili waiyvanes dakiTxvaze   da   rom arafers xeli ar moawera, meore dRes 7 kacs acemines. didi xnis win momwamles. vici vinc Caidina. kiboTi gardaicvala sawyali. mainc Semecoda, daavales im gaWirvebuls. momwamles ager zafxulSic. esec vici vinc Caidina... Tbilisidan iyvnen!... jerac ver gamovedi!.. xom xedavT ena meborkeba, es mowamvlis Semdgom damrCa. sul sicxeebi maqvs, magram mainc unda   gavuZlo. eqimTan ar mivsulvar. erTxel ki gamsinjes.... me jer ar gaval am qveynidan, babua!... orjer manqana damatakes. erTxel msubuqad gadavrCi, meored mTeli Rame vegde Zvlebdatvreuli.
devna mxolod fizikuri ar iyo. fizikurad Zlieri viyavi.   TbilisSi, isic momiwyes rom erTi qurdi Caries Cems saqmeSi. mas ise auxsnes, rom me raRac saqme mqonda gafuWebuli. sanam qurdi simarTleSi gaerkveoda, ori oTxkaciani jgufi damesxa Tavs. ver mcemes. xom giTxariT, magrad vurtyamdi meTqi (icinis). qurdi, saqmeSi rom `gaerkva~, miTxra marTali kaci yofilxaro... marTali me imitom ki ar var _ vuTxari me _ rom Sen meubnebi, marTali imitom var, rom RmerTma momca simarTle_meTqi. fexis yovel nabijze axal-axali faTerakebi ar maklda... isini amiT Cems gatexvas cdilobdnen, rom mRvdloba dametovebina.
gacilebiT Znelia uxilavi, sulieri devna. boroti yvelanairi iarRiT mebrZoda. roca marto viyavi monasterSi, eSmaki modioda, oRond karis zRurbls ver abijebda, idga da melaparakeboda. araa saintereso, ras laparakobda is wyeuli?! (icinis). ra da ra saxis cxovelis da qvemZromis saxiT ar modioda. iqceoda ZaRlad da yefda mTeli Rame.   erTxel `SuaRamianis~ locvisTvis gaviRviZe da vxedav, sami virTxa didi gulmodginebiT   RrRnida CanTas, sadac   saxareba medo. mivxvdi vinebi myavda `stumrad!..~ hoda, qristes saxeliT vubrZane namdvili saxe gamoeCinaT!.. gamoaCines kidevac: Cems win sami kaci aRimarTa!.. isini didxans ar eSvebodnen eklesias!... .hoda, im RamiT Camigdo RmerTma xelSi!.... es visTvis meTqva?! vin damijerebda?! _ aravin! _ ufro meti, giJad gamomacxadebdnen da `fsixuSkaSi~ gamaqanebdnen!... ori, im sami kudianidan, dResac cocxalia fizikurad!.. Tumca eklesias moscildnen!... isini Tavisi sikvdiliT unda aResrulon!.. maSin RmerTi ganamwesebs maT sadac jer ars!.. me SemeZlo damexoca maSin, roca virTxis sxeuliT iyvnen!.. magram vicodi, vinebic iyvnen!.. es maT TviTonac awyobdaT!.. amiT isini gaixangrZlivebdnen sulier yofas sxva sxeulSi!...
RmerTs sul vgrZnobdi. boroti gansakuTrebiT sastikad mebrZoda, roca uxmod wirvis dayeneba daviwye martom!... 25 weli movandome mecadineobas, uwyveti locvebisaTvis rom mimeRwia!. wmida aleqsi SuSania mecxadeboda da is mexmareboda locvis srulyofaSi.!.
aki giTxariT, rom isini yvela Rones, xerxebsa da mzakvrobebs iyenebdnen imisTvis, rom eklesidan movecilebineT!... erTxel, didmarxvaSi, pirvelSewirulis liturgia unda Cametarebina. tarigi gamzadebuli mqonda sanawileSi trapezze. roca taZarSi   sadilis Jamni ikiTxeboda, Sevimose da barZim_feSxumi samkveTloze davabrZane. Semdeg feSxumi Sublis simaRleze daviWire da trapezTan mivedi, raTa tarigi feSxumze damebrZanebina. magram gamzadebuli tarigi sanawileSi ar damxvda. warmoidgineT, ra mdgomareoba iqneboda mRvdelisTvis!... adgils ver vpoulobdi, taZridan gamovedi. TavSi araferi momdioda, rogor gamovsuliyavi mdgomareobidan. arc is, vis SeeZlo aseTi mkrexeloba Caedina... urTules sulier mdgomareobaSi myofi, taZarSi Sevbrundi.. sakurTxevelSi axalgazrda Wabuki damxvda da samkveTlosken mimiTiTa... gavvocdi... samkveTloSi ukveTi sefiskveris davinaxe.. RmerTi vadide da axali tarigi saswrafod gavamzade... pirvelSewiruli liturgia davasrule. isev gamomecxada is Wabuki da miTxra: `giorgi, me konstantine var!... da icode, RmerTma miiRo Seni msaxureba da amis CamdenT ki, Tavad me mivxedav!.~ sami dRec ar gasula am ambidan... ca saSinlad moiqufra, Rrubeli Camowva monastris Tavze, ca elvam gaapo, mexma motexa taZris kedlis qvis nawili da moxvda erT-erT iq myofTagans, romelic samzareulosken garboda. cota xnis Semdeg, movida da SeSinebulma aRiara, rom: `is da masTan erTad orni, Sesulan sakurTxevelSi da CaudeniaT es mkrexeloba.~ Tanve miTxra, visi davalebiTac moqmedebdnen! kidev, ramodenime dRis Semdeg, im oridan erT-erTi, cecxlsasroli iaraRidan daiWra, mesamem ki saswrafod datova aqauroba, rogorc gavige, isic raRac did SarSi yofila gaxveuli...
roca Cemze JurnalSi statia gamoaqveynes, movida erTi Cemi `nacnobi~ `samsaxurebidan~ da miTxra: `giorgi, proklamaciebis weras moeSvi, Torem cudi droa, SemTxveviTma tyviam ar gimsxverploso!~ me tyviis ar meSinia da arc arafris! _ vuTxari.   mere eparqiidanac movida erTi: `ase SemogiTvales, mamao, Tbilisidan gvawuxeben, miatovos werao da mdumared wirvao~. me miCveuli var amisTanebs. Tu vinmes rame awuxebs me piradad miTxras!.. cxonebulma, maradis xsenebulma kaTolokos - patriarqma daviTma (devdariani) miTxra: `giorgi, Svilo, ar memetebi tyviisTvis!... magram Cvens saqmeSi sabralo kaci ver ivargebs... unda iomo da gauZlo!...” da winaswar Cemi momavali cxovrebis epizodebi momiyva. mimaniSna pirad mterze. bevri ram miTxra da gamomadga misi rCevebi.
Tavi SegawyineT Cemi ambebiT, magram xom ici, SenianebTan guls, rom gaxsni, mogeSveba. cota xnis win sad iyo mrevli, an amdeni samRvdeloeba. Zneli iyo marto... axla ki naxeT ramdeni dadis eklesiebSi. erTxel, marto darCenils, maRali sicxeebi mqonda, aravin amosula. RmerTisgan nugeSi ar maklda, magram adamianis naxvasac aqvs Zala. menatreboda vinme amosuliyo. gana wamali mindoda?!... siyvaruli didi Zalaa. roca RmerTi adamianis gulSi damkvidrdeba, geubnebi, iseT rameebs xedavs, rom ver warmoidgenT. mTeli buneba gexmareba. WianWvela rom WianWvelaa, isic raRacas miganiSnebs. erTxel erTi WianWvela Semosuliyo. (icinis) Saqari rom naxa, Tavisianebisken gaeSura: `aba, wavediT giorgisTan, Saqari movutaniao!~... am katas, rom xedavT, me micavs, radgan aq Cven orni varT Wognareli!...   saintereso da saocaria buneba, magram adamianze aRmatebuli araferi ar aris!...
saxlis gauqmebas ratom ganvicdi, ukve giTxariT, Torem me piradad Zalian didi saxli, isic xelTuqmneli maqvs zecaSi... iqve aqvs saxli giorgi brwyinvales!!! me Cemi am qveynad araferi gamaCnia, arc saxli da arc manqana, arc telefoni, arc fuli, arc vali, magram adamianebis siyvaruli   da qarTuli kacoba wmindad Seminaxavs.

72. kiTxva: mama giorgi, vsargeblob SemTxveviT da msurs mogmarToT kiTxviT: xalxSi bevri miTqma-moTqmaa imis Sesaxeb, rom Tqvens mier 7 noembris movlenebis Sefasebisa da mefis Sesaxeb gamoTqmuli mosazrebis gamo SegiCerdaT mRvdelmoqmedeba, ramdenad samarTlianad TvliT adgilobrivi mRvdel mTavris, meufe kalistates, gadawyvetilebas?

pasuxi: (mkacrad) jer erTi, kargad mogexsenebaT, rom me sasuliero piri var da ara politikosi, amitom am sakiTxze sajaro saubari mizanSewonilad ar mimaCnia, da meore, me var qarTuli eklesiis mRvdelmsaxuri da sruliad vemorCilebi rjulis kanonsa da eklesiis dadgenilebebs. aqedan gamomdinare, rogori gadawyvetilebac ar unda mieRo mRvdelmTavars, movale viyavi, davmorCilebodi mas... rac gavakeTe kidevac... es eklesiaa!... aq SfoTi da piradi abiciebi dauSvebelia! mters meti ki ar unda ram!..
me ra mRvdelmsaxuri viqnebodi, rom damewyo Tavis marTleba da saCivrebiT sirbili!... romc ar vyofiliyavi sasuliero piri _ me es bunebaSi ar midevs... uRmerTod araferi xdeba!... dideba RmerTs! me ki ara eklesiis udidesi mamebi SeuCerebiaT!... mosamarTle ki RmerTia!... me mTeli cxovreba viyavi mindobili RmerTs da ase var dRemde. RmerTi aravis daukargavs simarTles da maT Soris mec!...
me ar ganmikiTxavs mRvdelmTavris gadawyvetileba _ SemaCera da mec davemorCile!.. magram erTi ram mtkiced mwams, me arc RmerTis, arc eklesiis da arc Cemi xalxis mimarT im sityvebiT ar Semicodavs... me Cemi xalxis siyvaruliT Cemi azri gamovTqvi da aravisTvis damivalebia gazeTSi gamoeqveynebinaT... moewona im adamians da gamoaqveyna... ra vuyoT mere, xom ar davaxrCobT amisTvis... icis RmerTma, Cemi mosazreba aravis mimarT boroti zraxviT ar gamomiTqvams!...
rac Seexeba SimSils... me viSimSile ara protestis niSnad, aramed imitom rom, roca mRvdeli ar wiravs, sustdeba sulierad da amiT ki sargebloben boroti sulebi. amitom aseT dros, maTgan Tavdacvis uZlieres iaraRs warmoadgens S i m S i l i da piradi locva. vfiqrob, gasagebad agixseniT SimSilobis mizezi. SimSili CemTvis ar aris axali... es eriskacisTvisaa marxva msubuqi. sulier brZolebSi Cabmuli msaxurisaTvis ki marxva – SimSilia!
rac Seexeba imas, icoda Tu ara uwmindesma Cems Sesaxeb, getyviT: rogorc me miTxres, uwmindess gvian Seutyvia... me orjer viyavi uwmindesTan mRvdelmTavris kurTxeviT da uwmindesma aRmidgina msaxureba, magram adgilze sxva gadawyvetilebas iRebdnen Cems mimarT!...
dRes es sakiTxi, rogorc xedavT, mogvarebulia da me Cveulebriv vmsaxureb. madloba RmerTs da wm.daviT da konstantines!

73 kiTxva: ras gvirCev, mamao, rom RvTis saTnod vicxovroT?

pasuxi: ras girCevT!... ras iTxovs RmerTi Cvengan: sanTels, cxvars, fuls Tu ras? ra sWirdeba RmerTs Cvengan?! _ araferi, is mxolod guls iTxovs da imis garkvevaSi, gvaqvs Tu ara RvTis saTno guli, isev RmerTive gvexmareba. amisTvis RvTismetyveleba araa aucilebeli, arc codna da didi azrovneba. ager, gaixedeT quTaisis centrSi, arkebTan, 80 wlis naxevradSeumosavi, usaxlkaro adamiani rom zis... is zamTar-zafxul, yinvasa da siciveSi, dRe da Rame zis... nuTu ar gewviT guli? dReSi orjer CauvliT, mSvidad gZinavT saxlebSi, locvebs kiTxulobT da RvTismetyvelebasac kadnierad arCevT. aris aseTi guli saTno?
mowyale RmerTi, romelic matlsa da Citebs kvebavs, gana im `glaxaks~ ar Seeweva?! Seinaxavs, magram Tqven ra pasuxs gascemT qristes, romelic ityvis: `vinaidan mSioda da saWmeli ar momeciT; mwyuroda da ar masviT, ucxo viyavi da ar mimiReT, SiSveli viyavi da ar SemmoseT, sneuli viyavi da sapyrobileSi ar mominaxuleT.~ (maTe 25.41-42-43). da kidev: `WeSmaritad geubnebiT Tqven, rogorc araferi gaukeTeT am mcireTagans, arc me gamikeTeT~. gana, adamians guli sevdis mogvramde ar unda aRelvebdes saqarTveloSi qarTveli kacis aseTi tanjva: sneuli, asakovani, natanji, mSier-mwyurvali adamianis yureba. gana misi tanjva ar gvexeba Cven? romel CvenTagans aqvs ufleba gankiTxvisa, Tu ratom, ra mizeziT zis. mTavari xom isaa, rom is tanjvas gadis, is xom erisTvisac itanjeba. da ra?!... vinme xuTi wuTiT mainc ar SeCerdeba masTan, rom daelaparakos, rom tanjvaSi cota agrZnobinos, rom is marto ar aris. aq, samSobloSi, aravin misiani?! dafiqrdiT, Tu guli yovelive amas mSvidobiT itans, gekiTxebiT _Seva aseTi adamianis gulSi qriste?! da Tu qristes Tqven ar uSvebT gulSi, xarT Rirsi rom qristem SegiSvaT mis samefoSi?
me tanjva ar mikvirs, magram im RvTiskacis sacodaobiT cremlebiT mevseba Tvalebi, nuTu xelisuflebas erTxel ar SuniSnavs moxuci adamiani, am tanjvaSi myofi. arada, xom evaleba samsaxureobrivadac, da Tu ver SeniSnes, RmerTic ver SeniSnavs maT. arCevnebSi, reklamebSi amden fuls rom xarjaven, marto qaRaldebSi, ramden upovars mouwyobda TavSesafars. maT amisTvis ar scaliaT, `saqveyno saqmeebs~ akeTeben?! hoda, getyviT, aseTi guliT, verafersac ver gaakeTeben!...
bevri ram davkargeT qarTvelebma: siyvaruli, siTbo, mowyaleba, Sendoba, patieba, marxva, sixaruli, saRmrTo xedva. da Tu es yvelaferi ar davibruneT, rogorRa viqnebiT qarTvelebi? arada qarTveloba aucilebelia qarTveli kacisTvis, radgan qarTveloba RmerTisgan gvaweria!
im RvTiskacs RmerTi icavs, sxvanairad rogor gauZlebda am tanjvas; is uZlebs, radgan didi sulia masSi. is sikvdilze midis eris siyvaruliT, is RvTis davalebas pirnaTlad asrulebs da marTali wardgeba RvTis winaSe. is zis, rom usityvod, Tavisi tanjviT gons movegoT, gamovfxizldeT, sakuTar gulebSi CavixedoT da davinaxoT, rogor davcildiT RmerTs. is zis, imitom rom CvenSi TanagrZnoba, siyvaruli, sinanuli aRZras, is zis, rom Sen cxonde, Sen ki 20 TeTrians ugdeb da garbixar saxlSi!...
is Seumosavia xorcielad, magram Semosilia qristes madliT. is usaxlkaroa, magram didi sasaxle elodeba sasufevelSi. is martoa, mas adamianebi ar esaubrebian, magram am martoobaSi Tavad RmerTi esaubreba, is glaxakia, magram didi meufis karze didi veziria. aseT `glaxakebs~ qarTvelebi Zvelad `WeSmariti meufis darbazis wevrebs~ eZaxdnen. mis Semweebs, RmerTi arasodes miatovebs da miutevebs codvebs. `mowyaleba sikvdilisganac ixsnis kacs da bnels aaridebs~ (tobiTi. T. 3.10).
glaxakebi RmerTs swored imitom hyavs qveynad, maTi pativismcemelni acxovnos. es RmerTis mier mocemuli kidev erTi saSualebaa cxonebisa, Tumca sxvaTa usastikesi tanjvis xarjze da nu davkargavT am saSualebas, radgan   sxva gza ufro Zneli da mtkivneuli aRsasrulebelia. amitom, me gTxovdiT, rom mixedoT da pativi miagoT maT!...
qarTveli Tavisi bunebiT qristiania, amitom Tavad guli gikarnaxebT imas, Tu rogor saTno eyoT RmerTs, amitom guls miendeT.
me ki daglocavT da Cvens ers vusurveb winsvlas, sixaruls, gamarjvebas, siyvaruls da gabrwyinebas.

SeviyvaroT erTmaneTi, SevundoT erTmaneTs da RmerTs davekiTxoT Cveni qveynis bed-iRbali,   da RmerTi dagvawynarebs, gagvaerTianebs da gaabrwyinebs saqarTvelos!...
daglocoT RmerTma da RvTismSobelma.

glocavdeT RmerTi, deda RvTisa geweodeT yovelive keTilis aRsrulebaSi. SegweodeT yvela wmida...








Yydaze (ukana garekani)


• “brma”-moZRvrebi gpirdebaT qristesTan miiyvanas zecaSi, wmidani ki gapovninebT qristes Tqvens gulSi.

• “brmebi” mxolod qadageben qristes sityvebs, wmidanebi ki gimzadeben guls qristesTvis.

• “cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi” qadageben saaTobiT, sCanan ganswavlulebi, sulierebi da didebulebi, magram maT gverdiT yofnisas ganicdiT sicives, siSores, sevdasa da SfoTs, roca wmidanebi Canan ubralo da Raribni, zogjer saRvTo sityvis “ucodinari”, magram maTgan ifrqveva qristes siTbo, siyvaruli da isini avseben Tqvens Sinagan samyaros imediTa da SvebiT.

• “cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi”-gpirdebian caTa sasufevels, magram isini iqedan ar Camosulan. isini brZnoben, magram veragni da mzakvrebi arian. wmidanebi ki metyveleben TavmdablobiT, magram aqvT qristes naTeli da maRlidan arian Camosulni.

• “brmebi” cdiloben “gagacnon” qriste, roca Tavad ar icnoben mas. wmindanebi ki icnoben qristes da cdiloben, Segamecnon sakuTari Tavi, ris Sedegadac Tavad icnobT qristes.
• “cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi”   iTxoven kanonebisa da wesebis dacvas, magram maTTvis ucxoa mTavari kanoni _ siyvaruli. wmidanebi   TiTqos arRveven kanonebs, wesebs, magram Tavad arian udidesi kanonis _ siyvarulis matareblebi.

“brmebi” da“cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi” qedmaRlobiT ganikiTxaven da siZulviliT ebrZvian wmidanebs, magram qedmaRloba da siZulvili Caiyvans maT maradiul cecxlSi.






























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mzaddeba gamocema saxelwodebiT `fexiTmosiarule~, sadac nebismier adamians, romelsac ganucdia mama giorgis daxmareba, an kidev mama giorgis sulieri SesaZleblobani SeuZlia gagviaziaros azri da STabeWdilebebi. dagvikavSirdiT nomrebze:

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hrqua ufalman TÂsTa mowafeTa:

`romelman Segiwynares TquÀn, me Semiwynara da romelman me Semiwynaros, Seiwynaros momavlinebeli Cemi. romelman Seiwynaros winaswarmetyuÀli saxelad winaswar-metyuÀlisa, sasyideli winaswarmetyuÀlisaÁ miiRos. da romelman Seiwynaros marTali saxelad marTlisa sasyideli marTlisa miiRos. da romelman asuas erTsa mcireTagansa sasumeli erTi wyali grili saxelad mowafisa, amin getyვი Tquen, ara warmwydes sasyideli misi.~
(maTe, T. 10., 40, 41, 42)

mama giorgis

xorci, SiSisgan Tavisufali
ixarebs sulis gaxarebiTa
sulis ZaliTa sasufeveli
iiZulebis saxarebiTa.

codnis gareSe cxovreba kacTa
wuTisofelSi aris amao
da kidev bevri geswavlos CvenTvis
madliT mosilo wmida mamao!

merab cincaZe

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vinc ki icnobs mama giorgis,   yvela dameTanxmeba, rom is aris Zalian didi siyvarulis matarebeli pirovneba, gulisxmieri da keTili, magram is mainc mkacri pirovnebaa. is mkacria maSinac, roca gulianad icinis da Tbilad gesaubreba...  
mTeli kvira emzadebi masTan Sesaxvedrad, gegmebs awyob, ra hkiTxo, rogor moiqce, magram mixval Tu ara masTan – Sens Tavs aRar ekuTvni. aRaraferi gaxsovs, rac ram moamzade, brinjiviT dabneuli dgaxar mis win. eniT aRuwereli morideba da krZalva Semodis Sens sulSi, maSinac ki, roca mxiarulad Semogegebeba. rogorc ki Semogxedavs mamao, suls TiTqos raRac emarTeba, TiTqos grZnob, rom suli gaqvs... raRacnairad pataravdebi, grZnob Sens ubadrukobas, umweobas da uRirsobas. Sengan damoukideblad, gonebaSi wamebSi gaielvebs Cadenili codvebi, cudi da mankieri Tvisebebi...
rogori mobilizebulic ar unda mixvide, rogoradac ar unda gaimxnevo Tavi, mamaos rom dainaxav, ise ibnevi, Sendauneblied TvalebSi cremli Cagidgeba. dgaxar da ar ici, rogor miesalmo, rogor moiqce, ra moimoqmedo. sanam dajdomas SemogTavazebs, erTianad gaiwurebi. isev wamebSi gagondeba, rac am erTi kviris manZilze Cagidenia, rac gifiqria, rac giTqvams. mere cota xanSi raRac mogeSveba. mere mamao getyvis: dajeqi, ras dgexar... gagesaubreba. Tavs Sinaurulad igrZnob. mamao ubralo eniT   gesaubreba da amiT giadvilebs masTan urTierTobas. magram Seni suli Senda uneburad grZnobs, rom Zalian didi arseba gesaubreba... saubarSi isev grZnob Zalis zemoqmedebas. Tavi ar mogwons, jdoma giWirs, ra qna ar ici. amasobaSi mamaos saxe xan keTilad Seicvleba, xan ki SiSis momgvreli, mkacri ieri gadahkravs... mere iwyebs xumrobas, TiTqos grZnob, rom axla aris xelsayreli momenti SekiTxvis dasasmelad, magram ara, pirs ver aReb, isev munjad, daZabuli zixar. mamao agrZelebs saubars... erTi-ori sityva Semodis sulSi, da grZnob, rom es sityvebi Sen gexeba. rogorc ki yuradRebiT miadevneb gulisyurs mamaos saubars, xvdebi, rom pasuxi mogca im SekiTxvaze, romelic gawuxebda, magram   ver dausvi. mere mamao gimaspinZldeba, magram ar ici, ra Wamo da rogor... adamiani   grZnobs: rom ara mamaos sikeTe, mis Sinagan simarTlesa da simkacres wamiTac veravin gauZlebs (TviTonac xSirad uTqvams, `me Znelad asatani kaci varo~), es unda ganicado...
amas ver aRwer da eniT ver gadmoscem. mamaos udidesi Zala aqvs. is akontrolebs mis irgvliv yvelasa da yvelafers. es araerTxel SegviniSnavs. adamiani grZnob imas, Tu ra uZluri   xar da ra yovlisSemZlea RmerTi. realurad grZnob, rom marTlac balaxic ar Setokdeba RmerTis gareSe da Tvalsac ver gaaxel Sens nebaze... es SiSismomgvreli gancdaa, magram amave dros, udidesi sixarulis momniWebelic. radgan cocxlad grZnob RmerTs da ara gadmocemiT, ara wignebiT, aramed Seni piradi gancdebiTa da grZnobiT. amas SeniT xedav da gwams. xedav, ra axlosaa RmerTi SenTan da grZnob: Tu icxovreb mis mosawonad, ra sixarulis moniWeba SeuZlia RmerTs da Tu arada, misi siaxlove jojoxeTad geqceva da erTi wamiT ver gauZleb mis sidiades, mis simarTles!..
ai, aseT daZabul yofas mamao raRac wuTebSi Secvlis, suli Sendauneblied mSviddeba da moeSvebi. mamao ki iseTi axlobeli da ubralo xdeba SenTvis, zogjer ki sul bavSviviT sayvareli, rom arc SiSi, arc SezRudva ar modis misgan. laparakSi ise `Sexurdebi~, TiTqos Tanatols esaubrebode. erTi sulis moTqmiT ityvi, rac SenSi dagrovda, risi gaziarebac gindoda. magram isev icvleba iqauroba, ise rom mamao saxis gamometyvelebas ar Seicvlis...
mamao zogjer iseTi didi pativiT   migiRebs, Tavi dedofali ggonia. zogjer sami saaTi fexze   dgaxar da fiqrob – netav, sul ar movsuliyavio. mamao usityvod gagaxarebs da usityvod dagaRonebs. roca is dagaRonebs, dedamiwaze araferi   ar arsebobs SenTvis, mxolod ici, rom Zalian cudi da ususuri arseba xar. magram, rogorc ki gagaxarebs, mTeli samyaro Sen gekuTvnis, yvela giyvars, mzad xar, es sixaruli sxvebsac gaunawilo, mtersac apatio, sicocxle Zalian saamuri da msubuqi xdeba.
es ori, ukiduresad sawinaaRmdego sulieri gancda mamaos oTaxSi SeiZleba ganicado sul raRac naxevari saaTis ganmavlobaSi, ise, rom oTaxSi fizikurad araferi Seicvalos, TiTqos arc arsebobda aseTi daRonebis sababi, miT umetes, oc wuTSi aseTi gaxarebisa. rodesac aanalizeb am or sulier mdgomareobas, maSin xvdebi mamaos sityvebis arss: `qarTvels jojoxeTic da samoTxec missave gulSi aqvso.~
mama giorgi zamTris civ da bnel RameSi mogizgize Zlier   c e c x l s a   hgavs, romelic irgvliv are-mares anaTebs da aTbobs, magram zomaze metad ver miuaxlovdebi!.. mamao hgavs mzesac, romelic gavsebs sicocxliT, sixaruliT, magram Tvals ver gausworeb da verc verasdros Seswvdebi. mama giorgi lomsac hgavs, romelic erTi SexedviT momxibvlelia, rogorc mefe, magram saSiSi sxva danarCeni arsebebisTvis!.. mama giorgi arwivsac hgavs, -didebulebiT, romelic Senc caSi navardis surviliT aRgZravs, magram caSi mxolod misnairebi Tu miuaxlovdebian!..

ariadnas mogoneba
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quTaisi
    me da Cemi megobrebi, eklesiurad morwmuneebi, 2002 wels viyaviT quTaTel-gaenaTel mitropolit kalistratesTan. meufes piradad ar vicnobdiT, magram mis mimarT pativiscema da mowiweba gagvaCnda, rogorc sxva meufeebis mimarT, amitom qalebi 4-5 metris moSorebiT mokrZalebiT davdeqiT, xolo iakobi meufes esaubreboda. saubris Tema Seexo mama gabriels (urgebaZe), radgan grovdeboda masalebi mis Sesaxeb wignis gamosacemad. iakobis kiTxvaze: `aris Tu ara mama gabrieli wmindani?~ meufe kalistratem gakvirvebiT upasuxa:
-   gabrieli wmidani rogorRaa, roca Seracxuli ar aris?!
iakobma moridebiT uTxra:
- meufev, arc wm. serafime iyo didxans Seracxuli, sanam mefe nikolozi ar Caeria saqmeSi. ra, ar iyo wmidani?..
  pasuxma mitropolit kalistrates saxe Seucvala da iakobs mkacrad mimarTa:
- Sen ra?... ginda mogatyuo?! mitropoliti kaci var da geubnebi, gabrieli ar aris wmidani!... aba, wmidani!... gabriels Rvinis sma uyvarda... fuls iTxovda... ramdenjer mimicia misTvis Rvinis fuli!..
- meufev, mama gabrielis saflavis kandelis zeTi rom kurnavs?
- rao?! ra zeTi?!... samTavro wminda adgilia, mand mefe mirianis da dedofali nanas saflavia. hoda, wmidanebi axdenen saswauls...
    iakobs kidev undoda raRacis Tqma, magram mitropoliti manqanaSi Cajda da gabrazebulma Cailaparaka: `vinaa es kaci, momacileT!~ _ da wavida.
      yvelani dabneuli da gaognebuli videqiT. meufisagan aseT pasuxs aranairad ar velodiT. misma sityvebma saSineli SfoTi, Sinagani areuloba da eWvebi gamoiwvia CvenSi. meufesTan mama gabrielis siwmindis `gadasamowmeblad~ ki ar mivsulvarT, aramed velodiT, gviambobda (gaixsenebda) raime saintereso SemTxvevas mama gabrielTan misi piradi urTierTobidan, aq ki mexiviT dagveca misi sityvebi... gonebaSi azrebi erTmaneTs ebrZodnen. mama gabrielis saswaulebrivi daxmareba piradad ganmicdia da saeWvo masSi ra unda mqonoda? magram mitropolit kalistrates sityvasac hqonda Zala, Tan ierarqiis moSiSebac gvqonda. am daZabulobaSi mxolod iakobi iyo mxned. Tavi gaaqnia, etyoboda, TviTonac nawyeni iyo, magram rom naxa Cveni `daRrejiloba~,   mtkiced gviTxra:
_ ... ra vuyoT mere, es mitropolitis piradi mosazrebaa...… mitropolitic kacia, RmerTi ki ar aris!...
... wmidans Tu unda, dalevs da Tu unda, giJadac mogaCvenebs Tavs...   ise, mama gabriels rom devnidnen komunistebi da taZarSi ar ayenebdnen, maSin   bevri   cekas rekomendaciiT iniSneboda sasuliero ierarqad!... roca mama gabrieli amxelda da ebrZoda uRvTo xelisuflebas, maSin bevri sasuliero piri xotbas asxamda kompartias da misi dRegrZelobisTvis loculobda!.. im dros, roca mama gabrielma saqveynod cecxli waukida leninis suraTs, saeklesio kalendrebSi leninis dabadebis dRe da saqarTvelos gasabWoebis TariRi hqondaT ierarqebs Setanili xelisuflebis SiSiT!... Tu ar gjeraT, CaixedeT kalendrebSi. Dda kidev, roca mSieri mama gabrieli Rameebs sasaflaoebze aTevda, bevri sasuliero piri kompartiis nadimebze asetrinis xinkals miirTmevda did marxvaSi!... es   yvelaferi axsovs xalxs da isic axsovs _ SevardnaZe rom CamohyavdaT moskovidan, bevri sasuliero piri sixaruls ver malavda Tavis „qadagebaSi“ _ axla gveSveleba, uflis neba aRsruldebao... magram, roca SevardnaZe xalxma moicila, igive pirni pirvelebi ulocavdnen ersa da axal xelisuflebas „borotisgan“ ganTavisuflebas!... es Cvenc gvaxsovs, oRond ZaliT viviwyebT!.. RmerTi mainc mohkiTxavs yvelasNTavisas.
dasanani isaa, rom mitropolitis sityvebs: „mama gabrieli loTi iyoo“ xom SeuZlia, marTla daajeros vinme mama gabrielis „loTobaSi“. Cveni didi wminda mefe miriani da dedofali nana 2000 welia samTavroSi asvenia da saswaulis Zalac SeswevT, magram zeTis saswauli mxolod mama gabrielis saflavze aResruleba. wavideT aqedan da viaroT, naTqvamia: „siaruli fantavs mWmunvarebaso...“
im dRes marTlac bevri viareT da gvian daviSaleT. mTeli Rame Zili ar momekara, sul raRac danaSaulis grZnoba mqonda   mama gabrielis winaSe, rom igi xmamaRla ver vaRiare. ori dRe gamyva sulieri foriaqi. Zalian ganvicdidi. mesame Rames sizmarSi vxedav sasuliero pirs, mogrZo samkuTxa wveriT da viTom mama gabrieli iyo, magram mama gabrielis saxes ar hgavda, odnav Tu Camogavda da es miTxra:
„_ ar mwyenia, moyvaso... guls miende~...   da Tavze xeli damado. Semdegi sityvebi Zalian Cumad, SeiZleba iTqvas tuCebis moZraobiT Tqva. gavige mxolod `gnaxav me Sen... T e a t r i...~ da gamomeRviZa. cremlebi momdioda. guli raRac Zalasa da sixaruls grZnobda. mindoda, male gaTenebuliyo...
es sityvebi - `g n a x a v   me   Sen...   T e a t r i...~ dro da dro momdioda gonebaSi. magram ra iyo es ar vicodi. gavida sami weli.   RmrTis gangebiT quTaisSi momiwia cxovrebam....
2005 wlis 20 agvisto iyo. fexiT mivdiodi bazridan da nacnobs Sevxvdi. saubarSi garTulebi Teatrs ukana mxridan mivuaxlovdiT. am laparakSi Cagviara #14 `marSutkam.“ win ucnobi mRvdeli ijda, rom daminaxa, xeli amiwia da raRac Cailaparaka. gamikvirda. am mamaos me ar vicnobdi, magram im momentSi TiTqos saidanRac mecnoo... goneba davZabe, magram es mamao veranairad ver gavixsene. nacnobs vkiTxe, xom ar icnobda mamaos; _ es mama giorgia, basilaZe, mowameTaSi msaxurobso _ mipasuxa. verc am pasuxma gamarkvia imaSi, Tu ratom mecno. am dros Cems nacnobs viRac mouaxlovda da didi siyvaruliT moikiTxa, etyobodaT, didi xnis unaxavi hyavdaT erTmaneTi. me cota ganze gavdeqi. saubari gaugrZeldaT. wasvlis win axladmosulma uTxra Cems nacnobs: „ras vifiqrebdi, dRes, rom TeatrTan gnaxavdi Sen“ da es sityvebi ise ucnaurad momxvda gulze, TiTqos mec raRac gamaxsenao... sul raRac wamebSi gonebaSi aRmidga sizmari, sadac mama gabrielma miTxra ... `gnaxav me Sen... Teatri...~ da roca sizmari srulad aRvidgine, mivxvdi, Tu ratom mecno es mamao „marSrutkidan“ ...radgan swored aseTi saxe hqonda mama gabriels sizmarSi. sixarulma da mRelvarebam erTad momicva. erTi suli mqonda, menaxa es mamao. nacnobs didi madlierebiT davemSvidobe. meore dRes mowameTaSi wavedi, magram mama giorgi ar iyo... momdevno dReebSi veRar avedi, radgan qalaqidan momiwia gasvlam.
    26 agvisto dadga,   mama g a b r i e l i s   d a b a d e b i s   d R e.   me da iakobi mowameTaSi avediT. mama giorgi ezoSi qalbatonTan saubrobda. axlos davdeqiT. qalbatonis xma ar gvesmoda, mama giorgisi – ki. saubari karga xans gagrZelda. raRac problemis irgvliv iyo laparaki. mama giorgi dro da dro Cvensken gamoixedavda. xmas ufro auwevda, raRacas umtkicebda mas. uceb Cven Semogvxeda da gviTxra:
    - wmidania, wmidani...
    da isev ganagrZo qalbatonTan saubari. sixaruli vigrZeniT, magram imdenad moulodneli iyo es sityvebi, rom uceb ver gavacnobiere, Tu ras gveubneboda amiT. gavida kidev 7-10 wuTi. mama giorgim isev Semogvxeda da Tqva:
- ar mwyenia, moyvaso...  
    da es sityvebi sulSi Semovida. goneba imwamsve gaminaTda da ukve vicodi, mama giorgi Semaxsenebda sami wlis winandel   sizmars... ukve eWvi arc   imaSi mepareboda, mama gabrieli rom vnaxe sizmarSi _ mama giorgis saxiT iyo da rom es mama giorgimac icoda.   iakobs Sevxede, is iRimoda. miTxra:
_ `magrobaa~... Sen geubneba!.. aseTi ram Cems moZRvarTan minaxavs, mama ioanesTan... sxvas elaparakeboda da me mexeboda...
  es rom miTxra, ufro axlos miviwie mamaosTan. da mesmis, is qalbatoni eubneba:
    _ sul sasmelis bralia yvelaferi. daRupa sasmelma...
am dros mamao isev Cemsken ixedeba, miyurebs da im qals ise pasuxobs:
  _ mas sma ar uyvarda, mas adamianebi uyvarda...
da ganagrZo qalbatonis mosmena. qalbatoni ki isev imeorebs:
    _ rogor gekadreba, mamao, swored dasalevma daRupa da am   dRemde miiyvana. rogorme unda dagvexmaro, mama giorgi.
      me msgavsi ram piradad ar menaxa. mama giorgim icoda Cveni da mitropolit kalistrates saubari, romelic sami wlis win Sedga. icoda aseve sami wlis win nanaxi sizmris detalebi, Cemi gancdebi da azrebic...   es namdvili saswauli xdeboda Cvens win!.... Tanac rogori sibrZniT da moxerxebiT SesZlo CemTvis pasuxis gacema maSin, roca qalbatons esaubreboda. rogor moxerxebulad gadaaba da Seazava pasuxebi erTmaneTs. qals egona, rom mxolod mas eubneboda. arada es sityvebi iyo imis pasuxi, rac mitropolitma kalistratem gviTxra, `mas Rvinis sma uyvardao~_mama gabrielze... amis eniT aRwera SeuZlebelia! yovel SemTxvevaSi, me amas ver vaxerxeb. mxolod   suli grZnobs amas... d i d e b a   R m e r T s!    
qalbatoni maleve wavida. me axlos mivedi gaxarebuli. mamao ki mkacrad mekiTxeba:
- Sen CemTan xar, aniCqa?
- diax, mamao.
- raSia saqme?!..
- dRes mama gabrielis dabadebis dRea da panaSvidis gadaxda minda-meTqi.
- gabrieli vinaa?! _mkacrad mkiTxa mamaom.
- arqimandriti gabrieli (urgebaZe), _ vupasuxe.
- aaa! mere Sen unda gadauxado panaSvidi?!..
- ara mamao, Tqven unda gTxovoT - vupasuxe dabneulma.
- ese igi, giyvars gabrieli?.. Tu icnobdi mas?
- ar vicnobdi, magram Zalian miyvars-meTqi, vupasuxe.
- Tu ar icnobdi, modiT ager, CamovsxdeT da mogiyvebiT gabrielzeo, gviTxra.                                                                   iakobmac moiwia, mamaosgan kurTxeva iTxova. mama giorgim gauRima da uTxra:
- rao, megrelo, ra giTxra ioanem petrogradSi _ `Jora~ Cemi Zmakaciao?..
iakobs TiTqos arc gakvirvebia, gaeRima da upasuxa: eg didi xnis win miTxra, mamao, da dRemde ver movaRwie Tqvenamde...
      _ hoo... kargi... gabriels axalgazrdobidan vicnobdi. is Cemze 4 wliTa da 4 dRiT iyo ufrosi. Zalian uyvarda samSoblo da qarTveli adamiani. Zalian mamaci da vaJkacuri suli hqonda. devna, Seviwroeba da Seuracxyofa misi cxovrebis Tanamgzavri iyo. yovelives udrtvinvelad itanda da iTmenda, Tumca SeeZlo, arc moeTmina. sulSi is aravis daumarcxebia!.. arc adamianebs, arc borotebs. mas aravin morevia!.. Tu sibrZniT waikiTxavT, wm. werilebSi aris gabrielze miniSneba. is Zalian Zveli sulia. masze aris cnobebi `vefxistyaosanSi~, Tumca mis wamkiTxavs, garda sibrZnisa, sulieri xedvac sWirdeba..
      gabrieli Zalian didi salosuri Zalis da siwmindis matarebeli pirovneba iyo. amave dros ukiduresad Tavmdabali, keTili da RmrTismoSiSi, Zalian mgrZnobiare; tkiviliT ganicdida adamianebis ubedurebasa da mwuxarebas. SeiZleba iTqvas, sxvebisTvis cxovrobda. Tumca piradi cxovreba mwuxarebiT aRsavse hqonda, iyo xumrobis `didi maestro~, SeeZlo ukiduresad sasowarkveTili   adamianis gaxareba. mokled - didi iyo Zalian. is boloJamis wmidanTa gvirgvinia. dRes bevrs weren masze, magram es ras eyofa?!.. gabrielis yoveli dRe, yoveli nabiji, sityva da locva saswauli iyo, salosebis   `beladi~ iyo (icinis). mis mier gaweuli Sromis Sefaseba SeuZlebelia Cveulebrivi adamianis gonebisaTvis, imdenad dafaruli da gaugebari iyo gabrielis Rvawli! xSirad Tavadac xumrobiT ityoda: `salosebis mefec ki ver migebso~ –andriaze ambobda.
gabrielTan Zaan axlos viyavi sulierad. Zmas meZaxda. saerTod, adamianebs `moyvasoTi~ mimarTavda umeteswilad. gabrielis `damuSaveba~ ucdiaT eklesiis ierarqebs, samRvdeloebas, monazvnebs da eriskacebsac ki. usamarTlobas ver itanda. kompartiasTan rogorc iyo, es gecodinebaT. `saqmeze~ bevrjer vyofilvar masTan erTad (icinis). ai, im cnobil `paradzec~ masTan viyavi. asanTi me mivawode. maSin mRvdeli arc viyavi... me ar gamomaCina, Tumca, kgb-s ra gamorCeboda!... namdvili   gmiroba iyo. adamianuri xedviT ueWveli sikvdili iyo, magram suliT mas yvelaferi gaTvlili hqonda!... `bismarki ras gamiZlebda meo~_ ityoda.  
komunistebis SiSi xalxSi mxolod bolSevikebis teroriT ar danergila. TviTon es sistema da misi Tavadi _ lenini _ msoflio istoriaSi cnobil yvela antiqristeze didi iyo. am boroti ZaliT iyo moculi mTeli sistema, da sistema ki am SiSs afrqvevda xalxis masebze, ise, rom adamianebs arc ki esmodaT, Tu ratom eSinodaT am zomamde.
xalxs eSinoda dapatimrebis, sikvdiliT dasjis, eSinodaT gamvlelebis, mezoblebis da a.S., xmis gaRebas vin gabedavda. komunistebis gareSe diliT Citebic ver bedavda galobas (icinis). eklesia damorCilebul da gaWirvebul yofaSi iyo da aseT dros am did ZalasTan brZolas mxolod didi Zalis mflobeli Tu gabedavda, babua!!!
gana erTi da ori iyo saqarTveloSi marTali da keTili adamiani, romelsac sZulda borotis es xelisufleba, magram Zala ar hyofnidaT, bevri daxvrites, bevri daiWires, bevri gaagiJes. bevri daimorCiles da daiyolies.    
ase rom, 1965 wels Ggabriel beris mier komunisturi reJimis mimarT es protesti moiTxovda udides sulier Zalas. amas veranairi adamianuri Zala ver SeZlebda. gabrielma jer suliT daartya borotebis Tavs, daamarcxa is da mere waukida cecxli leninis suraTs.
aw momavalma antiqristem icis, rom mas versad ver gauZleben. verc erTi eri da saxelmwifo mas sulSi dartymas ver miayenebs, garda   s a q a r T v e l o s i.   im dros CvenSi iqneba is didi Zala, romelic mas ar gaabatonebs saqarTveloSi. es Zala ki CvenTan gamoCndeba maSin, rodesac antiqriste gamoCndeba msoflio arenaze. icis ra antiqristem yovelive es, winaswar cdilobda da cdilobs dResac saqarTvelos ganadgurebas. magram, ver Cauva fexebi (icinis)! saqarTveloSi mas qriste daxvdeba, babua!!! rogor da ranairad, amaze TiTon imtvrios Tavi!..
...ho, komunistebi imdenad gaognebuli iyvnen, rom daxvretiTac ver daxvrites gabrieli da moxerxebuli gamosavali ipoves _ gabrieli Seuracxadad gamoacxades.
es ambavi maSin mTelma msofliom gaigo.   Tundac is faqti, rom gabriel beri ver daxvrites, ar metyvelebs imaze, rom isini ver moerivnen mas?! gabrieli ki ar Seibrales _ ver daxvrites!..
      gabrieli salosobiT faravda did Zalas. imdenad iniRbeboda, rom SesZlo, TviT SevardnaZe daejerebina mis `sigiJeSi~. SevardnaZe SemTxveviT ar mixsenebia. mas sulieri xedva hqonda. esmoda, rom viRac uSlida xels da momavalSic SeuSlida misi boroti miznebis ganxorcielebaSi.
    SevardnaZem angria, hyida, katastrofis piramde miiyvana saqarTvelo, magram mis   m T a v a r   m i z a n s   mainc ver miaRwia!.. S e v a r d n aZ e   am ubedurebebiT   a n t i q r i s t e s T v i s   amzadebda saqarTvelos,
g a b r i e l i   k i - q r i s t e s T v is. SevardnaZe ubralo movlena ar iyo, is ar iyo mxolod moxerxebuli da cbieri politikosi, romelmac msoflio politikis saTaveebSi SeaRwia. ara, babua, is suliT _ `wiTeli gveleSapi~ iyo, romelic aw momavali antiqristes 70-80% Zalas flobda. is ebrZoda gabriels da sxva wminda dafarul berebs. axla, rom hkiTxo, Cveuli cinizmiT getyvis:
  _ `ra Zala, ra gabrieli, ra saqme mqonda masTano!~
magram ra   Zalac hqonda, kargad ician wmidanebma. misi gaTreva wmidanebis brZolis Sedegia, vambob sulierad, xilulad ki rac moxda, qveyanam icis. i s   d a m a r c x d a!   damarcxebaSi ar igulisxmeba fizikuri likvidacia, an Tundac xelisuflebaze kontrolis dakargva. is damarcxda s u l i e r a d,   rac xilulad ar sCans.
Tqven warmoidgineT, SevardnaZis mmarTvelobis wlebSi, qarTvelma xalxma sulierad gauZlo antiqristes, vimeoreb, 70-80% Zalis wnexs. es is Zalaa, romelsac 20-30% Zalis damatebiT dedamiwis 6 miliardi adamianis damorCileba da waxdena sZaluZs!... Tqven warmoidgineT, Cven, sul 3 milionma qarTvelma, gavuZeliT. da gavuZeliT im dafaruli didi wmidanebis wyalobiT, romelTa umetesobis vinaoba xalxma arc ki icis.
saqarTveloSi dResdReobiT, SevardnaZis wasvlis Semdeg, kidev darCa   e r T i Zveli _ `Savi gveleSapi~, romelsac xalxis didi umetesoba verc ki acnobierebs. es is mesame gveleSapia, romelsac ebrZoda   a m i r a n i, romelmac gadaylapa amirani, magram   rogor daamarcxa amiranma samive, Tqven iciT!... Tavis droze ers euwyeba es yvelaferi ise, rom qarTvelebs ar eqneba saeWvod, Tu vin iyo es sameuli _ T e T r i ,   w i T e l i   d a   S a v i. da es Savic sulierad ukve damarcxebulia!.. gamoCndeba aseve xilulad amirani, romelic didi xani ebrZoda am sam gvels. Cveni eri, didi xania, mouTmenlad elodeba mis fizikur gamoCenas.   SemiZlia giTxraT, rom is  
m z a d a a   gamosasvlelad.!...
axla gavagrZeloT gabrielze. gabriels brZola arasodes   Seuwyvetia, man gaimarjva!!! is axlac gvexmareba Cven...
xsenebuli `paradidan~ didi xnis Semdeg, gabrieli rusTavelze Semxvda. ukve sasuliero piri viyavi da miTxra:
_ giorgi, movawyoT kidev erTi `Stuka?~
_ douSvaT pur-marili-meTqi – vupasuxe me.
es Cemgan Tanxmobis `paroli~   iyo (icinis). erTi kviris Semdeg mibarebs patriarqi daviTi (devdariani) da meubneba:
_ giorgi, Tbilisidan unda waxvide, Torem an Sen dagiWiraven, an meo. keTili da Tavmdabali iyo patriarqi, Tan me SviliviT vuyvardi.   hoda, mec vkiTxe patriarqs:
_   raSia saqme, uwmindeso?
_ saqme imaSia, rom eg mTavroba ver agitanT Sen da gabriels erTad da mec gadamiyoliebTo!
  me wamovedi dasavleTSi, mara `Stukebs~ mainc vawyobdiT gabrielTan erTad.
  _ exla geyofaT... es gacnobisa iyos. dro da dro kidev giambobT gabrielze. aba, davai!... kargia, rom gabrielisTvis moindomeT, magram ar mgonia, gabriels axla panaSvidi Wirdebodes (gaecina). vemsaxurebiT marTlmadidebel saqarTvelos!
Cven wamovediT,   azrma gamielva, ratom `marSutkis~ ambavi ar Sevaxsene-meTqi. Ees iyo da es, rom mamaom dagviZaxa da xeliT gvaniSna, modiTo. rom mivediT, mamao odnav darcxveniliviT meubneba: ver moviSale kaco erTi Cveva, Tu manqanaSi win vzivar, xelis aweviT miyvars misalmebao. Mme sixaruliT ar vicodi ra meqna, davapire xelze vmTxveodi, magram mamaom xeli swrafi moZraobiT aswia maRla da miTxra: araa es Cveni wesi da arc arasdros miyvardao da marjvena Tavze damado. Mmere iakobs miubrunda da uTxra:
- megrelo, ioanes uyvars qarTvelebi, xom?.. _ diaR, mamao, ase Tqva, saqarTveloSi rom Caval, jer mcxeTaSi mival da mere bodbeSio da erTi wirva qarTulad unda davayeno, manamde ki leqsikoni gamomigzavneo, _ upasuxa iakobma. Mmamaos gaecina da uTxra _ kide ver gicvnia, wie, Sen ioane!.. rad unda magas leqsikoni, is xom suliT qarTvelia!.. maSin iakobma kidev raRacis gaxseneba daapira, magram mamaom gaawyvetia _vici, vicio!..   wadiT axla, wadiT!.. ramodenime nabiji rom gadmovdgiT, mamaom isev dagviZaxa: - leonti rogoraa, biWo? - mivxvdi, rom mama leontize ikiTxa. Tumca, rogorc mogaxseneT, es Cveni pirveli misvla iyo mamaosTan, Tan   Cven arc mama ioane da arc mama leonti ar gvixsenebia. im momentSi arc ki gamkvirvebia, TiTqos suliT vgrZnobdi, rom mamao   gvicnobda.   iakobi swrafad mibrunda mamaosTan da uTxra: wnevebi awuxebs mama leontis. Mmama giorgim gulianad gaicina da Tqva: ras uzams wneva biWo leontis, ra wneva moereva magas!..……kaci planetebs ar tovebs,   es ki meubneba wnevebi awuxebso _ isev siciliT Tqva mamaom.…iakobs uxerxuloba daetyo. maSin mamaom uTxra _Sen saiTa xar, megrelo?.. quTaisSi var `ganwesebuli~ _upasuxa iakobma. Ooo, kargia!.. ise adre unda mosuliyavi CemTan! Kkargi!...…axla marTla wadiT! kidev erTxel dagvloca da wamovediT.
ase Sedga Cveni nacnoboba.   Ees dRe ubednieresi dRe iyo CemTvis. am dRidan moyolebuli TiTqmis yovel kviras davdiodiT mama giorgisTan da mokled Sevecdebi, SeZlebisdagvarad gadmogceT ori wlis manZilze masTan urTierTobis calkeuli epizodebi.

suraTebi: 1. mama giorgi
          2.mama   ioane
          3.mama   leonti


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...erT dRes quTaisSi nacnobebi Semxvdnen. cota xnis saubris Semdeg maT survili gamoxates mama giorgisTan asvlisa. ori maTgani eklesiuri iyo, mesame ar iyo morwmune. wamovida, ase vTqvaT xaTriT. Tqves, xelcarieli ver avalT monasterSi, raRac-raRaceebs avitanTo. maSin, im erTma, romelic ar iyo eklesiuri, Tavad iyida xili, bostneuli da xaWapuri.
avediT mamaosTan. mivesalmeT.
- Tqven vinebi xarT! _Cveuli kiloTi   mimarTa mamaom. maT saxelebi CamouTvales. _aba, gismenT _Tqva mamaom.
_ Cven Tqveni naxva gvainteresebda, _ uTxres maT.
_ Cemi naxva?!... ratom viTom, indoeTis vefxvi var Tu polaruli daTvi! _ miugo mkacrad mamaom. TiTqmis aTi wuTi viyaviT xmaamouReblad. Cemi nacnobebi uxerxulobas grZnobdnen. amasobaSi mamaom saubari daiwyo da saRamos 9 saaTamde gvelaparaka.
ukve vemSvidobebodiT, kurTxeva aviReT da am dros mamaom jibidan fuli amoiRo da im qaliSvils miawoda, romelmac mosakiTxi iyida da eubneba: gamomarTvi babua da taqsiT wadiTo. qaliSvilma iuara, magram mamaosTan kamaTi uazrobaa.
gamovediT monastris ezodan. qaliSvilma fuli CanTidan amoiRo da daTvala _ 27 lari aRmoCnda. gakvirveba yvelam erTnairad gamovxateT, radgan taqss mxolod 5 lari sWirdeboda. maSin im qaliSvilma cota dayovnebis Semdeg gviTxra _Tqven ar iciT, es ra fulia... 27 lari is Tanxaa, rac me bazarSi davxarjeo. - marTla sakvirveli   yofila mama giorgi.   Aarada mTeli is dro, rac masTan davyaviT, ganvikiTxavdi. ratomRac ar momewona. isic ki vifiqre, ra mindoda aq-meTqi. ewyina albaT Cemi azrebi... aba, raRa mainc da mainc me momawoda es fuli?!
sanam taqsi movidoda, sinanuls gamoxatavda da Zalian swuxda. Cven Cveneburad vanugeSeT: xom miiRo mosakiTxi. 27 lari SeiZleba SemTxveviT daemTxva im Tanxas, rac bazarSi daxarjeo. magram is darwmunebuli iyo, rom es damTxveva ar iyo... qalaqSi mSvidobiT CamovediT.
axla es qaliSvili eklesis mrevlia, ramdenjerme eziara da madlobs mama giorgis. aseTi SemTxvevebi Zalian bevri SeiZleba daiweros. mama giorgisTan uamravi magaliTi gvinaxavs imisa, roca is masTan misulebs `taqsis fuls~ aZlevs _ sada gaqvT, Tqve gaWirvebulebo, fulio? _ ityvis siyvaruliT. fuli mec ar maqvs, magram roca maqvs, ageraa!... bevrjer yofila puris fuli gamogvlevia, mamaosTvis arc ki gviTqvams, mas ki wamosvlis win moucia CvenTvis.
RmerTma dRegrZeli amyofos mama giorgi!


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SabaTi dRe iyo. taZarSi meqorwileebi movidnen. siZe-patarZals amala taZarSi Seyva; jvrisweras mRvdeli sulxani aRasrulebda. momyolTa nawili gareT idga. mama giorgi da Cven samreklos gverdiT visxediT. ori kaci xmamaRla laparakobda, Tavdajerebuli mogviaxlovdnen. iseTi STabeWdileba dagrCebodaT, TiTqos TavianT mamulSi raRaceebs aTvalierebeno. maT mamaos ise Cauares, TiTqos aq mRvdeli arc yofiliyo. maSin mama giorgim `gamomwvevad~ erT-erTs hkiTxa: `ra gvaris kaci xar Sen?~ - iman cota daayovna da, rogorc iqna, ikadra gvaris dasaxeleba. `sad muSaob mere?~ - hkiTxa isev mamaom. kacma ironiulad Sexeda da uTxra, sapatriarqoSio. mamaom Tavi gaaqnia! kacma axla kiTxva Semoubruna, me rom mekiTxebi, erTi es miTxari, Sen ra gvaris xaro. hkiTxa ise, rom aranairi mokrZaleba mRvdlis mimarT ar gamouxatavs. `basilaZe var, giorgi, ar gagigia xom?!..~ - eubneba mamao. man pasuxis Rirsad arc ki CaTvala, erTi Semoxeda da gaiara. amas im kacis Tanmxlebnic xedavdnen, erT-erTi mamaos gamoelaparaka. mamaom imasac gvari hkiTxa. cota xanSi laparaki daiZaba, radgan mamao masac raRac `gamomwvevi~, `sawyeni~ sityviT gaexumra. es SedarebiT axalgazrda iyo da iukadrisa: `ratom makadrebT, mamao,~ _uTxra. mamaom gaucina. man ki sxvebs gadaxeda da xmamaRla Tqva: `eg, veraa kargado~. Cven daviZabeT. Canda, `Zveli biWobidan~ modiodnen. `Zveli biWi~ Cvenic gvaxlda, amitom raime cudis molodinSi sunTqva Segvekra... mamaom am dros maT erTi qurdi uxsena (mamaos naTesavi). `eg Sen saidan ici?~ - hkiTxes. mamaom pasuxi ar misca. maSin erTi eubneba meores: `naxe!.. modi erTi gavigoT, es mRvdeli ras `CaliCobso~. moiwies da mamaos win daudgnen. erTi gverdiT Camoujda. mama giorgis simSvide etyoboda, Cveni axlobelic mSvidad ijda da Tvali Cagvikra, gvaniSna, vnaxoT, ra undaTo! roca `biWebma~ gaarkvies, rom es qurdi marTla mama giorgis axlo naTesavi iyo, toni Searbiles. erTi wamodga da mamaos TqvenobiT mimarTa: SemogevleT, mamao, Cveni didi Zmis axlokaci yofilxaro da Tbili saubari wamoiwyo. meorem moubodiSa kidevac.   mamaoc Tbilad saubrobda, magram dro da dro mkacradac...
jvriswera amasobaSi morCa. mamaos didi pativiT daemSvidobdnen. mamao im erTs eubneba: „rao, biWebo, qurdis naTesavi rom var imitom meciT pativi, ara?! qristes naTesavi rom var, magas ratom ar eciT pativi?!.. hoda, Tu ar SeinanebT, arc qriste gapatiebT da arc me!.. ise, icode, _mimarTa im erTs_ Sennairebs kidev Svids vcem erTad.!..“   isini wavidnen. mama giorgis brazi etyoboda.
    me Cemda uneburad azrebi momivida: ratom axsena mamaom qurdi?.. am fiqrebSi rom viyavi, mamao mogvibrunda da gveubneba: naxeT, es xalxi qurds ufro scems pativs, vidre mRvdelso, hoda, ras unda moelodnen isini RmrTisagan. me Semecoda da imitom vuxsene qurdi, Torem borots ise hyavda isini momarTuli, rom did codvas Caidendnen   dRes aq!.. da arc me var is kaci, rom mRvdlis Seuracxyofa vinmes SevarCino!.. is erTi mainc gaxdeba avad!.. icis RmerTma, rom Cemi brali rom ar aris!..


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2006 wlis dekembris Tve idga. mowameTaSi asulebs mama giorgi ar dagvxvda. eklesiaSi mRvdeli sulxani iyo. samreklos gverdiT CamovsxediT. mama sulxanma gvkiTxa: xom ar gWirdebaT rameo. Cven vuTxariT, rom Tbilisidan arian mama giorgisTan. misgan gavigeT, rom mama giorgi sofelSi wasuliyo da   ar iqneboda. saRamos 6 saaTia. civa. Tan ukve binddeba. gaurkvevlobaSi varT. am dros axalgazrda kaci movida taZrad. sanTlebi daanTo da taZris Semovla daiwyo. me-3 wreze rom unda wasuliyo, Cven gamogvxeda, arada, pirvelad vxedavdiT. mere saaTs daxeda, isev Cven Semogvxeda da ucnaurad Cailaparaka _ `erTi saaTi~. Tavi dagviqnia da wavida. es kaci sulier avadmyofs ar hgavda, arc gvicnobda, arc saaTi gvikiTxavs, da verafriT ver avxseniT, ras niSnavda misi ucnauri saqcieli. maSin iakobma uTxra Tbilisel stumrebs: _ vfiqrob, mama giorgi erT saaTSi movao. stumrebma ki Tqves: _ mama sulxans xom ecodineboda, rom gviTxra dRes, awi ar movao. maSin iakobma uTxra: `mama giorgi mova, geubnebiT, ase akeTebda peterburgeli mama ioane, roca taZarSi ar iyo... is kaci mama giorgis ZaliT moqmedebda, da is ucnaurobac misive mowyobilia. naxavT, Tu erT saaTSi ar movideso~. naxevari saaTi gavida. mama sulxani wasasvlelad emzadeboda. taZarSi aravin iyo. monasteri unda daeketa. stumrebis moridebiT ar gviTxra, wasvlis droao, magram Cven vgrZnobdiT amas. stumrebi wamodgnen. iakobi ki fexs iTrevda da mobilurze saaTs akvirdeboda. Svids TxuTmeti wuTi aklda. wamovediT. iakobma gviTxra, nela mainc viaroT, rom Svidi saaTi Sesruldes, sanam trasamde gavalTo. mama sulxanma manqaniT Cagviara. iakobi Tavs sayvedurobda: `me mainc ar unda wamovsuliyavi. ra SuaSi iyo aq morideba, is ucnauroba im kacisa igive mama giorgis kurTxeva iyo. es man migvaniSna. da e.i. kurTxevacaa. vici me amaTi ucnaurobebi, gulic meubneba, rom sworad ar moviqecio~...
rkinigzis gaswvriv pirvel aRmarTs rom mivuaxlovdiT, taqsi gamoCnda mosaxvevSi. mere Cagviara da aTiode metris moSorebiT gaCerda. `valiko!..~ -gavigeT mama giorgis xma. xuTiveni mivcvivdiT manqanas. `modi biWo Sen aq!~ _ uTxra iakobs. isic damnaSavesaviT miuaxlovda taqsSi mjdom mamaos. `sad midixarT!.. xom giTxari Sen, erT saaTSi moval-meTqi!.. _ uTxra iakobs... _ hoda ras midiodiT!..~ - mere mamaom saaTs daxeda da Tqva: `axlaa biZiko erTi saaTi!... me sityvis kaci viyavi yovelTvis. Tu CemTan iyaviT, sad garbodiT!.. da Tu CemTan ara xarT, gayeviT gzas!..~ _ braziT gviTxra mamaom. Cven vuTxariT, `TqvenTan viyaviT, mamao.~ - `maSin daetieT aq, manqanaSi!~ _ gvipasuxa. me da stumrebi manqanaSi movTavsdiT. iakobma uTxra mamaos, _ me fexiT Camovalo. mamaom iakobs mkacrad gaxeda da uTxra: `eex, Jora, Jora...~
CavediT. oTaxSi Segviyvana. bevri gvesaubra. 9 saaTze gamogviSva. monastris galavnamde gamogvacila. iqve monasters Sekedlebuli ZaRli idga. mamao gauwyra mas da uTxra, wayevi amaT da gaacileo. wamovediT.
ZaRli WkvianiviT mogvyva. mere win gaiWra. TamaS-TamaSiT xan moirbenda, xan win gaiWreboda. sakvirveli is iyo, ZaRli 3 kilometrze gamogvyva, da kidev erTi ram, am saRamos Semdeg ramdenjerac avsulvarT mama giorgisTan, es ZaRli Semogvegebeba. kudis qiciniT Tu Segvxvda _ mama giorgi taZarSia. Tu dagvinaxavs da arc ki wamodgeba _ asedac xdeba _ e.i. mama giorgi taZarSi araa, anda Cveni raRac-raRaceebi ar moswons. wasvlisas, Tu dRis Suqia, trasamde mogvyveba, Tu ki bnela, kidev gamogvyveba da gvacilebs.
gzaSi Cveni Tbiliseli stumrebi gakvirvebas ver malavdnen. yvelaze metad maT ukvidraT kavSiri im ucnauri kacis saqcielsa da mama giorgis sityvebs Soris _ `xom giTxari, erT saaTSi movalo~.   ukvirdaT isic, Tu ratom ambobda iakobi _ mamao movao... mec es uCveulo ram pirvelad vnaxe. iakobma stumrebs auxsna is, Tu ras niSnavda mamaos naTqvami: `ex, Jora, Jora~! am sityvebiT   _ Tqva iakobma _ mama giorgim peterburgeli mama ioane gamaxsena, romelTanac aseTi rameebi bevrjer maqvs nanaxi. mama ioanes naTqvami aqvs: `saqarTveloSi megobaria Cemi Jora (giorgi) _ isic Cemnairiao~.DF da kidev mama giorgim am `Jora_JoraTi~ misayvedura _ `magra~ asruleb Seni moZRvris sityvebso! iakobi Zalian   ganicdida, Tanac erTi istoria mogviyva, mama ioanesTan morCilebis dros rogori ucnauri kurTxevebis Sesruleba uwevda. saocari is iyo, rom gviTxra: mama ioane ase piriT, pirdapir kurTxevas ki ar gaZlevda, kurTxeva SigniT gesmoda, da icodi, rom aucilebeli iyoo. _ iseTi kurTxevac yofila, qalaqSi, sadac ki gzajvaredins mivuaxlovdebodi, quCa maSin unda gadamekveTa, roca fexiT   mosiaruleTaTvis wiTeli SuqniSani ainTeboda. Zalian miWirda, unda merbina, Tan moyinuli quCebi, safrTxe da kidev mZRolebis gineba, aqeT `gais~ TanamSromlebi. ise gamoviqance qalaqSi, gasvla ar mindoda; Tan azrebic mWamda, aris es kurTxeva Tu ara.   da kidev, troleibusebsa da avtobusebSi unda ubileTod memgzavra... konduqtorebi, rom ubileTo qarTvels daminaxavdnen, atexavdnen lanZRva-ginebas mTeli mgzavrebis gasagonad. ramdenjer konduqtors mZRoli gauCerebia da Camovugdivar. erTi dRe iyo da ver moviTmine. konduqtori qali, marTlac `kobras~ gavda. amovedi Tu ara, pirdapir momvarda da meubneba: _ bileTi gaqvs?! – ara _ vupasuxe. atexa saSineli lanZRva. moTminebidan gamosulma Sevagine da vuTxari: Tqve Rorebo, CvenTan Camosulebi verafriT ZRebodiT. mwvadidan dawyebuli, riwis tbamde, restorani iyo, mTa Tu zRva, fuls vin gayvedridaT!.... aq ki 50-kapikian bileTs ver mpatiobT. saxli rom wamarTviT, eg araferi?!.. da Tqvens avtobusSi ubileTod rom vimgzavro eg araadamianobaa-meTqi?!_umaduri xalxi xarT!.. amdeni mgzavridan, aravin   yofilxarT afxazeTSi, rom xma amoiRoT?... biZaCemi aq rom omobda da daiRupa, eg gvevaleboda qarTvelebs! Tqve umadurebo!.._ _bileTis fuli ar gidevs am xnis kacs, da kidev ybedobo, _ momaZaxa konduqtorma. maSin sul davkarge Wkua, risi kurTxevis Tavi mqonda, davaZre rkinis moneta da mindoda SublSi mexeTqa. maSin viRac kacma miTxra: `Svilo, am kapass Sen ver gamozrdi, Tavs ki daaWerineb, mieci eg fuli da mSvidobiT Cadio.~_ gons movege. xma am moxucisa asli iyo mama ioanes xmisa. Camovedi, gaxelebuli wavedi mama ioanesTan, rom meTqva _ arc Seni kurTxeva minda da arc eg ruseTi... kidev raRac-raRaceebi. vawyobdi gegmas, rogor mimemarTa mama ioanesTvis. radgan vicodi, ra aTasi meTodi hqonda adamianis moTvinierebisa. maSin ise ganvewye, rac ar unda eTqva, ar momesmina da Cemi saTqmeli meTqva da wamovsuliyavi. yvelaferi movifiqre, sanam metro `Cornaia reCkamde~ mivaRwie. xidi gadavirbine, rom brazi ar damcxromoda. vxedav, mama ioane taZridan gareT gamosula _ TiTqos meloda. miyurebs da icinis. rom mivuaxlovdi, vifiqre, ra unda momiwyos axla iseTi, rom Semirigos-meTqi. win miviwie. mama ioanem xelebi awia: `nu, magari xar, megobaro!.. gxedavdi aqedan, avtobusSi ra uyavi imaT!.... namdvili megobari xar, Cemi javric iyare maTze (mama ioane moldavelia). es man iseTi JestebiTa da toniT miTxra, rom kacis   mkvlels gaacinebda. mec gamecina. damelodeo – miTxra.   ramodenime wuTSi erTad mivideT SuqniSnamde. me ukve instiqti „gamomuSavebuli“ mqonda, wiTelze adgilidan davZruliyavi.... mamaom xeli momkida da miTxra: `awi, megobaro, mwvaneze viaroTo~. es iyo imis dasturi, rom usafuZvlod ar davrbodi. da Tanac awi, eg kurTxeva aRar iyo saWiro.
  mama giorgim icis mama ioanesTan mTeli Cemi orwliani morCilebis wvrilmani detalebic, romelic arc ki momiyolia misTvis. mama giorgim im ucnauri kacis saqcieliT Semaxsena mama ioanes swavleba da rogorc gamocdilebis mqones, misayvedura ugulisyuroba da urCoba!..
amasobaSi CamovediT kidec quTaisSi... Cveni stumrebi gaocebas ver malavdnen gancdiliT da gagoniliT. is dRe maTTvisac dauviwyari gaxda. rogorc Semdgom gavigeT, Cvens Tbilisel stumrebs daurekavT peterburgSi _ mama ioanesTan. maT sixarulsa da   gaocebas sazRvari ar hqonda. rogorc TviTon gviTxres, mama ioanes yurmilis aRebisTanave, sanam Tbiliseli giorgi da nini etyodnen, Tu saidan da vin rekavda, _ mama ioanes uTqvams _ `iakobs   svetaforebze xom ar monatrebia   sirbilio!.. daujeros   mand Joras   Torem, troleibusebs gavaxsenebo!..~ mere didi siTboTi daulocavs axlad gacnobilebi da siyvaruliT moukiTxavs mama giorgi, romelsac fizikurad arc ki icnobs Turme.
suraTebi:   1. mama giorgis                        
            2. mama ioanesi   (xeebTan)

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didi marxva iyo, qalaqSi naxSiri, sakmeveli da zeTi SeviZineT Sesawiris saxiT da saRamos locvisTvis avediT mowameTaSi. mamao marto iyo taZarSi, is umetesad marto loculobda. arc diakoni, arc medaviTne, arc stiqarosani ar iyo maSin taZarSi. Cven rom Tvali mogvkra, gamovida: `ram SegawuxaT am susxSi?~ gvkiTxa. Cven usityvod gavuwodeT parki, raSic iyo Cveni Sesawiri. `es is aris, rac me mWirdebao~-Tqva da sacecxluri gamoitana. gveubneba: `iciT naxSiris gaxureba? aba gamimzadeT erTi!~ mere wamSi Seicvala sityva: `Tqven rom amas moaxerxebT, raRa dros iqneba!~
Cven guli dagvwyda, parki mivawodeT. uceb erT-erTs mimarTa: amoiRe erTi es naxSiri da Cade ager sacecxlurSi. giam mamaos sityva Seasrula; mamaom sacecxluri maRla aswia da daaxloebiT 8_10 wami ganuwyvetliv, erTi amosunTqviT, suli ubera da Cven Tvalwin naxSiris zedapiri erTianad gawiTlda da naperwklebi gascvivda. mamaom Semogvxeda. dauviwyaria is saxe! es iyo aramiwieri saxe _ Zlieri, eniT auwereli, arwivisebri, SiSis aRmZvreli, didebuli saxe, Tvalebi Zalian didi... am saxis Semxedvareebs,   is momenti sul gamogvrCa,   mama giorgim sulis SeberviT naxSiri gavarvarebamde rom moiyvana. mere saxe isev daumSvidda da gveubneba: - codvebi xarT axla Tqven, fexebic sveli geqnebaT, nel-nela gauyeviT gzas. - sinamdvileSi fexebi yvelas marTla sveli gvqonda, magram wasvlas ar vapirebdiT: viTomda mamao marto ar davtovoTo. `wadiT, wadiT, me marto ara var.   Tqven ver xedavT Torem, aq Cemnairebi eger dganan sakurTxevelSio. wadiT, axla wadiT da aRdgomis mere, kidev ufro magar `fokuzs~ SegisrulebTo.~ wamovediT sixaruliT da madliT aRsavseni. naxSiris ambavi, es iseTi xiluli saswauli iyo, rom gadmocema amisa namdvilad gauWirdeba adamianis enas, Tan arc ki gvacala, rom yuradReba migvepyro da aRgveqva Tu ra moxda, iseTi saxiT Semogvxeda, rom mas Semdeg, roca mama giorgis momRimari da sayvareli saxiT vxedavT, aranairad ar gvjera, rom is SiSismomgvreli saxe uxilavad ar `gviTvalTvalebs~ misgan,   ris gamoc keTili SiSi gvaxlavs sul...

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erTxel mwuxri-ciskris locvisas avediT taZarSi. xalxi ar iyo. 3-4 adamiani idga da kidev Cven oTxni viyaviT. taZarSi axalgazrda diakvani iyo mosuli. ver getyviT, romeli eparqiidan iyo an kidev romeli taZridan. is mamaos exmareboda; medaviTneobda da Tan Tavis movaleobasac asrulebda. ucnauri es locva imiTi iyo, rom mama giorgi ucodinar da dabneul axalbeda msaxurs hgavda, romelmac ar icis locvebi, da arc is, Tu ra, ris Semdeg   ikiTxeba. diakvani locvis msvlelobisas cotaTi gaRizianebuli Canda. Tavidan TiTqos erideboda kidec mamaosTvis miTiTeba, magram mere da mere ufro gabedulad `Seaxsenebda~ mamaos locvis msvlelobas. aseTi ram Cven ar gvenaxa da mamao imdenad bunebrivad `asrulebda~ ucodinari mRvdlis rols, rom eWvi Cvenc Segvepara, azrebic mogvdioda: raRa sxva taZridan mosulTan mouvida eso... roca mis wirva-locvas ara erTxel da orjer davswrebivarT.
diakvanma mokrZalebiT Seaxsena _ mamao, zeTi scxeT xalxso. _ ox, biWo, dRes zeTs scxebeno? -aba?! _ miugo diakvanma. Camovida mamao, gvcxo zeTi da aseTi ram gviTxra _ Turme vici zeTis cxeba!.. mcodnia, mcodnia Turme!.. gagdeba undodaT Cemi!... - Cven ver avxseniT ras niSnavda misi aseTi saqcieli an kidev eg sityvebi.
msaxureba morCa. gamovediT gareT, diakvanma da mamaom gadakocnes erTmaneTi. mama giorgi diakvans ar uSvebda. aq darCio, magram stumarma iuara, quTaisSi naTesavebi myavs da iq gavaTev Rameso.
Cven davrCiT. erTi suli gvqonda, gagvego mamaosgan, Tu ras niSnavda dRevandeli ucnauroba, cota xani amindze ilaparka da mere Tqva:
- gamoscada is diakvani RmerTma. CemTan movida, rom gaigo `didi mamaoao~. hoda RmerTma mosTxova, locvis wess Tu mosTxov Sen am `did mamaos?~ Tu ver Sebedav da kacTmoTneobiT daelodebi mis `Secdomebso~. gamixarda, guliani biWi yofila, ar momerida, roca msaxureba iTxovda simarTles. mara mere cota Zala davanaxe, rom wmidani ki ara, sul duraki ar vgonebodi. ise xo iciT, grami gankiTxva ar gaelvebia. Cans, keTili kacia bunebiT.
meore muxlic ido am saqmeSi; is rom mgrZnobiare sulebs uWirT `avtoritetebTan~ gverdSi dgoma. isini gaubedavebi arian, mokrZalebuli da moSiSni. hoda RmerTi rom xedavs maT moSiSebas, amxnevebs. roca xedaven didi mamebis `Secdomebs~, uadvildebaT da rogorc ician erSi -`kompleqsi~-uqrebaT. es adamiani did gzaze, rom gamodis, xelSewyoba unda babua!.. Cvens wirva-locvas ras Seiwiravs RmerTi Tu gaWirvebuli ar gebraleba, avadmyofi ar gecodeba, damwyebs ar waaxaliseb, gansacdelSi myofs ar anugeSeb da ar Seewevi! mere Cvenc davgloca da gamogviSva.
    aseTi ram mama giorgim kidev erTxel `moawyo~ sxva dros da sxva axalbeda diakvanTan, es axalgazrda ki didxans ganikiTxavda mamaos xalxSic...


suraTebi:   mama giorgi wirvaze





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...qalaqSi gamosulebs gzad mama giorgi Semogvxvda. mivesalmeT. -saiT gagiweviaT, qarTvelebo! -aq patara saqme   gvqonda, -vuTxariT Cven. - wamoxvalT CemTan? _diax,_vupasuxeT, - hoda wavideT, Tqva mamaom.
taqsi gaaCera. oriode wuTSi mZRolma raRac SekiTxvebi dausva mamaos. mamaom   zogierTze pasuxi gasca, zogi ki arc moismina. mZRoli ar eSveboda, raRacas `brZnobda~ da cdilobda Tavisi religiuri codna gamoexata, maSin mamaom mkacrad uTxra: -ra ici biWo, Sen RmerTze, amdens rom laqlaqebo! -mZRolma Seuracxyofilad igrZno Tavi da cota daboRmilad uTxra: - rasac eklesiaSi aswavlian, is vici mec, rogorc sxvebma. _ras aswavlian eklesiaSi?! Sen babua is iswavle, rom RmerTi mowyalea, da amis imedad meqaqanebi me aq, mara, is ar gaswavles eklesiaSi, rom RmerTi sastikic aris da ulmobeli?! – uTxra mamaom mkacrad, _eg ra SuaSia, mamao? _miugo mZRolma. -eg im SuaSia, rom Sen araferi ar ici RmerTze da arc man icis rame simarTle RmerTze, rom iZaxi, maswavlao. - mamao ase maSin cxardeboda, roca raRac ar moswonda adamianis sulSi. garegnulad, mainc da mainc ver ityodi imas, rom TiTqos yofiliyos misi aseTi gacecxlebis sababi, magram Cven gamocdilebidan ukve vicodiT, rom bolos mamao aucileblad marTali iqneboda da `oponenti~ `raRacas~, mainc gamoavlenda sulis siRrmidan.
mZRoli isev aenTo kamaTis JiniT da eubneba mamaos: - mamao, RmerTze rogor ar viciT?.. amdeni wigni, amdeni qadageba. - mamaom Tavi gaaqnia da xma ar gasca. mZRolma isev daiwyo: -rogor mZlavrobs eSmaki. ramdeni mxridan gvitevs da ra dReSi Cagvagdo... ruseTSi or kapiks vSoulobdiT da isic mogvispo. - mamao maSin miubrunda da uTxra: - vinaa biWo eSmaki?!.. e.i. gamodis, rom yvelafers eSmaki akeTebs da Cveni RmerTi Soridan uyurebs?! e.i. eSmaki rasac unda imas akeTebs da RmerTi zomebs ver Rebulobs?! _xom giTxari biZia, rom araferi ici RmerTze Sen, da ara marto Sen, aramed didma umravlesobam dRes adamianebisa _ e.i. RmerTi ver xedavs? da Tu xedavs, zomebs ver Rebulobs, ara?! RmerTia biZia am qveynis baton-patroni. uRmerTod aq balaxic ar tokdeba. uRmerTod aravis klaven, uRmerTod veravis ver moereva boroti. Cven rom gviWirs, es imitom ki araa, rom eSmakia magari, aramed imitom rom RmerTi dagvaviwyda! da RmerTi gvsjis swored, hoda eSmakia dasjis iaraRi. dRes eSmakis Zlierebaze ufro qadageben, vinem RmerTis yovlisSemZleobaze! vinaa biWo eSmaki?! mas RmerTi ise gaaqrobs, rogorc gaaCina, ras uzams eSmaki marTals?! oRond marTlebi saidan iqnebiT, roca saRmrTos arafers akeTebT!.. rom iZaxi wignebio. jer erTi, wignebs yuradRebiT unda kiTxva, meoreTi da, wigniT ginda RmerTi icnoT?! ggonia RmerTi marto iq, zeviTaa da televizoriT gviyurebs?!.. RmerTi aqacaa!.. RmerTi yvelganaa! RmerTi am manqanaSic aris axla!.. kidev gimeoreb: RmerTisaa aq yvelaferi, rasac   xedav! da gvaTxova droebiT! rom ebRauWebian qonebas da RmerTis gagonebac ar undaT, ar arian dasasjelni?! _hoda isjebian kidevac! RmerTi sul iyo qveyanaze, sul dadioda da iqceoda xalxSi! es Sen ar ici da iman, rom iZaxi, maswavlao; romelmac gaswavla, rom borotia Zlierio. aris is Zlieri, mara, ramdenzedac RmerTi miuSvebs!.. R m e r T s   v i n  
S e z R u d a v s ?!.. - RmerTi iq gamoCndeba, sadac mis didebulebas moesurveba, da gamoCndeba im saxiT, rogorsac moisurvebs!.. RmerTs, biZia, wigniT ver icnob, RmerTs mxolod   suliT icnob, oRond wmida suliT, ubralo da Tavmdabali suliT.   R m e r T i     a q   d a d i s   a d a m i a n i s   s a x i T a c !   Cveni winaprebi ar iyvnen ase ganviTarebuli `mecnier-teqnikuri~ miRwevebiT, magram   xalxSi mosiarule RmerTs cnobdnen!..
visi saxiTac moesurveba RmerTs, imis saxiT mova. erTsa da imae dros da erTsa da imave adgilze, SeuZlia, ramdenime saxiT gamoCndes!.. imas aRiarebT, rom mTavarangelozebi dadian da exmarebian adamianebs, roca RmerTis daSvebaa maTze. da rom RmerTi moisurvebs miwaze siaruls, vin unda SezRudos?! vis unda SeuTanxmdes RmerTi, mis Seqmnil miwaze gamoCenas!?_ gaeros, Tu romelime prezidents, Tu evrokavSirs, Tu natos, Tu `eklesiis~ msoflio sabWos, Tu romelime patriarqs?!
RmerTze WeSmarti swavleba ara aqvs bevr morwmunesac. adamianis mier rameSi SezRuduli an kanonSi moqceuli RmerTi, WeSmariti RmerTi ar aris!... ra ici, roca kaci raimes gTxovs, kacia igi Tu RmerTi?! -me saidan unda vicode, _ miugo mZRolma. hoda, rom ar ici, magitomac gTxovs da ki ar gaiZulebs! xom SeuZlia ar   g T x o v o s ,   aramed     m o g T x o v o s !   RmerTi pirovnulia, biZia!.. SeuZlia Sen mkacrad dagsajos, xolo sxvas, igive codvis Camdens, cota gauwyres. rava ara aqvs amis ufleba Tu?!
RmerTis samarTali sxva samarTalia. is ar aris miwieri kacebis dari! Sen rom RmerTs ver cnob, visi bralia?! -Seni bralia, Seni, biZia!... wignebi da wignebi dagiCemebia!... bevri ram ar weria mag Sen wignebSi da bevri ram damaxinjebiT weria!.. romeli wignebiT scnobdnen Zvelad wera-kiTxvis ucodinari xalxi RmerTs?!   arada scnobdnen!.. suliT scnobdnen, suliT!...   RmerTi aq dadis, biZia. qriste uriebma ar icnes maSin da verc dRes scnobs mas kacobrioba! amitom unda iyo fTrxili nebismier adamianTan urTierTobisas _ akvnis bavSvidan dawyebuli welSimoxril moxucamde, glaxakidan dawyebuli mefemde da a.S... amitom unda geSinodes adamianebis Seuracxyofisa da Seviwroebisa. RmerTs SeuZlia Sens irgvliv yvela adamianSi iyos _ garda Senisa!..
mZRolma mamaos pauziT isargebla da uTxra: `ar gewyinoT, mamao, magram RmerTi rom qveyanaze dadis, es veranairad Cemamde ver dadis.~ _ Sens gonebamde, biZia, SiSveli qalebi da dakuWuli larianebi dadis!.. eg, Seni satiralia da ara Cemi!.. gagagebinebs exlave RmerTi, ra unda dadiodes Senamde! -   es Tqva mamaom da   is iyo petre-pavles saxelobis eklesiis win gaCerebas mivuaxlovdiT da raRacam Zalian maRal xmaze `ifeTqa~. kidev ramdenime wamSi es xma meorejer ganmeorda. me moulodnelobisagan SemeSinda, mZRols instiqturad Sevxede. vxedav, mZRoli saWes magrad CaeWida. manqana gaaCera. rogorc aRmoCnda, mZRolis mxares orive _ wina da ukana saburavi iyo gaxeTqili....
mamao Camovida, fuli savarZelze `daugdo~ da iqve meore taqsi gaaCera, karebi gamoaRo da im pirveli taqsis mZRols eubneba_axla ki Cemamde ver dadis, axali `pakriSkebi~ ram gagixeTqa!!! - mZRols boRma, gaurkvevloba, SiSi areoda erTmaneTSi. mamaodan iseTi Zala gamodioda, erTi suli gvqonda Cvens gaCerebamde misvlisa. mama giorgim moixeda ukan da xumrobiT gviTxra: -bodiSi momiTxovia, rom eqskursia daZabuli gamogvivida... cota xanSi mama giorgim   ganagrZo _ naxe, es utifari, icis rom codvilia da jiutobs. is ki ara, rom Tqvas, RmerTia, batono, rasac unda imas moimoqmedebs... me codvili kaci var, da ar vici araferi. _ara, Cemamde ver dadiso_xedavT?!..   vin xar Sen adamiano da Senamde ra unda davides?!... RmerTi codvilebs ki ara, wmidanebsac imdenad exsneba, ramdenadac mas surs, da yvela wmidasac ara aqvs erTnairi codna RmerTze. rac ufro aRemateba wmidani, miT metad grZnobs, rom RmerTi usasrulobaa, amouwuravia Tavis SesaZleblobasa da gamovlinebaSi. erTma wmidanma, rac icis, SeiZleba ar icodes meorem. SeiZleba, misTvis bevri ram iyos gaugebari. magram wmidanebs codvilebisagan gansxvavebiT kargad esmiT TavianTi uZlureba RmerTis winaSe, da aqvT didi Tavmdabloba, rom Tqvan: dideba Senda RmerTo Cveno, vin amogxsnas Sen!..
dRes eSmakis ufro eSiniaT, vidre RmerTis, radgan aswavlian, rom boroti daundobelia, kacis mkvleli, Zlieri, moxerxebuli. RmerTi ki mowyale, keTili, mimtevebeli. qriste jvars ecva. evno, Seuracxyofa da Senerwyva daiTmina. magram geubnebiT _ qristem es am codvili modgmisagan erTxel moiTmina. da moiTmina, raTa kacTa modgma exsna. magram awi ise sawyali, uriebis mier nacem-nagvemi ki ar gamoCndeba. RmerTi Tavis didebiT gamoCndeba. da ra aris eSmakis Zliereba qristesTan SedarebiT da vis moklavs eSmaki qristes umisod. RmerTi rom mowyalea, RmerTi mosamarTlecaa. RmerTi rom keTilia, RmerTi sastikicaa. is cecxlia boroti adamianebisaTvis!... WeSmariti RmerTi cocxali da Zlieria. is iseTi aris, rogoric aris. Tavis TavSi myofi, yvelgan myofi, marTali da mousyidveli, yovladwmida, piruTvneli, sulgrZeli da mimtevebeli, magram mebrZoli. RmerTi imitom ki ara gviTmens, rom Cven vimsaxurebT, an kidev imitom, rom Cven ase gvawyobs, aramed Tavisi RvTiuri sulgrZelebiT. vis aqvs RmerTTan simarTle an RmerTTan kamaTis ufleba?! RmerTi iseTi araa rogorc Cven warmogvidgenia!!! RmerTi iseTia, rogoric aris, magram SeuZlia qveynad gamoCndes iseTi saxiT, rogoric surs mas, rom Sen mogiaxlovdes!.. RmerTi iTmens, magram SeuZlia, ar mogiTminos, arc meored mosvlas daelodos, aqve gazRvevinos! `RmerTs vuyvarvarT~-gaiZaxian. Sen Tu giyvars RmerTi?! vai, maT, visac RmerTis ar eSinia, vinc ar unda iyos is: prezidenti, patriarqi, ministri, episkoposi, Zlieri Tu susti, kaci Tu qali!!!   RmerTi RmerTia!!! dideba Cvens RmerTs!
am sityvebs rom ambobda mamao, Zalian didi Zala gadmodioda misgan. Cven ki tanSi Jruanteli gvivlida, SiSmac mogvicva, sixarulmac da imedmac...
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2007 wlis 26 marts gazeT „kviris palitraSi“ daibeWda statia mamaoze: `qarTveloba Znelia, magram aucilebeli!..~ am statias Zalian didi gamoxmaureba mohyva. Tumca mamaosTan xalxis simravle yovelTvis iyo, magram sagazeTo statiis Semdeg, sagrZnoblad imata. mamao saaTobiT qadagebda. yofila SemTxveva, dilis 10 saaTidan saRamos 12-mde gadabmuli esaubreboda masTan sxvadasxva problemebiT misul adamianebs.
msurs, mogiyveT erTi faqti.   xuTSabaTi dRe iyo.   taZarSi mama giorgis morigeobis kvira iyo. mamao samreklos gverdiT Camojda da saubari dagviwyo. daaxloebiT 2 saaTis Semdeg movida viRac ucnobi Suaxnis kaci, Soriaxlos dadga da Cvens   laparaks usmenda. vifiqreT, piradi problema awuxebso da davapireT mamaosTan marto dagvetovebina. maSin mamaom hkiTxa:
      ¬¬_ CemTan xar?
      _ diax _ upasuxa ucnobma.
      _ raSia saqme? _ isev hkiTxa mamaom, Tan xeliT gvaniSna davrCeniliyaviT. davemorCileT. ucnobi uxerxulad grZnobda Tavs, magram mainc daiwyo:
_ mama giorgi, ar miwyinoT, cudad ar gamigoT, magram ar mjera imisi,   rasac Tqvenze amboben da weren.
    _ mere, mTavrobidan dagirekes da giTxres, daijereo?! - cota mkacrad uTxra mamaom - ar gjera da nu gjera Se kaco! _ rava, me dagpatiJe amodi, gamofena maqvs, Tu cirkis arenaze gamovdivar da seansebs vawyob, Tu SenTan mivedi saxlSi da giTxari esa da es var da dagexmarebi-meTqi?! _ ara biZiko, ar mewyineba, eg Seni saqmea! mara ise, arc me mjera Seni kai kacobis!...
ucnobma uceb toni Seicvala da uTxra:
_   amas ratom makadrebT, mamao!
_   ras gakadreb, Se kaco!
      _   kacoba   ra mosatania aq... _ kadnierad mimarTa ucnobma.
      _   ese igi gjera Seni kacobis?_uTxra mamaom.
      _   aba, ra!
      _   ho-da, Sen rom gjera Seni kai kacobis, mec mjera is, rac RmerTma momca! mkacrad Tqva mamaom.
    siCume Camovarda. daZabuloba igrZnoboda. cota xnis Semdeg ucnobi ukve uxeSi kiloTi eubneba mamaos.
      _   mainc ra ar mogwonT Cems kacobaSi?!
_ momeSvi axla adamiano, xoa `niCia~! hoda, gaCumdi! me ar gamogkidebivar Sen!.._uTxra mamaom.
  maSin ucnobma umata xmas da mamaos mimarTa:
      _   mag sityvebs aravis vapatiebdi!
amis gagonebaze mamao wamodga da mkacrad uTxra:
      _   ese igi, gamodis, bodiSi unda mogixado?!
            ucnobma niSnis mogebiT gadmogvxeda. mamaos Tvalebi ucnaurad aenTo, saxe Seecvala da mrisxaned uTxra:
_   gamodis, bodiSi unda mogixado imaSi, rom xuTi wlis win ruseTSi saZmoSi, aTi aTasi moipare da udanaSaulo kaci kinaRam moakvlevine?!   amaSi?!... Tu imaSi mogixado bodiSi, studentobis dros, sawyali sofleli gogo Seacdine da dResac gaubedurebuli rom dadis!.. Tu kidev imisTvis mogixado bodiSi, fulebze wevxar da Seni disSvili ucxoeTSi sxvis TefSebs recxavs!
kacma feri dahkarga. mxrebi Camoyara, aSkarad etyoboda moulodnelobisa da warsuli ambebis gamo cudad gaxda. maSin mamaom toni Searbila da uTxra:
_ ra giTxra, babua, Tu ici? amas imitom ki ar geubnebi, rom dagamciro da ganaxo vincxa var! aramed imitom, rom   ver vitan, roca melas qaTmebis mwyemsad moaqvs Tavi! Tanac Sennairebs sinanuli ara aqvs!... hoda, gons modi, Torem cudad wagiva saqme!..
ucnobi kaci nirwamxdari idga. xma ar amouRia. erTi ki uTxra mamaos:
_   Sevcdi, TqvenTan ar unda movsuliyavio...
_   mogcem taqsis fuls, Tu taqsiT xar mosuli._uTxra mamaom.
ucnobi wavida... mama giorgi mTeli oci wuTi ijda da xmas ar iRebda. verc Cven gavbedeT raimes Tqma:
_davalebiT iyo mosuli. ramdeni vinme minaxavs mogzavnili. ar isveneben, xom xedavT. me gavuZeli maT... kidev gavuZleb RmerTis madliT... ar Semecoda. ara imitom, rom CemTan iyo mogzavnili. aramed imitom, rom Tavxedi da yalbi kaci iyo!.. me vicodi Tu ras apirebda is! Tu pirveli kiTxviT ver `wamomagdebda~, kidev SekiTxvebis dasta hqonda. daviRlebodiT yvela erTad, amitom moviqeci ase. rava kargi nacnobiviT damidga aq!... ise, xo ici, magra gamixsna RmerTma misi warsuli (icinis). sul movuyvebodi Tavidan bolomde, mara ra mosasmenia misi gafuWebuli cxovreba. kaci rom mRvdlis `gamosaWerad~ vinmes gamoegzavneba, sada aqvs, babua, mas adamianis raime. aristoteles uTqvams:   `gaiZveras sindisi rom gauRviZo, sila unda gaawnao!~  

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...aRdgomidan amaRlebamde mamao gansakuTrebul - sazeimo ganwyobazea... am periodSi gansakuTrebiT blomadaa masTan momnaxvelebi. mamaosac daRla ar etyoba maTTan urTierTobisas. gansakuTrebiT bevrs xumrobs. Dim dReebSi Cvenc TiTqmis yovel meore dRes davdiodiT, radgan es mkacri mamao am periodSi keTil babuas emsgavseba... erT-erT aseT asvlaze vxedavT:   mamao   dgas marto da gulianad icinis.   Cvens danaxvaze sicili ar Seuwyvetia. xeli agviwia. kargi muxti Cvenc gadmogveca. ra Tqma unda, sicilis mizezis garkvevas Cven   ver gavbedavdiT. biWebs xeli CamoarTva:
_ gaumarjos qarTvelebs. ras Sveba wie, samargalo?! _ uTxra mamukas, mere mogvibrunda _ gzaSi kaci SegxvdebodaT `JiguliT~, magaze vicinodi. getyviT ager, kargi kacia, Zveli quTaiseli, keTili, pur-mariliani, mxiaruli! oRond eklesiaSi ar dadioda. kargad xnis win, erT mSvenier dRes, sauzmeze erT boTli Rvino gadaukravs, Tavis manqaniT Cems sofelSi raRac saqmeze Camosula. ukan mobrunebuli mxiarulad mouyveboda gzas, Tan RiRinebda. amasobaSi miuaxlovda soflis centrSi mdgar buxaiZis Zegls. karg xasiaTze myofma Seunela manqanas, gamoxeda Zegls da `miesalma~: `gamarjoba, buxaiZe!...~ da is iyo, rom arxeinad gza unda ganegrZo, rom Zeglidan _ rogorc TviTon moyva _ xma Semoesma, Tan iseTi Zlieri, TiTqos mikrofonidan ismiso _ gagimarjos `simoniC~-o. uceb gons ver movedi, Tavidan davapire manqanis SeCereba, mere ki, rogorc Kki azrze movedi, ise `davgaze~, ukan aRar momixedavs da pirdapir SenTan amovedio _ mowameTaSi. zafxulis dila iyo. ki gamikvirda Tertmetis naxevarze eklesiaSi mosuls rom vxedavdi. kacs saxeze feri ar edo. momvarda:
_ miSvele, giorgi, Tu kaci xar!...
_ raSia saqme, ra gagWirvebia? _ meTqi.
_ cudadaa Cemi saqme, mkvdari momesalmao, da momiyva es rac axla giTxariT. ra meTqva, kaci nirwamxdari idga.
_ mkvdari, biZia, buxaiZe ki ara, Sen xar, saxeze feri ar gadevs_vuTxari xumrobiT _ buxaiZem Tavisi saqme gaakeTa da qe aris iqeT RmerTTan, Sen ikiTxe!... eklesiis kari saiT aris, rom ar ici_meTqi...
_ kargi giorgi, ra dros xumrobaa, Zmurad, raime cudis niSani ar   iyos?! _ ificebda, asiani_xmam mipasuxao._ Sen kidev iZaxi mkvdariao,
jer Zeglma ra giqna, Tvara, suliT rom Sexvedrodi sadme buxaiZes, xom morCeboda Seni saqme _ meTqi. isev xumrobiT vuTxari, radgan SeSinebuli iyo.
_ vinme Cveneburi iqneboda, biWo, Zeglis ukan, nu fiqrob magaze_meTqi.
_ maseTi xma, kacs rava eqnebodao (am sityvebze mamaos sicili waskda, Cvenc avyeviT). _rame Semiloce, Se kaco! _ Semexvewa.
paraklisi gadavuxade, ori Wiqa davalevine da vuTxari:
_ kikviZis ZeglTan mainc nu Caivli erTi ori Tve _ meTqi. (mamao isev gadamdebad icinoda). naxeT, biZia, RmerTis dideba, roca kaci uyvars, rogori xerxiT SeuZlia igi eklesiaSi miiyvanos?! magi didi xania, micnobs. misTvis am xnis manZilze, TiTo saaTi rom meqadaga, mainc ar iyo aqeT amomsvleli da naxeT, `ra uyo~ buxaiZem! (icinis). didi sulis iqneboda buxaiZe. aba, ise ubralod ar daiwereboda is leqsi da simRera, romelsac mTeli saqarTvelo mReroda da usmenda... mokled, im dRis Semdeg kaci eklesiaSi daiareba. dRes iyo mosuli, saxli isev unda vukurTxo!...
am dRes Cveni yuradReba miiqcia kidev erTma garemoebam. mamao gacilebiT   `d a b a l i~   sCanda mis Cveulebriv, fizikur simaRlesTan SedarebiT da  
T v a l i s   f e r i   hqonda l u r j i,   maSin roca mama giorgis Cveulebriv muqi yavisferi Tvalebi aqvs. aseTi ram SegviniSnavs mama leontizec... rodesac SeamCnia, rom Cven es momenti davafiqsireT, mama giorgim gviTxra:
  _ me samnairi var!... ufro xSirad mama gelaparakebiT, iSviaTad_papa da aris kidev mesamec, magram amas Tqven ver amCnevT. me ki vici rodis vin var!..
am movlenas vcdilobdiT, Semdegac davkvirvebodiT, da rogorc bevrma CvenTaganma naxa, mama giorgi wirvis dros, roca is mwirvelia, sagrZnoblad `klebulobs~ simaRleSi. is Cveulebriv simaRleze dabalia. qalaqSi, rom Segvxvdeba, sul sxvaa simaRliT _ gacilebiT maRali...

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is periodi iyo, roca moswavleebs sazafxulo ardadegebze iTxoven da eqskursiiT taZrebSi dadian. mowameTaSi viyaviT asulebi. momlocvelebi da axalgazrdebi Zalian bevrni iyvnen. Cven mama giorgis axlos videqiT. mamao Cveulebisamebr samreklos gverdiT ijda da saubrobda. am dros movidnen q. foTis erT-erTi skolis moswavleebi TavianT aRmzrdelebTan erTad. gaicina mamaom _ oo, megrelebi mosulano... maswavleblebi mokrZalebiT miesalmen da uTxres: Tqvenze bevri ram gvsmenia mamao; mama giorgim xumrobiT upasuxa _oo, axla holivudi apirebs Cemze filmis gadaRebas da Cems rolze robert deniroa wardgenili... maswavleblebma raRac kiTxvebi dausves da mamaoc   saubarSi CaerTo maTTan... am dros erT-erTi patara foTeli gogona mouaxlovda mamaos da eubneba: - mamao, damlocavT? mamaom Cven Semogvxeda da gviTxra _ naxeT?!.. iswavleT am patara gogonasagan, rogor unda mixvideT mRvdelTan kurTxevis asaRebad. bevri modis mevalesaviT da gibrZanebs `damloce mamao~!.. rava, marTebs rame Seni Tu?!... iTxov da kidev Tavxedob! .. Tu ar ginda, ratom eubnebi, damloce mamaoo! da Tu ginda,   maSin, ise iTxove, rom mRvdelma ara movaleobis moxdisTvis daglocos, aramed guliT daglocos. zrdiloba da mokrZaleba qarTvels ar eswavleba, miT umetes mRvdelTan. rogor gunebazec ar unda iyo, ra guli mogcems ar daloco is, romelic ki ar moiTxovs, aramed gekiTxeba _ damlocav, mamao? ar gikvirT, sad iswavla am pataram aseTi mimarTva?! RmerTma aTqmevina, rom sxvebs gaego!.. mRvdelic xom kacia, hoda rom Sexvdebi quCaSi, mivardebi da eubnebi: `damloce, mamao~ - raze daglocos?! gaagebine ra saqmeze iTxov locva-kurTxevas?!... pirvel rigSi mRvdels mokrZalebiT, qarTulad unda miesalmoT –gamarjobaT, mamao. mamaosac unda gamarjveba mtrebze. gamarjveba-es aucilebelia, es yvela qarTvels evaleba. Sen ki mRvdlisgan moiTxov, damloce ginda Tu arao... rom ar daglocos?! -iqneba da   w m i d a n i a   da icis   Seni zraxva, an kidev xedavs ris Cadenas apireb im dRes da ar daglocos! - Sen ras izam?! Cxubs dauwyeb?! am wess - `damloce mamao~_s_mRvdeli, rom movaleobad uTvlis Tavis Tavs, Zaan moxerxebulad iyeneben boroti sulebic. Tu wmidania mRvdeli - dalocavs ki ara, iseTs xeTqavs, rom meorejer ver gabedos madlis gamoZalva ukeTuri saqmisaTvis!...
am saubrisas mze ise moeqca caze, pirdapir Cven gvacxunebda. mamao zeviT ar ixedeboda, TiTqos Tvals aridebda, mere ki gviTxra:   ramdeni mzes Tvali gavuswore, imdeni iwvima, axla erTi kvira ar gvawyobs wvimao!
ise, gvinaxavs, rom mamao Zalian didxans pirdapir uyurebda mzis diskos! erTxel Tqva mze gabzaruliao, sxva dros ki aseTi ramac uTqvams: mzeze maRla rom   avdivar, sul sxvanairi vxdebio!...

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ivnisis dasawyisisTvis kidev erTi, eqskursiaze myofi bavSvebi miiRo didi siyvaruliT mama giorgim. isini Tamamad ekiTxebodnen mamaos da pasuxiTac sakmaod sxartad pasuxobdnen. mamaom maT swavlis ambebi gamokiTxa. mere uTxra:
  _ codvaa, babua, uwignuri adamiani. dRes swavlis pirobebi gaqvT, unda ikiTxoT da iswavloT. ver vitan iseT kacs, sizarmacis gamo uwignuri rom ariso.
erTi biWi miuaxlovda mamaos:
_ mamao, SeiZleba Tqvennairi gavxde?
mamaom mkacrad Sexeda.
_ SeiZleba! Tu daibade Cemnairi. ise, marto swavliT ver gaxdebi, babua!
patara biWi SekrTa (iqve iyo biWis deda). maSin mama giorgim mas uTxra:
_   me SenSi ors vxedav. erTi vinc exla xar, da meores - vinc gaxdebi. Sen sasaxelo kaci dadgebi - eqimi gamoxval. mere biWis dedas Sexeda da mkacrad uTxra: 18 wlis rom gaxdeba, zRvaze ar gauSva da vinc moewonos, masze daqorwinebas nu dauSlio!...
qali gaocebuli uyurebda. mamaom ganagrZo:
_ zRva!.. zRvaze ar gauSva!.. adamiano!.. ar imsaxureben mSoblebi yovelTvis aseT karg Svils. da roca mSobeli ver amarTlebs, RmerTs SeuZlia, Svili   waarTvaso.
qalma JestebiT gakvirveba gamoxata. maSin mamaom uTxra:
_ me Cemi saTqmeli giTxari, xedavs RmerTi!.. da am saubris codvac davide Tavze, imitom, rom Zalian kargi bavSvia!..
mere biWs miubrunda:
      _ moxval CemTan?
      _ diax mamao.
_ giorgi xom xar Sen?
_ diax.
_ hoda, giorgi, skolas rom daamTavreb, aucileblad modi CemTan,
da saidumlos getyvi!..
am saubarma iseTi interesi gamoiwvia sxvebSi, rom mSoblebi TavianTi SvilebiT mama giorgisTan naxevar wreze moewyvnen, imis imedad, rom mamao maTac etyoda rames. mamaom 12-13 wlis gogonas mimarTa:
  _ ratom miyureb, babua, ase, gecnobi?..
mozardi daibna da Tavi Tanxmobis niSnad dauqnia.
_ xo! micnob me Sen, micnob!.. mara, rodis gaigebs amas Cveni xalxi?!.. Sen efrosine xar!
_ ara, mamao, naTia, _ miugo bavSvma.
_ kargi, kargi, naTia xar, mara efrosinec iqnebi - uTxra mamaom.
bavSvis dedas etyoboda, rom dialogi ver gaigo da mamaos hkiTxa:
_ mamao, mSoblebi yvelafers vakeTebT, rom sazRvargareT iswavlos, magram cota zarmacia.
maSin mamaom axeda qals da uTxra:
  _ sazRvargareT visTan unda gagzavno, vin gyavs iq?!
  _ aravin. - upasuxa qalma.
_ ho, Sen ki agzavni mara, RmerTi sad gagzavnis qarTvels, eg sxva sakiTxia, - miugo mamaom mkacrad.
amasobaSi erTma biWma, isic 12-13 wlis iqneboda, gaarRvia win mdgomTa wre da mamaos daudga win.
  _ mamao, ganvikurnebi?
  _ ra gWirs Sen?
  _ nawlavebis anTeba, mamao.
  _ mere, ra ici, rom me getyvi pasuxs?.
biWi daibna, Tavi CamouSva. mamaom Tavze xeli daado da uTxra.
_ ganikurnebi, ganikurnebi. axla Sedi taZarSi da xelmarjvniv, kedelTan rom naxav patara gamoqvabuls, iq gaZveri da Txove wmida mowameebs: _ `wm. daviT da konstantine, evedreT RmerTsa CemTvis~, _ daimaxsovre? aba, gaimeore. biWma gaimeora; - wadi da gaZveri.
Semdeg jeri gogonaze midga, isic imave asakisa iyo.
_ mamao, vmarxulob. dRes eqskursiaze arasamarxvo saWmelebi gvaqvs, SeiZleba, marxva gavaxsnilo?
mama giorgi dafiqrda. Sexeda. mere xeliT misi marjvena xeli daiWira da Tbilad uTxra:
_ me marxvas sxvebs mouwodeb da marxvis gaxsnilebis nebas ver dagrTav. rom SeWamo, RmerTs ki ar ewyineba, radgan marxva RmerTs ki ar Wirdeba, babua, aramed Cven. raxan sityva Tqvi, daicavi. ar varga sityvis gatexva. rom ar gatexav sityvas, principuli gaizrdebi da momavalSi isev Sen wagadgeba. mebrZoli suli Camogiyalibdeba. xaWapuri da namcxvari, babua, Sens cxovrebaSi ramdenic ginda, imdeni geqneba. Tu ar SeWam, RmerTs gaaxareb, da RmerTic gagaxarebs Sen!..
mozardi daRonda, danarCen bavSvebs gadaxeda. maSin mamaom jibidan didi sefiskveri amoiRo da misca mas.
_ ai, naxe, Wame es da rogori Zala mogeces, mere miTxario. ise icode, babua, yvelaze didi codva yvelaze patara codviT iwyeba!
cota moSorebiT WasTan erTi patara biWi idga. etyoboda asakiT umcrosi iyo danarCenebze. mamaom dauZaxa:
_ Sen, modi erTi aq, ra sawyaliviT damdgarxar?! araferi ginda, mkiTxo?
bavSvi moridebiT miuaxlovda mamaos.
_ sad arian Seni mSoblebi?
_ mama muSaobs, deda ara myavso _ miugo bavSvma.
mamaom usityvod uyura bavSvs, mere gulis jibidan jvari amoiRo. misca da uTxra:
_ Sen mRvdeli xar, babua! namdvili mRvdeli gaxdebi. dedaSeni cocxalia da Senze loculobs, Segxvdeba Sen dedaSeni, - mamaos TvalebSi cremli Caudga, _ es jvari sami dRe gedos saxlSi, mere mamaSenma migiyvanos mRvdelTan da Sens saxelze akurTxebinos.
mama giorgi or saaTze meti elaparaka maT. mere daloca, gauSva da CvenTan ganagrZo saubari. daaxloebiT erTi saaTi vusmendiT. damSvidobebisas miTxra:
  _ ai, is Seni mezoblebi, Sens win, rom midian, Cemi axloblebi ariano.
me ver gavige, radgan iq sxva aravin yofila Cvens garda.  
Camovedi quTaisSi da saswauli is iyo, quCas rom mivuyvebodi, Cixidan gamovidnen da Cems win gza ganagrZes Cemma mezobelma col-qmarma _ batonma gulad da qalbatonma   rusudan WarxalaSvilebma da momagonda mama giorgis sityvebi: `ai, is Seni mezoblebi, Sens win rom midian, Cemi axloblebi ariano~,_Zalian   gamixarda, radgan namdvilad keTili da Rirseuli ojaxia, romelTaganac bevrjer gvigZnia rogorc sulieri, aseve Cveulebrivi adamianuri mxardaWera... mama giorgim am sityvebiT mimaniSna, rom es ojaxi RvTismoyvare ojaxia da rom yvelaferi icis Cvens yoveldRiur yofaze...  
mama giorgi didi sizustiT xedavda rogorc axlo momavals, aseve ori da meti wlis Semdeg mosaxden ambavsac. man icoda Cems binaSi saganTa ganlageba. zustad icoda is wignebic ki, rac binaSi gamaCnda. mis xedvaze Zalian bevris dawera SeiZleba...
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.... ivnisis cxeli dReebi idga. mamaosTan asakovani qali movida. etyoboda, stumari iyo, Tan JurnalSi wakiTxuli STabeWdilebebiT modioda. mamaom skami SesTavaza. qals etyoboda, rom raRac mZime satkivari   stanjavda. amave dros saocari imediT Sehyurebda mamaos. cota rom mosulierda, mamaom hkiTxa Cveul stilSi, - ra gagWirvebia, adamiano?! qali arafers eubneba. -Tqvi, nu gerideba, eseni Cemi ojaxis wevrebiviT arian... Tqvi! maSin qalma moridebiT uTxra, _ Tqven iciT, mamao, Cemi gaWirveba. - mama giorgim saxe moiRuSa da mkacrad uTxra: _ Sen ra ici, adamiano, me ra vici da ar arao?! -me mjera Tqveni, mamao, - miugo qalma... rogor gjera Cemi, Se kai ded_mamiSvilo, pirvelad mxedav dRes,   ar micnob da rava gjera Cemi! Tu moyvebi Sens saqmes, qe dagigdeb yurs, Tu ara da ra uyo!.. haeri sufTaa aq, madlic didia, ijeqi da moisvene, -uTxra mamaom.
qalma, rogorc iqna, daiwyo Txroba. mamaos xma ar amouRia. erT wertilSi iyureboda. mxolod SevniSne, rom TvalebSi cremli Caudga, momerida, Tvali avaride. ase naxevari saaTi yveboda qali Tavis ambavs da im dros, roca ukve pasuxs elodeboda, mamao uceb wamodga da qals eubneba: Sen moSiebuli iqnebi axla. mere me Semomxeda da meubneba _ maqvs me iq raRac-raRaceebi da Sen gaakeTe `abespeCi~. qals mkacrad uTxra _ gayevi axla, adamiano, am aniCkas da saWmeli kacurad Wameo. saqmeze var wasasvleli, rom ver mogiswro, dalocvili iqnebio. qals ewyina, magram araferi uTqvams, vasadile da gamovediT, raRac uxerxulobas vgrZnobdi, rom mamaom mas raime ar uTxra. qalma kidev erTi saaTi dahyo da wavida.
erT saaTSi mamaoc gamoCnda. me ganmkiTxveli azrebi momeca: xom SeeZlo,   im qals daxmareboda? azrebi rom mereodnen, mamaom damiZaxa, - gaiRviZe aniCka!-rava, `terezam~ xom ar dagabara rame?!.. uceb ver mivxvdi, vifiqre, im qalze mekiTxeba-meTqi, magram roca axlos movida, miTxra, Camojeqi erTi maq da damigde yuri, vigrZeni rom sxva rame iyo. - daxmarebis survili yvelas mimarT maqvs, magram aris RmrTis nebac da gangebulebac, romelic gvmarTavs!... adamianebs zogjer maTi molodinis sawinaaRmdego pasuxs vaZlev, an sulac ar vaZlev, radgan RmerTma ukeT icis, vis rogori pasuxi da mopyroba waadgeba sulis cxonebisaTvis. zogjer adamianebi Cqaroben, raRac simZimes, satanjvels daaRwion Tavi. arada satanjveli da tkivili RmerTisganaa daSvebuli. sulis gamosawrTobad, gansawmendad da maradiuli cxovrebisaTvis mosamzadeblad. zogjer xdeba asec: adamiani upasuxod unda gauSva, jobia is Cemze gabrazebuli da nawyeni wavides, vinem man mere misayveduros - Tu icodi, ratom bolomde ar mimiSvio. magram erTi unda gaxsovdes, RmerTi sargeblis gareSe aravis gauSvebs, vinc ki masTan saSvelad modis. miuxedavad imisa, xedavs amas is adamiani, grZnobs Tu ver grZnobs!..
SeiZleba adamians sasurveli pasuxi ar mivce, magram aucileblad RmerTi uxilavad madls, nugeSs, winaaRmdegobis gadasalax sulier Zalas da Svebas gaayolebs aqedan wasuls!.. is, axla aq, iTxovs tanjvis Semsubuqebas, radgan ver   xedavs, tanjvis sanacvlod, ra zeciur sikeTes umzadebs mas RmerTi. sasufevelSi asuli ki pasuxs momTxovs, metanja bolomde, aq sikeTes xom mets miviRebdio, icodi da geTqvao!... meoreTi, wmidanebis cxovrebaSi geqneba wakiTxuli, rom gawyromiTa da `SeubraleblobiT~ gacilebiT met madls aniWebdnen isini adamianebs, vidre saamebeli sityvebiTa da moferebiT. gana maT ar uyvardaT adamianebi, rom zogjer sastikadac rom eqceodnen?! an ra undodaT, tkbilad mieRoT adamiani da moferebodnen mas?!.. isini, yvela aucilebel, satken sityvaze, martoni tirodnen RmrTis winaSe, radgan Zalian faqizi da mosiyvarule suli aqvT adamianis mimarT. naxe, rogor uWirdaT winaswarmetyvelebs, romlebic xedavdnen winaswar TavianTi erisa da calkeuli adamianebis darbevas Tu ubedurebebs, romelTac RmerTi ugzavnida maT codvebis gamo. winaswarmetyvelebis niWs RmerTi xom ar miscemda usiyvarulo adamians. hoda, mosiyvarule sulisTvis ramdenad ufro mZimea winaswar cnoba imisa, rac adamianebze RmrTis gangebiT moiwevs, es pirovnuli satanjveli iyo winaswarmetyvelTaTvis da amave dros, pirovnuli ganviTarebis axali safexuric!..
miuxedavad saukunovani simtkicisa, udides wmidanebsac uWirT dResac dedamiwaze morigeoba -`morige RmerTis rolis Sesruleba!..~ maqsimum 2-3 Tve, Tu gauZles. am dros es morige wmidanebi xedaven da esmiT dedamiwis zurgze TiToeuli adamianis tanjva, vaeba, codvebi, ubedurobebi, ician maTi momavali. merwmune, es saSinelebaa!.. me ar giyvebi Sen sxvis monaTxrobs, me es nanaxi maqvs!.. da pasuxismgebeli var Cems sityvebze! warmoudgenel sulier Zalebs moiTxovs miliardobiT adamianis ubedurobebis, codva-madlis Tvalyuris midevneba, ise rom araferSi Carevis ufleba ara gaqvs!.. swored siyvarulis gamo uWirT udides wmidanebs `moriges~ funqciis Sesruleba.
ase rom, aniCka, giorgi basilaZe ver izams imas, rom gaWirvebuls da sawyals ar daexmaros, miuxedavad imisa, naxe es Sen, Tu kidev sxvebma!.. gasagebia, `terezia?!~ dRes amiT Cveni gadacemebi mowameTas studiidan damTavrebulia! mihyavda gadacema giorgi basilaZes (icinis). reJisori, kompozitori, prodiuseri, mTavar rolSi giorgi basilaZe (icinis).

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...zafxulis gvalviani dReebi idga. mowameTaSi asulebs mamao dagvxvda. mas Tbilisidan xalxi mosvloda da maTTan saubriT iyo garTuli. Cvenc Sori-axlo vismendiT mamaos qadagebas. stumrebs daRliloba etyobodaT, magram isic etyobodaT, rom wasvlac ar undodaT, swored am dros movida mamaosTan adgilobrivi adamiani, mamaos nacnobi. miesalma stumrebs, mere mamaos, da iqve mamaos gverdiT, Zalian Tamamad dajda da mamaos eubneba: _ ra gveSveleba, giorgi, Tu wvima ar movida, davixocebiT zamTarSi SimSiliT. mamaom Tavisi Cveuli gamoxedviT Sexeda da uTxra: _ wvimas mag CiviliT ver moiyvan, SeamxanagdiT, midiT mRvdelTan da iTxoveT locvaSi wvimao. am kacma vulgarulad Semoubruna sityva mamaos. kai erTi, Tu kaci xar, sad arian aseTi mlocvelebio da xeli Caiqnia. mama moubrunda da eubneba_ rava, eZebe da ver ipove, Tu iloces da ar iwvimao?! _ vin unda veZebo, giorgi, ar mwams me magaTio, _ uTxra kacma.
mama giorgis Seetyo, rom ewyina es kadnieri sityvebi da uTxra:   `Sen rom ar gwams, magi Seni gaWirvebaa, magram, mRvdelebze ase rom meubnebi, es ki,   mec mexeba! Sen geubnebi da saxeliT mimarTa _ ara xar patara biWi, da unda icode, rom codvas codvaze imateb mag sityvebiT!..   amden xalxSi geubnebi, sam dReSi wvima mova. Tan Ramis 3 saaTze! _ rava, Sen rom ambob imitom? -uTxra kacma. me rom viloceb, imitom! - mkacrad uTxra mama giorgim. is kaci ise hyavda moculi urwmunoebas, rom mamaos sanaZleos dadeba mosTxova. mamao daTanxmda da eubneba _ mag TavxedobisTvis rac mogivides, me ar damabralo icodeo! - awi meti ra unda momivides, giorgi, erTi wisqvilis qva ar datrialebula Cem Tavze Tvara, ra ar maqvs nanaxi, - uTxra kacma. mama isev stumrebs miubrunda salaparakod. kacma uxerxuloba igrZno da wavida. male stumrebic wavidnen. es iyo 2007 wlis 27 ivliss. me zedized ori dRe avdiodi mamaosTan. 29 ivliss mamaos isev xalxi hyavda da garTuli iyo isev saubriT. am dros modis is kaci, `wvimis Taobaze~ rom iyo. mama giorgim es kaci SeniSna Tu ara autyda iseTi sicili, rom karga xans gulianad icinoda, sanam is kaci ar miuaxlovda. garSemomyofTagan, mxolod me veswrebodi wvimis Taobaze sanaZleos dadebis `process.~
miesalma mamaos. mamaom mkacrad uTxra _ jer ar gasula sami dRe. ra kobrasaviT miyureb, raSia saqme!.. kacma Serbilebuli toniT uTxra: - ar minda, giorgi, mag sanaZleo, Tu kaci xar. _ mamaom miugo _ rato, erTi dRe darCa, Tu wavageb, xom ici, rom vkisrulob, risi geSinia?! - ar minda magis araferi, ori Ramea ver viZineb, Tvals davxuWav Tu ara, viRac joxiani kaci damadgeba Tavze, damkravs joxs da loginidan magdebs. Tvals rom avaxel iatakze vagdivar. am xnis kacs egeTi araferi momsvlia, ar unda meTqva niZlavze SenTvis.   mamaos gaecina da uTxra, _ eg, biWo, Cemi angelozia   da kets imitom ki ar girtyams, rom sanaZleo dade, aramed imitom, rom mRvdlebze gaqvs didi guli!.. _ar vici, giorgi, ris gamo mirtyams kets da ar mayenebs, mara erTs gTxov, ar minda arc wvima, arc sanaZleo, oRond momeSvas, Tu Zma xar. mamaom ise gulianad icina, rom iq mdgom stumrebsac gadaedoT, Tumca aravin uwyoda ra iyo sicilis mizezi.
marTali giTxraT, Zalian gamixarda is, rom is kaci aseTi `motexili~ iyo, radgan im dRes, ise Tavdajerebuli da gamarjvebuli saxiT midioda saxlSi.
- kai, kai, wadi Sen, da mag saqmes angelozTan me Cagiwyobo, _ uTxra mama giorgim. kaci gabrunda da wasvla rom daapira, mamaom isev uTxra: awi mainc ar gabedo mRvdlebze Seni `Savi iumori~, Torem is kaci ketis nacvlad TavSi qvas Cagartyams, da mere uyare kakali. mamaosac etyoboda sixaruli. _ rava moxrila welSi eg gaWirvebuli, im dRes ki `raJa sarCimeliasaviT~ mejda aq gverdSi, _ Tqva mamaom.
davemSvidobeT. binaSi movedi. Semodioda 30 ivlisi. me daRlili viyavi da CameZina. Rame   Zlierma quxilma gamomRviZa, ramodenime wuTSi Zlieri wvima wamovida.   saaTs rom davxede, zustad   3 saaTi iyo.   ise agvixdes yvela keTil xalxs keTili survilebi, rogorc 3 saaTze wvima movida mamaos sityviT...

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...mama giorgim erTxel masTan misulebs saubarSi uTxra: _ RmerTs wmidanebi yvelgan hyavs, adamianTa sazogadoebis yvela fenaSi. gnebavT, glaxakebi, glexebi, maswavleblebi, eqimebi, politikosebi, msaxiobebi, mecnierebi da sportsmenebi. yvela maT Tavisi davaleba da mizani aqvT. me Cemi codvili bunebidan gamomdinare meoreoda eWvebi da sulmokleoba... is ki ara da gankiTxvac ki damewyo. ver vigebdi maswavleblebSi an Tundac msaxiobebSi rogor unda yofilyvnen wmidanebi. da ra saTnoebiT SeeZloT maT am donisTvis mieRwiaT. ori Tve es azrebi mawuxebda. mamaos SekiTxva ver gaubede.
erT dRes mamao, rogorc ityvian, karg xasiaTze iyo.
_ gamarjoba, aniCka, rogoraa qveynis saqme? _ mkiTxa. _ qveynis saqme ar vici, mamao, _ vupasuxe me.
_ Sen ar ici, magram wmidanebma ician, _ siciliT miTxra da xeliT mimaniSna mis sayvarel adgilze CamomsxdarviyaviT, samreklos gverdiT. Sen maswavlebeli xar, xom?   _ diax.
_ makari didis cxovreba Tu wagikiTxavs?!
_ diax, wamikiTxavs.
_ waikiTxe, Tu Tvali gadaavle?! wakiTxva niSnavs, rom wakiTxuls gaigeb!... kaco, xom weria iq, ras eubneba RmerTi makari egviptels, _ Sen jer saTnoebiT im ori diasaxlisisTvis ver gijobniao... mere makari didim naxa isini, da gaukvirda... mereda Cveulebrivi, eris qalebi _ meojaxe qalebi ar iyvnen, Tu monazvnebi iyvnen?!..
_ weria, mamao, rom erTi ojaxis ori Zmis meuRleebi iyvnen.
_ mereda, ra Rvawli hqondaT, neta?!... makari beruli sistemis erT-erTi uZlieresi da ubrwyinvalesi sveti iyo. es qalebi ki, qalwulebic ar iyvnen. araa saintereso, rogor gaxdnen isini wmidanebi?! Tu imas metyvi _ wmidanebi ar iyvneno (icinis). Tu wmidanebi ar iyvnen, makari didis riTiRa sjobdnen, roca makari siwmindis maRal safexurze imyofeboda maSin?! Tu imas metyvi, rom es qalebi _ rZlebi, wmidanebi mxolod imitom gaxdnen, rom erTmaneTSi uSfoTvelad, siamtkbilobiT, qmrebis pativiscemiT da morCilebiT cxovrobdenen?!   ara, aniCka, aseTi ojaxebi cota ar aris qveyanaze, mara isini wmidanebi ki ar arian. maSin raSia saqme, ver metyvi, Sen?!
_ verafers vityvi, mamao, Cemi codvili gonebiT. _ vupasuxe.
_ Seni codvili gonebiT gankiTxva rom SegiZlia, iqneb scado da gaugo, rogor SeiZleboda mieRwiaT wmidanobamde Cveulebriv qalebs!.. gamocdaze ki ara xar, Sen ki ara, dRevandeli sasuliero pirebis 80% ver ityvis amas _ vambob _ WeSmarit pasuxze.
_ me araferi momdioda TavSi, magram mainc vuTxari: albaT, maT movaleobas keTilsindisierad rom asrulebdnen, loculobdnen, ojaxs patiosnad inaxavdnen da qmrebs emorCilebodnen. sxva araferi momdis TavSi, mamao.
_ rac axla CamoTvale, wmidanis ki ara, yvela Cveulebrivi mokvdavi qalis movaleoba da valdebulebaa. am movaleobis SesrulebiT isini kargi qalis saxels imsaxureben da ara wmidanobas. wmidanebs, babua, garda im xiluli zneobrivi Tvisebebisa aqvT Zala. Zala, romelic Zalian aRemateba adamianis Cveulebriv SesaZleblobebs. wmidans SeuZlia, gaqres da gaCndes. es sulis gansxvavebuli mdgomareobaa da ara zneobrivi kategoria mxolod. kargi, moveSvaT amas.   Sen ar ici rogor, magram mainc ase gaige, rom es qalebi wmidanebi iyvnen. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi wmida bers RmerTi ar miuTiTebda maTze.
_ diax, mamao, gamodis, rom wmidanebi iyvnen.
_ e.i. diasaxlisebi, romlebic erSi Cveulebrivi cxovrebis wesiT cxovrobdnen, xom?!
maSin   TavSi aseTma azrma gamielva _ Tu es qalebi wmidanebi iyvnen, maSin rogorRa ver icnes makari didi an ratom uTxres, rom isini raime gansakuTrebul madlsa da saTnoebas ver grZnobdnen sakuTar TavSi? es iyo da es, mamao, - Cemi azri pasuxad meubneba.
_mere vin giTxra, rom ver icnes?   es ubralod ar daweres, radgan maT am ambiT sxva ramis warmoCena undodaT. da Tan im saukunis adamianebi ver miiRebdnen WeSmaritebas sruli saxiT. moveSvaT Cven axla magas, icnes Tu ar icnes maT makari didi!... es Sors wagviyvans... Tan Seni farani   jer   Sors ver anaTebs... me Sen wmidanur axsnas ki ar gTxov da verc mogTxov. mxolod is mikvirs, rom ver xvdebi _ Tu ubralo diasaxlisi SeiZleba iyos wmidani, ratom ar SeiZleba iyos wmidani maswavlebeli, eqimi, mecnieri, mwerali Tu ginda msaxiobi? Tumca eg, Seni brali araa, babua, rom wmidanebze da maT SesaZleblobebze araferi ici, radgan dRes cocxal wmidanebze arafers aswavlian. wmidani siwmidis iseTi cecxlia, rom mas veraferi ver bilwavs, sxvaTa Soris msaxiobebSi momuSave wmidanebi Zalian didebi arian!... maT Zalian didi Sinagani simtkice gaaCniaT! naxe, maT mier gansaxierebuli rolebi rogor zrdidnen Taobebs!.. roca uRmerTo komunistebi eklesias da yovelgvar erovnuls gadaSenebiT emuqrebodnen, roca patara erebis did erTan Serwymas gviqadagebdnen, roca Cveni samSoblos mze `CrdiloeTidan amohyavdaT~, maSin eris didi Svilebi ukvdavi qarTuli sulis filmebs qmnidnen da es filmebi aucilebeli iyo eris TviTgadarCenisa da qarTuli sulis SenarCunebisaTvis. naxe `giorgi saakaZe~, an sesilia TayaiSvilis rolebi da kidev sxvebi, gana yvelas CamoTvli? hoda, xom iyo saWiro es filmebi, saWiro ki ara _ aucilebeli! rogorc axla Sen ver mimtkiceb me, is ori rZali _ makari didis cxovrebidan, ratom iyvnen wmidanebi, aseve ver damimtkiceb   imas _ ratom patiosani, eris gadarCenisTvis moRvawe adamianebi ar SeiZleba iyvnen wmidanebi!.. me ar vambob msaxiobebze zogadad! magram Sen princips daakvirdi: RmerTi xom iqeTken muSaobs, rom yvela gadarCes!... yvela fenaze midis didi Sroma, amitom wmidanebi yvela SesaZleblobas, adamianze zemoqmedebis yvela berkets iyeneben Zalian xarbad, radgan adamians cota dro aqvs, xolo codvebi imdeni, rom sami cxovreba ver gamoitirebs. ramdenjer urwmuno da avismoqmed adamianebsac cremlebiT avsebiaT Tvalebi, roca `mameluqi~ uyurebiaT.   erTbaSad codvils eklesiaSi ver Seiyvan. mas wmidanebi didi xani umzadeben suls, uxilavi zemoqmedebiT da xiluli magaliTebiT, eklesiaSi mosasvlelad. me vicnobdi erT qurds, romelmac didi xnis win, `dRe pirveli, dRe ukanaskneli~-s naxvis Semdeg daiwyo eklesiaSi siaruli. vicnobdi agreTve erT `afrinda~ qals, romelmac `baSi-aCukis~ zegavleniT gamoTqva monazvnobis survili. Zalian vrceli Temaa es... didi codnaa da Tan xalxisTvis gaugebari. rasac ver igeb, ki nu uaryof, Torem regveni ampartavani darCebi!...
Ffaruli wmidanebi rogor arian msaxiobebSi da gamoCenil sportsmenebSi _ vici me da yvela namdvilma!.. magram adamianebi jer ar arian mzad amis misaRebad, radgan wmidanis namdvili arsi ar ician, da arc Sen ici es; Sen arc is ici, rom wmidans SeeZlo Sesuliyo nebismier msaxiobSi da emuSava misi sxeuliT. Sen arc is ici, rom pele, romelic saTamaSo moedanze gamodioda, sxva iyo, xolo varjiSebze - sxva. TviTon pelemac aRiara, rom _ `CemSi ori pirovneba iyoo _ etsoni da peleo. etsoni peleze muSaobdao~. aseTi magaliTebi aTasobiTaa dedamiwaze. Sen arc is ici, SvarcenegerSi udidesi boroti suli rom zis. arc is ici, babua, ratom agiJebdnen xalxs rok-jgufebi, romelTa daxmarebiTac borotma milionobiT adamianis suli Caiyvana jojoxeTSi. hoda, Tu borotebi muSaoben!... wmidanebi gulxeldakrefilni isxdebian da aclian borotebs adamianis warwymedas?! sadac boroti `muSaobs~ da ra dargSic muSaobs, iq icode, aucileblad wmidanebic muSaoben!.. im dargSic hyavs RmerTs Tavisi xalxi!.. Sen arc is ici, vin iyo miSa xergiani, ra suli iyo masSi an kidev ilia vekuaSi. Sen ar ici!... da rom ar ici, ra unda Tqva?! _ me araferi ar vici, _ da roca mag Wkuaze daxval, mere mogcems RmerTi codnas wmidanebze. rogor SeiZleba, Caswvde RmerTis saidumloebebs codvili, romelsac wesierad ver gagirCevia mwvane feri lurjisagan.
saqarTvelo ganskuTrebuli misiis qveyanaa. Cveni eri imuSavebs, bolo Jams, sxva erebis gadarCenaze. amisTvis ki jer Cven unda gamovCndeT msoflio ruqaze, mere unda gavacnoT Tavi, mere unda davumtkicoT, vinca varT, rom dagvijeron, iswavlon da gadarCnen. da yvelafer amaze sxvadasxva Zalis, madlis da daniSnulebis wmidanebi muSaoben, rogorc moqmedi, ise dafaruli. Cven sawyali eri ki ara, Cven ubednieresi eri varT!... udidesi saidumloebebi gagvexsneba, amitom RmerTi winaswar tanjviTa da tkivilebiT gvwmendda da gvimzadebda suls. amitom varT yvela erze natanji eri. magram amitom gaabrwyinebs RvTvismSobeli Cvens ers bolo Jams. RvTismSobels es aRTqma TviT qriste RmerTma daudo.
dRes Tavi gagixurda xom, aniCka?! nu   geSinia! Tu Tavi gixurs, es kai niSania!...
erTi dRe verc saWmels SeWam erTi kviris samyofs da miT umetes verc sulier sazrdels miiReb erTi kvirisas. nu geSinia imisa, rom amas me vambob marto da sxvagan ar gagigia. es Zalian bevrma icis _ namdvilebma.
dRes amiT davamTavroT.


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    ...ar SemiZlia udidesi madlierebis grZnobisa da gansakuTrebuli mRelvarebis gareSe movyve kidev erTi SemTxveva... paraskevi dRe iyo. mamaosTan viyaviT. Cven fexze dgomiT vusmendiT mamaos. am dros Tbilisidan col-qmari or qaliSvilTan erTad movidnen. mamaom isini Zalian Tbilad miiRo. kaci mamaos gverdiT Camojda. kargaxnis saubris Semdeg mamaom hkiTxa stumars: _ Sen Cems saubars xom ar iwero? _ ara mamao, ras brZaneb. _ uTxra kacma. mobiluri amoiRo da uCvena _ mxolod es maqvs. mere daxeda da Tqva: _ esec ratomRac gamorTula. mamaom saubari ganagrZo, kaci gakvirvebuli Seavlebda Tvals mobilurs, romelic xelSi eWira. usmenda mamaos da Tan moridebiT raRac manipulacias akeTebda mobilurze. mas Seetyo, rom yuradReba telefonze hqonda gadatanili da mamaos mxolod xaTriTRa uqnevda Tavs.
ramdenime wuTSi man saubari Seawyvetina mamaos da uTxra: _ bodiSi, mamao, ver gavige, mainc ra SeeZlo, mosvloda Cems telefons? _ magi Sen unda icode. uSiSroebaSi Sen xar, me ki ara! _ es sityvebi mamaom Tbilad uTxra im kacs. col_qmars etyobodaT, rom sakmaod ganaTlebuli adamianebi iyvnen da mamaoc maT pativiscemiT esaubreboda.
_ me advokati kaci var, mamao.
mamaos Caecina, saubari ganagrZo da kidev ramdenimejer, sxvadasxva konteqstiT uxsena uSiSroeba. kacs etyoboda Zalian TavdaWerili da gawonasworebuli pirovneba iyo, magram saxeze mainc Seetyo raRac Cafiqreba. TiTqos raRacis garkvevas cdilobda Sinaganad. mamao saubars agrZelebda.   am dros kaci TiTqos uceb gamofxizldao, mimarTa mamaos:
_ getyviT, mamao, me uSiSroebis akademiaSi vaswavlidi, magram uSiSroebasTan sxva saxis Sexeba ar mqoniao.
_ meti ra unda gqonoda, Se kaco, _ siciliT uTxra mamaom. kaci cotaTi daiZaba. maSin mamao mis meuRles miubrunda _ Sen raRac ginda miTxra, xom?. qali Zalian saTno, morwmune da keTili adamianis STabeWdilebas tovebda. man pasuxi daayovna albaT uxerxulobisa da moridebis gamo. maSin mamaom uTxra
_ aaa!. biWi, biWi, xom?!
  qalma mokrZalebiT upasuxa: _ diax!
_ Tqven kargi ojaxi brZandebiT da geyolebaT biWi. me geubnebiT amas, giorgi basilaZe. da kidev daamata _ aq wamali mzaddeba, waiReT da miiReTo.
amis Semdeg mamao maT erT-erT qaliSvils miubrunda da uTxra: _ Sen samTavrobo qali izrdebio. meore qaliSvils ki ufro metxans da ufro axloblurad esaubra. me sixaruliT Sevcqerodi mamaos saubars am patarebTan. uecrad saSineli sicive vigrZeni terfSi, romelic qveda kidurebze gadmovida. es sicive TandaTan sul zeviT moiwevda. Cems win gverdulad iakobi idga. misTvis mindoda raRac meTqva, magram xma ver amoviRe. ukve TvalebSic mibneldeboda. mTeli ZaliT Sevecade iakobs xeliT mivwvdenodi zurgze. es iyo da es. mere   aRaraferi maxsovs....
CoCqoli ukve Zalian Soridan mesmoda... isic Sewyda… namdvilad vigrZeni rom sxeulSi ar vimyofebodi. azrad mxolod is mitrialebda, rom Cemebi   sul oblad mrCebodnen da maTTvis materialuradac araferi gamikeTebia, garda eklesiaSi siarulisa... es azrebic momcilda da raRac sxva sivrceSi aRmovCndi... iyo raRac ovaluri magida. vxedavdi,   magidasTan viRac qalbatoni ijda. magidis garSemo sxva qalebi da qaliSvilebic isxdnen. maT Soris viyavi mec. Cems zurgs ukan ki axalgazrda qali idga.   eseni Cveulebrivi adamianebi Candnen, didad arafriT gansxvavdebodnen erTmaneTisgan, garda im qalbatonisa, romelic mkacri da Zlieri saxiT gansxvavdeboda sxvebisagan. eseni arc   TeTrebSi iyvnen Semosilebi, miT umetes ar   iyvnen angelozebi. Cemi xedviT Cveulebriv adamianebs hgavdnen _ yovel SemTxvevaSi me aseTebad aRviqvi. mxolod is iyo, rom es xdeboda sadRac sxvagan. gonebiT vicodi, rom es is adgili ar iyo, saidanac movedi. am qalTa sazogadoebis nawili Zalian cxared mekamaTeboda. isini TiTqos raRacas moiTxovdnen Cemgan, rac me ver gavarCie. ufro sworad Semdeg aq, miwaze aRar maxsovda. nawili ki dumda. keTilganwyobili Cems mimarT iyo mxolod is didi da mkacri qalbatoni, romelic sdumda da usmenda Cems modave mxares. saubarSi Cems dasacavad ebmeboda is axalgazrda qali, romelic Cems zurgsukan idga. bolos man am kamaTSi raRac argumentebiT sZlia Cems modaveebs da im did qalbatons raRaceebi uTxra. man ki Tavi Tanxmobis niSnad odnav daxara. mere ki me Semomxeda....   Semdeg maxsovs, sxva adgilze aRmovCndi. raRac oTaxSi, TeTrebSi mosili didi wverebiT moxuci raRacas meubneboda, rac verc maSin da verc mis Semdeg ver gavarkvie. ar vici saubari im TeTrebSi mosilTan ramden xans gagrZelda, magram aq, miwaze,   TvalebSi Zlivs, raRac TeTri burusi gamoisaxa da isev mesmoda adamianTa CoCqoli. isic vigrZeni, rom viRacam karga blomad wyali damasxa. azri TandaTan damibrunda da ukve vacnobierebdi, rac moxda. pirveli rac TavSi momivida iyo, rom uxerxulad xom ar daveci miwaze...
nel-nela Tvalic gavaxile. siluetebsac varCevdi. damibrunda xel-fexis SegrZneba. vigrZeni viRacas majaSi xeli hqonda CaWidebuli. TvaliT Cemebs veZebdi. iakobi da mamuka davinaxe. am dros raRac Zalam isev damibnela goneba. cota xanSi, roca mxedvelobaca da azrovnebac srulad aRmidga, vxedav, mama giorgis gverdiT vzivar. kabaze davixede. mama giorgis erTi xeliT maja eWira, marjvena xeliT Cemi kiseri. gamaxsenda mamaos SeZaxilic: _ kiseri dauWireT, kiseri. mamao TvalebSi miyurebda _ ukve aqa xar, nu geSinia, Se gaWirvebulo. miTxra siciliT. mec uZalod gameRima. mamao ukve xumrobda. iakobs Sevxede, Tvalebi cremlebiT hqonda savse da gverdze mibrunda. mamuka ar daibna da wyali damalevina. _ did ars RmerTi Cveni _ Tqva mama giorgim iseTi ZaliTa da xmiT, TiTqos raRac ganaCeni gamoetana CemTvis, _ vsio, aniCka, awi aRar mokvdebi 100 weli. ucnobi qali Tavze mefereboda. siCume Camovarda; im iuristma kacma dabali da gaocebuli xmiT Cailaparaka: _ vaa, es ra vnaxe, micvalebuli moabruna!.. da kaci wamodga, wasvlas apirebda, qali Tavs ikavebda da Cemze zrunavda. Zalze axlobeli iyo im momentSi CemTvis. dasaviT mivlida da arafriT ar undoda Cemi mitoveba.
im wuTebSi, gonebaSi raRac fragmentebi merTveboda... ramdenimejer meordeboda... Cems win mdgari stumari qali viRacas magonebda... magram naTlad ver varkvevdi... fragmentebi isev meordeboda daJinebiT.   darwmunebiT SemiZlia vTqva, rom es is axalgazrda qali iyo, romelic im ovalur magidasTan msxdomi qalebisagan micavda. misTvis araferi miTqvams. col-qmari SvilebTan erTad wasasvlelad moemzadnen. madlieri   mzera gavayole maT, samwuxarod, saxelic veRar vkiTxe.   isini wavidnen...
mamaom mkiTxa, mSieri xom ar iyavi, aniCqa! wadi biWo, oTaxidan puri da wiTeli Rvino gamoitane. mec unda vWamo rame, guli rom ar Semiwuxdes meco -Tqva siciliT, magram saxeze daZabuloba etyoboda. - aWameT amas! daaZale Wama icode, uTxra iakobs. mere me momibrunda da miTxra: _ Tu gaxsovs, aniCka, sad iyavi?!
_ madloba, mamao, _ vupasuxe _ dideba RmerTs.
erTi sityvac ar damcdenia arc ovalur magidaze, rom mamaom Tavad miTxra... is Sens zurgsukan rom idga da gicavda, ai es stumari qali iyo da aqac bevri irbina Sens mosabruneblad. isic Sennairia, gicnobs im samyarodan. da axlobelia Seni. oRond aq ver cnobilobT erTmaneTs. man dagicva iq... im didTan!.. icode is namdvilia!.. gadavrCiT aniCqa... axla Cemi rigia... - es sityvebi gulze isariviT meca. mamao aris am qalaqSi Cemi erTaderTi imedi. misiT vsuldgmulob da man gadamarCina kidec sikvdils. davRondi...
mamaom siciliT miTxra: _ Sen rom gadagarCine, boroti xom Surs iZiebs, mara Cemi waqceva ar weria babua da nu daRondebi Sen.   Wiqa RvinoTi dagvloca, Cemi mobruneba aRniSna da miTxra:
_ Sen aq 2 wuTi iyavi mkvdari, magram iq sadac axvedi es 20 welia... sanam Sen aq 2 wuTi iyavi, me iq 20 weli gaswavlidi!!! _ gaicina da ganagrZo _ magaria xom, 2 wuTSi profesori rom gaxdi?!... awi is boroti veRar Segawuxebs. is Sens Tavs ar Tmobda. didi xani mogsdevda sxvadasxva sxeulebidan, is gtanjavda da adamianebic gtanjavdnen... axla morCa, boroti mogcilda, adamianebs ki Sendoba eqnebaT saTxovi SenTvis... Sen Cemi SviliSvili xar da me gicav Sen! ...cremlebi RapaRupiT momdioda.
_ geyofa axla! bevri gtanjes da gangikiTxes,   magram RmerTTan araferi dagekargeba! RmerTi isev gagaxarebs...   me gakurTxeb Sen!..   mere iakobs uTxra: sami dRe mouare da mere iqiT mogivliso!!!
mamuka momiyva, rom yvelas mkvdari vgonebivar, arc majiscema mqonia da aRarc sunTqva. erTi kviris micvalebuls davmsgavsebivar raRac wuTebSi. iakobs uTxovia mamaosTvis: _ aq saswrafoc ver mouswrebs,   Zalian gTxov moabruno mamao, vici rom SegiZliao. Semdeg rac moxda, zemoT ukve mogaxseneT.
Sendobas vTxov mkiTxvels, rom piradi ambiT gadagRaleT, magram guliT mindoda meTqva yovelive es.   madloba RmerTs,   madloba mama giorgis, madloba im ucnob axalgazrda qals, visi saxeli da gvaric samwuxarod ar vici, arc telefoni. magram imedi maqvs am wigns waikiTxavs da gaaxsendeba 2007 wlis ivlisis 11 ricxvi.

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      ...brwyinvale Svideulis kviras mamaosTan avediT. sadResaswaulo xasiaTze iyo. sufrac gagviSala, bevri ram gviambo. Cven ukve gamocdilebiT vicodiT, rom misi yoveli sityva, xumroba Tu brazi mniSvnelovani iyo, magram Cveni uZluri gonebis gamo, yvelafers ver vxvdebodiT da verc vimaxsovrebdiT. yofila SemTxveva, roca mamaos naTqvami saubris konteqstSi ar jdeboda, da is rac sakmaod bundovani da gaugebari iyo im momentSi, didi sizustiT asrulebula droTa ganmavlobaSi. miuxedavad imisa, rom mas TiTqos SeveCvieT, ase vTqvaT saubris stilic SeviswavleT. misi axsna SeuZlebelia, yovlad SeuZlebeli misi saqcielis an gamoxatvis formis prognozireba. mas gamouTqmeli ostatoba gaaCnia. mxilebis iqneba Tu gafrTxilebis, gawyromis iqneba es, Tu moferebis, udidesi sulieri Zalis gamovlenis da Tavis damcirebis. mamaosTan urTierTobis am xnis manZilze Cven ise Rrmad gangvimtkicda misi rwmena, rom problemebze arc ki vuyvebiT. mxolod mivdivarT masTan da is ki pasuxebs an sxvebTan saubrisas gvagebinebs, an kidev pirdapir. saocari moxerxebiT SeuZlia gagviqarwylos masze didi Sexeduleba. ise, rom uneblied gebadeba kiTxva _ mamao aris Tu ara iseTi, rogoric ggonia? da aseT dros RmerTi iseTi didi ZaliT gamoabrwyinebs mama giorgis, rom grcxvenia sakuTari sulmokleobisa da urwmunoebis.
im sufrazec mamao Zalian ubralo, erTi SexedviT `glexuri~ leqsikiT saubrobda da `gaunaTlebeli~ adamianis STabeWdilebas stovebda da amas Cveni goneba ijerebda kidevac, roca masSi saocari sibrZne, inteleqti da Rrma ganswavlulobac SegviniSnavs... erT-erT sadRegrZeloSi mamaom aseTi sityvebi Tqva:
    _ ioane maxarobelma erTi litri Sxami dalia da uvnebeli gadarCa. me rom 100 gramis daleva momiwios, gavuZleb viTom?!...
    Semdeg es sityvebi kidev gaimeora. Cven ki naTqvamis arsSi Cauxedavad omaxianad vupasuxeT:
      _ ras gizamT, mamao, Tqven Sxami...
  Tavi gaaqnia, Cafiqrda da Tqva
      _ xo... ra Tqma unda... vnaxoT!... Cumad Cailaparaka,
am sityvebze yuradRebas imitom vaCereb, rom mamaom kidev samjer warmosTqva es sityvebi sxvadasxva dros _ maisis TveSi da ivnisis dasawyisSi. im dRes Zalian gaxarebulebi gamogviSva...  
...ukve   i v l i s i s   Tve iyo, 17 ricxvi. avediT mamaosTan. masTan stumrebi iyvnen. mamaom isini gaacila. cota mogvianebiT kidev sxva jgufi wavida. Cven velodeT, bolos kidev samegrelodan mosulebi didi siyvaruliT gaacila. mamao im dRes Zalian ucnauri Canda, daZabuli laparakobda da sityvebs Zalian swrafad warmoTqvamda. saxeze arabunebrivi feri edo. raRac monacrisfro ieri hqonda. CvenTanac movida, ucnaurad mogvesalma. Cven vfiqrobdiT, amden stumrebSi etyoba sasmelis dalevam mouwiao. sanam mamao CvenTan saubrobda, iakobi kaxas gamoelaparaka, romelsac uTqvams, rom mamaos 2 Wiqa Rvino hqonda mxolod daleuli. iakobi mamaosTan mivida da hkiTxa:
- mamao, Rvino xom ar iyo cudi?
- imereTSi glaxa Rvino ar icis, TavadiSvilo, mara, ioanes ambaviao.
Cven verafers mivxvdiT. dagvloca da gvakurTxa _ wadiT awio.   wamovediT. iakobi ar modioda.
- aq raRac ambavia, _Tqva iakobma da isev miubrunda mamaos. mama giorgim uTxra: _ marto minda viyo. Sen ver gauZleb. wadi da xval modiTo.
iakobi gzaSi sul nanobda:
_ wadi ki miTxra, magram sulac ar momwons mamaos mdgomareoba da ar unda wamovsuliyavi. is kacs ar Seawuxebs, cudadac rom iyos, egeTi kaciao!...
ra ar vifiqreT... erTma isic Tqva, xom ar salosobdao. sxvam ki _ iqneb daRliliao da kidev ra vici ra... mamaos saubari gaugebari iyo. ena ebmoda (eborkeboda). ase iyo Tu ise movdiodiT. uceb iakobs gaaxsenda, mamaom rom Tqva _ `ioanes ambaviao.~ maSinve gagvaxsenda misi naTqvami brwyinvale SvideulSi. Zalze avforiaqdiT.   jambuli mibrunda taZrad.
-   Tqven aq iyaviT, me vnaxav mamaos.
cota xanSi jambuli dabrunda da gviTxra:
- mamao gamiwyra, ras dadixar win da ukano!..
  CavediT quTaisSi. meore dRes saRamomde ver movaxerxeT asvla. mama giorgi CvenTvis ucnob Tbilisel qalbatons acilebda. qalbatons fexi hqonda motexili. mas mariami erqva. mamao guSindeliviT metyvelebda. enas sagrZnoblad ukidebda. qalbatoni taqsiT gaacila. Cven ki SevyeviT mas monastris ezoSi. samreklos gverdiT Camojda da gviTxra:
- guSin, Tqveni wasvlis Semdeg, Cems oTaxSi rom Sevedi, maxsovs; mere aRaraferi maxsovs. mxolod gons rom movege, dRis ase sadRac or saaTze _ iatakze vegde. sawolamde Tavi ver mimitania. ar giTxariT guSin, SegeSindebodaT.... momwamles!...
gaognebulebi videqiT.
- vici vinc iyo!.. sacodavi!... davalebiT iyo mosuli Tbilisidan..
Cven avwrialdiT:
- mamao, eqimi... wamali...
- eqimTan Caval, mere! wesiT martokam unda gavuZlo. eg Cemi gansacdelia... imuSava `Savma mafiam~.... Cven qristianebi varT, pirveli svla magaTia... maT unda daertyaT CemTvis. egonaT, bolos momiRebdnen, magram ase ar maweria, babua!.. damartyes, magram ver momerivnen... ise cudad qe var, xom iciT.... axla wamovdgebi, es mxolod `nokdaunia~, rac SeeZloT, damartyes!... me vacale.... axla rom wamovdgebi, Cemi dartymis jeria... da vnaxoT, rogor gauZleben giorgis...
biWebma hkiTxes mamaos imaTi vinaoba.   mama giorgi gauwyra:
- biWo, es omi kacuri rom iyos, Cemi gazrdilebi cocxals ar daayeneben magaT. magi ar minda me,   vici vinc meomeba da geubnebiT Tqven, giorgi basilaZe _ sul male wavaqcev magaT!.. isini me ver mereodnen da verc axla momerevian. amaT me ar verCi, me imaT davartyam, vinc isini gamogzavna. is suli didi xania mebrZvis, me mas unda gavusworde, is didi gvelia!!! me mTeli ZaliT ar vloculob, radgan me rom ver mexebian, mere Cems naTesavebs da Tqvenc dagartyamen. me vici, rogor davangrio isini!..
samzareulo oTaxSi Segviyvana.. Seetyo, rom laparakma daRala. taxtze CamovjeqiT. eqimis moyvana isev SevTavazeT.
_ sami dRe rom gaivlis, mere mival eqimTan da meti eqims nu mixsenebT!..
mZimed sunTqavda... ijda usityvod... Sebindda. deni ar iyo. amasobaSi ucnobi diakvani movida. mas raRac sulieri problema hqonda. Cven SevTavazeT mama giorgis, diakons vetyviT, rom SeuZlod brZandebiT da gagigebT-Tqo. arafriT ar mogvca ufleba:
_ ase gvian monasterSi rom modis, iqneb uWirs raRac. rogor SeiZleba Tavis arideba.
Cven gavediT. isini martoni saubrobdnen. mere SevbrundiT oTaxSi. isev sanTeli enTo. daikoni dagvemSvidoba da wavida. erTi wamiT gamielva azrma, vai, Tu ver gauZlos da cudi ram moxdes... da SiSma amitana. mama giorgi nela Semobrunda Cemsken, TvalebSi Semomxeda da miTxra:
_ nu geSinia!.. isini me verafers mizamen, ver momklaven. ocdaaTi weli ar vapireb kidev sikvdils...
am sityvebma saocrad gamaxara. Tan iman, mamaom Cems azrebs myisierad rom upasuxa.
_   xorci mainc xorcia. movxucdi awi, ise oci wlis winaTac momwamles, magram araferi migvrZnia.... muSaobs Savi mafia _ eSmakis mafia.!! gaimeora. gviania, wadiT awi saxlSi.
_ martos ar dagtovebT, _ vupasuxeT Cven. Tumca masTan kamaTi usafuZvlo iyo.
_ ara! _ kategoriulad Tqva _ Tqven   amaSi nu SeyofT Tavs. es Cemi brZolaa, aq rom dagtovoT, geubnebiT, ver gauZlebT Rame borotis Semotevas! ver gauZlebT!... me marto ara var... aq daviT da konstantine da Cemi angelozia... da wasvla kategoriulad mogvTxova. wamosvla arafriT ar gvindoda. neli svliT amovediT rkinigzamde. mere didxans vTaTbirobdiT, rogor movqceuliyaviT. am dros ZaRli gamoCnda kudis qiciniT. dadga CvenTan da nel-nela migvyveboda. pirvel aRmarTs rom mivuaxlovdiT, ZaRli dawva Cvens win.   SevCerdiT da taZars SevxedeT. am adgilidan monastris arc erTi Senobis naTura ar Cans. Cveulebriv, monasterSi naTurebi ar enTo. saocari is iyo, rom monastris ezodan Zalian didi lamparis msgavsi ram anaTebda. Cveulebriv naTuras aseTi naTeba ar SeeZlo, hqonoda.
lampioni ki monastris ezoSi ar aris. sinaTle xan iklebda, xan Zlier akaSkaSdeboda. SiSma Segvipyro _ raime cudis niSani xom ar ariso. ZaRli ki iwva da mSvidad aqnevda kuds... Cven fanari gvqonda. mamukam Tqva, mivbrundebi taZarSi da ezoSi mainc gavaTev Rameso. am orWofobaSi daaxloebiT erTi saaTi gavida. is naTeba daaxloebiT 20-25 wuTi iyo, mere gaqra. am xnis manZilze ZaRli ucnaurad Sua gzaze iwva. mere wamodga, mogvxeda da win ganagrZo gza. maSin iakobma gagvamxneva:  
_ wmidans araferi mouva, mas dalevis momentSi Sxamis bunebis Secvla da gauvneblobac SeeZlo, magram adamianuri tanjva da tkivili unda aetana. mamaos araferi mouva, wavediT...
gvian CamovediT quTaisSi. is kvira sul mamaosTan davdiodi. 21 ivniss mamao eqimTan iyo. mec Tan vaxldi. laparaki isev uWirda, magram gacilebiT mxned iyo. xasiaTic kargi hqonda.
_ axla naxon rogori dartyma icis giorgim!.. didi xania Cems dadumebas cdiloben, magram veRar gamosdiT. erTxel erTi „kagebeSniki“ movida CemTan, romelic adre sxvebTan erTad „mamuSavebda“. _ raze mosulxar, kidev dagrCaT rame CemTan_meTqi?!
_ ara, ara, giorgi, axla Txovna maqvs, bavSvi mominaTleo.
_ wadi, biZia, mRvdlebis meti ra aris, _ meTqi.
  _ giorgi, magdeni rwmena mec ki maqvs, rom CamSveb mRvdels bavSvi ar movanaTlioo. esa da es kaci CvenTan dadis da Senze ena daaqvs, Senzea momagrebulio.
_   daaqvs da ataros mere! me arc Seni meSinia da arc magisTanebis. me mxolod RmerTis meSinia. da Tu araswori ram Cavidine, Tqveni TvalTvali rad minda, me TiTon davdeb jvars da TviTonve waval.
_ ho da magitom gTxov, giorgi, bavSvis monaTvlas. mec ar davbadebulvar   am samsaxurisTvis da mec qarTveli var. meci pativi da uars nu metyvi.
_ aba ras vizamdi, movunaTle... axla vinc momwamla, sul sxva `mafiaa~. ician, me vinca var!.. es maTi bolo dartyma iyo da unda gameZlo da RvTis SewevniT gavuZeli kidec. TviTon daingrnen suliT, Tqven ki yovelive amas xorciel gamovlinebaSi awi naxavT.
  madloba RmerTs, rom mamao am gansacdelidan gamoiyvana. magram sami Tve mainc emCneoda laparakSi im boroti Sxamis kvali. mamaos erTma nacnobma eqimma uTxra:
_ es Cveulebrivi Sxami ar iyo. SeeZlo ar moekali. is ufro gonebis       moSlaze iyo gaTvlili. maSin avadmyofTan vinRa ivlida...
mamaos gaecina da uTxra:
  _ icodnen, rom amas ver izamdnen, magram buneba aqvT boroti da mainc scades. magram is ar ician, rom dro mosulia da male gamomJRavndeba vin vin aris!.. maTi dro midis, saqarTvelos damarcxeba ar uweria!..

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1996 wels martvilSi, didmarxvaSi, vnaxe saSineli sizmari. Cemi quTaiseli biZaSvili Temuri (cuga) SeSfoTebuli miaxlovdeboda, marcxena xeli yelze hqonda magrad CaWidebuli, marjvenas ki Cemsken iSverda, xmas ver iRebda, TvalebiT Svelas mTxovda. me ki gaognebuli adgilidan ver viZvrodi. cuga TandaTan fers kargavda. gamomeRviZa, suli miSfoTavda, SiSiTa da SeZrwunebiT erTianad vcaxcaxebdi. nakurTxi wyali davlie, mere RvTismSoblis daujdomeli wavikiTxe, cota suli moviTqvi.
gaTenda Tu ara, taZarSi avedi. iq Cemi moZRvari _ mama goCa damxvda. sulmouTmenlad movuyevi sizmari. mama goCam damamSvida: nu endobi sizmars, iqneb boroti gaSfoTebs sulieri wonasworoba dakargo (bolo aTi-Tormeti weli sul koSmaruli sizmrebi mqonda). mere miTxra: parakliss gadavuxdio. dauzareli iyo mama goCa mrevlisTvis. Sromac bevri gaswia is 3 weli. Tavis SesaZleblobis farglebSi araferi dauklia mrevlisTvis.
paraklisis Semdeg Zalian naRvliani Canda, araferi uTqvams. wamosvlisas miTxra: saxlSi iloce mag biWisaTvis. gavida dro. sizmari iSviaTad, magram mainc maxsendeboda. biZaSvils Tavis ojaxTan erTad mosaxsenebelSi vwerdi, romel taZarSic Sevidodi.
2003 wlis maisis miwuruls, saRamo xans, Cemi biZaSvili (imxanad moskovSi cxovrobda) misma orma zugdidelma `megobarma~ binidan gaiyvana.   aravis odnavi eWvic ar SeparviaT raime cudze, radgan xSirad stumrobdnen da manqanaSi muxanaTurad yeli gamoWres. manqanis dawva an wyalSi gadagdeba hqondaT gadawyvetili, magram ver moaswres. sikvdilamde cugam manqanis sakets xeli waavlo da sisxlisgan daclili manqanidan gadmoekida. ucnobma, romelic Seeswro am barbarosul mkvlelobas, policiaSi dareka Tavzardamcemi mkvlelobis Sesaxeb. gaigo cugas saxleulmac da roca saaxloblo Seikriba binaSi, gabmulma zarma gamoafxizla yvela. TiTqmis erTi wlis win gadadebul, miviwyebul mobilurs, romelic karadis ujridan gamoiRes, rusulad ewera: `Сoрокоуст...~ - rac qarTulad ormocdRian, sulis mosaxsenebel locvas niSnavs.… micvalebuli locvas iTxovda. es iyo gamaognebeli faqti.
… cuga quTaisSi CamovasveneT. Cven fsalmunebs vukiTxavdiT. vijeqiT mis cxedarTan da bavSvobas vixsenebdiT. biZaSvil-mamidaSvilebi TiTqmis erTad vizrdebodiT. quTaisSi _ institutSi swavlis periodSi mis saxlSi vcxovrobdi. is iyo Cemi `patroni~, yvelam icoda, rom cugas mamidaSvili viyavi. mas yvela icnobda, saocrad keTili da samarTliani iyo cxonebuli.
dakrZalvis wina Rames fsalmunebs vukiTxavdiT monacvleobiT. me da qeTevani (disSvili) martoni davrCiT cxedarTan. Cumad vtirodi da WaRara Tmaze veferebodi. misi aseTi wamebiT daRupva guls miklavda. sizmaric gamaxsenda: `rodis mTxovdi, biWo, daxmarebas da ver mogeSvele-meTqi~. saxeze Rimilma gadaurbina. ar SemSinebia, piriqiT _ sixarulma momicva. es aravisTvis miTqvams. vijeqi masTan da ras ar vuyvebodi, vgrZnobdi Cems gadawyvetilebas rom midasturebda da mamxnevebda.
mama giorgis cugas tragikul gardacvalebaze 2006 wels vuambe da Tan suraTic vuCvene. mamaom suraTs daxeda da Tqva: `vicnobdi amas me. aris namyofi mowameTaSi, ruseTSi midioda, kargi suli iyo, magram aseTi tanjviT miudgnen eSmakebi... icavdnen mas mowameebi.… nu geSiniaT, karg adgilas aris is iq... isini borotebi iyvnen, radgan Tavis moWra scades. amas borotebi Segnebulad sCadian, amiT adamianis suls igdeben xelSi, Tu wmidani ar icavs mas. magram Sens biZaSvils Tavi ver moaWres, radgan wmidanebi icavdnen. egeTive sikvdiliT aResrulebian TviTon. man mowameobrivi aRsasruliT sasufeveli daimkvidra, xolo misi mkvlelebi jojoxeTSi CaeSvebian. nu swuxarT masze. is keTili suli aris da aqac SeuZlia Tqveni daxmareba.~
borotebi cdiloben sulis daWeras, rogorc cocxali, ise gardacvlili adamianisa. borotebs sulis monadirebis bevri xerxi gaaCniaT. bibliaSic xom weria, grZeli qudebiTa da baliSebiT rom inadireben sulebs. es sayuradReboa. dResac bevri `mkiTxavi~ masTan mimsvlelebs baliSis mitanas sTxovs – TiTqos jados mosaxsnelad – arada, es mzakvruli fandia maTi. jados ki ar uxsnian, piriqiT, maT sulebs imorCileben.
sxva xerxi aris adamianebis TviTmkvlelobamde miyvana. wyalSi damxrCvali da CamomxrCvali TviTmkvlelebis sulebi arian haerSi gamokidebuli, casa da dedamiwas Soris. maTi tanjva saSinelebaa. da es sulebi yvelaferze Tanmxdebian, oRond sxeuli SeiZinon!.. borotebs iZulebiT, zogi ki nebayoflobiT ekvrebian! sxeulis gareSe tanjva autanelia! amitom aucilebelia, aseT sulebze izrunon Wirisuflebma – maT saxelze sikeTis keTeba, codvis ganawileba! rom suls adgili miuCinon! dRes bevrs weren da uCveneben-xolme raRac aCrdilebze, romlebic Zvel galavnebSi, saxlebSi, sardafebSi arseboben, aq garda borotebisa, adamianebis sulebi arian, romlebic usxeulod itanjebian miwis zeviT. aris iseTi SemTxvevebi, rodesac micvalebuls saflavSi Tan aqvs suli. suli aseT tanjvas gadis. mere, codvebis gamosyidvis Semdeg, amohyavT. saxarebaSi xom aris (4-16) micvalebulTa sami sistema: `eri, romeli sxda bnelsa, ixila naTeli didi, da romelni sxdes sofelsa da aCrdilTa sikudilisaTa, naTeli aRmoubrwyinda maT.~ - ese igi, 1)bneli, 2)qveyana, 3)sikvdili – jojoxeTis sami Sre.
is gardacvlili sulebi, romlebic miwis zeviT usxeulo tanjvas gadian, SeiZleba Sevidnen sarkeSi. qarTvelebi Zvelad aseT dros sarkeze tilos afarebdnen. suls SeuZlia, aseve Sevides televizorSi (miT umetes, borot suls), aseve kinoSi da gaxdes kinos gmiri. anu iqneba kinoSi moqmedi piri. amitom aris, rom bevri morwmune afiqsirebs filmis yurebis dros, esa Tu is personaJi urtyams mas sulierad, Semoqvs SiSi da areuloba.
miwis zeviT darCenili sulebis tanjva, sxva satanjvelTan erTad, aris uazro yofa. saSineli tanjvaa sulisTvis uazro cxovreba. saSineli tanjvaa sulisTvis uazro cxovreba.   es aucilebeli ram aris. uazro cxovreba autanelia kacisaTvis, qalisaTvis – ara! qalisTvis mTavaria siyvaruli. kacisTvis ki saqme, anu azria mizani.
suls SeuZlia, televizoridan Sevides kabelSi da iq iarsebos, rogorc denurma pirma, denis samyaroSi.
suls naTloba icavs, sinanuli, ziareba, eklesiuri cxovreba da wmidanebi. suls adamianebis gardacvalebisas aucileblad unda mfarveloba, radgan codvebis gamo masze `pretenzia aqvT~ borotebs. sulis amosvlis locvebs ukiTxaven adamianebs. gardacvalebis win – ziareba. gardacvlili sulebis irgvliv gacilebiT ufro rTuladaa saqme, vidre dRes warmoudgenia bevrs. es codnac gveqneba male.
mamaom dagvaimeda da gagvamxneva, madloba mas yvelafrisaTvis.
erTi ucnauri ambavi minda mogiyveT. am ramdenime Tvis win moskovidan cugas ori megobari iyo Camosuli quTaisSi _ wvimda, magram mainc avakiTxeT cugas saflavzeo. karga xani gavida, Cven qolgis qveS videqiT da wamosvlac ar gvifiqria. aTasi rame gvqonda mosagonari, vlaparakobdiT da ase gvegona, cugasac esmoda Cveni xma. uceb qolgas raRac daeca zevidan. SeSinebulebma mimovixedeT, gaocebas sazRvari ar hqonda, roca iqve saflavze ciyvi SevniSneT. ucnauria, Wadrebi da wiwviani xeebi ki dgas, magram im siSoridan ciyvi Cvens qolgas rogor daaxtao?
cugas xom ciyvi Zalian uyvarda. roca mSoblebs bavSvobaSi xSirad davyavdiT waRverSi dasaveneblad, cuga wiwvnarSi sul ciyvebs akvirdeboda. saocrad axarebda maTi yureba.

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...macxovris feriscvalebis dResaswaulis Semdeg vapirebdi TbilisSi gamgzavrebas da mamaos kurTxeva vTxove. mama giorgim damiloca gza da 10-lariani   momawoda,   me arafriT ar mindoda gamomerTva, maSin mkacrad miTxra: roca eklesiaSi mogawvdian, uari ar Tqvao; mec gamovarTvi da madloba gadavuxade. wuTiT dafiqrda, TiTqos raRacis dabareba surda. me vkiTxe: -xom ar gnebavT, mamao, rame TbilisSi? dabali xmiT   Cailaparaka - w i T e l i     d o l i...   da mere ucbad miTxra_ara, ara, araferi, araferi, wadi da modi mSvidobiT. aba, Sen ici aniCka! sixaruliT wamovedi.
meore diliT TbilisSi gavemgzavre. iq cota xans darCena momiwia. sul mawuxebda mamaos sityvebi - wiTeli doli. ra ar vifiqre. bolos gadavwyvite, moviZieb da vuyidi-meTqi. TbilisSi naTesavebs vTxove moeZebnaT. erT dRes axlobeli mirekavs _ mama gabrielis saflavze mivdivaro, da Tan meufe ilarionic (samxaraZe) gamoCnda, iqneb vnaxoTo. Zalian gamixarda, radgan meufe ilarionze Zalian bevri msmenoda, magram fizikurad ar vicnobdi, verafriT ver movaxerxe Sevxvedrodi.
meore diliT didubeSi velodi axlobels. man moulodnelad damireka da momibodiSa - dRes verafriT veRar wavalTo, TelavSi miwevs wasvla aucilebel saqmezeo. davRondi, magram mainc miviRe gadawyvetileba marto wavsuliyavi. Cavedi jer sveticxovelSi, sanTlebi davanTe da mere samTavros dedaTa monasterSi. zeTi SeviZine taZris SesasvlelSi, yvavilebic SemomTavazes, isic viyide da ucbad Tvali moxvda - galavnis ZirSi amaRlebul adgilze momcro zomis wiTeli doli ido, raRac CanTa da iqve mogrZo joxi iyo miyudebuli, TiTqos viRacam mimaxedao da mzerac ver movswyvite, sanam mama giorgis sityva -`wiTeli doli~-ar aRmidga gonebaSi. zeTis gamyidvelma qalma SeamCnia Cemi daJinebuli yuradReba am adgilis mimarT da miTxra: - Svilo, eg meufe ilarionia mosuli aq da es nivTebic misiao, axla gasuliao. me vkiTxe, aq ramdenxans Cerdeba da romel dReebSi modis-meTqi. qalma mipasuxa: eg Svilo aba ra viciT - dRe gaCerdeba, xalxs dalocavs da mere midis, grafiki ara aqvs. brZeni kacia Svilo, magas sul Wkuas ekiTxebian. me sixaruliT avivse, jer mama gabrielis saflavze mival-meTqi. iq naxevari saaTi davyavi. taZarSi Sevedi da male gamovedi. vxedav im adgilas, sadac doli ido, viRac Camomjdara. ver gaverkvie, meufe me nanaxi ar myavda, Tan aq mjdomi glaxakis CacmulobiT iyo, maram es wverosani WaRara kaci am nivTebs ise eqceoda, rom advili gasagebi iyo, patroni iqneboda. mainc ver gaverkvie, ise moridebiT vuyurebdi da gulSi vfiqrobdi-netav Sen xar meufe ilarioni?! es azri damTavrebuli ar iyo gonebaSi, rom im wverebianma kacma Tavi   mkveTrad damiqnia Tanxmobis niSnad.   Cem sixaruls sazRvari ar hqonda, me msmenoda, rom meufe didi wmidania... isic idevneboda-sagiJeTi, glaxakoba da Zalian didi xniT mdumareba da kidev bevri ram masze, es yvelaferi msmenoda...
mivuaxlovdi, Semomegeba, Zalian Tbili mzeriT, jvari gamomsaxa, xeliT maniSna, raSia saqmeo. me vuTxari, meufev, merideba, Zalian mixaria Tqveni gacnoba-meTqi. xeli momkida da meore xeliT dolze mimiTiTa. es adamianma marTla Tu ar ganicada, monayoliT amis aRqma Znelia... maniSna, wamodio. im dolTan Camovjeqi. is ar laparakobda. amoiRo rveuli da saweri da damiwera _ gawuxebs rameo? me raRac-raRaceebi movuyevi. masTan albaT ase 30-35 wuTi visaubre. nanaxma molodins gadaaWarba. meufes, rogorc mama giorgis, Cemi warsuli, azrebi da problemebi hqonda gaxsnili. Zalian didi madli modioda misgan. is dRe dauviwyaria CemTvis. eseTi dReebi namdvilad cota mqonia sicocxleSi. sixaruliT ar veteodi. meufem ramodenime adamianis saxe miiRo. maT Soris mamaCemis da mama nikolozisac. sixaruli meufesac etyoboda saxeze. wamosvlis win xeliT wyali masxura da maniSna, yvelaferi kargad iqnebao. mere damloca da wamovedi. arada, wamosvla namdvilad ar mindoda. namdvilad ar megona, me codvils, Tu eseTi wmidani iyo meufe ilarioni. Segvewios misi locvis madli. saswaulebi mama giorgisagan aRar mikvirs, magram yoveli axali faqti sixaruliT mavsebs da mamtkicebs rwmenaSi. 19 agvistos mixsena wiTeli doli da 31 agvistos vnaxe meufe ilarionis doli...
samTavrodan fexiT wamovedi, radgan ar mindoda, mcxeTa ase Cqara dametovebina. fexiT isev sveticxovelTan movedi. azri momivida, mama nikolozTan (maqaraSvili)   Sevsuliyavi. Zalian menatreboda, magram momerida. misi naqiravebi saxlis CasaxvevTan 10 wuTi videqi. Soridan azriT movikiTxe da dalocva vTxove. is-is iyo wamosvla davapire, rom iakobi, beJani da lela amovidnen Sukidan. mama nikolozTan yofilan da saocrad gaxarebulebi modiodnen. gza fexiT ganvagrZeT da daviwyeT STabeWdilebebis gacvla-gamocvla. am dros kaci - nayinis gamyidveli wamogvewia da xmamaRla daiZaxa: `maroJni, maroJni~. Zalian cxeloda. Cven sixaruliT aRsavseni movdiodiT da iakobma Tqva - modi, es kacic gavaxaroTo, da or-ori nayini viyideT. aq visTan iyaviTo - gvkiTxa am kacma (mas cali Tvali gafuWebuli hqonda). aq mamaosTan viyaviT, -vupasuxeT Cven. kaci dagvakvirda da mere gviTxra: mamao is aris, Tqven rom icodeT, mowameTaSi rom msaxurobso da gaiRima... TiTqos icoda, Cven oTxiveni, mama giorgisTan rom davdivarT. gaognebulebma vkiTxeT, -Sen saidan icnob mama giorgis? - me samxedro viyavi, is fexiT dadioda. sul me vCuqnidi axal Ceqmebs. vin icis, ramdeni wyvili eqneba gacveTili - gviTxra xumrobiT.
Cven vuTxariT: - xval mowameTaSi mivdivarT da ra gadavceT mama giorgis, vina vnaxeTo? man gvipasuxa: icis, icis, Tu ginda uTxariT, iliko brucianma   mokiTxva SemogiTvalao. am kacTan Sexvedram Cvens sixaruls axali muxti Semata da yvelani vgrZnobdiT, rom es Sexvedra nayinis gamyidvelTan SemTxveviT ar momxdara. dagvcilda Tu ara, isev maRal xmaze ganagrZo `maroJni, maroJni~...
gaxarebuli Camovedi quTaisSi. erTi suli mqonda mamaosTvis momeyola es yvelaferi. meore dRes mivedi mamaosTan.   ...aa, aniCka Camoxvedi, -Tbilad miTxra mama giorgim. guSin Camovedi, mamao, - vupasuxe da gavagrZele _ mamao, wiTeli doli vnaxe-meTqi. _ rava, koncertze iyavi?! _miTxra mkacrad. moyolis Jini gaminelda, magram Tavs davaZale da vuTxari: mamao, meufe ilarioni vnaxe - meTqi samTavroSi, daayovna da isev mkacrad miTxra: vinaa meufe ilarioni, me   vicnob?!..   meti xma ver amoviRe. 2-3 wuTi videqi mis win. mere miTxra: -saqme gaqvs CemTan? ara, mamao, - vupasuxe. maSin axla wasasvleli var da manqanas velodebi. kategoriuli toniT miTxra. me davemSvidobe da wamovedi.
madloba RmerTs yvelafrisTvis da aseve madloba misive madliT gabrwyinebul wmidanebsac.
suraTebi: m. giorgis
          m. nikolozis   sanapiros 7
          m. ilarionis. glaxakis tansacmliT



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is, rom mama giorgisTvis ar arsebobs manZili da dro, da isic, rom mamao monastris gareT - qalaqSi an kidev sxvagan, gvxedavs da gvakontrolebs, TiToeulma CvenTaganma Tavis Tavze gamoscada, amis mravali faqti arsebobs. gavixseneb ramdenime aseT SemTxvevas: _ erTxel, daaxloebiT 12 saaTisTvis mowameTaSi davapire wasvla. 14 nomer `marSutkas~ gavyevi Cveulebriv. marSutka teleanZamde midis, magram im dRes mZRolma sawvaviT manqanis gamarTva moindoma da gza gaagrZela. benzogasamarTi sadguri daaxloebiT 60 metriT aris dacilebuli monastrisken mimavali gzis gadasaxvevs. vifiqre, gamimarTla, rom anZidan fexiT ar momiwia misvla gadasaxvevamde-meTqi. benzogasamarTs gavcildi da ganvagrZe gza gadasaxvevadme. mosaxvevTan idga TeTri niva. mZRoli ZravaSi raRacas saqmianobda. es manqana da miT umetes misi mflobeli CemTvis srulebiT ucxo iyo. irgvliv aravin iyo. manqana gzis marjvena napirze idga, rogorc ki manqanas Cavuare, mZRoli iqneboda ase 60 wlis WaRara kaci, gaimarTa, Semomxeda da Cemda gasakvirad, marjvena saCvenebeli TiTi pirTan miido da ase gayinuli miyurebda ramdenime wami. me SiSma da gaurkvevlobama Semipyro. ucxo mamakacis es ucnauri Jesti da yuradReba CemTvis miuRebeli iyo. SevCerdi, Semovbrundi da mkacrad vuTxari: `ra gnebavT, Tqven?~ kaci, cota ar iyos, daabnia Cemma kiTxvam. TiTqos gamoeRviZao. ar icoda, ra eTqva. momibodiSa: `SemeSaleTo~. misi es pasuxi gamosavlis povnas ufro gavda. me gza ganvagrZe. es TiTi pirTan, TiTqos _ xmas nu amoiReb, an kidev wynarad iyavio _ Zalian maSfoTebda. iq, manqanasTan iseTi situacia ar iyo, rom mis mflobels Segnebulad moeTxova gaCumeba, arc aravin iyo da arc me vxedavdi rames. Tan, kacs etyoboda, rom es moqmedeba misi ar iyo, radgan TiTqos `gamoeRviZao~. mokled, mivyvebodi gzas da axsnas ver vpoulobdi. mama giorgisTan rom midixar, ucnaurobebi bevri xdeba, magram es Zalian gansxvavebuli ram iyo. amekviata fiqri, TiTqos es gafrTxilebaa, raRacisgan, rom sadRac xma ar unda amomeRo. am azrebiT mivedi mowameTaSi. mamao stumrebs esaubreboda oTaxSi. me samreklos gverdiT Camovjeqi. iqve WasTan CemTvis ucnobi adamianebi Sekrebiliyvnen, raRacas masxrobdnen da icinodnen. saubarSi mama giorgi axsenes. uneblied yuri mivugde, erTi qali ise upativcemulod da damcinavad axsenebda mama giorgis, rom saxe erTianad amewva brazisagan. mere kacebic moyvnen qiliks.   davapire maTTvis sakadrisi pasuxi gameca... isini ar cxrebodnen, agrZelebdnen dacinvas da xmamaRla mamaos gamasxaravebas. ra meqna, ar vicodi. Tan is qali yvela sityvis Semdeg ise iqednurad Semomxedavda, TiTqos icoda, rom me mama giorgis axlobeli viyavi, arada pirvelad vxedavdi. vifiqre, `mamao Cvenos~ viloceb-meTqi. am xmaurSi ver viloce, isini sul ufro niSnis mogebiT makvirdebodnen, yovel SemTxvevaSi, im momentSi   ase meCveneboda. Tanac bevrni iyvnen. me qali viyavi da merideboda eklesiis ezoSi xmis amoReba, magram imis mosmenac ar SemeZlo, rasac isini mamaoze hyvebodnen. maSin vTxove gulSi mama giorgis: `Sen xom ici, mamao, amis mosmena ar minda, momeci Zala, pasuxi gavce-meTqi~. rogorc ki es vifiqre, azri momeca, gamaxsenda nivis patronis Jesti, romelic maSin ise aRviqvi, rogorc _ `xma ar amoiRoo~ _ gulze momeSva. avdeqi da monastris ezodan gavedi saerTod. daaxloebiT 40 wuTSi isev Semovbrundi. mamao ukve ezoSi idga da am qalbatons elaparakeboda. isic Zalian `mosiyvaruled~ da `axlobeliviT~ esaubreboda. saxeze daZabuloba metyoboda. axlos miviwie. mamaom Tvali Camikra da zustad ise miido marjvena saCvenebeli TiTi pirTan, rogorc nivis patronma. qali da misi axloblebi wavidnen. rogorc mere gavarkvie, es qalbatoni, ramdenadac ar unda gagikvirdeT, mRvdlis meuRle aRmoCnda. mamaom samreklosTan damsva da miTxra:  
_ ar SeiZleboda!.. maT Tqveni provocireba undaT... CemTan momsvlelebis... mwyobridan gamogiyvanden da wonasworobadakarguli, vin icis, ras moimoqmedebdi... mageni xom ostatebi arian adamianis `wamogdebis~. is erTi `.Ceka~_ iyo aniCka. xom gagafrTxile mosaxvevSi.
saocrad gamexarda, vuTxari:
_ mamao, imas vnanob, rom ver dagicavi _ meTqi.
_ Sen unda damicva me?!.. _ gaecina _ moeSvi magaT, babua, es me ganaxe Sen, Tu rogor meqceodnen aq!.. mara giorgis waqceva ar surs RmerTs.   hoda, var ager. ise, momewona usamarTlobaze xmis amoReba rom gindoda, magram jer TviTon unda moRonierde. simarTle ise unda daicva, rom siZulvili ar gadmoanTxio. mrisxaneba xdeba, aba, roboti xom ara xar. me ar migiSvi, babua, radgan ar vargoda Seni nerviuloba. ai, ase avrcelebdnen Cemze Worebs. erTma redaqtorma Cemze gamoqveynebul usindiso statiebze `iswavla~ wera. miTxra: _ mavalebeno. bevrjer amomigzavnes `damrtymeli~ biWebi, umizezod rom unda eCxubaT, magram ver mcemes. adre xom giTxari _ magra vurtyamdi-meTqi _ gaicina _ erTxel Cems naTesavTan misulan, axalgazrda Zlieri biWi iyo da uTqvamT _ mRvdelma ase da ase dagviSava, unda gagvalaxioo.. fuli SeuTavazebiaT, radgan TviTon ver momereodnen. naTesavi movida CemTan da miTxra: _ mgoni ar ician, rom me Seni biZaSvili varo... gvian RamiT mTvralebi modiodnen. taZris gaReba hqondaT sababad. me ra mRvdeli viqnebodi, Tu mTvralebs taZris Seuracxofis uflebas mivcemdi.... sruliad marto viyavi, unda damecva Tavi, babua!...

 axla minda meore faqti moviyvano. mamaosTan oTxni viyaviT. saubari Zalian gagrZelda. or CvenTagans uTxra:
  _ Zlivs mogiyvaneT Cems saxeze, ras dadixarT mag xalxTan, ver xedavT, rom borotebiT gavsebeno?!... es erTgvari miniSneba iyo imisa, rom Cveni sulis gasworeba _ gasufTavebisTvis Sroma da dro sWirdeboda. dagvloca da wamovediT. fuli mxolod 40 TeTriRa gvqonda. fexiT siaruls ki saaTi da ormoci wuTi movundebodiT. bneloda, wvimac iwyeboda. trasamde gamovediT da gavcildiT restoran `mowameTas~, rom taqsi gaCerda: _ modixarTo? gvkiTxa. vuTxari, rom fuli ar gvqonda. maSin mRZolma Cveulebrivze maRali xmiT mogvmarTa: `- wamodiT adamiano, ar SeiZleba rom dagpatiJoT?!~ mamaos Cveuli mimarTva _ `adamiano~ _ gvecno Zalian, Tan mZRoli ar Canda. xma ki saocrad ugavda mama giorgis. mariamma Tqva:
_ ai, Tqven wuwunebdiT da xedavT, ager Sin mSvidobiT misasvlelad mama giorgim taqsi gamogviwera...

 naTesavma samsaxuris Taobaze damireka. modi, naxe da ufross daelaparakeo. es samsaxuri ar momwonda, magram asarCevad sad iyo! mama giorgi im dReebSi ar myavda nanaxi. rom mekiTxa. gadavwyvite mivsuliyavi samsaxurSi. fexiT mivdiodi. baRi gadavWeri. gzajvaredins rom mivuaxlovdi, moxucma qalma Camiara da Cailaparaka _ `tyvila midixaro~. me mivixed-movixede. Cems garda axlo-maxlo aravin iyo, visTvis unda eTqva an vin iyo is qali. sulierad avadmyofs ar hgavda. ofisSi misuls ufrosi damxvda da miTxra: adgili ukve Seivso! da momagonda im qalis sityvebi _ tyuilad midixaro!

 soflidan naTesavma SemomiTvala, mobiluris damteni miyide da avtobusis mZRols gamoataneo. telefonis marka daviwere, rom ar damviwyeboda, radgan didad ver verkvevi maTSi. bazrobaze rom mivedi, verafriT CanTaSi es furceli ver vipove. Zalian vinerviule. gamyidvelma yvela firma CamomiTvala, arafriT goneba ar gamexsna. Ggamovedi gaCerebamde, wasvlac ki mindoda. Mmagram ratomRac   gonebaSi vTxove mama giorgis _ mamao, gamaxsene, romeli iyo, nu Semarcxven naTesavTan-meTqi. oriode wuTSi ori axalgazrda biWi Cems axlos SeCerda. isini TavisTvis laparakobdnen, Tan sareklamo bilbords uyurebdnen. erTma ucnaurad wamoiZaxa `filipsi magaria~ _ marTali giTxraT, me mamaos ki vTxove daxmareba, magram didad ar mjeroda am mdgomareobidan gamosvlisa, radgan Sexeba telefonebTan ar mqonia, magram am wamoZaxilma ise imoqmeda, mivedi da daufiqreblad viyide `filipsis~ damteni da iqve avtobusis mRZols Cavabare. saRamos naTesavma binaSi damireka da miTxra. miviRe, didi madlobao. dideba RmerTs da madloba mama giorgis.

 TbilisSi rusTavelze patara biWi mama gabrielis suraTiT kalendars hyidida. CemTan movida da meubneba _ gexvewebi deida, iyideT, ra.   sul larnaxevari mqonda, magram bolos gadavwyvite bavSvisTvis lariani mimeca. man mama gabrielis kalendari momawoda da iseTi gaxarebuli wavida, rom misi sixaruli mec gadmomedo, arada Zalian daRonebuli viyavi uamravi problemis gamo. quTaisSi wasvlas vapirebdi, magram finansebi mabrkolebda. saRamos naTesavebTan misuls Zmam damireka, kaxam miTxra-xval diliT as dolars mogcemo da Semxvdio, zeg zemo afxazeTSi mivdivaro. samxedroa da iq morigeoba uwevT... rogorc ki fuli gadmomca, imav dRes Camovedi quTaisSi. mowameTaSi mivedi. mama giorgim miTxra _ xom naxe, gabrielma ra mogiwyo. mSier bavSvs lariani mieci, man ki 100 dolariani mogca Zmis xeliTo.


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mama giorgi Zalian bevr adamians uyvars, afaseben da pativs scemen mas. masze keTili sityvis Tqma ar moswyindebaT, magram arian iseTebic, romlebTac sul sxva Sexeduleba gaaCniaT mamaoze. me Segnebulad momyavs erTi ganawyenebuli qalbatonis naambobma mamaoze. iqneb mas dRes ukve Secvlili aqvs Tavisi azri, iqneb   arc ki,… da am wignis wakiTxvis Semdeg iqneb aRmoaCinos man mama giorgi.
es qalbatoni SemTxveviT axloblis ojaSi naTlobis sufraze gavicani. me iq mama giorgi oriode sityviT vaxsene. qalbatoni imdenad nawyeni iyo mamaoze, rom agresia arc Cemze daiSura. mokled gadmovcem misi saubris Sinaarss. imedia qalbaton,   n. l-s ar ewyineba is, rom mis daukiTxavad vwer amas, radgan vwer simarTles da imas, rac mas uTqvams: `bevrs laparakoben mRvdel - b a s i l a Z e z e. mec viyavi masTan misuli, magram sawinaaRmdego suraTi damxvda. is Zalian uxeSi momeCvena, aranairi Tavazianoba, Tavmdabloba me masSi ver aRmovaCine. is Zalze Tavdajerebuli, Tavneba da jiuti pirovnebaa. zevidan miyurebda, TiTqos yvelaze codvili vyofiliyavi. saubarSi etyoboda, rom dabali ganaTlebisa da inteleqtis unda iyos, erTi sofleli mRvdelia. marTalia, me ara var eklesiuri da ar vici bevri ram,   verc wesebsa da ritualebSi verkvevi, magram amgvari mopyrobis Rirsi namdvilad ar viyavi. CemTvis zedac ar Semouxedavs, esaubreboda mxolod Cems Tanmxleblebs. rodesac saubarSi CarTva vcade, uxeSi toniT gamaCuma. asakiTac ara var patara, maqvs damsaxurebac da amgvar mopyrobasac ara var Cveuli. bunebrivia Sinagani brazi momeca. Tavi uxerxulad vigrZeni da guliT vinane, rom masTan misvliT dro davkarge. vusmendi mRvdlis dabali donis saubars. misi sityvebi gaurkveveli iyo. didi nawili verc gavige, Tan Zalian damaxinjebiT yveboda yvelasTvis cnobil faqtebs; roca vcade Semesworebina, isev uxeSad SemaCera da jiutad amtkicebda mis mier mcdarad warmoCenil istoriul faqts, TariRebsa da movlenebs. brazi maxrCobda, rom eseTi elementaruli codna aRar gaaCnda da Tan iseTi damajereblobiT amtkicebda yovelives. Zalian daviZabe, isev davapire SeniSvna. nuras ukacravad, is isev Tavisas amtkicebda, mere ki SeveSvi da Tavi imiT vinugeSe, rom gaunaTlebel adamianTan uazroba iyo kamaTi. me ar vici, es pirovneba ras xedavda CemSi, rom aseTi mopyrobis Rirsad CamTvala, magram me im momentSi da arc axla aranairi simpatia da pativiscemis grZnoba namdvilad ar gamaCnia mis mimarT!.. gulwrfelad vambob, rom am mRvdelSi veranairi sulieri sidide me ver aRmovaCine, piriqiT!.. mTeli misi saubridan mxolod isRa gavige, rom Tqva:_ RmerTi yvelaze mkacrad mohkiTxavs maswavlebels, eqimsa da mosamarTleso. rasac me aranairad ar veTanxmebi! da kidev Tqva: ar arsebobs sagani skolaSi, romelSic gonier maswavlebels ar SeeZlos RmerTis aRmoCenao da unda aRmoaCinos, igive unda daanaxos moswavleebsaco. Torem gamravlebis tabulas TviTon iswavliano. es iyo da es, mTeli misi religiuri sibrZne. aranairi survili ara maqvs misi xelmeored naxvisa da mikvirs Tqveni, rom ase dabnelebulxarT da primitiul saubrebs raRac sulis sibrZned rom aRiqvamTo!...~
qalbatonma kidev kargad xans axara Tavisi nawyeni Wia. Wkua-goneba mec damariga, rCevebic ar damaklo uxeSi da Seuracxmyofeli kiloTi. me pasuxi ar gamicia, magram iqac ar gavCerebulvar.
qalbatoni `raRacnairad~ momarTuls hgavda, masSi civi da avadmetyveli suli Canda. misma saubarma Zala gamomacala, SfoTi da areuloba momgvara. misgan rwmenis Semaryeveli muxti modioda. ori dRe mZimed viyavi da mesame dRes movaxerxe mama giorgisTan asvla. ra Tqma unda, am SemTxvevis Taobaze mamasTan saubars ar vapirebdi. mxolod mindoda, moexsna CemTvis sulieri simZime, waeSala sulSi mowinaaRmdege sulis zemoqmedebis nakvalevi. mamaos mivesalme, kurTxevac vTxove. mamaom gamiRima da miTxra:
- rai ars mizezi Seni `daRrejilobisa~ ?
araferi mipasuxnia.
- uqeifod xar xom, aniCqa!
me Tavi ver Sevikave, gamecina.
- ara uSavs.. is mxolod Cemze rom iyos nawyeni, ara uWirs. amxanagi pedagogi nawyenia qveyanazec, rom ver daufasa Sroma... nawyenia axloblebzec, rom sakadris pativs ver miageben, bevr ramezea saerTod nawyeni... nawyenia, buSze –erays rom daartya (icinis). nawyenia, rom daiSala sabWoeTi, nawyenia erekle mefezec, dRevandel mTavrobazec da mgonia dinozavrebzec _ quTaisSi rom CauvliaT (isev icinis), ras izam!..   cudi gulis adamiani ar aris, babua, mara,   u R m e r T o b a m   icis aseTi ganawyeneba!.. gana miWirda, misTvis `qalbatonoTi~ mimemarTa da
momesmina gindac ori saaTi da gamecilebina Tavazianad rkinis karebamdec?.. mara, is aq RmerTis saxlSi amovida da RmerTma, rogorc mibrZana, ise moviqeci! is Taoba Zalian Znelad Tu moixreba RmerTis winaSe, maT sakuTari Tavis rwmena hqondaT da uRmerTo mTavrobis, da swamdaT `diadi~ ideebis gamarjvebisa, isini suliT Zlieri Taoba iyvnen, amitom dameWida is me suliT da gaRizianda imiT, rom Zala mRvdelSi meti igrZno, is Seawuxa RmrTis Zalam, romelic mas ar swamda. RmerTma Tavi Seaxsena Zalis uSualo SexebiT, aman aRaSfoTa – mere ki imiT damSvidda _ gaunaTlebeli sofleli rom aRmomaCina. xom gagigonia `nu dasji ormagi sasjeliTo!~ RmerTTan omi vis mougia, babua!
mamao cota xans Cafiqrda da mere isev Tqva:
- miva is eklesiaSi, miva... ise, adamianurad mec ganvicade, nawyeni rom wavida, Tumca piradad rame Seuracyofa ar mimiyenebia - icis RmerTma. orjer mkvaxed sityva gavawyvetine da ar miveci salaparako, es iyo da es. is pativmoyvareobam Seawuxa, Tan mRvdelSi Sinagan Zalas ar eloda da swored im Zalam Seawuxa. mas iseTi mopyroba sWirdeboda, magram me mainc mewyina da metkina kidevac, babua, adamianis wyena, me imas ki ar vuyureb, rogoria is dRes, aramed rogori daibada da rogorc unda gaxdes, dedaCemi dedamisze ukeTesi araa da arc dedamisia dedaCemze ukeTesi. adamiania isic da adamiani var mec, qarTveli var mec da qarTvelia isic. aucilebeli iyo misTvis tkivilis miyeneba, magram mec rom mtkiva?! tkivili RmerTma dauSva masze, magram mec unda metkinos, radgan Cemgan etkina mas... aseTia wesi! isic RmerTis gaCenilia, atkina RmerTma imitom, rom uyvars da rom gons moegos da icnos RmerTi. magram gatkens Senc, radgan Sengan atkina RmerTma   mas. aseTia wesi!... siyvarulia mTavari... isic mixvdeba.
nu ijavreb Sen imaze, rasac Cemze ityvian. maseTi laparaki arafers miSavebs me, piriqiT, win meqaCeba, mamsubuqebs, adamiani ki araa aniCqa Cveni mteri, aramed boroti. adamianebma, rac unda mebrZolon da mlanZRon, me maTze guli ar ganmirisxdeba, amas me ukve didi xania rac mivaRwie, borotze ki Cemi guli sul mzadaa saomrad da Suris saZieblad! me dideba rom mdomeboda Tanamdebobis gziT wavidodi, mara am gziT wavedi. es gza ki daTmenis da siyvarulis gzaa. ase, rom nu javrob, yvelaferi kargad iqneba!... damloca da sixaruliTa da SvebiT aRsavse gamomiSva.

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rodesac mamaoze wignis - `fexiTmosiarule~-s gamocemisTvis masalebs vagrovebdiT, elene mivida erT moZRvarTan TbilisSi, romelsac mama giorgisTan karga xnis nacnoboba akavSirebs. roca moZRvarma moismina Cveni ganzraxva wignis Sesaxeb, Cvenda gasakvirad saocari brazi da winaaRmdegoba gamoexata:
_ giorgis me didi xania vicnob!.. erTi Cveulebrivi mRvdelia da Tu loculobs, es misi movaleobaa! es aris da es!.. giorgis ra hqonda gansakuTrebuli! taZari rom aRadgina, raa, madloba unda vuTxraT? esec misi movaleoba iyo. marTals viZaxio, rom ambobs_ adre sad iyo?! imas ratom ar xedavs gelaTSi daviT mefis saflavze saqoneli rom daabijebs?! Tqven vina xarT saerTod. ra wignze meubnebiT. Tu wigniT fulis keTeba gindaT, moTxrobebi wereTo!..
moZRvarma am sityvebs kidev raRac-raRaceebi daumata-Turme. elene ise dautuqsavs, rbilad rom vTqvaT,   gaognebuli movida CvenTan. moZRvris aseTi sityvebi namdvilad guldasawyveti da sawyeni iyo TiToeuli CvenTaganisTvis. Zalis iseTi zemoqmedeba etyoboda elenes, iseTi muxti gadmosvloda moZRvrisagan, rom raRac momentSi wignis gamocemis survili TiTqos CaaxSo CvenSi. imedia, sworad gagvigebT... is moZRvari Tu rogor icnobs da ras xedavs mama giorgiSi, misi piradi saqmea, magram mama giorgis gelaTis monastris uyuradRebobaSi rom adanaSaulebda, yovlad gaugebaria CvenTvis, radgan mama giorgi mowameTaSi msaxurobs da ara gelaTSi. da kidev, ramdenadac viciT, taZari WognarSi mama giorgim sakuTari saxsrebiT, nasesxebi fuliT da mciredi SemowirulobiT aRadgina da ara saxelmwifos dafinansebiTa da biznesmenebis qvelmoqmedebiT da is vali axlac gaustumrebeli aqvs. magram mas arc madloba mouTxovia vinmesagan da arc pretenzia gamouTqvams vinmes mimarT...
im moZRvarma ara marto xazi gausva mama giorgis Cveulebriobas, aramed `gamafrTxilebeli~ miniSnebac mogvca, Tavs Zalian nu wamoyofT, Torem giorgis `Zvel rameebsac~ gavaxsenebTo. razec Semdeg mama giorgis gaecina da Tqva:
  _ sainteresoa, ras `gamaxseneben~ kide... hitlerTan mokavSireobas xom ara viTom?!.. me maTi `dosies~ ar meSinia, radgan RmerTma icis Cemi saqmeebi!!!   34 welia Cemze `saqmes keraven~ da rame rom hqonodaT cimbirs ukan damatovebinebdnen.... moeSviT Tqven magas, nu javrobT... ar aris is cudi kaci. iqneba Tqven gamogcadaT!...
dideba RmerTs, amas arc kadnierebiT, arc gankiTxviT da arc dabezRebiT vambob. magram am moZRvridan, raRac boRma gadmodioda mamaos mimarT da Tan iseTi ZaliT, rom Cvenc gviryevda mamaos   rwmenas.
Zvirfaso mkiTxvelo, TqvenTvis mogvindvia Sefaseba, Tu ra surviliTa da zraxviT SevecadeT   wignis gamocemas! Tu ra suliT aris   yvelaferi dawerili _ angarebisa da gamorCenis moSurne suliT, Tu gulwrfeli surviliT, imisa saqarTvelos gaego mama giorgis Sesaxeb, misi madlmosilebis Sesaxeb da kidev imis Sesaxebac, rom am mZime Jams martoni ara varT, aramed qriste RmerTma misi erTguli da samSoblos moyvaruli mamebi gamogviCina.

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...mamao rusulad ar saubrobs. mxolod ramdenime sityva mogvismenia, aqcentic SesamCnevad etyoboda, amitom iseTi STabeWdileba dagvrCa, rom   rusuli kargad ar icoda.
2007 wlis seqtembris Tve idga. mowameTaSi rusebi iyvnen amosuli. Tan qarTveli maspinZelic axldaT. mamaom hkiTxa:
- saidan arian?
- moskovidan arian da ukrainidan modiano.
- hkiTxe erTi, ra undaT rusebs qarTvelebTan, ras gverCian?!..
Tarjimani SeiSmuSna:
- eseni, mamao, Cveulebrivi moqalaqeebi arian. politikasTan aranairi urTierToba ara aqvT da egeTi SekiTxva uadgilo mgonia.
erTi SexedviT is marTali sCanda, Tavisi logikiT. rom ara mamaos sulieri xedvis unari, romelsac adamianTa Sinagani da warsuli ar gamoepareba...
mamaom maspinZels kategoriulad mosTxova:
- me rusuli ar vici da es SekiTxva uTargmneo.
    man Selamazebulad gadaTargmna, ise, ki principSi SekiTxva dasva. imaT mxrebi aiCeCes... mere Tqves, rom saqarTvelo lamazi qveyanaa, Tbili da keTili xalxi cxovrobs, rom Cven erTmorwmuneebi varT, rom Tqven stumarTmoyvareebi xarT da rom rusebic sul gvexmarebodnen Cven!..
- es rac axla TqviT, yvelaferi Tqvenze ukeT vici. me is mipasuxeT, ras gvemarTlebiT rusebi?! _Caajinda mamao.
- mamao, es xalxi Cemi stumrebi arian - gacxarda maspinZeli - mtrebic rom iyvnen Cveni adaTiTa da wesiT, stumrad xom unda miviRoT.
- adaTs moeSvi Sen, biZia!.. oci welia, arc adaTi gaxsovs, da arc qarTveloba. is miTargmne rasac gekiTxebi _ mkacrad uTxra mamaom.
  maspinZels amis gakeTeba namdvilad ar undoda, magram Zalis zemoqmedeba igrZno. rusebic SeSfoTebulebi iyurebodnen, xedavdnen-ra mamaos saxis gamometyvelebas. halstuxianma mamaos upasuxa:
- Cven arafers giSavebT, magram Tu afxazeTi gaqvT mxedvelobaSi, afxazeTi saqarTvelo araa da imaTac iseve undaT Tavisufleba, rogorc Tqven. eg ra Cveni bralia?
    mamaom Sexeda maspinZels, im dros, roca is `Tavisi WkuiT~ Targmnas iwyebda.
_ geyureba Sen, `adaTo~_ vin gyavs stumrebi?! xedav xom, es `Cveulebrivi~ rusebi ra Wkuazec arian.?!
  mamaos saxe gaumZafrda, Tvalebi mrisxanebiT aenTo. gegoneboda, cecxls gamoyriso. Sexeda maT da yvelasagan moulodnelad absoluturad gamarTuli da uaqcento rusuliT uTxra:
- `znaCit, po tvoemu, abxazia, eto ne gruzia, da?!...~ ese igi ruseTi arafer SuaSia da yvelaferi afxazebisP Tavisuflebisadmi siyvarulis bralia, xom?!   ager geubnebiT da daimaxsovreT, qarTveli wmidanebi rusebs   meti aRar gagqaCaveno!...
    maSin rusma mkvaxed miugo:
- u   nas   i   svaix xvataet!.. (Cvenebic gveyofao)
- rogoradac geyofaT, magas sul male naxavT! RvTismSobels ebralebiT da imitom sulierad `mogviba~ ruseTi saqarTvelos. Tqven ki ggoniaT, Cven gvicavdiT da pursac Tqven gvaWmevdiT!
- sammilionnaxevari qarTveli, kidev ocdaaTi weli ufasod rom SeinaxoT rusebma, mainc ver gadaixdiT imas, rac mxolod stalinma gagikeTaT Tqven, rom araferi vTqvaT qarTvel wmidanebze, meomrebsa da mecnierebze!..
- omi stalins ar mougia, omi rusma erma moigo. – uTxra saxeSewiTlebulma rusma.
- stalinma is gagikeTaT, rom kavis qveyana _ daSili, damarcxebuli, sulieri monobisTvis ganwiruli, atomur zesaxelmwifod giqciaT. eklesiebi stalinma aRgidginaT,   d a m w e r l o b a c   stalinma SeginaxaT, rac Tqven arc iciT. uria-masonebis xaxidan oTxmoci weli mainc gixsnaT. ise, isic icode, radgan aq eklesiaSi dgexarT, anton peCorski berZnebma ki ar gagizardes, aramed qarTvelma aTonelma berebma. Tqven, rusebs ori seni gWirT: sijiute da umaduroba. orive didi codvaa RmerTis TvalSi. isic icode, qarTvel wmidanebTan veravin mova msoflioSi. me amas geubnebi, ara mxolod rogorc qarTveli. aramed rogorc sasuliero piri! daixsomeT! qarTvelebi male dagWirdebaT _ mZime Jams!...   ise Sen samxedro kaci xar da gvebrZodi afxazeTSi. me es RmerTma sul axla gamixsna...   qarTvelebis sisxls sastikad mokiTxavs RmerTi yvelas!
qali, romelic gaSeSebuli usmenda mamaos, muxlebze daeca mis win da uTxra:
- prastite nas, sviatoi otec, vi Celovek boJii! prastite, radi xrista!
mamaom fexze wamoayena da uTxra:
- gana me russ xalxs pativs ar vcem?!.. an russ wmidanebs?! magram saqarTvelos Cagvras RmerTi ar SearCens arc ruseTs da arc aravis!  
mamaom xati gamoitana da qals aCuqa. qali tiroda, iqve mdgari meore kacic miuaxlovda mamaos da kurTxeva iTxova. xolo is mokamaTe ganze idga keTrovaniviT da ibRvireboda. maSin mamaom erTi ise gaxeda, rom Tavi Zirs daaxrevina.
- waiyvane, biZia, eg Seni stumrebi da magaT Wkuaze nu gaivli ori kapikis gulisTvis... da kidev, Seni Tarjimanoba, rom damWirdeba maSin taZarSi aRar vimsaxureb!...
isini wavidnen, mamaos brazi kidev etyoboda.
- aba Cveulebrivi rusebi!... Cveulebrivi ki ara polkovniki iyo da ra sindisiT idga aq Cems win, marTali kaciviT. gvebrZoda afxazeTSi!... rogor `lamazad~ amixsna – `afxazeTi saqarTvelo araao!~.. mindoda, mexeTqa saxeSi!... dazverva iyo magi!.. mara RmerTma anaxa, rom iqeT amovicani. karga xans ver Semova saqarTveloSi. iq ki, Rame, saxlSi mimavals, banditebi gauxvreten Subls. didia RmerTi da SurismaZiebeli!..

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erTi Cveni axlobeli Tbilisidan Camovida mamaosTan. mama giorgi gvesaubreboda. dro da dro Tavis iumorsac gamourevda, magram es Cveni axlobeli Tornike Zalian daRonebuli idga, Tan raRac mousvenroba etyoboda. mamaom es SeamCnia da   mimarTa:
      _ raRac gawuxebs?!
      _ diaR, mamao, – upasuxa Tornikem.
      _ Tu gawuxebs, Tqvi, mere!
Tornike   dumda.
      _ Tqvi adamiano, Tu ambob, Tu ara Seinaxe da TbilisSi rom Caxval, mokiTxva gadaeci im mRvdels Cemgan, _ uTxra mamaom.
    mamaos sityvebs, ra Tqma unda, Cven ver mivxvdiT, magram samagierod gaamxneva da sasaubrod ganawyo Tornike. Tavidan raRacnairad orWofobda,   TiTqos, ar icoda rogor daewyo. didis wvalebiT moaxerxa Tqma:
  _ mama giorgi, TbilisSi erTma moZRvarma Tqvenze miTxra `xiblSi ariso, nametans iRebs Tavis Tavze da nu Caxval masTano~.
  Tornike am sityvebis damTavrebisas erTianad gawiTlda da kidev daumata:
  _ ar getyodiT, mamao, magram im moZRvris sityvebma Tqvens mimarT damabrkola.
    mama giorgis gaecina da hkiTxa:
      _ egaa biWo, sul?! me ki megona, samamulo omis dawyeba unda geuwyebia CemTvis. im dalocvils Seni piriT rom ar SemoeTvala, piradad eTqva CemTvis!.. eg xom marto me ar mexeba, aramed im xalxsac exeba, vinc CemTan   daiareba. Tu xedavs, rom xalxs vRupav, rava, araa misi saqme? Tu es xalxi araa misi xalxi?! xibli, xom!.. _ Tqva mamaom cota daRonebiT, _ gamoCndeba eg saqme, vin, rogor da rafer!... gamoaCens RmerTi yvelafers!... anda, Sen rom giTxra, magiTi gamomiyvans xiblidan?!
rTuli droa dRes, rTuli. areulia qveyana, areulia kacic. bevrs araferi saRmrTo ar ainteresebs. bevrs mxolod gamorCenis suli amoZravebs. bevrma araferi icis, bevrs hgonia, rom yvelaferi icis, bevri melia saqaTmis mwyemsi gamxdara, bevri yorani arwivobas iCemebs da bevri yvavi bulbuls stvenas aswavlis. axali Taoba mecodeba, Torem saerTod ar amoviRebdi xmas. yvela arCevs cudsa da kargs, yvela xedavs Savsa da TeTrs, yvela grZnobs, ras iTxovs misgan RmerTi, magram yvela ise cxovrobs, rogorc unda da moswons da aseT dros ra ginda Sen, rom qna?!..      
dRes yvela `brZenia~, SeniSvnas skolis moswavlec ar Rebulobs, ara Tu ampartavanobaSi gazrdili Taobebi!... me im moZRvris sityva ar mwyenia. aq misi saqcielia sawyeni. mas Tu guli Sestkiva Cemze da im adamianebze, CemTan rom dadian, unda eTqva es, ra Tqma unda... magram jer CemTvis unda eTqva da mere sxvebisTvis. magram aq saqme sxva rameSia!... es ar aris misi piradi mosazreba Cemze, aramed vici me, Tu saidan modis es yovelive!.. xiblSi var me Tu zecaSi, es Cemze ukeTesad aravin icis!... es namdvilebma ician!.. xibli saSiSi ramaa, magram veWvob, misi arsi kargad esmodeT imaT, vinc amas avrcelebs Cemze. es `fandi~ axali rodia CemTvis. vici, saiTac   `urtyamen~ isini... eg araferia im braldebebTan SedarebiT, rasac komunistebis dros mivrcelebdnen xalxSi. axal droebaSi jer-jerobiT xiblze meti danaSauli ver momakeres. didi xania, giorgis dadumeba surT, magram me rom davdumde, sxva giorgi ityvis, Tu isic ar ityvis, vinme eriskaci ityvis, ase rom, RmerTis simarTles veravin SeaCerebs!.. aq saqme xiblSi rodia, `xibli~ ubralod yvelaze xelsayreli iaraRia iseTi adamianis winaaRmdeg, vinc ise ar fiqrobs da ar metyvelebs, rogorc TviTon. es exla ki ar dawyebula, maTgan gansxvavebulebs `CarCoebSi~ rom svamen. me amas SeCveuli var, magram maT `CarCoebSi~ arasodes movqceulvar – aseTi gamaCina RmerTma. myvirala da TevziWamia Toliebis gunds ar moswons, roca vinme ar baZavs maT da ar patioben im Toliebs, romlebic maTsaviT ar Cxavian da mxolod Tevzis Wamaze ar fiqroben!...  
Z n e l i a   s i m a r T l e !..   Z n e l i a   s i c o c x l e c,  
m a g r a m   a u c i l e b e l i !...
dRes adamianebi iseTi   niWierebiTa da mondomebiT ebrZvian marTlis mTqmels, rom, ase usamarTlobas SebrZolebodnen, yvelaferi dawyobili gveqneboda. simarTlis dacva yvelgan Znelia adamianisTvis, magram Seudareblad Znelia is sulier sferoSi. usamarTloba mand rom SeaRwevs, imdenad saxifaTo xdeba, rom SeuZlebelia mtyuan-marTlis dadgena. `cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglis~ namdvili cxvrisgan garCeva. eg Tqven ar iciT,
es   s a S i n e l e b a a!...
samRvdlo anaforas, jvars, rjulis kanons, saxarebas amofarebuli sulieri mtaceblebi _ saSinelebaa! es sulebi saukuneebis manZilze `iRwvian~ taZarSi SesaRwevad da moaxerxes kidevac!..   cotanic ar arian!... eg `CarCoebi~ sul maTi gamogonebaa da yvela valdebulia `Caetios~ masSi. amitom yvela emgvaneba erTimeores. axalic araferi xdeba!.. da Tu ar hgevxar maT, an giJi `gaxdebi~, an xiblSi `gadaiWrebi~, an xe dagecema, an manqana gagitans, an viRac tyvias dagaWedebs SublSi, an kidev daniT `TviTmkvlelobiT~ daasruleb sicocxles!..
Tqven ver warmoidgenT, vin arian es `cxvris tyavSi gaxveuli mglebi~ – rogor umowyalod Rupaven aTasobiT adamianis sulebs, rogor `ostaturad~ iyeneben samRvdelo mdgomareobas, ise iniRbebian keTilmsaxuris niRbiT, rom sawyali, dabrmavebuli da damorCilebuli adamianebi madlierebiTa da `aRmafreniT~ mieqanebian   jojoxeTSi. amaTi mzakvrobis, veragobis, siglaxisa da borotebis Semxedvare, erTi suli gaqvs, taZridan   g a a Z e v o   isini saTiTaod!... icis RmerTma, rom me amas xalxis siyvaruliTa da sibraluliT vambob, Torem piradad me verafers mavneben!.. Cemi zedamxedveli mxolod RmerTia da Cemi sindisi!...
... erTma miTxra: `es ra boRma gqonia Cvenzeo~. es boRma ki ara, tkivilia da gamZafrebuli survili imisa, rom niRabi Camoexsnas yvela im mtacebel suls, romlebic umowyalod sargebloben gulubryvilo adamianebis ndobiT da morCilebiT!
eklesiis WeSmariti Svilebi devnasa da SeuracxyofaSi amyofes. TviTon ki sulier `moRvaweebad~ warmoCindnen. amas me SuriT ar vambob, an ra unda SegSurdes kacs, sulgayiduli adamianebisa!... saqme ise aqvT awyobili, rom fexi maT unda auwyos yvelam. unda mibaZon da daemorCilon. Tu ara da `sxva~ xar, an kidev `eklesiis mteri~. me imdeni vici amaTi siglaxe, mikvirs kidev rogorRa var cocxali!.. vin dagijerebs amas! erTma miTxra _ `ras ambob, giorgi, amis Tqma rogor SeiZleba, es xom eklesias Searyevso, xalxs guls aucruebs taZarzeo~. aseTi mzakvruli Segonebebi ramdenic ginda imdeni aqvT!.... me geubnebiT, Cemi sityvebi eklesias ki ar aryevs, aramed aryevs am sulgayidulebis a d g i l e b s eklesiaSi, sadac isini ar unda iyvnen!.. Cemi sityvebi eklesiaze ki ar ucruebs guls adamianebs, aramed im `vai- msaxurebze~, romlebic uRupaven   maT sulebs!
saSinelebaa sicrue da naxevrsimarTle. naxevrad simarTles sicrue sjobs kidev, radganac sicrues mainc aRmoaCens adamiani, xolo naxevrad simarTles ki mxolod brZeniRa Tu mixvdeba!.. am xalxs RmerTi ar swams, arc eSinia misi da cdiloben, sxvebi damoZRvron da sasufevelSi miyvanas hpirdebian!... miTxres: - Sen reebs iZaxi, giorgi! ginda, dagvRupo? lukmapurs gvikargavo? Sen Sens Tavs mouare, sxvebs ki RmerTi xedavso!
es sityvebi boroti demagogiaa!... am sityvebiT abrueben morwmuneT. `RmerTi xedavso~. RmerTi imasac xedavs _ antiqristes dros, rogor iTareSeben sulgayidulebi taZrebSi!.. RmerTi xedavs da Senc daganaxa da imas moelis Sengan, Tu vis mxareze dadgebi. moelis Sengan, aimaRleb xmas Tu ara usamarTlobaze, RvTis Seuracxyofaze. gaqvs Tu ara saRmrTo moSurneoba, Tu `siraqlemas pozaSi~ arCev darCenas!... taZris siwminde yvela morwmunes exeba da ara mxolod sasuliero pirebs. rogorc TiToeuli morwmunea eklesiis wevri da Svili, ise TiToeuli taZari saqarTveloSi, aris Cveni didi qarTuli eklesiis wevri, misi nawili da rogorc erT rigiT morwmunes ar daTmobs WeSmariti moZRvari, ise saqarTvelos eklesia ar daTmobs Tundac yvelaze patara taZars, misi mciredi mrevliT! saqarTvelos wmida eklesia! eklesia erTi didi ojaxia da aq `sxva~ aravin unda iyos!. aq gulgriloba, daudevroba, urwmunoeba yvelas moekiTxeba da yvelas aqvs ufleba, misi wodebisa da rangis miuxedavad moiTxovos siwminde, xma aRimaRlos usamarTlobaze. ufleba ki ara, ufro meti – evaleba kidevac! qriste RmerTi moiTxovs siwmindis, simarTlisa da RvTis sityvis dacvas TiToeulisagan, roca amis saWiroeba dgas!...
wmidanebi yvelafers xedaven da sul male   a m x e l e n   yvelas, vinc mRvdlis samosSi malavs Tavis mtaceblur suls. es Zalian mtkivneuli iqneba zogadad morwmuneTaTvis. radgan am mglebs ise hyavT xalxi damorCilebuli da monadirebuli, lamis `wmidanebad~ aRiaron isini. xom warmogidgeniaT, rogori mZime da saxifaTo iqneba maTTvis simarTlis codna `sayvarel moZRvrebze“. swored amitom igvianeben wmidanebi eklesiis `wmendas~, raTa moamzadon morwmuneni amisTvis.   morwmune igvianebs gamoRviZebaSi, radgan moxibluli da dabrmavebuli aris!.. rogori tragedia iqneba morwmunisaTvis misi `wmida~ moZRvris namdvili saxis danaxva, arada es procesi   g a r d a u v a l i a!   didia amgvari `moZRvrebis~ mier erisTvis miyenebuli ziani!.. maTi `stili~ iqca `misabaZ stilad~. cxovrebis wesi ki _ savaldebulod. maT dRevandelobis suli Seitanes taZrad! es garegani `marTlmadidebloba~, es ugulo da yalbi, mxolod sityvebiT naqadagari `WeSmariteba~ da yvelaze mTavari, maT SeZles morwmunis dajereba imaSi, rom rasac isini qadageben, es aris `marTlmadidebloba~ da sxva yvela vinc ki ar aris maTi msgavsi, an xiblSia, an kidev cdomili!... ai, ra dReSi varT! me vambob xmamaRla, adrec bevrjer miTqvams maTTvis _ awi saqme ase ar wava!!! eklesia wmidaa da samRvdeloebac wmida eyoleba! maTi suli ar aris WeSmariti, maTi suli bnelia da yars. da Tu morwmune Seecdeba gamofxizlebas, advilad aRmoaCens Cemi sityvebis WeSmaritebas.
dRes morwmune xedavs bevr rames, magram ise aris daprogramebuli, rom gaiZaxis `es ar aris Cemi saqme, es maTi codvebia da TviTon ageben pasuxso.~ ra Tqma unda, TviTon ageben pasuxs, magram icodeT, morwmunec agebs pasuxs, radgan arc WeSmariteba awuxebs da arc sulis cxoneba!   es rom awuxebdes, maSin mtkivneulad ganicdida mtaceblebis megzurobas!... erTi, ratom ar fiqrobT mase avtobusis mZRolze, romelsac SeuZlia kldidan gadagCexos?! esec xom mZRolis codva iqneba, rom ar SeakeTa manqana, an tareba rom ar icis, an mTvrali rom miujda saWes?!   ho da moeSvi, Sen ra?!.. es xom misi codvaa da ara Seni, da is agebs pasuxs RmerTTan!.. magram xedav?!   aq saqme Sens miwier cxovrebas exeba. es Seni saqmecaa, radgan sikvdil-sicocxlis sakiTxia... Sen fxizlob da mZRols etyvi `ar CaiZino~, an `iq xmauria ZravaSi~, an `muxruWebis suni mcems~ an `xanZaria.~_ xedav?! rogor ginda sicocxle da isic, rom uvnebeli Caxvide daniSnulebis adgilze, magram ase Tu fxizlob sulieri cxovrebis sadarajoze, da ase Tu ufrTxildebi maradiul sicocxles, da ase mowadinebiT Tu ginda daniSnulebis adgilze –sasufevelSi - axvide?! pasuxi martivia _ a r a !... Torem sulieri mgzavrobis SemTxvevaSic ifxizlebdiT da mZRols uyuradRebobisa da daudevrobis saSualebas ar miscemdiT, an kidev CamoxvidodiT avtobusidan!...
Tu morwmunes xorcieli mgzavrobis SemTxvevaSi gansazRvruli aqvs qalaqi, sadac is unda Cavides, amas ver vityviT mis sulier mgzavrobaze. am SemTxvevaSi, is imaT ufro magonebs, romelTac gansazRvruli ara aqvT daniSnulebis adgili. amdenad is an ubralod s e i r n o b s da erToba, anda misTvis   s u l e r T i a,   Tu saiT wava!.. gasagebia?! ai, amitom  
a g e b s   p a s u x s   m o r w m u n e c, babua!...
saqarTvelo didi gamowvevebis winaSe dgas. mas msoflio sulieri misia akisria da ukve droa!... cxvris tyavSi SefuTul mglebs dandoba ar eqnebaT wmidanebisagan! es mglebi mTeli erisa da eklesiis samsjavros winaSe warsdgebian!.. mere ki ukve RvTis samsjavroze! isini aq miwazec ageben pasuxs da ver uSveliT Zlierni ama qveynisani, verc mfarvelebi mTavrobidan, verc msoflio organizaciebidan da verc fuliani `biZebi~.
rogori mzakvruli xerxebiTa da veragobiT ar unda warmarTon   TavianTi bolo brZola, maT RmerTi da wmidanebi eklesiaSi ar gaaCereben!
saqarTvelos aRmavlobis gasaRebi eklesiis gawmendaSia!...
...RmerTma im moZRvars Cemze ase imitom aTqmevina, rom Tavad Sen gansazRvro, gaarkvio, gamofxizlde   da TviTon gadadga nabiji da ara sxvaTa `rekomendaciebiT~ irwmuno. amas imitom ki ar geubnebi, rom CemTan iaro!.. ara, babua! eg me piradad ar mWirdeba... me arc fuli minda, arc dideba da arc Tanamdeboba. me yvelaferi maqvs _ iq, zeviT!... adamianebi mecodeba, Torem xmis amomRebic ara var saerTod. Cemi sakeTebeli gakeTebuli maqvs!... zeviTac var namyofi!.. es iseTive sinamdvilea, rogorc   axla aq, Tqven giyurebT TvalebSi da arc aravisi dasturi amaSi ar mWirdeba, miT umetes imaTi, v i n c   i q   a r a s o d e s     m i n a x a v s !..

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        ...koSmaruli sizmrebi mosvenebas ar maZlevda. raRac maRali ConCxi momdevda sizmarSi. es erTi da igive saSineleba meordeboda mTeli kviris ganmavlobaSi. Ramis locvebs kidev RvTismSoblis daujdomeli davumate Zilis win.   boroti Zvlebi ki momcilda, magram simSvide mainc ar mqonda.   mamaosTan asvla gadavwyvite. saRamosTvis kidev sxvebi adiodnen da maTTan erTad mowameTaSi wavedi. mamaosTan samtredieli morwmuneni iyvnen. isini rom gaacila, samzareulo oTaxSi Segviyvana. televizori CarTo. qarTuli filmi, _ `udiplomo sasiZo~ gadioda. mamao gulianad icinoda. rodesac is momenti gamoCnda, biWiko safrTxobelas rom amontaJebs yanaSi, mamaom gamomxeda da miTxra:
_ rava imas gavs, Sen rom mogdevdao...
yvelas sicili autyda. Tumca maTTvis Cemi sizmris Sesaxeb araferi miTqvams, ise, rogorc mamaosaTvisac. mamaos sakvirvelebebs me, ase vTqvaT, SeCveuli viyavi, magram es mainc sxva ram iyo. es mainc gamaognebeli iyo CemTvis...
_ uyure, adamiano!.. films uyure! _ mkacrad miTxra mamaom _ mainc ra   magari msaxiobebi gvyavda qarTvelebs, _ daamata mamaom.
filmis yurebis Tavi namdvilad ar mqonda. mamaos am SesaZleblobebis asaxsnelad arc codna, da marTali giTxraT, arc rwmena   meyo.
      _ moeSvi, adamiano, sizmrebs!.. mogacile mag urCxuli ukve!.. ise, rom   icode, Sen sizmrebs ki ara, sizmarSi, rom sizmrebs xedav imasac vxedav meo, _miTxra mamaom.
    filmi grZeldeboda, magram am sityvebis gagonebis Semdeg, oTaxSi sicilis xasiaTze mamaos garda aravin iyo.   filmi dasrulda. mama giorgim televizorTan axlos mjdom rusudans mimarTa:
      _ gamorTe erTi mag televizori.
rusudanma uceb Rilaks ver miagno, daibna da aforiaqda. mamaosTan oTaxSi yvelas mogvdis aseTi ram _ Sens nebaze ver moiqcevi, radgan misi Zala moqmedebs iq myofebze. xSirad TviTonac ityvis xolme:L
    _ Znelad asatani kaci var. ver uZlebT Tqven CemTan siaxloves. amitom meoTxedi ZaliT vloculob, rom adamianebs SeeZloT CemTan mosvla.
    mere rusudans mkacrad uTxra:
_ kargi, moeSvi magas da gamodi maqedan.
      rusudani dajda Tu ara, televizori `TavisiT~ gamoirTo. yvelam   mamaos SevxedeT.
_ ra gindaT!.. taSis dakvras xo ar apirebT, Tqve sacodavebo!.. es ki nu gikvirT, aramed imaze ifiqreT, RmerTi amdens rom ganaxebT, riTiRa unda upasuxoT!
madonas gaxeda da uTxra:
_ marxvebs Tu ar daicav, CemTan nuRar moxval icode!...
mere mzias miubrunda:
_ sxvaze nawyeni nurc Senc moxval CemTan!.. Seurigdi ojaxis wevrebs!
rusudans nervozi awuxebda. mamaom masac uTxra:
    _ bevri imoZrave, saqme akeTe, iare, haeri cxviriT SeisunTqe, aq mcenareul wamals xarSavs daviTi. Cemi locvebiT keTdeba. modi da gagatan. Sen kide _ momibrunda me _ soflis mkiTxaviviT sizmrebs rom Cakirkitebdi dRe da Rame, mito mogeca es koSmari. sizmars ras gaugebT! roca cocxali adamianebisa vera gagigiaT. ra!.. aba, davai!... gayeviT axla `TerTmet nomers~ – gviTxra mkacrad.
ezoSi gamovediT. ukan mainc movixede, maSin mamaom momaZaxa:
      _ dalocvilebi xarT, dalocvilebi!..
      es yvelaferi wamebSi moxda. mas swrafad SeuZlia gadasvlebi. roca mamaosgan Cqarob wamosvlas, maSin saaTobiT grZeldeba saubari. roca daapireb darCenas, maSin wuTebSi dagiTxoven. mamaos erTi SexedviT SeuZlia dagaRonos, gagaxaros, SiSi moggvaros, mere ki usazRvro siyvaruli gamoafrqvios. wamebSi gaunaTlebel moxucad mogaCvenos Tavi, wamebSi ki iseTi codna gamoamJRavnos, sakuTari sulmokleobisa Segrcxves.
saxlisken yvelani fexaTreviT movdiodiT...

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.....mamaos Zalian uyvars Romi da yveli. erTxel SevecadeT, megruli suluguni da Romi migvetana misTvis. erTi Cveni axlobeli, lali, xobelia da mas mivandeT Romis xarisxi. Tan vCqarobdiT. mama giorgi Cveulebriv dReebSi, roca marxva ar aris, da arc stumrebi hyavs, sakvebs dReSi erTxel Rebulobs, isic 3 saaTze!
roca wirvas ayenebs, arc wina dRes da arc wirvis dayenebis Semdgom saWmels ar Rebulobs, Tu stumari ar mouvida. samSabaTi iyo. vicodiT, rom oTxSabaTs, mwuxri-ciskris locva unda Caetarebina da Sesabamisad xuTSabaTs ewira. ase rom, is ori dRe arafers ar SeWamda. amitom vCqarobdiT. gazi im dReebSi Cvens ubans ar moewodeboda da denis `plitaze~ vakeTebdiT Roms. uceb deni gamoirTo. warmodgineT, es ra iqneboda CvenTvis. vxedavdiT, rom 3-ze veranairad ver   viqnebodiT mowameTaSi, deni mxolod erTi saaTis Semdeg gamouSves.
mokled, mainc avediT. es iyo 5-is naxevari. mamao icinis: `ra gaqvT mand CanTaSi~, _ gvkiTxa. vupasuxeT: Romi da yveli-Tqo. `kargi, madlobeli var, magram awi ver SevWam, ukve geaxeliT,~ _ ganagrZo isev sicili. Cven gvewyina, maram ras vizamdiT. karga xans gvelaparaka. bolos samzareulo oTaxSi Segviyvana da CanTidan Romis amoReba gvTxova. Romi ukve gaciebuli iyo.
_ aba, aniCka, _ miTxra _ daWeri axla magi ise, rom TiTo-TiTo yvelam gasinjos. TviTon erTi lukma Romi da yveli daido TefSze; SeWama. Cven gagvexarda da Tan gagvikvirda, radgan mama giorgi Tavis sityvas ar gadadis. ase ityvis _ kacs principi unda hqondeso. man sufraze raRac-raRaceebi Semogvimata, wiTeli Rvino SemogvTavaza da gviTxra: `kaci rames rom gaCuqebs, Tu is boroti araa, unda gamoarTva. Sen Tu ar mogewoneba da ar gWirdeba, sxvas mieci. es adamianis pativiscemaa. me mag Tqveni Romi martos rom SemeWama, ras mizamda? _ arafers, babua. rom arc meWama, ra unda momxdariyo? _ arc araferi. axla ki xarT Tqven karg xasiaTze... me giyvarvarT, mara, aba, erTi rame gewyinoT Cemgan? rogor wuTSi gagaxsendebaT, rogori mondomebiT amomitaneT cxeli Romi da zedac ar Semoxedao. amaze eSmaki kidev dagimatebdaT raRac-raRaceebs, dabkroldebodiT da damemdurebodiT. amitom, sadac RmerTis mcneba ar irRveva, iq unda Seecado, sakuTari rameebi daTmo da adamians pativiscemiT upasuxo pativiscemaze. me, babua, Romi ki ara, rom CavrTavdi me-4 siCqares, SemeZlo kaxuri Rvino mesva dilamde da ar vTvrebodi (icinis)~.
saubars rom morCa, gvixTra: `aba,   gadacemebi telekompania `mowameTadan~ damTavrebulia, momaval Sexvedramde!~
dagvloca. wamovediT.


suraTi: mama giorgi WiqiT. WasTan jiqiebi


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      ....oqtombris Sua ricxvebidan mama giorgi cota Secvlili sCanda. naklebad xumrobda. momsvlelTa raodenoba gacilebiT mcire iyo. cotas laparakobda da sul Cafiqrebuli dadioda _ axla unda viloco, momiwevs siCqareebis CarTvao. _ xSirad imeorebda am sityvebs.
2007 wlis 19 oqtombers Tbilisidan iyvnen Camosulebi mamaosTan.   mamao ikiTxes, radgan fizikurad ar icnobdnen.   vis eZebT? romel mamaos? _ hkiTxa man stumrebs. giorgi basilaZeso, _ upasuxes. _ ar aris is kaci aq, guSin daiWireso, _ seriozuli saxiT uTxra mamaom. maT erTmaneTs Sexedes da sxva meti ver hkiTxes mamaos. erTmaneTs gadaulaparakes: _ erTi eubneboda, es iqneba, suraTze aseTi iyoo. _ raSia saqme?! _ hkiTxa mama giorgim. raRac SekiTxva gvqonda mama giorgisTano. _ mere dasvi mag SekiTxva, giorgim me damtova morigedo, _ uTxra mamaom da gaucina.   _ Tqven xarT mama giorgi? _ mere! _ upasuxa mamaom. saubris dawyeba euxerxulebodaT, radgan Cvenc iq viyaviT. maSin mama giorgim saubari TviTon daiwyo: _ ra ambavia TbilisSi, ra xdeba?! Tqven saiTa xarT _ pozicia xarT Tu opozicia?! ho_ho, miTxariT... _ xmamaRla uTxra mama giorgim.
_ Cven mag Temaze ar movsulvarT, mamao.
_ vici, me razec xarT mosuli, jer Cems SekiTxvas gaeciT pasuxi.
isini dumdnen.
_ xom xedavT, ver ambobT!.. arc poziciaa, biZia, qarTuli sityva da arc   opozicia!.. Cven qarTvelebi varT! qarTvelebi!… es kargad daixsome Sen! _ da gvariT mimarTa erT-erTs.
_ me ar gicnobT, Tqven, mamao.
_ `zato~, me gicnob Sen, _ uTxra mama giorgim _ mZime dReebi gviaxlovdeba, nuTu Tqven sul ver grZnobT amas?! `Savi mafia~ isev muSaobs, isev swyuriaT qarTvelebis sisxli... lenini unda daimarxos, manamde ki gaibrZolebs. Tu gadavrCiT, mere CamovarTvaT xeli erTmaneTs. xalxs atyueben!... qarTvelebi varT, icodeT!.. xalxis dayofas RmerTi aravis apatiebs. sacodavia sulieri xedvis uqoneli adamiani! viRacas raRac hgonia Tavi!!! aravis araferi gamouva, RmerTia biZia am qveynis baton_patroni!!!
stumrebi Cumad idgnen.
_ me, biZia, dros arasodes vemsaxurebodi, me RmerTs vemsaxurebodi yovelTvis!   CemTvis simarTle aris mTavari! ras mibrZaneb, vin davloco?!... me locvas veravin damaZalebs, verc wmidani, verc eSmaki, verc mTavroba, verc opozicia, verc sasuliero ierarqia. me imaze vloculob, rom saqarTvelom gaimarjvos! amas ki ugulo, uWkuo, urwmuno, matyuara da angari adamianebi ver izamen!!! me imaze vloculob, xalxma gamoiRviZos, rom yvelas niRabi Camoexsnas, vinc morwmunis, patriotis da marTali kacis saxiT dadis. sinamdvileSi ki urwmuno, moRalate da boroti sulisa da gulis aris. iqneba es: mTavroba, opozicia Tu sasuliero pirebi!!! RmerTi Tavis nebas mainc aRasrulebs!!! boroti verafers gaxdeba!... vinc simarTles ar emsaxureba, mteria sakuTari Tavis. vinc simarTles ar icavs da tyavs ufrxildeba, arc tyavi SerCeba da arc suli. vinc usamarTlobaSi ar Caereva, da gvian gamoyofs Tavs, mas is `brZeni~ Tavi mxrebze ar SerCeba. wmidanebi gawydnen tanjviT, aq ki yalbi sulebi cdiloben saqarTvelos misakuTrebas. ar iqneba ase, batonebo da ar gamova magi saqme!!!
mamaos sityvebs saocari Zala hqonda. is TviTonac iyo Zalian   didebuli da Zalmosili. sityvis amoReba veravin gabeda, sanam is laparakobda.
_ me iciT, vina var?!..   Tumca axla amas Tqven ras gaigebT!!! me ki vici, vincxa var!..   ager, xelis gulze maqvs niSani. zed maweria RmerTidan, ratom viZaxi amas. Cemi suli guSindeli ar aris; es suli didi xania, rac ibrZvis saqarTvelosTvis. amas me simarTles viZaxi da arc aravisTvis saqarTveloSi ara maqvs es dasamtkicebeli, arc namdvilebTan da   codvilebTan, miT umetes!..   amas imitom viZaxi, rom yvelanair siglaxes aqvs zRvari, da namdvilebi mets aRar mouTmenen am uWkuo, metiCara da ubadruk sulebs!... codvilebs TavianTi codvebi ar hyofniT da kidev qveynis mamobas iCemeben! saZaglobaa es RmerTis TvalSi! sanam RmerTis da wmidanebis gzaze ar gaxvalT, araferi geSvelebaT!!! daviT mefis da giorgi brwyinvales qveyanas RmerTi ar mogcemT Tqven sajijgnad. ar Rirs
Tqveni Wkua da Tundac sicocxle magdenad _ aTasobiT adamianis sicocxle rom SeiwiroT! _ daamTavra Tu ara es sityvebi, mamao mrisxaned wamodga, miubrunda maT da uTxra:
_ taZari Riaa da Tu salocavad xarT mosuli, mibrZandiT, _ Cvenc mkacrad gadmogvavlo Tvali da Tavis oTaxSi Sevida. yvelani adgilze gaunZrevlad videqiT. stumrebi taZarSi ar Sesulan ise gavidnen monastris ezodan. Cvenc wamovediT.
sami dRe ar avsulvarT. meoTxe dRes avediT. mamo isev iqve ijda da kiTxulobda. Semogvxeda: _ gamarjobaT, qarTvelebo, rogor xarT? _ Cvenc vupasuxeT. simZime maqvs gulze, _ ganagrZo man, _ suliTa var daRaluli!.. ra xdeba qveyanaze, Tu iciT?! wmidanebs uTqvamT: _ RmerTi kacs rom sjis, Wkuas ubnelebso! rogoric beri, iseTi erio, da kidev, rogoricaa xalxi, iseTi hyavs mTavrobao! qarTveli Tu waxda, badali ara hyavs siglaxeSi. qarTveli rom RmerTs Seudgeba, arc amaSi hyavs badali! aseTebi varT, TavadiSvilo! ra ginda, rom gaakeTo! mere Tema Secvala da mosvalze gadaitana saubari. bolos cota gagvamxiarula. wamosvlisas gviTxra: locva gvamrTebs, babua, locva! Cvenc dagvloca da wamovediT.
3 noembers mamaos Zmis ormoci hqonda. is Zalian ganicdida mis gardacvalebas _ ar megona, ase Tu damakldebodao. misi gazrdilebi viyaviT. is erTi muSaobda da Cven gvaWmevdao patarebs. mSromeli da patiosani kaci iyo, magram didi suli hqonda. axla mivxvdi, Tu rogor medga gverdSi sulierado.
orSabaTs, 5 noembers gazeT `kviris palitraSi~ mama giorgis interviu iyo, gazeTi SeviZineT da taqsiT avediT mamaosTan. wvimda. mZRols gazeTi eyida da waekiTxa - Tqven rom midixarT mowameTaSi, _ iq giorgi aris da masze weria-Tqo da gazeTi ukan gadmogvawoda. Cven vuTxariT, rom vicnobT mama giorgis. man ki gviTxra: _ jer kidev ar icnobT Tqven mas. mas saerTod cota icnobs da araa saWiro, yvelam icodes. rac mas vicnob, sul egeTi iyo, marTali da Zlieri! mZRoli giorgaZe iyo gvarad, _ moicadeT, jer sad aris! giorgi awi ityvis kidev ufro did rameebs, mas eTqmis, da aqvs amis uflebao! Cven Zalian gagvikvirda am adamianis sityvebis, radgan is erTxelac ar gvinaxavs taZarSi, rac rom 2 welia davdivarT mowameTaSi; man ukan moixeda da gviTxra: - Cvenc gvaqvs Cveni saidumlo. ar uTqvams giorgis, rom Cven bevrni varT?!
amasobaSi movediT. Zalian gagvixarda ucxo mZRolis gacnoba.
SevediT mamaosTan. - dajeqiT, -gviTxra. - ra mogaqvT? Cven imis molodinSi, rom mamao Tvalebs mkacrad dagvibrialebda, moridebiT amoviReT gazeTi da mivawodeT. gazeTi gadafurcla, daxeda Tavis suraTs da Tqva mxiaulad: vaah, giorgi biWo, gazeTSi gamouqveynebixarT, Tan jvaric mouciaT SenTvis! rao, ras ambobs giorgi _ miTxariT erTi. erT xans xasiaTze iyo, mere isev moiRuSa, da Tqva: -lenini unda dasamardes. Cven amas ukve meorejer vismendiT, magram im sityvebis mniSvnelobas ver CavwvdiT.   is daimarxeba da saqarTvelo iwyebs winsvlas da gamarjvebas!!! _ ganagrZo mamaom, _ weria: daecnen mefobis msurvelni, iqneba sasaxlis areuloba da mRvdlebis ukuRmarTobao!.. 2008 wels xalxi imarjvebs!... Semdeg eklesia gaiwmindeba!.. Semdeg ki didi mefe   modis!!! zeg ki, qarTvelebo, unda gadavrCeT!. borots magari gegma aqvs Cafiqrebuli!... vnaxoT, ra gamouva?!.. dRevandeli politikosebi sulieri TvaliT rom Seaxedo Seqmnil viTarebas da imas, Tu ra sulieri Zalebi marTaven maT _ 70% saxlebSi gaiqceva. is 30% ki TviTonaa boroti da misi gegmis nawili. didxans viyaviT im dRes mamaosTan. bolos gviTxra: - cota Rvino dalieT. es sami dRe yvela namdvil qarTvelze didi sulieri zewola iqneba da unda gavuZloT. aa, waiReT es Rvino, sufTa wvenia, Rvino gagamxnevebT! wamovediT 6-7 noembers ar avsulvarT mamaosTan, radgan gviTxra, es 2 dRe unda viloco da marto unda viyoo, arc saWmeli hqonda naWami. 7 noembers televiziiT vuyurebdiT im sazarel ambebs. marTla sulis SemZvreli ram iyo da simZime vigrZeni; Zili ar momkarebia, Tan bavSvebi TbilisSi myavs - studentebi arian. mTeli Rame gavitanje.
meore diliT 9 saaTze mamaosTan viyavi. mere Cvenebic movidnen. mamao ijda. televizors uyurebda. xmas ar iRebda. Semogvxeda da usityvod ganagrZo yureba _ ras ityviT-wavageT Tu movigeT?!_cota mogvianebiT gvkiTxa. Cven ver gavigeT, ra igulisxma mamaom, radgan is arc `pozicia~ iyo da arc `opozicia~ _ rogorc TviTon icis Tqma._ wavageT Tu movigeT _ mkacrad gaimeora kiTxva. Cven vuTxariT, rom wavageT, albaT. _ ara, Cven gavimarjveT! me Tqven pozicia-opoziciis xilul `brZolaze~ ki ar gekiTxebiT. aramed im sulier brZolaze, rac SeniRbulad idga yovelive amis ukan, romelic samwuxarod, arc pozicias esmis da arc opozicias. saqarTvelom da namdvilebma gaimarjves. lenini guSin dasamarda!!! wmidanebma gaimarjves. droSi mixvdebiT, rasac geubnebiT! _ albaT gadavrCiT, mamao _ vuTxariT Cven.   ki ar gadavrCiT, aramed, wmidanebma gaimarjves. kargad daimaxsovreT es! pozicia-opoziciis xiluli brZola satanis `blefi~ iyo iseve, rogorc amerika-ruseTis politikuri brZola; aq sxva omi gamarTa borotma da damarcxda!!! adamianTa 97% am movlenebs ver acnobierebs, rasac me geubnebiT.
2008 wels iwyeba xiluli gamarjvebebis periodi.

suraTi: mamao gazeTiT. videodan  

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.....ise moxda, rom mama nikolozTan (maqaraSvili) didi xani ar viyaviT namyofi. gvenatreboda. 20 noemberi iyo, mama nikolozis dabadebis dRe. mcxeTaSi wasvlas ver vaxerxebdiT   da mowameTaSi avediT mariami, nino, lali, mamuka da iakobi.Mmama giorgi Tavis oTaxSi iyo. SevediT. gvesaubra. mere wamodga da mivida sakidTan, TeTri nabadi Camoxsna, moicva, Semobrunda da gviTxra:
_ nikolozi genatrebaT, xom?!.. siciliT Tqva mamaom. -hoda, ager var axla me nikolozi... es Tqva da mama nikolozis saxe miiRo ramodenime wamiT. gaognebulebi SevcqerodiT mama nikolozs. mereESebrunda. nabadi Tavis adgilze dakida da isev mama giorgi `gaxda~. es, rom marto me menaxa, SeiZleboda aTasi ram momsvloda TavSi, magram mama giorgisTan rogorc vTqvi, eqvsni viyaviT. da yvelam daafiqsira momxdari. mere gviTxra:
_ eg ar aris, babua, Zneli. amis gakeTeba bevrnairad aris SesaZlebeli.   RmerTs SeuZlia CemiT mogaCvenoT visic gnebavT, imisi saxe. meore, SemiZlia me miviRo nebismieri saxe, oRond amisTvis Tqveni goneba da Tvali unda iyos mzad, rom ar daziandeT. SeiZleba TiTon nikolozi Semovides CemSi, gamogxedoT, gagaxaroT da isev uCinrad gavides, rogorc Semovida!.. namdvili, babua, drosa da sivrces rom flobs,   Tu amis saWiroeba moiTxovs, SeuZlia wamebSi gaCndes nebismier adgilze. ai, vTqvaT mZRols CaeZina saWesTan. xalxi safrTxeSia. wmidani xedavs ra safrTxes, SeuZlia suliT Sevides am mZinare mZRolSi, ise, rom is verafers mixvdes. gaaRviZebs, safrTxes aacdens da isev uCinrad brundeba Tavis adgilze. kidev getyviT. cnobil did politikosebs hyavT, TavianTi `sulieri mrCevlebi~ da sapasuxismgeblo Sexvedrebis mimdinareobis dros, am sulebis daxmarebiT cdiloben, dablokon mowinaaRmdegis nebeloba, imoqmedon maT sulze, daiTanxmon da miaRwion maTTvis xalsayrel Sedegebs. ai, aseT dros did wmidanebs SeuZliaT, Sevidnen nebismieri rangis politikosis sxeulSi, Zalian `iolad~ da `lamazad~ gaaneitralon am `ucxo~ Zalebis zemoqmedeba da daicvan qveynis interesebi. Tumca, TviTon politikosi SeiZleba verc ki xvdebodes, rom TviTon   ar iyo!... zogjer, maT TviTonac ukvirT da moswonT maT mier warmoTqmuli frazebi, ukvirT imitom, rom es maTi piradi sulis mier warmoTqmuli ar aris!.. daakvirdiT Cveulebriv adamanebsac, isini sxvadasxva dRes sxvadasxvanairebi arian!..
ai, Tundac   Tqven, rom `vardebis revolucias~ eZaxiT. bevri ambobs, rom es dadgmuli scenari iyoo. asec, rom yofiliyo SevardnaZes Zalian bevri `damdgmeli reJisori~ gaucurebia Tavisi karieris manZilze. mas ara erTi sarezervo gegma hqonia yovelTvis. erTxel ukve giTxariT, Tu ra didi donis boroti iyo masSi. mas SeeZlo, ar wasuliyo da sul sxva politikuri scenariT waremarTa yvelaferi. kidev hqonda mas varianti... magram getyviT: mTavari moxda maSin, roca miSam parlamentSi SeaRwia da   dauyvira   g a d a d e q i !   es ori-sami SeZaxili iyo mTavari, romelsac verc iq da verc gareT, verc maSin da verc mis Semdeg, veravin xvdeboda garda n a m d v i l e b i s a.   politikosebisgan,   garda SevardnaZisa, veravin afiqsirebda, Tu ra xdeboda im wuTebSi. mxolod SevardnaZem icoda, Tu vin urtyamda mas s u l i e r a d. miSas sxeuliT mas ori didi wmidani `daetaka~. SevardnaZem swored didi wmidanebis mier miyenebul sulier dartymas ver gauZlo!... sxvanairad SevardnaZes sulierad 100 aTasi kacis Zalac veras daaklebda! da moskovidan Camofrenil ivanovsac lamazad `gaistumrebda~, eg ar iyo misTvis problema. Tavad miSa ki wmidanebs ver afiqsirebda, mxolod grZnobda imas, rom im momentSi Zalian didi sulieri Zala gaaCnda, Tumca ara piradi. pirovnulad SevardnaZes verc miSa da verc erTi sxva politikosi, sulierad ver Searyevda!... miuxedavad imisa, rom misi kariera Seryeuli iyo. aseTi boroti pirovnebis sulieri Zala ar aris damokidebuli politikur karieraze.. kariera mxolod xels uwyobs mas sulieri Zalis srul gamovlinebasa da masebze zemoqmedebis ganxorcielebaSi. SevardnaZes gaaCnda ara mxolod Tanamdebobrivi ierarqiis Sesabamisi Zala, aramed didi pirovnuli sulieri Zala, romelic SeeZlo mas SeenarCunebina ierarqiuli Zalis dakargvis Semdegac. swored amitom, wmidanTa amocana, iyo misi pirovnuli - boroti Zalis   gauvnebelyofa, romlis Sedegadac is saqarTvelos   s u l i e r   sivrceze dakargavda boroti zemoqmedebis unars. swored es moxda maSin. da es ar aris arc erTi fizikuri politikosis damsaxureba. SevardnaZe damarcxda sulierad da dakarga sulieri gavlena saqarTveloze, Torem fizikurad rogor cxovrobs, Tavadve uwyiT da politikur zegavlenasac inarCunebs!... is boroti suli ki putinSi gadavida!
bevrs sweren stalinze, rom mas boroti Zala hqonda, rom `jadoqrebi“ exmarebodnen da aTasgvar monaCmaxebs. getyviT ager, stalins udidesi pirovnuli sulieri Zala hqonda. mas sxvebis daxmareba ar sWirdeboda... is ara marto drosa da sivrces flobda, aramed materiasac. man erTxel voroSilovs arayi wylad uqcia. stalins WaWiT savse `riumka~ edga. voroSilovs erTi suli hqonda, stalins misTvisac SeeTavazebina. magram stalinima es ar gaakeTa, aramed adga da meore oTaxSi gavida. voroSilovma `riumka~ aiRo... gadahkra da simwriT aRmoxda.... `koba Turme wyals aryis WiqiT savmso~ da Wiqa isev Seavso. Semosulma stalinma gauRima. Sevsebuli Wiqa aiRo,   gadahkra da Cailaparaka `ara mgonia, rom wyali iyoso.~...(icinis)
stalini swored am Zalis wyalobiT axerxebda, xilulad yofiliyo boroti reJimis umaRlesi ierarqi da amave dros uxilavad ebrZola am reJimis fuZemdeblebis masonuri ganzraxvebisa da miznebis winaaRmdeg... amas, ra Tqma unda, bevri ar daeTanxmeba, magram geubnebiT, ara imas, rac Cans Cveulebrivi adamianis TvalTaxedvidan. aramed, geubnebiT sulier saidumlos!..
stalini berias ar mouklavs! es iyo SurisZiebiT aRvsili uria-bolSevikebis SeTiTxnili mzakvroba!
nebismieri saxelmwifos politikuri ierarqia imavdroulad aris uxilavi sulieri ierarqia _ sistema. sistema ki emorCileba Zalas. Zala ganagebs ierarqias!.. nebismieri adamiani am politikuri ierarqiis romeliRac safexurze rom Semoskupdeba, ukve Rebulobs am safexuris Sesabamis Zalas, Tumca mas pirovnuli Zala SeiZleba, ar gaaCndes. da rodesac iqedan „Camovardeba“, is iseTive uZluri xdeba, rogori uZluric iyo manamde. me vambob iseTebze, romlebic am safexurze „SemTxveviT“ moxvdnen, an nacnobobiT, an kidev imitom, rom ufro didi Tanamdebobis pirs swored, rom uZluri da morCili xelqveiTi sWirdeba. magram arian iseTebic, romlebsac pirovnuli Zala gaaCndaT da gaaCniaT.
rac Seexeba sakuTriv sasuliero ierarqias. aq borotebisTvis Zalze Zneli iyo, mieRwiaT sasurveli SedegisaTvis, Tumca SeZles! swored politikur ierarqiaSi SeRweuli borotebis wyalobiT. eklesiuri ierarqiis sawyisi keTilia. amitom aq isini gacilebiT mzakvar da gamocdil `kadrebs~ nergavdnen, rom xalxs `keTili da RmrTismosavebi~ moCvenebodnen. rodesac maT sistema daimorCiles, maSin gauWirdaT moqmedeba namdvil sulebs. dRes msoflios mTeli rigi eklesiebis sadaveebi maT uWiravT xelSi da am poziciebidan cdilobdnen zewolas WeSmariti eklesiebis mimarT. bolo Jams boroti yvela frontze gvitevs!.. mis gankargulebaSia yvela SesaZlebloba, struqturebi, sistemebi, rogorc politikuri, ise sasuliero. aq laparaki ar aris imaze, rom wmidanebi pirovnulad gauZleben Tu ara... wmidanebi pirovnulad ra Tqma unda, gauZleben, magram aq brZola midis masebze, xalxze, maT daRupva-gadarCenaze. amitom uWirT wmidanebs, radgan bolo Jamis adamiani mTeli arsebiT miidrika borotebisken. es ki xel-fexs uxsnis borotebas samoqmedod.
wmidanebi, ra rigadac ar unda uyvardeT adamianebi, an ra Zalasac ar unda flobdnen isini, verafers gaxdebian Tu TiTon adamians ar surs RmerTis sityvis gagoneba. es igivea, `buqsirze~ daiba manqana, romelsac oTxive saburavi daxeTqili aqvs. amitom aris Zneli wmidanebis omi adamianebis sulebisaTvis da ara piradi omi borotebasTan... xom gaxsovT, institutebSi `Cawyobebi~ rom iyo, rogor etyodnen mSoblebs `oRond ar damunjdes, oRond piri gaaRos da raRac Tqvas, mere niSans gamovitano~ dRes adamianebs piris daReba ki ara, `institutSi mowyobac ar surT~ _ da aseT adamians rogor unda daexmaro?!. pirovnebisTvis Tavisufleba aris micemuli. marTalia, dabinduli aqvT goneba... magram im kacs surs ise, rogorc surs mas, amas ra ginda uqna!..
wmidans SeuZlia, sulierad Sevides codvil adamianSi. aRZras locvis, marxvis da sxva saTnoebebisTvis, magram amisaTvis unda arsebobdes adamianis pirovnuli Tanxmoba, imitom, rom codvilis suli saTnoebas ver itans. imis gamo, rom is borots hyavs dapyrobili da SeTvisebuli aqvs misi Tvisebebi. maSin wmidani, ase vTqvaT `garedan~ urtyams adamians, rom mwuxarebam, avadmyofobam, tkivilma, tanjvam SeaCeros is. rom ar `gautkbes~ codva. es pirveli nabijia. meore nabiji TviTon adamianma unda moisurvos da gadadgas. es aris arCevani, Tu saiT wava is!... miiRebs Segonebas, keTilad gamoiyenebs gakveTils Tu kidev ufro gaSmagebuli Seekvreba borots da ganagrZobs borot sulTan Tanacxovrebas. adamianebi RmerTs xom zombebad ar Seuqmnia. mTeli arsi imaSi mdgomareobs, rom moazrovned Seqmnilma adamianma samarTlianad airCios RmerTi, Tayvanisces da adidos is da ara RmerTis mowinaaRmdege. bevrs aqvs aseTi azri `_xom SeuZlia RmerTs, yvela moaqcios erT dRes da ar iqneba kacTa Soris boroteba~. ki, batono, RmerTs SeuZlia moaqcios da wamSi aqcios isini mis madideblebad. magram, aqve aris borotic, romelic Tumca usamarTloa, magram samarTals moiTxovs RvTisgan. mas didi Sroma aqvs gaweuli adamianTa sacduneblad. maTi gulisa da gonebis dasapyroblad. da es adamianebi Tavisi nebiT irCeven, aRiareben, morCileben da yvaroben codvis saqmeebsa da saRmrTo Zalis myisieri zemoqmedebiT, rom yvelani wmidanebi gaxdnen, aq irRveva mTavari_ adamianTaTvis miniWebuli piradi Tavisuflebis ufleba _ arCevanis ufleba. an RmerTs raSi sWirdeba Zalad damorCileba, es RmerTis nebaa! urCi da eSmakis morCili adamianebis Zalad moqcevas, RmerTi axali adamianis gaCenas amjobinebs!... RmerTs misi Zalis demonstrireba ki ar surs, aramed adamianis Tavisufali nebis arCevani da adamianisTvis miniWebuli Tavisufali neba _ samarTliani arCevani. samarTliani arCevani ki is aris, rom adamianma scnos da emsaxuros da uyvardes mxolod misi Semoqmedi erTaderTi RmerTi da ara boroti da mis mier Seqnili `RmerTebi!~
samwuxarod adamianebi irCeven borots! gavixsenoT bibliidan: `-inana ufalma, rom Seqmna adamiani am qveynad da Sewuxda _ xedavT?!.. adamianSi adamiani, rom darCebodes, meored mosvla ki ar iqneboda, magram RmerTma uwyis, adamianis siglaxe sanamde daeSveba da amitomac mieca ufleba borots! amitom gamoicdeba yvela da mxolod RmerTis erTgulebi daimkvidreben maradiul netarebas. RmerTi valSi aravisTan rCeba!.. mowyale da mosamarTle RmerTi yvelas miagebs sul mciredi keTili saqmis sanacvlodac. adamianTa did umravlesobas ki RmerTi miwazeve miagebs mciredi keTilis sanacvlod, xolo boroti cxovrebisaTvis ki satanjvels _ aucileblad. wmidanebis mTeli Sroma mimarTulia adamianTa sulis gawmendaze da gonebis ganviTarebaze, raTa dabnelebulma gonebam SesZlos Savisa da TeTris garCeva, keTilis arCeva, keTilisken nabijis gadadgma. amis Semdeg ki keTilSi damkvidreba da maradiuli cxovrebis miRweva!   dRes geyofaT!.. Semdgom ganvagrZoT!~
gvakurTxa da gamogviSva.

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mama giorgim erTxel saubarSi gviTxra: Tqven CemTan ver moxvidodiT, TqvenSi rame keTili rom ar iyos, me Tqven yvelas gicnobT, Tqven ki ar gaxsovarT!..
ai, Sen, aniCka, _ mommarTa me, _ Seni dabadebis dRidan yvelaferi vici Senze, getyvi, Tu ginda. _ erTxel skolidan rom brundebodi avdarSi, wvimam gadaiRo, Sen ki azrebs ise SerCenodi, rom gaSlili qolgiT gzas agrZelebdi. gzad ucnobi Semogxvda, gaCerda da mkacrad giTxra:
_ gaiRviZe, ver xedav, wvimam gadaiRo, Sen ki qolgiT mierekebio. gaixsene? is kaci me viyavi!..
mTeli pasuxismgeblobiT vambob, rom es momenti arasodes damaviwydeba. imdenad gamaognebeli iyo CemTvis ucnobi kacis aseTi kiloTi momarTva, rom Tvalebi cremliT amevso da qolga davkece. maSin merve klasSi viyavi, Tanac quTaisidan Sors. mamaom ganagrZo _ quTaisSi swavlobdi umaRlesSi, orsulad iyavi, Segagvianda, gaCerebaze ideqi. cioda. avtobusi ar Canda, taqsi gaCerda da SemogTavaza wayvana. Sen SeSindi da taqsSi   ar jdebodi. maSin mamaSenis saxeli, givi gixsena da giTxra _ misi megobari varo, gicani da nu geSinia, Sin migiyvan usafrTxodo _ xom gagaxsenda? - Tanxmobis niSnad Tavi davukari. is saRamo detalurad aRmidga.   – hoda, is taqsis mZRoli me viyavi!.. –miTxra. - vuyurebdi mamaos da vgrZnobdi, usasrulod SeeZlo, esaubra Cemze.
- damigde yuri, _sadgurSi glaxaki movida SenTan. esec didi xnis win da giTxra: 19, 21, 97. Sen gagikvirda, SeSinebuli Sescqerodi mas, Tavidan giJi gegona. Semdeg didxans imtvrevdi Tavs am cifrebze, icode, es glaxakic me viyavi... cifrebis mniSvneloba Sen dRemde ar ici. magram me vici. am dRidan 10 wlis Semdeg patara biWi gamoiqca baRSi, SenTan moirbina da wiTeli vaSli mogawoda. Sen hkiTxe, ra gqvia Sen, deida?.. man ki giTxra _ luka.   is biWic me viyavi... me gaognebuli videqi, Cems gonebaSi mTeli Cemi cxovrebis fragmentebi trialebda.
amis Semdeg mamao miubrunda anas. masac gaaxsena warsulidan raRac momentebi. me ar mesmoda, radgan goneba Zalian daZabuli mqonda. ver vxsnidi, rogor SeiZleboda, yvela   zemoTxsenebuli piri, sxvadasxva dros da sxva arsebiT _ yofiliyo mama giorgi.
anas Semdeg man   or danarCensac ar atkina guli, maTac gaaxsena bevri ram. Tavi zRaparSi megona. es imdenad daujerebeli ram iyo, rom eWvebisa da   gaugebrobis zRva azrebi momawva. mamaom xmamaRla daWeqa _ morCa kino..

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...erTxel mamaosTan iyvnen mosuli jvriswerisTvis drois SesaTanxmeblad. mamaos ratomRac etyoboda, rom ar undoda jvrisweris piradad Sesruleba da uTxra: `arian aq mRvdlebi kidev, es kvira Cemi kvira araa,~ da kidev iseTi argumentebi mouyvana, romelic namdvilad ar iyo damajerebeli. isini ki daJinebiT Txovdnen `Tqven unda SegvisruloTo~. mokled, rom vTqvaT, mamaom uariT gaistumra da isev miuTiTa sxva moZRvrebze. isini nawyeni wavidnen, radgan mizezi ver gaiges, Tu ratom aridebda mama giorgi jvrisweras Tavs.
mamao mogvibrunda da gviTxra: `ver vizam kaco, Tavs ki moityueb, mara RmerTs ras etyvi?! ar arian erTmaneTisTvis _ gamixsna RmerTma. ra ginda rom hqna?! amas sad etyvi, ukve qali saxlSi hyavs miyvanili, qorwilis dRe daniSnuli!... gana ar mindoda, davxmarebodi? mexaliseba me qorwili, eris gamravleba, adamianebis bedniereba. rogor ar unda gixarodes adamianebTan erTad... mara am SemTxvevaSi ar SemeZlo, sxva moZRvarTan gavuSvi, is ki daswers jvars... Cemgan ki nawyeni wavidnen. gava xani da roca moxdeba, rac unda moxdes, isev me gavaxsendebiT da ityvian _ icoda albaT da mitom ar dagvwera jvario da Tu icoda, ratom ar gviTxrao, da isev me viqnebi sasayveduro... jvriswera zeda caSi xdeba da roca Sen xedav sinamdviles, ara gaqvs ufleba!... aq ki daiweren jvars sadme, magram mainc ar iqnebian jvardawerilebi!... amaSia saqme.

...yofila SemTxveva, roca mamaos SekiTxvaze iseTi gaugebari, ufro zustad rom vTqvaT, azrobrivadac gaurkveveli sityvebiT miucia pasuxi, kaci ifiqrebda, es adamiani Seuracxadi ariso!
erTxel mamaos ucnaurobiT gaognebuli adamiani ukan gabrunda da brazmoreulma Tqva: _ ra gza gamoviare... eg ki vin yofilao!   mere mamaom gviTxra: _ es kaci Zlieri pirovnebaa da im ganzraxviT movida, simarTle rom gaego da verafriT mas ver movicilebdi. mainc mimiyvanda iqobamde, rom vetyodi, arada man ar unda icodes es jer! jobia, Cemze gabrazdes!   magram rodesac RmerTi gauxsnis saidumlos, Sendobasac da madlobasac metyvis. me sxva siCqareze vyavar RmerTs. me Cems nebaze ara maqvs mocemuli adamianebTan urTierToba. hgoniaT, me ar minda maT TqvenobiT mivmarTo? an batonobiT, an qalbatonobiT. magram ar maZlevs RmerTi. mec minda adamians tkbilad vesaubro da movuyve is, rac gaaxarebs, magram arc es maqvs mocemuli RmrTisgan. erTi wamiT rom gagixsnaT RmerTma,   ra suli aris CemTan, romeli Tqvengani moxvidodiT ase waramara CemTan?! es suli iqceva ise, rogorc mas surs. me vin var, babua! me SemiZlia, mxolod vuTanagrZno adamians. sinamdvileSi isini mibrazdebian imitom, rom grZnoben im Zalas, romelic CemSia, romelsac SeuZlia maTi daxmareba, ise, rogorc maT surT. magram, roca ase ar xdeba, maSin sul axelebT maT boroti! magram raa adamianis neba RmrTis nebasTan SedarebiT! RmerTia yvelaferi, babua!.. ase, rom Cemi Sroma Zalze rTulia!...

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erTxel saRamo xans mowameTaSi misulebi Zalze ucnauri scenis momswreni   SeviqmeniT: mama giorgis SedarebiT ufro axalgazrda mRvdeli Zalian maRal xmaze edaveboda, SeiZleba iTqvas, yviroda. mamaoc nawyvet-nawyvet pasuxobda. Cven moridebiT videqiT Soriaxlos. Mmodave mRvdeli ar cxreboda, muqaris sityvebi warmoTqva da mamaosaken `gaiwia~. maSin CvenTan myofma biWebma moZRvrebisaken axlos miiwies. Mmodave moZRvari sagrZnoblad dacxra. Cven arc ki vicodiT, Tu ra iyo incidentis mizezi, radgan mxolod SeveswariT ukve dawyebul usiamovno SemTxvevas. Nnerviulobis gamo ise gaviTiSe, arc maxsovs, ra iTqva da xdeboda, mxolod is damamaxsovrda, im moZRvarma bolosken mama giorgis miaxala:
_ Sen beri ara xar.
_ es Sen ver xedav, Torem me dabadebidan beri var. – mkacrad uTxra mama giorgim.
_Sen beri ki ara, celebati xar! _ mZvinvarebda moZRvari.
aSkarad etyoboda, rom mama giorgis mimarT namdvilad antipatia hqonda,
winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi aseTi SurisZiebiTa da zizRiT mrisxaneba SeuZlebelia adamians, isic sasuliero pirs daufleboda. Sendobas viTxov orive moZRvrisagan, magram im momentSi yvela CvenTagans aseTi SegrZneba gvqonda.
RmerTis SewevniT yvelaferi mSvidobianad damTavrda. is moZRvari wavida, Cven ki mama giorgis SevyeviT oTaxSi.
mamaos sibraze ar etyoboda, mxolod es Tqva:
_ erSi ra ar gadamxdomia, magram deda aravis uginebia da am sibereSi mRvdelma magina.
biWebi aRSfoTdnen. mamaom mkacrad Tqva:
_ Tqven vin gekiTxebaT?! RmrTismsaxuri rom var, amitom unda moviTmino, Torem eriskaci rom viyo, miuxedavad moxucebulobisa, xelfexSekruli vcemdi mas!... magas boroti axelebda Cems winaaRmdeg, Cemi `wamogdeba~ undoda da dedac magitom magina, fiqrobda, xels gaviRebdi, icoda, rom ar moviTmendi. mara, sul sxva ramea sulieri omi!... qriste RmerTs akadres Seuracxyofa, jvarsac acves da vin var me, rom ar moviTmino. icis RmerTma, laCrobiT ar momiTmenia da isic icis, rom RmerTis Seuracxyofa aravisTvis mipatiebia.
erTxel, TbilisSi, maSin ukve mRvdeli viyavi, somxebma anaforiT rom mnaxes, jer me magines, Semdeg ki eklesiasa da jvars, Tan sad, Zvel TbilisSi. ar moviTmine. xuTni iyvnen,   ori   `ise damuSavda~, rom naTesavebic ver icnobdnen. erTi gaiqca, ori karga xans meCxuba, mara, xo iciT, brusliviT rom vurtyamdi, orives oqros kbilebis Casmis aucilebloba gamovuwere, rom meti ar gaebedaT Cveni salocavis xseneba. M
mamao kidev daaxloebiT ormoci wuTi gvelaparaka, gvacina, dagvamSvida, biWebs uTxra:
_ mag mRvdelze cudi araferi ifiqroT, isic brZolaSia, boroti muSaobs. me adamianebi ki ara, `Savi mafia~ - eSmakis mafia mebrZvis!
rom gavxalisdiT, dagvloca da gamogviSva...
fexiT mogvixda quTaisamde Camosvla. gzad meore moZRvrisTvis naTqvami mamaos sityvebi amekviata, `...es Sen ver xedav, Torem me dabadebidan beri varo~. Mmama giorgi berad nakurTxi ar aris, ramdenadac vici, `celebatia~, arada, imdenad katrgoriulad uTxra mamaom, rom aq raime SemTxveviToba gamoricxuli iyo. Cemi codvili gonebiT ver avxseni da gankiTxva damewyo. maSin danarCenebs vkiTxe,   Tqven Tu gaigeT – meTqi. lalim da elisabedma damidastures. iakobs, ioanesa da giorgis araviTari gakvirveba ar gamouxatavT. Cemi azrebi maT xmamaRla gavuziare. maSin ioanem miTxra - beri samson siveris sityvas - `sulieri saqmianoba da masTan dakavSirebuli beroba~-s   mogitan, waikiTxe da bevr rames mixvdebio. marTlac meore dRes gamomitana. gavocdi, rom wavikiTxe, radgan manamde aseTi ram ar wamikiTxavs. `... beroba araa ierarqiuli safexuri eklesiaSi.   -   igi   w m i   d a n o b i s     gamorCeuli saxeobaa, amitom is SeiZleba,   n e b is m i e r   q r i s t i a n s   axasiaTebdes. Bberi SeiZleba iyos   u b r a l o   monazoni, romelsac aranairi samRvdelo xarisxi ar gaaCnia. Bberi SeiZleba iyos   e p i s k o p o s i.   beroba SeuZlia   q a l s a c ,   rogorc iyo netari praskovia ivanovna-`qristeSi salosi~ da kidev `... b e r i   -   u m a R l e s i   x a r i s x i s     T a v i s u f l e b i s   s i s a v s e s   i R e b s   d a   a r a a   S e z R u d u l i   a r a n a i r i   C a r C o e b i T ,   v i n a i d a n   i s   k i   a r   c o c x l o b s ,   a r a m e d   m a s S i     c o c x l o b s     q r i s t e .~
madloba RmerTs, rom is, rasac Cemi suli grZnobda mamaos mimarT da rac Cemi sulieri ganaTlebis simwiris gamo uWirda Cems gonebas, beri samson siversis madliT gonebisTvisac axsnili gaxda.

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2008 wlis ianvarSi mama giorgim qveda kidurebis venebis operacia gaikeTa.
klinikidan gamoweris Semdeg Tavisi ZmisSvilebis ojaxSi iwva. im periodSi mec tvinis Seryevis gamo siaruli akrZaluli mqonda. Zalian cudad viyavi, magram mamaosTan mainc gavbede misvla WognarSi. etyoboda, tkivili awuxebda, magram Cven mainc gagvaxalisa, xumrobda, Zvel ambebs ixsenebda. saocrad manugeSa, bolos gviTxra:
_ gagaxaroT RmerTma, rogor gavxalisdi Tqveni mosvliTo, kacs gana bevri ram unda am qveyanaze?..
  dagvloca da wamovediT. me isev woliTi reJimi unda ganmegrZo. mamao or kviraze cota met xans darCa WognarSi. miuxedavad imisa, rom mowameTaSi aranairi pirobebi ar gaaCnda, mainc maleve wamodga da taZarSi dabrunda:
_ ar SeiZleba Cemi yofna ojaxSi, boroti bavSvebs Seawuxebs, mecodebiano, -   gviTxra.
am periodSive `gaJona~ informaciam, rom noembris movlenebis Sesaxeb mamaos mier gamoTqmuli Sefasebis gamo, ufro ki   m e f i s   Taobaze winaswarmetyvelebis gamo, romelic maSin gazeTebSi daibeWda, mas eparqiaSi gaunawyendneno. es ambavi mainc Woris doneze rCeboda manam, sanam eparqiaSi ar daibares mamao da mere ki uwmindesTan ar gaagzavnes....
mama giorgi uwmindesTan Tebervlis dasawyisSi iyo. uwmindess siyvaruliT miuRia. mamao Zalian kmayofili dabrunda Tbilisidan:
_ namdvilad sapatriarqo pirovnebaa Cveni uwmindesi - Tqva mamaom _ brZeni, mSvidi, gulisxmieri... yuradRebiT momismina... mere miTxra: `TbilisSi gimkurnaleb, giorgi~... me viuare. didi xani visaubreT. Cveulad gamimaspinZlda. kargi Rvino SemomTavaza. ar vsvamdi, magram patriarqs uars rava vetyodi. bolos miTxra: `imsaxure, aranairi problema mowameTaSi ar geqnebao...~ damasaCuqra da wamovedi.
es ambavi Cven mogviyva. sami-oTxi dRe mamao ver vnaxeT. xuTSabaTs rom mivediT, iwva, fizikurad dasustebuli mogveCvena, arafers ambobda. am dros misi nacnobebi Semovidnen, moikiTxes da wlisTavze wayola sTxoves.   gardacvlili mamaos klaseli yofila, mamao Sewuxda:
  _ ra vqna, biWo, Joras wlisTavze rava ar mival, magram msaxureba maqvs akrZaluli. mitropolitma mRvdlis piriT SemomiTvala... ra ginda, ro qna kacma?!
  _ magas ver avuxsni ojaxs. cocxali TaviT me ver Caval uSenod. Cumad wagiyvan da mogiyvan, veravin gaigebso. _ Seexvewa nacnobi.
mamaos gaeRima:
      _ R m e r T i   xom xedavs, RmerTi!... rame ar Camidenia, magram eklesiis msaxuri episkoposs unda daemorCilos. gaarkveven!.. manamde me ase unda viyo. guli ki mwydeba. Joras panaSvids rafer ar gadavuxdidi...
nacnobi Sewuxda da uTxra: meufesTan mivalTo.
  _ ar ginda, ara, Torem aTas yurs moabamen mere am ambavs. wadiT, Cemgan sTxoveT mama iosebs (SalamberiZe) da is wagyvebaT. CaTvaleT, rom mec iq var. mere, fexze rom wamovdgebi, ojaxs   Tavad vinaxulebo...
mxolod maTi saubridan gavigeT, rom mamao dauyenebiaT. am informaciam Tavzari dagvca... mama giorgi daRonebuli iyo.
  _ ras izam, wesi wesia, msaxurebis ufleba amikrZales da mxolod am oTaxSi Zilis uflebaRa maqvs axla... - Tqva sevdamoreulma _ ara maqvs danaSauli, icis RmerTma. magram mainc mtkiva guli, am asakSi rom msaxurebis ufleba SemiCeres.
Cveni aRSfoTeba rom naxa, mkacrad gviTxra - ar daiwyoT rame tlikini, Torem aq meti ver SemoxvalTo. me aravis dacva ar mWirdeba, RmerTia Cemi damcveli. erTi ver gavige mxolod, uwmindesma aq damtova da quTaisSi mitropolitma amikrZala, ra `muxli~ devs am saqcielSi? _ mere ki ganagrZo, ra muxlic ar unda iyos, me ase yofna mevaleba. ra mRvdeli viqnebi, gamoZieba, Tavis marTleba da winaaRmdegoba daviwyo. ise adrec gamafrTxiles: `moeSvi gazeTebSi weraso“, -arada, ver gaigo am xalxma, me ki ar vwer... kaci rom modis, Cemi azri xom unda gamovxato. hoda, mec vilaparake, Caiweres da gamoaqveynes. mere raRa unda meqna?!...   ar vambob, Cemi sityvebi ar dauweriaT- meTqi. ki batono, Cemi sityvebia, magram me ki ar damivalebia, waiRe da gazeTSi gamoaqveyne-meTqi, dawera da daweros! mere ra moxda, boroti zraxviT xom ar dauweria im gogos. moewona mosazreba da dawera... xom ar gamovekidebodi, ratom qenio?! yvelas Tavisi azri aqvs. me Cemi azri vTqvi, dasamali araferi miTqvams. Cemi xalxis tkivili mec rom mawuxebs, imitom vTqvi, hoda, axlac mag sityvebze var. yovelTvis RmerTs vemsaxurebodi da ara dros, da arc `naCalnikebs~. wadiT axla Tqven da wesierad moiqeciT, nu mosdebT qveyanas `simarTlisTvis idvnebao~. wadiT da RmerTi male gaarkvevs yvelafers.!..
  daRonebulebi wamovediT. ori dRis Semdeg vewvieT. mama giorgi isev iwva... Zalian cioda, oTaxSi mas Rumeli ara aqvs, mxolod eleqtro `plita.~ deni ar iyo. sanTeli agvanTebina. raRac-raRaceebi gvqonda mitanili. ninom, romelic aq dagvxvda, wagvCurCula: mamao, meramdene dRea, arafers Wamso... ori dRis win verc ki SevamCnieT. visxediT ubrad ase, oci wuTi. mamaom siCume daarRvia:
_ Wrilobebi mawuxebs. xom ar `Camiwyves~ im eqimebma rame - siciliT Tqva mamaom. - aba, raxani gavida operaciidan da tkivilebi isev mawuxebso!
giam moridebiT uxsena, cxeli saWmeli gvaqvs motanilio. mamaom madloba gadagvixada da Tqva:
_ ar mimdis guli saWmelze da arc SevWam!.. roca mRvdeli ar swiravs, Znelia Tavis dacva borotisagan, am dros SimSilia saWiro!.. rac rom dro gadis, sul ufro mtkiva guli imaze, rac moimoqmedes, ver vxsni, vin akeTebs amas!..
am dRes cotaxans viyaviT.
  15 Tebervals didi Tovli movida. mowameTaSi manqana ver avidoda. deni isev ar hqonda mamaos. ar Wamda. Semdeg dReebSic Tovli da sicive SenarCunda. 20 Tebervals mama giorgis marjvena TvalSi Cini dauqveiTda da yurSic cudad esmoda. Cven mainc agvqonda saWmeli. is arafers ar Rebulobda, iwva bnel da civ oTaxSi. guli gvikvdeboda, magram mamaos verafers etyodiT. Canda, arc eparqiidan da arc adgilobrivi mamao didad ar dainteresebulan mama giorgis janmrTelobiT.
  mTeli oTxi dRe saSineli gaurkvevloba gvtanjavda... mamaom mowameTaSi asvla agvikrZala: _ meti aRar moxvideT... rac momiva, gaigebT. vnaxoT, vis mxares aris maRali RmerTi!...
quTaisSi nacnob moZRvrebs vTxoveT, gaegoT, ra mizeziT SeuCerda mama giorgis mRvdelmsaxureba. bevrs gaukvirda, bevrma ki gulistkivili gamoxata da aRgviTqva namdvili mizezis dadgena. erTxmad ki aRniSnavdnen, rom amis Sesaxeb araferi icodnen. samwuxarod, simarTlis dadgenaSi isinic ver dagvexmarnen, radgan bundovnad gvpasuxobdnen: `oficialuri sabuTi ar arsebobso...~ mxolod erTma diakonma pirjvari gamoisaxa da Tqva: `meufem namdvilad daayena mama giorgi `eklesiisTvis miuRebeli gamoTqmebisTviso~... roca vkiTxeT, romel `miuRebel gamoTqmebze~ iyo saubari, aRar gvipasuxa...   CvenTvis gaugebari darCa, ratom icoda amis Sesaxeb am diakonma da araferi icodnen im moZRvrebma, romelTac vkiTxeT...
24 Tebervals elene patriarqs Sexvda da yvelaferi moaxsena. uwmindesi Turme saqmis kursSi ar yofila... `ar aris marTalio!..~ _ uTqvams. magram,   rogorc sCans, reagireba maSinve moaxdina, radgan mitropoliti da kidev ramdenime sasuliero piri asulan mamaosTan da...
...meore dRes maias mamao gelaTis quCaze fexiT momavali SeuniSnavs. gaxarebulma CvenTan moirbina da gvaxara: mama giorgim damabara _ gadaeci Cvenebs, giorgi saqarTvelos daubrundao!.. mamaosTan ori dRis Semdeg avediT. mama giorgi ise mxned gamoiyureboda, TiTqos ori kvira arc eSimSilos da arc autanel pirobebSi ecxovros. Zalian gagvaxara. bevri gvesaubra.
aqve minda, yuradReba gavamaxvilo erT faqtze: SeiZleba, vinmes gadametebulad moeCvenos, an ubralo damTxvevad, magram mainc vityvi Cvens azrs: orkviriani Zlieri susxi da avdrebi im dResve Seicvala, rogorc ki mama giorgi wamodga da qalaqSi gamovida... Sua TebervalSi mze ise aTbobda qveyanas, maisi gegoneboda. aseTi saucxoo da mozeime amindi kidev xuTi dRe SenarCunda.
im mZime dReebSi erTma cnobilma pirovnebam, romelic udides pativs scems mama giorgis, CamoakiTxa mowameTaSi. igi Zalze SeSfoTebuli iyo mamaos mdgomareobiT da gviTxra: - ara mgonia, rac moxda, sagazeTo statiebis gamo xdebodes... es ufro `prevenciuli~ zomebia mamaos mimarT. `ufrosobas~ informacia aqvs, rom mama giorgis Sesaxeb wigni mzaddeba da viRaceebs xels ar aZlevs didi simarTlis gamoqveynebao. aman uneblied mainc aRZra CvenSi xorcieli SiSi. amis Sesaxeb mamaos verc verafers vetyodiT... maSin am pirovnebam gviTxra:
- nu geSiniaT!.. qarTvelebi didi xania rac simarTles elodebian da Tan ara mgonia, uwmindesi ver scnobdes mama giorgis da ar uyvardes is - isini xom Zvelebi ariano. Aam sityvebma sakmaod gagvamxneva.  
9 marts, didi marxvis wina dRes, mamaosTan mrevlidan Zalian bevrma moiyara Tavi.   mamaom didi ZaliTa da madliT agvavso. marxvisTvis gvakurTxa da Segvaxsena macxovris sityvebi: - `me Tu mdevnes, Tqvenc devnili iqnebiT da Tu qristes mxares xarT, nu daRondebiT da nu SeSindebiTo~. marxvasTan dakavSirebiT bevri darigeba mogvca. erT-erTi CvenTagani gaafrTxila:
  _ did marxvaSi, Tu gaZRebi, icode, momdevno ori dRe saerTod nu SeWamo. am marxvaSi gaiWirveT Tavi da naxavT, qriste RmerTi rogor gagaxarebT aRdgomis dRisTviso! Tqven axalgazrdebi xarT da zedmetad nu imarxvebT, Cemi marxva ki SimSilia. mxolod kvira dReebSi SevxvdeT erTmaneTso. mec unda movemzado, rom aRdgomisas erTi keTili `foquzi~ TqvenTvis gamoviTxovo RmerTisgano.
dagvloca da gamogviSva. SegweodeT yvelas mama giorgis locvis madli, rom Rirseulad SexvdeT qriste macxovris brwyinvale aRdgomis dResaswauls!
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5 maiss mamaosTan mosuli iyvnen pedagogebi. isini mamaos mokrZalebiT miesalmnen da kurTxeva iTxoves.
-oo!.. raRac magari SekiTxva mogaqvT, xom? – siciliT uTxra mamaom. saubarSi maT Zalze bevri SekiTxva dausves mamaos, mamaoc Tbilad da Tavis stilSi pasuxobda. bolos saubari `daTa TuTaSxias~ Seexo. maT bevri ram ainteresebdaT. maSin mama giorgi wamodga, Tarodan wigni gadmoiRo, gadaSala, miawoda da uTxra: sanam rames getyodeT nawarmoebze, xmamaRla wamikiTxeT romanSi moyvanili religiuri teqstebio. Suaxnis qalbatonma gamoarTva wigni mamaos da waikiTxa yvela religiuri teqsti (mec mizanSewonilad CavTvale da es teqstebi momyavs wignSi):
`daTa TuTaSxia~
gv. 3
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`...da iqmna kacTaTvis:
sindisi – niWad mxilebisaTvis TvisTa mankierebaTa, Zala – ilajad Tvisisave sulis xarvezTa daZlevisaTvis, sikeTe – unarad rgebisaTvis Tavisa, garna moyvasTaTvis rgebisa Sedegad; dedakaci – arsad mravlebisa da pirobad kacTa modgmis maradobisa; megobari – sazomad sulgrZelobisa da samJRavneblad Tavdadebisa Tvisisa; eri – asparezad piruTvneli msaxurebisa da msxverplad misvlisa; venaxi da mindori – adgilad daRvrisaTvis oflisa, ared gangebis nebis aRsrulebisa; puri da saqoneli yoveli – sazrdelad Tavisa da misaZRvnelad sxvaTaTvis; sofeli – sivrced migebisaTvis siyvarulisa, romeli iyo RmerTi.
iqmna yoveli martooden, viTarca zemore iTqva. rwmena da zne eseviTari iyo ganmjdar siyvarulad yovelsa asosa Sigan da siRrmeTa sulisasa kacTa. hyavda ersa ganmgeblad da moriged qveynierTa saqmeTa TvisTa Wabuki pirmSvenieri da raindi keTilaRnagi – TuTaSxa. ara iyo igi suldgmuli erTi da Ze xorcieli, aramed suli krebiTi, arsi myofi kacTa wiaRsa Sina, viTa waxnagTagani maTi upirvelesi.
Sva ama viTarebaman ersa Sigan sibrZne gonebisa, romelman: hpova marcvali veluri, qmna yanad da daudva kacTa purad arsobisa, Seipyra xari tramalsa zeda, Sinaur hyo da ganawesa gamwevad tvirTisa; aRago borbali da gasWra gza sanaTesaod tomTa Soris; iswava varskvlaveTi da mianiWa kacT unari amindTmetyvelebisa; moixelovna ruka slvad wyalTa da xmelTa zeda da mikvlevad ucnobTa erTa; SeTxza anbani gamocdilebisa da codnaTa aRnusxvad STamomavalTaTvis da gaaxara vazi madlisa aRsavlenad ama sibrZneTa momniWebelisad.
xedvida eri mas TuTaSxas gansxeulebuls, xorcqmnils da msaxlobels Tvissa taZarsa didebulsa Sina uflad siyvarulisa da hmorCilebda wessa dadebulsa misgan, viTarca wessa erTnebaobiTa rCeulisa xorcielisa mamisa...
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...odes knin iqmna zneoba da miitaca sulmokleman ufleba gansja-gangebisa saqmeTa, sulgrZelobisa mier gansagebelTa – hrqves kacTa:
- vieTTagan moviRo Cemda rgeba nivTieri, igini iyvnen moyvasni Cemni!
vinaTgan Semoadga moalye didi mecixovneTa ricxviT mcireTa – maT, romelni idges zneobasa Zvelsa zeda, eyoT ziani Zneli da darCa wiaRsa Sina kacTasa siyvaruli igi, viTa bolqvi umweo niadagsa zeda mwirsa da mousavalsa, da iqmna:
sindisi – cnebad gardasulTa JamTa da sityvaTRa saTrevad Zviris metyvelTagan; Zala – iaraRad daTrgunvisaTvis saTnoebisa sulsa Tvissa Sina da mimZlavrebisaTvis moyvasisa; sikeTe – niRbad avisa ganzraxvisa da qmnisa; dedakaci – ganmarTlebad meZavobisa da berwobisa; megobari – malamod SiSisaTvis wuTisoflisa da sagnad sxvaTa farulTa angarebaTa; eri – asparezad nivTTa moxveWisa da xnulad mimoTesvisaTvis sicruveTa; venaxi da mindori – adgilad moyvasisa naRvawis miTvisebisa; puri da saqoneli yoveli – Tavnad aRebisa sargebelTa da vaxSTa; sofeli – sivrced Suris mogebisa da siZulvilisa, raica iqmna RmerTad.
iqmna yoveli martooden, viTarca zemore iTqva da daixSo brwyinvaleba mzisa Wyrtialisagan oqroisa. rwmena da zne eseviTari ganjda siZulvilad yovelsa asosa Sigan da siRrmeTa sulisasa kacTa. aRiara erman ganmgeblad da moriged qveynierTa saqmeTa TvisTa urCxuli igi saSineli, sazrdeli misi – suli da xorci kacTa. muceli misi – aRuvsebeli marad. ara iyo igi arseba erTi da nadiri xorcieli, aramed suli krebiTi, arsi myofi kacTa wiaRsa Sina, viTa waxnagTagani erTi misi, ganZlierebuli aw.
Sva ama viTarebaman sibrjgue gonebisa, romelman: daidva puri arsobisa monobiTa mosapyrobad kacTa; ara kmasayofel eqmna xari da daadga uReli Svilsa Tvissa; aagora borbali iavarqmnad sxvaTa tomTa; moimarjva cavarskvlaveTisa codna morCilebisaTvis xalxTa; dalaxna wyalni da xmelni mozidvad davlisa da ilekroTa; ganswavlna erni momspolvelisa rwmenisa gansavrceleblad da axara vazi samebruveod modgmaTa.
xedvida eri mas urCxulsa gansxeulebuls, xorcqmnils da msaxlobels TvisTa sra-sasaxleTa Sina guSagad mamonisa da hmorCilebda wessa dadebulsa misgan, rameTu uCnda igi sawadel, Tuca sazrdeli misi – xorci da suli erisave.
maSin hrqva TuTaSxaman:  
- Seimusra siyvaruli, rameTu ara aqvnda mas satevari mZleveli. aRzevda urCxuli, rameTu ZalTa moryevniTa warstaca mxneoba mamrTa da qmna guli maTi dedal!
aRiRo Subi TuTaSxaman, aRmxedrda hunesa TeTrsa zeda da ganizraxa daTrgunva borotisa – ZaliTa TvisiTa, rameTu RmerTi ara iyo TuTaSxa...~
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`...miuxda TuTaSxa mas urCxulsa pirisagan cecxlgadmomdinares, STasca Subi xaxasa Sina, ganarTxo miwasa zeda da mohkveTa Tavi igi. uxarodis maT cota kacTa, romelni iyvnen farulad Tayvanismcemelni wesisa TuTaSxasi da hgonebdnen mas mxsnelad erisa.
garna feniqsebr aRsdga urCxuli da moiba erTisa mokveTilisa Tavisa wil Svidi. aRiZra TuTaSxa kvalad da Semusrna Svidive Tavi urCxulisa. movida sisxlisa Rvari da mdinare misi adidebuli gardavida napirTagan walekvad qveynisa. wariRo da danTqa sisxlman monagari mama-papaTa, arRa darCa mxvneli da arRa Seiqmna mocaleba TesvisaTvis. kacTa iwyes klva da musrva, rameTu edoT gulsa Sigan: romelTame ganzraxva eserigi mimarT sxvaTa; vieTni klvidnen ganurCevlad da scemdnen nadgursa, rameTu ganmdgar da ganyril iyvnen WeSmaritis daniSnulebisagan kacisa sofelsa Sina; sZuldaT yoveli, Tuca ara uwyidnen, rai surdaT, gardai klvisa da musrvisa da hqondaT ganmarTlebad borotebisa Tvisisa magaliTi TuTaSxasi, romelman ZaliTa daTrgunva izraxa urCxulisa.
xolo urCxulman yovelisa mokveTilisa Tavisa wil amoiyara Svidi da amodenjerve ganmravlda boroteba ersa Soris.
daeca zari TuTaSxas naxulisa gamo da moicva igi rwmenam, rameTu verca vin argos modgmasa kacTa, Tu ar kacmave.
ganizraxa TuTaSxaman, sulma krebiTma man, gardaqceva Zed xorcielad da iqmna TuTaSxa ganzraxvasa Tvissa Sina RmerTad!~
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`... maSin aRavlina RaRadisi TuTaSxam mimarT caTa:
- he, uzenaeso! ara sarTvelad Tavisa veziare fiqrTa; ara kvarTisaTvis Cem vbeWve qselni; ara Ziebad Surisa vec maxvilni da ara aTinaTisgan mojadoebiT gardviqmen Zed xorcielad, aramed snebaTagan gankurnebisaTvis modgmisa kacTa garna uqm meqmnen xmevani gonTa da ZalTa, vera moiRo nayofi keTili Teslman, romeli vbnie me, rameTu ara momec niWi gardaqcevisaTvis sikeTed borotebisa. aw, movel da momage xvedri Cemi da mivago nagramsa Sensa.
da ganisma xma:
- ara iyav Ze xorcieli da miT vera eziare siRrmeT kacTa bunebisa. warved da hpoveb meinaxeTa, romelni izraxvidnen ZRvnisa mirTmevas mavanisaTvis, garna mihqondeT ubiTa maxvili da flasTagan Zrcvidnen mas; ekrZalvodnen augis Tqmasa mimarT moyvasisa, garna amoxorvil hqondaT paRvi xorciTa misiTa da ewadoT met; hRaRadebdnen Tayvans RmrTisasa, garna sasoebdnen satanasa da mZlavrebas misas RmerTsa zeda. xolo Sen sdeq mkvidrad da uryevlad rwmenasa, viTarmed srulqmnisaTvis Rvawli ars WeSmariti daniSnuleba kacisa da dagesxmis niWi gardaqcevisaTvis sikeTed borotebisa!
mieca TuTaSxa nebiTa TvisiTa wamebasa umZimessa, sworad maTisa, romelni iyvnen eriskacni uwamebulesni. Semdgom martvilobisa ganmoefina Sublisa igurdiv naTeli sxivTa, ukumoiqca sofelsa da hrqva:
- esera, kacno! movel xsnisaTvis Tqvenda mZlavrebisagan urCxulisa. ha, magaliTi, viT ars jer misvla msxverplad moyvasisa TvisisaTvis, erisa maradobisaTvis, srulqmnisaTvis sulisa kacobriulisa!
moikveTa TuTaSxam Tavisive daSniTa mklavi marcxena, miugdo urCxulsa da danTqa man. moikveTes da miugdes maT cota kacTac da danTqa man. moikveTa TuTaSxam fexni orTav, miugdo urCxulsa da danTqa man; moikveTes da miugdes maTca da danTqa kvalad. Sedegad amisa icvala feri Tvisi sazizRari urCxulman da naklul iqmna Zali cecxlisa gadmomdinaresi xaxiT. ixila erman ese yoveli da romelTame agreTve aWmies asoni Tvisni mas urCxuls.
aRedgina urCxuli orTa fexTa zeda, viTa kaci, knin eqmna brWyalni da dingi misi gardaiqca saxed kacisa.
maSin ganipo mkerdi TuTaSxam, aRmoiglija guli Tvisi, uboZa urCxulsa, xolo ara danTqa man, aramed hrqva metyvelebiTa kacebriTa:
- arRa var mwyurvali sisxlTa, arRa miZs survili Wamad kacTa.
da mieca myis yvelakasa axali, romelTa moikveTes asoni Tvisni.
- ara hklaT kaci ese da aha, niWi Tqven, gardaqcevisaTvis sikeTed borotebisa.
dauteva sulman TuTaSxasaman xorcni miwasa zeda, aRevlina cad, dajda mTovared da iqmna Ze igi xorcieli RmerTad.  

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`daTa TuTaSxia~ - Tqva mamaom, – aris Zalian seriozuli, brZnuli, filosofiuri da amave dros Zalze religiuri nawarmoebi. Tu masSi sulieri TvalTaxedviT CaixedavT, Zalian bevr faqts aRmoaCenT Cemi sityvebis damadasturebels.
`daTa TuTaSxia~ aris me-20 saukunis `don-kixoti!~ xolo `don-kixoti~ religiuri wignia, igivea dostoevskis `idioti~.
wignSi keTilisa da borotis brZolaa gadmocemuli. daTa TuTaSxia iyo didi da keTili sulis pirovneba. gavixsenoT Tundac grafi segedis sityvebi: `misi popularoba da gavlena mosaxleobaSi uzomod didi iyo. am donemde asuli avtoritetebi stiqiuri areulobis dros brboTa beladebad iqcevian-xolme~.
daTa TuTaSxias istoria ar aris mxolod abragis istoria. es namdvili sulis miwieri yofis istoriaa da, rogorc wesi, yvela namdvil suls hyavs dedamiwaze Tavisi piradi mteric – didi Zalisa da SesaZleblobebis boroti sulic. daTas SemTxvevaSi misi piradi mteri da metoqe iyo muSni zarandia. gavixsenoT isev grafi segedis sityvebi muSnize: `rogorc erTxel oTxi-xuTi wlis win, isev momeCvena, rom muSni zarandia savarZelSi gorgaliviT ido da yeli hqonda moRerebuli~ da kidev - `Cemi gamozrdili lekvi xar, meve mogivli-meTqi, batono satanav~ (gv. 791)
muSni boroti rom iyo, icoda mefisnacvalmac. gavixsenoT erTi momentic, roca muSnim datova kavkasiis mefisnacvlis kabineti, man xeli daibana da amiT segedis uCvena, Tu rogor moicila sazizRari arsebis xelis WuWyi.
me RmerTma gamixsna daTa TuTaSxias namdvili istoria, romelic gansxvavdeba wigniseuli istoriisagan. rogorc iciT, muSni tyupiscaliviT hgavda daTas da am msgavsebiT moxerxebulad sargeblobda muSni. is daTas saxiTa da saxeliT abragobda, bevr codvas Cadioda, rom daTasTvis saxeli gaefuWebina. muSni Tavis pirutyvul vnebebs ikmayofilebda. muSnis daTasadmi mtrobis mizezi, garda sulieri da msoflmxedvelurisa, iyo aseve is, rom maT orives uyvardaT erTi qali. muSni iyo Zalze Wkviani, cbieri da veragi.
bevrs aRizianebs wignis finali – daTas aRsasruli. magram getyviT, namdvil istoriaSi, rogorc me RmerTma gamixsna, aris sul sxva finali – daTa ki ar mokla misma Svilma, aramed muSni mokla misma Svilma!.. xalxs ki egona, rom daTa, radgan muSni Zalze hgavda daTas!..
daTa bavSvs umamod gazrdida?!.. es xom saSineli Cagvraa! SemTxveviT rom gaego, SeiZleboda, Tavi moekla! daTas Svili daTasaviT meomari iqneboda! da kidev, daimaxsovreT – RmerTi keTilSobil gvars ar wyvitavs!.. rom siyvarulis gareSe amxela pirovneba da amxela asakSi ar midis am qveynad. viRac qali uyvarda da Svilic gaaCina!.. romeosa da julietas dasasruli araa qarTuli dasasruli!.. qarTuli siyvaruli aucileblad imarjvebs da Cndeba Svili!
da kidev erTi, moviyvanoT wignis religiuri teqstidan adgili: `miuxda TuTaSxa mas urCxulsa piridan cecxlgadmomdinares, STasca Subi xaxasa Sina, ganarTxo miwasa zeda da mohkveTa Tavi igi. uxarodis maT cota kacTa, romelni iyvnen farulad Tayvanismcemelni wesisa TuTaSxasi. da hgonebdnen mas mxsnelad erisa...~ kargad daakvirdiT am sityvebs - `farulad Tayvanismcemelni wesisa TuTaSxasi~ - ra weszea aq laparaki?.. xom vicnobT Cven melqisedekis wess! qarTvelebi xom melqisedekis modgmisani varT!.. arabebi Cven, qarTvelebs, dRemde melqisitebs gveZaxian!..
religiur teqstSi TuTaSxa amarcxebs urCxuls, xolo romanSi urCxuli amarcxebs daTas!.. namdvil istoriaSi ki daTa amarcxebs muSnis!..
qarTveli eri `daTa TuTaSxias~ sulieri arsis gaSfrviT iwyebs winsvlas sulier cnobierebaSi.
gulisyuriT waikiTxeT `daTa TuTaSxia~, Tan ramdenjerme!.. Wabua kargi kacia!.. didi xania, masTan Sexvedra msurs!..
romanis personaJTa saxelebic ar aris SemTxveviTi. sainteresoa, kacs erqva buda, xolo qals – budarixa!..
rogorc RmerTma gamixsna namdvil istoriaSi, xlistebi ki ar yofilan, aramed budistebi!
dRes yvelafers ver mogiyvebiT. Zalian Rrma nawarmoebia `daTa TuTaSxia!~
me, rogorc rigiTi qarTveli da mkiTxveli, Zalian gamaxara mama giorgis saubarma da aqve msurs, gavixseno mama nikolozis naambobi: mamaom ramdenime wlis win gviTxra, rom romanSi naxsenebi sololakis oTxsarTuliani saxli misTvisac axlobelia, iq aris Cawerili da cxovrobda   iq biZis – Jora WeliZis binaSi, WonqaZis 6-Si.
mama nikolozma isic gaixsena, Tu rogor uCvena mas Jora Ziam grafi segedis sacxovrebeli adgili. mama nikolozma gviTxra aseve, rom Jora WeliZis mogonebac aris Sesuli romanSi, ubralod, batoni Wabua yvela patara mogonebas xom ar daawerda saxelsa da gvarso. zustad ver vixseneb. Tu ar vcdebi, romanis winaTqmaze iyo laparaki.

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2008 wlis 20 ivnisi idga. Cven mowameTaSi mivediT mamaosTan. mamaos mnaxvelebi hyavda. isini fexburTze saubrobdnen. mamaom Cven dagvloca da saubari ganagrZo: `miSa mesxTan da slava metrevelTan vmegobrobdi. Tbilisis `dinamos~ Zalian bevr TamaSs davswrebivar, rogorc mRvdlobamde, ise mRvdlobaSic. imxanad me viyavi is mRvdeli, anaforiT stadionze matCebs rom veswrebodi. Cvens saxelovan kapitans, manuCar maCaiZes emaxsovreba dinamos gamarjveba baqos `neftCTan~. am TamaSsac veswrebodi da vloculobdi. maSin bevri usiamovneba Semxvda, rogorc sasuliero ierarqiisgan, aseve saero xelisuflebisganac. arada, me stadionze misvliT araferi codva ar Camidenia...
aseve viyavi sabWoTa kavSiris Tasis gaTamaSebis finalze, moskovSi. sadac Cveni   `dinamo~ moskovis `dinamos~ xvdeboda. maSin Cvenma damsaxurebulma mekarem da amave dros, keTili sulis pirovnebam, oTar gabeliam, penalebis seriaSi mogvapovebina gamarjveba. wesiT oTarsac unda axsovdes, man pirjvari rom gadaisaxa, `viRacas~ mohkra Tvali. im dRes RmerTma oTaris rwmenis gamoc dauSva Cvenze gamarjveba.
fexburTi didi sportia da, me Tu mkiTxavT, ara marto sporti, aramed xelovnebac. hoda, xelovneba ki RvTis niWiao - ase amboben.
Svidi wlis win erT-erTi taZris mrevli CemTan iyo mosuli da miTxra, rom moZRvarma fexburTis yureba televizorSic ki amikrZalao – eSmakisgan aris mogonilio! - ar varga ase!.. ver getyviT, is moZRvari dRes ra Wkuazea, magram eriskacs rom sporti aukrZala, ra karnaxiT xelmZRvanelobda?!..
sportsmenebi gana adamianebi ar arian?! RmerTi maT gadarCenaze ar zrunavs? gana sporti ar aris saWiro? roca banditebs, narkomanebsa da znedacemulobas miaqvs qveyana?! gana marto mowodebiT gamoasworeb xalxs?! raa kargi da raa cudi, gana cudis Camdenma ar icis? magram Zala ar hyofnis. wamxdaria da mowodeba ki ara, keTilisken xeli unda SeaSvelo. gavgiJdi kaci, roca erTma miTxra: Cemma moZRvarma bavSvebis qarTul cekvebze Seyvana amikrZalao. `cekva da rokva eSmakisganaao~. gagigiaT aseTi sibnele?! veWvob, es marto ucodinarobis gamo ar iyo. `viRaceebi~, didi xania, yovelive qarTulis ganadgurebiT arian dakavebuli da meti damajereblobisaTvis religiuri   `argumentebi~ da sasuliero pirebic hyavT CarTuli.
Cven didi sulis fexburTelebi gvyavda da gveyoleba. me sami biWi ukve aRmovaCine, romelic saqarTvelos nakrebSi msoflio Cempionatze iasparezebs. suliT me gavzrdi, xolo fizikurad mwvrTnelebi da vnaxoT, Tu mogverevian. (icinis)!
qarTvelisaTvis mTavari unda iyos RmerTi. yvela saqme qarTvelma RvTiT dakisrebuli sulieri misiis aRsrulebas unda moaxmaros. RmerTTan unda movagvaroT!.. sanam amas ver vizamT, didi warmateba arc sportSi da arc sxva rameSi ar gveqneba!.. daixsome, dRes gana SemTxveviTia, rom fexburTi ager 20 welia, `Cavardnilia?~ eZeben mwvrTnels da ra vici, ras kidev?! ar gamova araferi RmerTis gareSe. moedanze gamosvlis win naxevraddarcxvenili pirjvris gamosaxva ar Svelis am saqmes.
kargad gamigeT, saqarTveloSi jer yvelaze `popularulebi~ da `avtoritetebi~ sasuliero pirebi unda gaxdnen. wmida mRvdelmsaxurze didebi eris sxva profesiis warmomadgenlebi rom ar iqnebian, maSin ers mogvarebuli eqneba RmerTTan codva-madlis sakiTxebi. RmerTi ar dauSvebs, rom saqarTveloSi an fexburTi, an ragbi, an momRerali, an msaxiobi `gaakerpos~. geubnebi ager!.. daixsomeT es!.. roca Cveni xalxis yvela fena RmerTis uzenaesobas WeSmaritad aRiarebs da daemorCileba, roca mRvdelmsaxurebi namdvilebi iqnebian, Cven msoflio varskvlavebi gveyoleba fexburTsa da sportis yvela saxeobaSi, xelovnebasa da mecnierebaSi.
Cven fexburTSi msoflio Cempionebi gavxdebiT, amas mec moveswrebi. Tqven nu iciniT!.. saidumlos getyviT, dafaruli xuTi wmidani iqneba gundSi. RmerTi qarTvel peles gamoaCens. erTi wuTiT CagaxedaT namdvilebis samyaroSi, rogor advilad misaRwevia yvelaferi, roca RmerTTan xar. RmerTs rogor surs, qarTvelebi, es yvelaze natanji da qristes yvelaze erTguli eri, gamoaCinos da yvelaferSi pirveli amyofos... uRmerTod kars iqeT vaRebT, vjaxirobT, vkvdebiT da ver vaRebT `iqeT~, radgan `aqeT~ iReba TiTis odnavi SeRebiTac.
mamao am sityvebis Semdeg Cafiqrda. siCume Camovarda. maSin   erT-erTma axalgazrdam hkiTxa:
- mama giorgi, vis gulSematkivrobT am Cempionatze?
- me saqarTvelos vgulSematkivrob.
- evropis Cempionatze gkiTxeT. – gaumeora kiTxva axalgazrdam.
- gavige. –upasuxa mamaom mkacrad. am Cempionats me vyurob da Cemi locva imas mieweva, visac keTili suli meti hyavs gundSi, geyurebaT?
biWebs, etyobodaT, matCebis prognozebi ufro ainteresebdaT. amas mamao ki ara, Cvenc advilad mivxvdiT. arada, pirdapir amis kiTxvas ver ubedavdnen da `teqnikurad~ cdilobdnen. cota xnis Semdeg meore axalgazrdam gabedulad hkiTxa:
- mamao, vin gaxdeba wels evropis Cempioni?
mama giorgim mas TvalebSi Sexeda da mkacrad uTxra:
- ra ginda?!..
axalgazrda daibna. yvelam uxerxuloba vigrZeniT.
- me Sen marCieli xom ar ggonivar?! – mere toni Searbila da sicilnarevad uTxra:
- me Sens adgilze manqanas gavyiddi da espaneTze davdebdi... Sen izam amas?!
axalgazrdam mxrebi aiCeCa da gabzaruli xmiT uTxra, germania, holandia da italia rom ar iyvnen, kio. mamaos gaecina.
_ eseni rom ar iyvnen, cal karSi xom ar iTamaSebdnen... ese igi, holandia, ara?!.. xval rusebTan TamaSoben da zeg amodi CemTan. unda gnaxo, ra xasiaTze iqnebiT.
me Tavgadakluli gulSematkivari ar var, magram Zalian gamikvirda mamaos sityvebi, radgan holandiis nakrebTan gamarjveba albaT TviTon rusebsac ar sjerodaT. axalgazrdebi dabneulebi idgnen, mamao ki icinoda. mesame axalgazrdam, romelsac aqamde xma ar amouRia, mamaos seriozuli da cota ganmkiTxavi saxiT hkiTxa:
_ mamao, Tqven totalizatorSi fuls sdebT?!
_ rava, ar maqvs ufleba?! Tu Cems fuls nomeri ar aweria?!
axalgazrdam ukmayofilod Tavi gadaaqnia da Tqva:
_ me ase vici, rom sasuliero pirebs ara aqvT ufleba.
_ Sen maswavli, biWo mRvdels risi ufleba aqvs da risi ara?! ufleba aq ra SuaSia, ubralod unda gesmodeT, rom uSromeli fuli ar SegergebaT!!! geyurebaT?! – mere siciliT ganagrZo _ ase rom ar iyos, totalizatorebSi fulis mogebiT abramoviCsac movujokravdi. Tqveni saqmis Tqven iciT, me ki, biWebo, espaneTs davexmarebi!!! me amiT im espanel mxatvars vuxdi vals, romelmac oTxmocian wlebSi fexiT mimavals suraTebi gadamiRo.
erT-erTma, TiTqos Tema miewodao, mamaos didis mondomebiT hkiTxa:
_ mamao, amboben, Turqebs molebi, astrologebi da kidev jadoqrebi exmarebiano. Tqven Tu daijerebdiT amas?
mamaom seriozuli saxiT uTxra:
_ raa magaSi daujerebeli. exmarebian, aba ra!.. `sulieri damxmareebi~ hyavs brazilias, argentinas, laTinuri amerikis qveynebs; evropelebsac, afrikelebze xom laparakic zedmetia, imaT jadoqrebisa da `kudianebis~ meti ra hyavT. Cven aTeisti qveyana rom viyaviT, Cven ar gvwamda, ise ki, gulSematkivrebi fexburTs rom uyurebdnen,   qe abrunebdnen qudebs waRma-ukuRma, skamebsac, Savi kata da erTi ambavi... Turqebi loculoben, babua, naxeT, mTeli TurqeTi loculobs TamaSis win, es energiaa!.. sxva sakiTxia, Tu vin ismens maT locvas da vis miudis is!.. magram roca iTxoven, viRac aucileblad exmarebaT da usrulebs am Txovnas!..
jadoqrebs Tavadac aqvT eSmakis Zala, Tu maTi Zala mowinaaRmdege gundidan aravin dabloka, maT saocari golebis gatanac SeuZliaT. es crurwmena ki araa! gaaCnia, ra donis `jadoqaria~, Zalis ra dones flobs, materiaze zemoqmedebis ra unari gaaCnia. fsiqikur zemoqmedebaze laparakic ki zedmetia... dRes yvela gunds hyavs sulieri `damcvelebi~ da roca gundebi Tanabari donis arian, maSin swored am sulieri `damxmareebis~ urTierTbrZolas aqvs gadamwyveti mniSvneloba. karg fsiqologebs SeuZliaT, gundis fsiqologiuri ganwyoba uzrunvelyon matCis win, magram rogorc ki didi Zalis zewola wamova, aq fsiqiuri `momzadeba~ veras gaxdeba. astrologs ki SeuZlia, urCios, romeli fexburTeli gaiyvanos mwrTvnelma konkretul TamaSze, an icodes, - moigebs Tu waagebs esa Tu is gundi konkretul TamaSs, magram ara mgonia, astrologebma matCis win gundis xelmZRvanelobas wagebis ambavi auwyon.
me geubnebiT, Cven gundi ver dagvamarcxebs!.. kidev gimeorebT, mTavaria eris sulieri misiis gacnobiereba da aRsruleba!.. RmerTisgan ufleba, Torem Cven sakmao wmidanebi gvyavs saimisod, rom dablokon jadoqrebis, `eqstrasensebis~, molebis da astrologebis Zalebi da aseve aseulaTasobiT gulSematkivris sulieri zewola, roca, ra Tqma unda, gundic keTilsindisierad da saTanadod iqneba momzadebuli, rogorc fizikurad, ise sulierad.
daumsaxureblad SeiZleba, erT TamaSSi dagexmaron, isic, viRaceebis sulieri tanjvis xarjze. usamarTlobas RmerTisagan ver gamoiTxov, babua!
roca `Samanebi~ da kidev viRac-viRaceebi daexmarnen gundebs, TavianTi boroti Zalebis gamoyenebiT, swored magitom dafiqsirda amdeni gulSematkivris dauZlurebisa da gardacvalebis faqtebi wlevandel Cempionatze. es maT `mogebis~ sixaruliT ar mosvliaT. boroti suli sanacvlos iTxovs. borotebi aravis arafers ar Cuqnian. maT adamianTa sulebi moiTxoves am daxmarebis sanacvlod da waiyvanes kidevac! Cveni wmidanebi eris daxmarebaze muSaoben, codva-madlis   gasworebaze, sulieri Waobidan Cvens gamoyvanaze. eri ukve iwyebs sulierad welSi gamarTvas. kidev cota da wmidanebi `fexburTisTvisac~ moiclian... mere vnaxoT.
didia mwvrTnelis roli. igi aucileblad suliT namdvili unda iyos! man piradad unda gauZlos mowinaaRmdegis sulier zewolas. dRes yvelafers ver mogiyvebiT. ise marto Tqven ki ar fiqrobT fexburTze, wmidanebi CaerTvebian am saqmeSi (icinis). moedanzec brZolaa keTilsa da borots Soris. burTi da moburTave - es sulieri terminebia. qarTvelebi fexburTs saukuneebis manZilze vicnobdiT, ufro adre, vidre ingliss, evropas da, ra Tqma unda, amerikas. mwvrTnelebs sulieri xedva rom hqonodaT, penaltebis serias ar waagebdnen. safrangeTi italiasTan ar waagebda msoflio Cempionatis finals!... dRes gveyofa, Torem, rom gamigon, Celsis mwvrTnelad gamaqanebdnen, mere ra geSvelebodaT Tqven (icinis).
axalgazrdebis wasvlis Semdeg mamaom CvenTvisac moicala, pirad sakiTxebze pasuxebi da rCevebic mogvca, magram me ufro fexburTze saubris STabeWdilebiT movdiodi mowameTidan. imedia, Cvens sportsmenebs waadgebaT mamaos sityvebi, ufro ki   - misi piradad gacnoba.
me, samwuxarod, srulad mamaos saubris verc damaxsovreba SevZeli da miT umetes, verc qaRaldze gadmotana. vfiqrob, igi Zalian sasargeblo iqneboda qarTuli fexburTisa da aseve fexburTis mesveurTaTvis.

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2008 wlis 20 maisi iyo. mama giorgi ber daviTs da ioanes esaubreboda. daaxloebiT erT saaTSi beri daviTi wavida. mamao oTaxidan gamovida, Cvenc gamovyeviT. monastris ezodan gavida da cacxvis ZirSi dadga. saubari ganagrZo. Cveni saubaris dros caze, Zalze dabal simaRleze samxedro vertmfreni gamoCnda, mamaom Tvali gaayola. mere Tavi gaaqnia da Tqva: `hm!.. dagvartyamen!.. is ZaRlisTava kaci!..~ - Cven verafers mivxvdiT. maSin iakobma hkiTxa: `mamao, rusebze ambobT?~ - mamaom pasuxi daayovna da mogvianebiT gviTxra: `aba, CineTi ver mogvwvdeba Cven! rusebze vambob, rusebze!.~ - maSin iakobma TavdajerebiT uTxra: `rusebi ver gagvibedaven, mamao.~ - am sityvebze mama giorgim Tavi ukmayofilod gaaqnia da iakobs mkacrad uTxra: `ra ici Sen, rusebi ras gabedaven da ras ara!.. Sen ki ara, maT msofliom ver gaugo ra!.. geubnebiT, dagvartyamen!.. Tbilissac daartyamen, da saerTod saqarTvelos daartyamen! im ZaRlisTavas piradi RvarZli aqvs qarTvelebis, politika romc gamoricxo. ruseTi didi xania, rac ukan ixevs da es saSiSia msofliosTvis. ruseTi ruseTia, axla mas unda, yvelas daanaxos, rom Tavisufalia Tavis qmedebebSi, rom is isev imas izams, rac surs – me isev didi ruseTi varo – hoda, saCveneblad Cven wamogvartyams! hm!.. aq sxva muxli devs!..~ - maSin iakobma uTxra: `msoflio ras etyvis, mamao, ase rom moiqces?~ – msoflios imedi gaqvs, bijo, Sen Tu RmerTis?~ - upasuxa mamaom, - yvela Tavis Tavze zrunavs! ar iciT, biZia, Tqven ruseTi!.. dagvartyams, mara, vnaxoT!.. yvelas saqarTvelo unda, iseve, rogorc Zvelad!.. radgan saqarTvelos gareSe veravin gaxdeba msoflios mbrZanebeli! es yvelam icis, rogorc ruseTma, ise amerikam! sacodavebi!.. erTs ver xvdebian – CvenTan brZoliT RmerTs ebrZvian!.. hoda, Tavad uweriaT bedis wignSi ngreva, wioki da gadaSeneba... isev Cveni `gawiTleba~ undaT!.. didi xmauri iqneba!.. didi Wkuaa saWiro!.. antiqriste rusebis xeliT sxvanairad gvebrZvis, xolo amerikelebis xeliT _ sxvanairad. Tan `arCevans~ gvitovebs: `erTi borotia, meore ki keTilio!..~ aseT dros adamianuri Wkua ar yofnis _ aq namdvilebis sibrZnea saWiro. yvela saqmes aqvs Tavisi dadebiTi da uaryofiTi mxare. cudi isaa, rom dagvartyamen, magram am dartymiT mTeli msoflio metad gaicnobs saqarTvelos da gamoiRviZebs!..~
mamao kidev karga xans gvesaubra. mere wamovediT. mama giorgis sityvebisa, ra Tqma unda, gvjeroda, magram rusebisagan moulodneli dartyma ratomRac gonebamde ver dadioda, albaT imitom, rom amis dajereba aRar gvindoda. Tan maisis Tve idga da rame saSiSroeba ar SeiniSneboda!
19 ivliss platoni, mzia, iakobi da beJani mama niklozTan (maqaraSvili) iyvnen borjomSi. mama nikolozi ager ukve mesame welia, rac mdumarebaSi imyofeba. mamaos CvenebisaTvis xels TiTebiT dauTvlia 1,2,3 da saCvenebeli TiTis moZraobiT miuniSnebia gasrolaze. Tavidan dabneulebs ukiTxavT mamaosaTvis: `omi, mamao?~ – mama nikolozs Tavis moZraobiT daudasturebia da didxans Cafiqrebuli da daRonebuli mjdara usityvod. es sami TiTi iakobma `gagviSifra,~ rogorc sami Tve. Cven Zalze SeSfoTebulni viyaviT, radgan ukve meored gvesmoda omze, Tan iseTi mamebisagan, romelTa sityvebi, rogorc wesi, ar cuddeba. iakobi Zalian ganicdida imas, rom nikolozi Zalze Cafiqrebuli da sevdiani yofila – miuniSnebia, didi sulieri simZime maqvso!
dadga agvistos Tve. yvelam icis, rac moxda!.. suli eniT aRuwerel tkivils ganicdida. atmosferoSi raRaca boroti Zala daZrwoda da CaylapviT gvemuqreboda TiTqos. yvelaferi Secvlili meCveneboda. es mxolod xiluli omi ar yofila – tankebiTa da TviTmfrinavebiT, aramed raRac saSineli, Zlieri suli gvebrZoda da ganadgurebiT gveqadneboda. pirveli, rac gavakeTe am sazareli ambis gagebisTanave, iyo is, rom avedi mama giorgisTan. mamao, rogorc wesi, sul imediania, Zlieri da daumarcxebeli da gvindoda mamaos naxva, raTa es SiSi da sulieri dabneuloba dagveZlia. mivediT. mama giorgi daRonebuli Canda. arafers ambobda. verc me gavbede xmis amoReba. Cvens gasakvirad, mama giorgi am dRes nametnavad `Cveulebrivi~ Canda, TiTqos es misi didi Zala masTan ar iyo. am mdgomareobam guli sul SemiZrwuna.
- ra xdeba Cvens Tavs, aniCka? – TiTqos moridebuli kiloTi ikiTxa mama giorgim. me simwriT mxrebi aviCeCe, meti veraferi vuTxari.
- rodis Camodis is Savi qali, Tu ici? – im wuTas ver mivxvdi, vis Sesaxeb meubneboda. mxolod mogvianebiT mivxvdi, rom kondoliza raisze mkiTxa. ar vici, jer ar gamoucxadebiaT-meTqi, vupasuxe.
- oo – is magari qalia, rom icode! - miTxra mamaom.
- ar vici, mamao, qali ki ara, mgoni wmidanebic ar gviSvelian-meTqi, vupasuxe. ar vici, ase ram maTqmevina, roca mamaosTan Cveulebrivad xmis amoRebasac ver vbedav. Tan isic gamikvirda, rom Cems am kadnier sityvebze mamaos araviTari reaqcia ar hqonia.
- ras izam! yvelaferi RmerTis xelSia. – isev daRonebulma Tqva mama giorgim. – magra gvirtyamen, ara? – ki, magra gvirtyamen, magram Cvenebic kargad pasuxoben Turme, mamao, - vuTxari.
- aba, ra iqneba, axla qarTveli iomebs!.. – miTxra. me videqi. guli mewvoda, magram verafers vekiTxebodi. mamaoc raRac uZluriviT idga. TiTqos saubaric ar undoda. me cremlebi wamomivida. mamaom Semxeda da miTxra:
- daRaluli var. suli dafleTiliviT maqvs. erTi vinme ar aris aqeT, rom cota SemeSvelos, sul marto miwevs am veSapebTan omi! erTi kviriT adre daviwye SimSiloba, sanam wiTlebi Semovidodnen, magram qari mainc ver SevaCere. xedav, ra qaria?!.. didi Zalaa qari. weria, ilia da enuqi rom gamoCndebian, maSin wiTlebi iqnebiano! – mamaos am sityvebma sul SemiZra suli. Sinagani janyi momawva da mamaos vuTxari: `rusebis batonobis atana meti ar SeiZleba, mamao. es RmerTma ar dauSvas, ra!..~ TiTqos Cemi piriT sxva bedavda am sityvebs mamaos win. mamaom Caicina da miTxra: `Jana d’arki qarTveli xom ar iyo, aniCka?!~ mere ganagrZo: `ra Wkuazea TavadiSvili, isic partizanul jars xom ar agrovebs?~ - iakobze mkiTxa.
- wadi axla Sen, wadi!.. moverevi mag qars, icode!.. Tqva es Tu ara, isev `Zvelma~ mama giorgim gamoixeda.
- icode, mag wignSi kargi rameebic weria saqarTveloze. RmerTTan omi vis mougia!..
me kurTxeva aviRe da wamovedi. mdgomareoba yoveldRiurad uaresdeboda. rusebi Sevidnen gorSi, senakSi, foTSi. dabombvebi. TbilisSi situacia ukiduresad mwvavdeboda. gamudmebiT mirekavdnen Tbilisidan – mama giorgi ras ambobso? – mekiTxebodnen. me mama giorgisTan ver avdiodi...
mxolod 17 agvistos movaxerxe mamaosTan asvla. mama giorgi karg ganwyobaze iyo. imedi mogveca.
- ar arian rusebi marTlebi!.. hoda, sasjeli saqme aqvT Cadenili!.. mokiTxavs RmerTi da RmrTismSobeli! rusebma Tavis naTliebs gvesrola!.. im dRes gamogcade, aniCka, ras ityodi. is me galaparake! axla damigde yuri, ra giTxra: am omiT iwyeba saqarTvelos gabrwyineba. meomrebi, brZolis velze dacemulni, sasufevelSi iqnebian! ise, xom gvanaxa RmerTma, rom cota gvaqvs rwmena! omi saSinelebaa, magram omi rwmenas umatebs adamianebs, aseve urTierTsiyvaruls, Tanadgomas, omi aaxloebs adamianebs... im dRes ar giTxari araferi, roca ambobdi – wmidanebic ar gvexmarebiano; swored wmidanebi gvexmarebian da amas bevri igrZnobda am brZolebSi... wmidanebma aRZres qveynebi da maTi xelisuflebi, rigiTi adamianebi saqarTvelos dasacavad. wmidanebi moqmedeben msoflioSi Cvens sasikeTod! aba, rogor ggonia! saqarTvelos ar gaswiravs RmerTi. eg omi damarcxeba araa! am omiT ruseTis didi damarcxeba iwyeba!.. Cveni brZola samarTliania! Cven TavisuflebisTvis vibrZviT! Tavisufleba RmerTis iseTive Tvisebaa, rogorc siyvaruli, Zliereba da simarTle! TavisuflebisTvis brZolas Tavad RmerTi moiTxovs Cvengan! amitom, vinc TavisuflebisTvis kvdeba, iseTive gmiria, rogorc isini, vinc rwmenis, siyvarulis da simarTlisaTvis dasdes Tavi.
Tavisufleba araferSi gaicvleba! misi Canacvleba rameTi SeuZlebelia! amitom, qarTvelebma gamocdas unda gavuZloT! mtris dartymam ar unda Searyios Cveni swrafva Tavisuflebisaken! boroti swored amas urtyams! rom Semdgom, Seryeulebs, miwieri `keTildReoba~ SemogvTavazos! Tu Tavisuflebis Jini Segverya, Tavisufali verasdros gavxdebiT! qarTvelis gulSi Tavisuflebis cecxli Cauqroblad unda enTos, radgan Tavisufleba iseve aucilebelia erisTvis, rogorc rwmena, siwminde da sikeTe. visac TavisuflebisaTvis Tavis dadeba ar SeuZlia, is Tavisufali ver gaxdeba! SiSi monobaa! qristes msaxuri ar SeiZleba, rom laCari iyos!
veravin miaRwevs Tavisuflebas RmerTis gareSe! qriste brZanebs – me gagaTavisuflebT Tqveno! – qristes morCilebis gareSe veravin gaxdeba Tavisufali!
Tavisufleba upirveles yovlisa sulis ganTavisuflebas gulisxmobs, sulis ganTavisuflebas codvebisagan, borotisagan da wuTisoflis sacTurisagan! Tavisufleba farTo mcnebaa, viwro gagebiT Tavisufleba mxolod motyuebaa Tavisa! erma SeiZleba, miaRwios politikur damoukideblobas, magram Tavisufali ver gaxdes, Tan es damoukidebloba droebiTi iqneba! sulierad Tavisufali eri moipovebs saxelmwifoebriv Tavisuflebas! codvisa da eSmakis tyveobisagan ganTavisuflebuls, SeuZlia, moipovos saxelmwifoebrivi Tavisufleba, amitom TavisuflebisaTvis brZola politikiT ki ar unda iwyebodes, aramed eklesiiT!.. ebraelma erma   politikuri
Tavisufleba arCia qristes mier SemoTavazebul sulier Tavisuflebas, rac, ra Tqma unda, politikur Tavisuflebamdec miiyvanda maT!
qristes gza rTulia, magram is saboloo da srul Tavisuflebamde miiyvans ers!
sulierad Tavisufal ers aniWebs RmerTi saxelmwifoebriv Tavisuflebas! gana uRmerTod gvCagraven?.. gana RmerTi ver xedavs Cvens yofas? an uxaria RmerTs Cveni tanjva? – ara! magram tanjviT RmerTi Tavs gvaxsenebs!.. tanjviT RmerTi WeSmariti Tavisuflebisken gveqaCeba! gviWirs imitom, rom sulier wrTvnaSi zarmacebi, daudevrebi, ugulisyuroni aRmovCndiT!
erma srulad unda gaacnobieros misi sulieri misia! misi davalebebi da sulis cxonebis aucilebloba da kidev is, Tu ras iTxovs RmerTi Cvengan, ra surs RmerTs! Tu RmrTiT gansazRvrul gzas avcdiT, ra sargeblobas mogvitans droebiT politikuri damoukidebloba!
CavixedoT sakuTar TavSi, da gulwrfelad vaRiaroT, amdeni tanjva-wamebis Semdeg, ramdeni procenti Cveni adamianebisa, WeSmaritad acnobierebs RmrTis moTxovnas, sakuTar misias, Tavis codvilianobas?! ramdeni procenti zrunavs sulier Tavisuflebaze?
Tu piruTvnelad CavixedavT, maSin aRmovaCenT, rom vera varT yoCaRebi!..
marto pirjvris gamosaxva araa TavisuflebisTvis sakmarisi. arc eklesiaSi zereled misuli adamianebis simravlea ramis mTqmeli. eris WeSmariti lakmusi, icodeT, aris xelisufleba da sulieri winamZRvrebi.
morwmune ers hyavs morwmune xelisufleba da morwmune moZRvrebi. Tu eri moklebulia WeSmarit sulier xedvas, is verasodes moiyvans morwmune da RvTis saTno xelisuflebas. roca eri RmerTs ar ekiTxeba, vin da rogori xelisufleba surs RmerTs, is ver miiRebs iseT xelisuflebasa da sulier winamZRvrebs, romelic ers WeSmariti TavisuflebisTvis brZolaSi gamarjvebas moutans.
sanam eri ar daekiTxeba RmerTs, manam xelisuflebaSi sul movlen isini, vinac ufro moxerxebulia, visac meti fuli aqvs, visac ucxoeli `biZebi~ moxedaven mowyale da angari TvalebiT.
RvTivkurTxeul mefes RmerTi mxolod maSin miscems ers, roca eri gaacnobierebs Tavis sulier misias da WeSmariti TavisuflebisaTvis brZolis aucileblobas.
eri RvTis moxedvis Rirsi unda gaxdes! qarTvelma unda gaacnobieros, rom sakuTari sulis ganTavisuflebaze brZola da Sroma marTebs da am sulieri garjis sanacvlod gviwyalobebs RmerTi saxelmwifoebriv Tavisuflebasac.
WeSmariti xelisufleba RmerTiT daiwyebs TavisuflebisTvis brZolas da RmrTis SewevniT daagvirgvinebs am brZolas.
dRes ki sulieri xedvis uqonel adamianTa marTva advilia!.. sulier xedvas ki WeSmariti sulieri garja, qristes gziT siaruli iZleva.
Cveni mizani maradiuli sicocxlea, aqeTken unda iyos TiToeuli qarTvelis mTeli Zalisxmeva mimarTuli. am gzaze swori nabijebiT siaruli aucileblad migviyvans saxelmwifoebriv Tavisuflebamde. `me gaganTavisuflebT Tqven~ - brZanebs qriste RmerTi. da rom qristem gagvanTavisuflos, unda vicnobdeT mas. da mas unda vevedroT da davujeroT da mivendoT mas!   `ara yoveli momixmobdiT me - roca ambobdiT, ufalo, ufalo~ – gvafrTxilebs qriste RmerTi!
mxolod qriste iZleva namdvil   Tavisuflebas da ara amerika, ruseTi, nato da evrokavSiri. uRmerTod karis zRurblamdec ver mivalT, ara Tu natoSi SevalT!.. magram Tu RmerTma ganigula CvenTvis nato, natoSi mainc SevalT – ruseTi ki ara, TviTon eSmakic rom dagveWidos!.. amis dajerebas ki rwmena unda, RmerTis yovlisSemZleobis gacnobiereba, gaTaviseba da dajereba. aseT rwmenas ki saRmrTo Sroma da tanjva iZleva.
vinc sulieri TavisuflebisTvis iwyebs brZolas, is RmerTiT miaRwevs, rogorc sulier, ise politikur Tavisuflebas, magram vinc sulis TavisuflebisaTvis brZoliT ar iwyebs, is dakargavs rogorc sulieri, ise politikuri Tavisuflebis mopovebis Sanss!
`saqarTvelo gabrwyindeba~ - es sworad unda gvesmodes. es ise ki ar unda gavigoT, TiTqos erT mSvenier dRes gaviRviZebT da aRmovaCenT, rom saqarTvelo savsea dovlaTiT, soflebi - yovelnairi nayofis siuxviT; qalaqebi - fabrikebiT da qarxnebiT; supermarketebi - gamotenili kargi da iaffasiani produqtiT. adamianebi - saTnoebiT aRsavseni. boroteba   - gamqrali; `cecxli - TavisiT danTebuli~ da `xorci - TavisiT moxarSuli~. ase es ar moxdeba!.. mxolod dauRalavi, Segnebuli, mizanmimarTuli saRmrTo SromiTa da brZoliT gabrwyindeba saqarTvelo, da ara `keTili jadoqris~ erTi xelis mosmiT!..
`saqarTvelo gabrwyindeba~ - yoveli WeSmariti qarTvelisaTvis es sanukvari sityvebi, imedi da RvTismSoblis aRTqma lamis politikur `sloganad~ aqcies urwmuno da usiyvarulo adamianebma dRes! gana es ar aris sasjeli?..
eri roca WeSmarit sulier garjaSi iqneba da sulier safexurze aiweva, SeZlebs vinme, gaataros Tavisi neba saqarTveloSi?! – ara, babua!..
me erTxel giTxariT, TavisuflebisaTvis brZolis bedi caSi wydeba! jer codva unda davamarcxoT da mere movipovebT Tavisuflebas.
ganusazRvrelia eklesiis roli TavisuflebisaTvis brZolaSi! eklesiis movaleobaa, gaarkvios eri, Tu riT daiwyos brZola TavisuflebisaTvis!.. Caabas adamiani sulieri brZolisa da Sromis ferxulSi! sworad warumarTos adamianebs svla, ucdomelad ataros sulieri misiis aRsrulebis gzaze; miiyvanos adamiani Tavisuflebamde! Tavisuflebamde mxolod is moZRvari migiyvanT, romelic TviTonaa Tavisufali! sasuliero pirma unda SeZlos adamianis qristes mxedrobaSi Caricxva, roca amisi survili Tavad adamians gaaCnia!
qriste RmerTi uZlieresi strategicaa da taqtikosic. is oms ar waagebs, is migviyvans rogorc sulier, aseve politikur Tavisuflebamde da misi zeciuri samefos moqalaqeobasac mogvaniWebs!
saubris bolosken mamaosTan movidnen ukraineli stumrebi, romelTac humanitaruli tvirTi CamoetanaT imereTis regionisTvis. mamao am dRemde SimSilobda, magram stumrebisaTvis wiTeli, sufTa Rvino gamoitana. madloba gadauxada ukrainelebs da uTxra, qarTvelebisTvis Tqven sul Zmebi iyaviT da saqarTveloc Znelbedobis Jams ukrainas daufasebs am Tanadgomaso. maTi saubari grZeldeboda, Cven ki kurTxeva aviReT da wamovediT.
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2008 wlis ivnisis bolos gamoica mama giorgize wigni: `qarTveloba Znelia, magram aucilebeli~, rasac Zalze urTierTsapirispiro gamoxmaureba mohyva. bevrma wigni miiRo da Seiyvara kidevac, bevri ki `sicofes~ aSkarad gamoxatavda.
pirveli, rac wignis gamoCenas mohyva, is iyo, rom mama giorgis isev aekrZala wirva-locva, da laparaki ukve taZridan mis saerTod gaSvebaze daiwyes.
quTaisSi raRac `manqana~ amuSavda. `operatiulad~ iqnen gafrTxilebuli rogorc saeklesio, ise saerTod wignis maRaziebi, rom es `mowamluli~ wigni ar daedoT!
gafrTxilebuli iyvnen taZrebis winamZRvrebic. sasuliero pirTa nawili aSkarad gamoxatavda wignis mimarT uaryofiT damokidebulebas, nawili ki ufro `delikaturad~ moiqca – urCies mrevls, Tavi Seekavebina wignis kiTxvisagan, sanam `zemodan~ ar miiRebdnen Tanxmobas. daiwyo devna, rogorc mama giorgisa, ise wignisa. gavrcelda xalxSi mama giorgize axal-axali Worebi, Tan yovlad umsgavso da mzakvruli.
`mowameTas~ sasuliero pirebi da morCilebi iq misul xalxs afrTxilebdnen – suli ar daeRupaT mama giorgisTan urTierTobiT, radgan mama giorgi urevs marTlmadideblobaSi, ris gamoc mitropolitma kalistratem SeuCera mRvdelmoqmedebao. rom mama giorgi xiblSia, rom qali Sehyavs sakurTxevelSi da udierad eqceva sefiskverso da kidev aTasi ram, rac arc daiwereba... sagulisxmoa isic, rom yovelive amas isini daufaravad akeTebdnen, ese igi amaze hqondaT nebarTva, ase vTqvaT, kurTxeva!..
saocari isic iyo, rom es `manqana~, winaswar kargad momzadebuli, daxvda wignis gamoCenas. ase vTqvaT, `yvela arxi gadaketili aRmoCnda~. Zalze `efeqturad~ da `nayofierad~ mimdinareobda mamaos `diskreditaciac~ da wignis `Camowerac~. quTaisSi mama giorgis erTma nacnobma qalbatonma wigni dado saeklesio maRaziaSi. meore dResve `daadgnen~ am qalbatons da mosTxoves wignis saswrafod amoReba, rom mas saqme ar garTuleboda. qalbatoni ki iZulebuli gaxda, `daxlqveSeTidan~ gaeyida wigni. erT-erT aseT faqts piradad me Seveswari. wignis maRaziaSi Semovida saero tansacmelSi gamowyobili Sua xnis wverosani, romelmac wigni moiTxova, mere mrisxanebiT gadaaTvaliera saxeldaxelod da gamyidvels mimarTa: `amis gayidva rogor SeiZlebao! raRac urTierTgamomricxavsa da miuRebels wers giorgio. Tan rogor gabedes, `madlmosili~ rom miuweriaT Cveulebrivi mRvdlisTviso.~ kidev karga xans ifxana guli brazmoreulma kaca. me brazisagan ar vicodi, ra meqna, magram TavSekaveba vamjobine. ise ki vapirebdi Tqmas. mRvdeli rom madlmosili iyos, gasakviri ratom unda iyos saqarTveloSi? an Tu mRvdeli madlmosili ar aris, rogor SeiZleba iyos mRvdeli? an ra aZlevs adamians mRvdelmoqmedebis uflebas, Tu ara da suliwmindis madli?! Tu xeldasxmisas mRvdeli suliwmidis madls iRebs, ra, ar iqneba is madlmosili? gamyidveli qalic daizafra: `marTla rogor SeZleboda, mamaoze madlmosili rom dauweriaT avtorebs?! an wigni rogor daweres, wigni gardacvalebis mere iwereba!~ mxolod vikiTxe im kacis vinaoba, miTxra, rom es Cveni sasuliero akademiis erT-erTi leqtoriao...
xalxi   wigns iTxovda, wigni ki maRaziaSi ar ido. maSin wignebi gasaCuqrda, ubralod daurigda msurvelebs. quTaisSi daqoqili `manqana~ Tbilissac miwvda. TbilisSi saswrafod gadaurekavT quTaisidan erT-erT saeklesio maRaziaSi (romelsac Segnebulad ar vasaxelebT) da mouTxoviaT wignis gayidvidan amoReba, im motiviT, rom meufe kalistratem wigni kategoriulad akrZalao! sagulisxmoa isic, rom zari miuvida ara maRaziis ufross, aramed erT-erT gamyidvel qalbatons, romelTanac megobruli urTierToba hqonia quTaisidan zaris avtors. am faqtis mowme aris elene cirekiZe!..
TbilisSi wigni oficialurad mxolod sionis taZarma miiRo. sxva taZrebis winamZRvrebi Tavs ikavebdnen. magram im faqtma, rom wignebi sionis taZarma miiRo da msurvelTaTvis gasayidad dado, sagonebelSi Caagdo mavanni!
wignze xalxis didi moTxovnileba rom dainaxes komerciulad moazrovne adamianebma, cdunebas ver gauZles da wignebi xarbad moiTxoves TavianTi maRaziebisaTvis, mRvdelmTavarTa akrZalvis miuxedavad... iseTi faqtic dafiqsirda – maRaziam TiToeul wigns fasi 12 laric ki daado, roca gasayidi fasi 7 lars zeviT ar unda asuliyo kurTxeviT!..
unda aRiniSnos isic, rom sasuliero pirTa erTi nawilma wigni dadebiTad Seafasa. moZRvrebi gvikavSirdebodnen, gvlocavdnen da gvamxnevebdnen, gansakuTrebiT aRsaniSnavia erTi moZRvris sityva, mas Segnebulad ar vasaxelebT, SeiZleba, masac Sexvdes usiamovneba. momyavs am moZRvris sityvebi:
`momikiTxeT da dalocva iTxoveT CemTvis mama giorgisgan! is namdvilad didi moZRvaria!.. is Cveni drois sulieri gmiria, es drouli wignia, am wigns, ramdeni xania, elodeba qarTveloba. es marTali sityvaa, icodeT, devna geqnebaT, magram nu SeSindebiT, Tqven martoni ara xarT! simarTles mowyurebuli moZRvrebic da ubralo xalxic Tqvens gverdiT iqneba. qarTuli suli cocxlobs da icodeT, dResac SeuZliaT qarTvelebs Tavi dasdon isev, rogorc asiaTasma dasdo maSin. mteri Zlieria, magram Zlieria qarTuli sulic! frTxilad iyaviT, Svilebo, glocavT da RvTismSobels vavedreb Tqvens Tavs; es didi naSromia da ampartavnebaSi ar CagagdoT borotma.~ - am moZRvarma im dros dagvireka, roca Semotevebisgan sasowarkveTileba gveufleboda. TviTonac dalocvili amyofos es mamao RmerTma.
ramdenime   mRvdelmTavaric ar malavda Tavis dadebiT Sefasebas wignis mimarT, magram wignze kurTxevis gacemas, samwuxarod, ver bedavdnen. erTi meufe, romelic Zalze aRtacebuli iyo mama giorgis sididiT, gviTxra, jvaric rom damadebinon, am wigns mainc vakurTxebdi, es aucilebeli wigniao. magram, rogorc Cans, `manqanam~ am meufemdec miaRwia, radgan mogvianebiT, meufem Cvenda gasakvirad gviTxra: `me rodis dagpirdiT wignis kurTxevaso, Cemi kurTxeva is iyo, rom Tqveni saqme gekeTebinaTo!~ iyvnen iseTebic, romlebmac gviTxres - `Cemgan piradi kurTxeva gaqvT, magram werilobiT kurTxevas ver mogcemT, iseTi situaciaao...~ Cven, ra Tqma unda, madlierebi varT am meufeebis, rom gagvamxneves da dagvloces, magram, samwuxarod, maT ver gabedes sakuTari Sexedulebis xmamaRla aRiareba!..
CemTvis, rogorc rigiTi qristianisTvis, bevri ram aris gaugebari, yovelive iqidan gamomdinare, rac wignis irgvliv datrialda. gaugebaria, magaliTad, is, Tu ratom SeiZleboda, wigni waekiTxa sionis mrevls, da ratom ar SeiZleboda, igive wigni waekiTxa quTaisSi `xarebis~ taZris mrevls?!.. ratom SeiZleboda wignis wakiTxva TbilisSi da ratom aikrZala igive wigni quTaisis eparqiaSi?! bevri ram aris gaugebari ara mxolod CemTvis, aramed bevrisTvisac...
gaugebaria CemTvis isic, Tu ratom unda iyos adamianSi pirveli reaqcia uaryofa, undobloba, naklis povna, `eklesiis mtris~ aRmoCena da ara sixaruli imisa, rom CvenTanac arian iseTi moZRvrebi, romelTac ratomRac sul sazRvargareT veZebT?!. nuTu, CvenTan ar SeiZleba, RmerTs hyavdes marTali da madlmosili mamebi?
uSecdomo vinaa?! ra Tqma unda, wignSi, SeiZleba, gagvepara Secdoma, magram ratom xdeba Secdomebze aqcentireba? wignSi xom zRva masalaa axali, ufro zustad ki, Zalian Zveli, romelic dRes ar vicodiT an ar gvaxsovda, an ar iswavleboda da ar iTqmoda!..
gaugebaria isic, ratom saubroben aseTi uxeSi da upativcemulo toniT sasuliero pirebi mama giorgize xalxSi, ratom surT mamaos saxiT `eklesiis mtris~ xatis Seqmna! ciliswamebiTa da WorebiT mxolod mcire xans SeiZleba adamianTa dabneva. simarTles mainc gamoaCens RmerTi da veranairi mzakvruli Worebi da jaSuSuri meTodebi ver SeaCerebs xalxs, romelsac simarTle da cocxali rwmena swyuria!..
mowameTis daviT da konstantines saxelobis mamaTa monasteri weliwadnaxevarze meti winamZRvris gareSe iyo. aTasi miTqma-moTqma iyo `axali~ winamZRvris moZiebasTan dakavSirebiT. sxvadasxva `jgufebi~ muSaobdnen. rogorc vici, winamZRvrobis msurvelni sakmaod bevrni iyvnen. gasakviri isaa, rom aseTi didi moZRvari, rogoric mama giorgia, iyos mowameTaSi da winamZRvars sxvagan eZebde. mowameTis adgilobrivi mosaxleobac ver malavda Tavis ukmayofilebas imis gamo, rom mama giorgis `kandidatura~ ar ganixileboda winamZRvrad.   mTeli sofeli da misi Semogarenis TiToeuli mosaxle guliT hyvarobs mama giorgis, ager ukve 33 welia. xalxi mama giorgis iTxovda... magram, mama giorgis winamZRvroba ki ara, piriqiT, SeuCerda mRvdelmoqmedeba. arc sxva Canda winamZRvrad. 2008 wlis seqtemberSi uwmindesma da unetaresma ilia II-m Tavisi kurTxeviT mowameTis monastris axali winamZRvari daniSna. iRumeni, rogorc ityvian, Camosuli ar iyo, rom mas adgilze sastiki winaaRmdegoba Sexvda. is adgilobrivma sasuliero pirebma da morCilebma, mokled rom vTqvaT, ar miiRes. rogorc Cans, maT sxva gegmebi hqondaT. am faqtTan dakavSirebiT saintereso isaa, Tu vin da ram gaaguliana es adamianebi im donemde, rom win aRudgnen uwmindesis gadawyvetilebas da kurTxevas?..
xalxs isic ainteresebs, mama giorgis, romelzedac uwmindesi ambobs, `Cemi gazrdiliao,~ ratom ukrZalaven wara-mara mRvdelmsaxurebas, Tan sityvierad, ise, rom oficialurad, ese igi werilobiT, ar aris miTiTebuli da dasabuTebuli mama giorgis danaSauli, is, Tu ra saxis dogmaturi an kanonikuri, an sxva darRvevis gamo iqna SeCerebuli?! da kidev. roca mama giorgis uwmindesisgan aRudga msaxurebis ufleba, adgilze mitropolitma kalistratem mainc ar darTo mas msaxurebis neba!.. yovelive aqedan gamomdinare, rigiT morwmuneebs ukve gauCndaT imis eWvi, rom mamaos winaaRmdeg gatarebuli   `sadamsjelo zomebi~ ar aris mxolod mama giorgis winaaRmdeg mimarTuli!
da bolos, wignze Txroba msurs, davamTavro baton merab cincaZis interviudan erTi amonaridiT: `marTalia, dRes eklesiaSi   wmidanis aRiareba xdeba misi gardacvalebis Semdeg, magram es srulebiT ar metyvelebs imas, rom es wmidani sicocxleSive ar iyo wmidani! gardacvlils verafers SeekiTxebi!.. qarTvelebi ki ukve eZeben cocxal wmidanebs da am ZiebaSi veravin da veraferi SeaCerebs qarTvelebs!~
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mama giorgi TbilisSi iyo wasuli. oTxSabaTs taZarSi asulebs gviTxres, dRes Camovao.
saRamos mamao marTlac movida. oTaxSi SevyeviT.
_ es ra ambavia, aq?!.. naxe, biWo?!..
mivixed-movixedeT... oTaxs etyoboda, rom viRac iyo namyofi... wignebi areuli iyo da sabuTebi aqeqili. Wadrakis figurebi gadmoyrili, loginic aSlili. mamaom leibi aswia da Tqva:
_ daa, aTlariani davtove da xelic ar uxliaT!..
_ aba ras eZebdnen? - vkiTxeT Cven.
_ ras eZebdnen?!.. ai, amas!.. _ Tqva cota dayovnebis Semdeg mamaom da... Zveli, momcro wignad akinZuli, gayviTlebuli xelnawerebi gvaCvena: ramdeni welia, amas eZeben!..
Cven ver gavbedeT SekiTxva, Tu ra iyo es xelnawerebi... man TviTon gviTxra:
_ es Zveli qarTveli wmidanebis winaswarmetyvelebaa bolo Jamze!.. hm, eZeben mara, imas ver xvdebian, rom amas maT ase ar mivarTmev. es babuaCemma damitova, samsonma.… diakvani iyo, mlocveli kaci, am wignis arseboba aravin icoda Cvens ojaxSi. am xelnawerebs Cemi gvari, saukuneebia, inaxavs… Cemi erT-erTi winapari imereTis mefis karze masaxurobda da am xelnawerebs mefec kiTxulobda. Cvens sofelSi namyofia stalini axalgazrdobaSi da babuaCemic aq gaucvnia. etyoba, babuaCems am wignidan raRaceebi hqonda monayoli misTvis, radgan mogvianebiT stalins TxovniT moumarTavs babuasTvis am wignis Taobaze, magram wigni babuas aravisTvis miucia. hoda, am wigns sad ar eZebdnen. sasuliero pirTagan amis Sesaxeb mxolod erTma icis!
...ise mwerali ver Seadgens Tavis dRiurs ganvlil dReze, rogorc am nawerebSi Cvens winaprebs Cveni dRevandeli dRe aqvT nawinaswarmetyvelebi da aRwerili...
am wigns ver gaiCereb, Tu namdvili suli ara gaqvs!.. amas ver xvdebian!.. me romc momklan, am wigns RmerTi mainc ar Caugdebs maT xelSi. viRacas  
` e l i a o b a ~   m o s d o m e b i a ,   magram rom ar aris `elia~?!.. es ver Seugnia, mainc ibrZvis!.. namdvili elia rom gamoCndeba, mas wigni rad unda!.. am wignSi sxva ram aris kidev, mara amas ras gaugeben!...
me erTi wamiT TavSi gamielva azrma: `Tu aseTi xelnawerebia, xom SeiZleba, mainc Caigdon maT xelSi. Zalac aqvT, xalxic hyavT, saSualebac, sindisic aZlevT uflebas! mama giorgi ki erTia (martoa) meTqi~. amas rom vfiqrobdi, mamao magidaze wignebs alagebda da zurgiT idga Cemgan. uceb Semobrunda da miTxra: „rogoraa, gogo, im filmSi?!.. aqedan ver amoSliT, aqedano...“ da xeli SublTan miitana. mere ganagrZo _ jer erTi am wigns TviTon wmidanebi icaven, meoreTi da es wigni sxvadasxvanairad ikiTxeba!.. wmidanebs ise ki ar dauweriaT, rom borotebma am wigniT rame sargebeli naxon. Tumca, xom giTxariT, viRacas „eliaoba“ unda!.. visac suli namdvili aqvs, mimixvdeba, rasac vambob!.. marto boroti ki ar aris boroti, zogjer keTilsac SeuCndeba boroti, gasagebia?! es wigni imitom ganaxeT, rom es mogonili ar aris, rogorc sefiskverze iZaxian _ giorgim TabaSiridan gaakeTebina sefiskveri da iZaxis, mexuTe saukunis ariso!.. es „tartarozebi“, eseni!..
oTaxi davalageT. mamao Camojda. kargaxans iyo mdumared. mere TiTqos xasiaTze movida, gviTxra: _ moeSviT Tqven magas. araa magi Tqveni safiqrali. saca wmidanebma es nawerebi saukuneebi Seinaxes, kidevac Seinaxaven!.. modi, kargi ambebic mogiyveT:
_ guSinwin, TbilisSi rom mivemgzavrebodi, mcxeTis jvars mivuaxlovdiT Tu ara, manqana Caqra. mZRoli ewvala, ejaxira, ver daqoqa. mivxvdi, Cemi angelozi ar gviSvebda win. gamaxsenda, adre roca TbilisSi fexiT Cavdiodi da jvars mivuaxlovdebodi, gadavidodi gzidan da iqve parakliss vkiTxulobdi. es wesad mqonda. amjerad ki, radgan manqaniT mivdiodi, TavSi arc momsvlia da angelozmac Semaxsena: Cadi da waikiTxeo... Cavedi. gzatkecilze gadavedi, kalTis ZirSi davdeqi da paraklisi wavikiTxe. locvas rom movrCi, mivedi manqanasTan da Cavjeqi. mZRolma miTxra:
- ho... giorgi, Cajeqi Tu ara wavsulvarT, xom ici... ar iqoqeba, axla `buqsiriT“ unda vcado... gzis pirze dadeqi, anafora rom gacvia, ufro gagviCereben.  
- ar aris magi manqanis brali, eg Cemi brali iyo, rom ar SevCerdi da ar viloce. axla midi.... daqoqe-meTqi, vupasuxe.
ki Caecina, magram mainc damijera. gzas jvari gadavsaxe Tu ara, Cemma angelozma manqana daqoqa. gadairia kaci - es ra vnaxeo!.. TbilisSi ise CavediT, Cemsken arc gamouxedia... awi wasuli iqneba, xval mova da moayoleT erTi...
kidev cota xans gvesaubra, gagvamxneva da gamogviSva.

suraTi `fexiTmosiaruledan~
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mama giorgis gverdiT vigrZeni, Tu rogor xedavs RmerTi Cvens yvela nabijs, azrebs, sulis mimoZraobas, rogor yvelganaa RmerTi, rogor yvelaferi misi dagegmilia. es ar aris wignebidan miRebuli codna, aramed es cocxali gancdaa, cocxali grZnoba, realuri xedva, mikvirs, rogor daitia Cemma gonebam yovelive!.. an kidev, rogor SeiZlebs adamianis sxeulSi `momwyvdeuli~ suli yovelive imis aRsrulebas, rasac mama giorgi akeTebs!.. rogor SeuZlia amdeni ramis mowyoba, dagegmva, xedva da marTva....   mamao xom Tavdauzogavad ixarjeboda. saaTobiT sxvadasxva jgufis adamianebTan   saubrobda, qadagebda, sulierad amuSavebda, uxilavad madliT avsebda; winaswar icoda ra momsvlelTa raodenoba da Taviseburebani, is SimSilobda, xSirad wiravda da am yovelives adamianTa sasikeTod akeTebda. WeSmariti morwmunis danaxviT gaxarebuli _ ityoda _ ai, es xalxi eZebs RmerTs, maTi gulisTvis 10 dRe arc SevWam da arc daviZinebo. zogjer ki urwmunoTa Semxedvare daRonebiT ityoda _ axali Taoba mecodeba, babua, Torem amaTi moqceva sadRaa?!.. amaT marto fuli uziT TavSi, tyuilia maTTan Sroma. ra ginda rom hqna?! sacodavi xalxi! ise gadagvardnen, sixaruliTa da jiqurad garbian RmerTidan, sityvis mosmenac ar undaT! saiT midian?! sacodavebi!... qarTvelebis sacodaobiT guli mikvdeba. ra dReSia es natanji da keTili eri!.. Svils avadmyofi dedisTvis wamali ver uyidia. mamas ki erTi puris Semotana ar SeuZlia ojaxSi. ramdeni rame uWirs uboroto ers. cignis bavSvs fuls rom mivcem quCaSi, garbis, gzas momiWris, xelmeored rom miTxras: `lariani momeci, biZia, Seni wverebis Wirimeo!...~ qarTvels, babua, Txovna ar SeuZlia, qarTveli kvdeba, roca iTxovs. qarTvelis glaxakoba sacodaobaa!.. mecodeba, roca moxucebs vxedav quCaSi, fuls rom iTxoven! mara, me mwams maRali RmerTis, mowyalea qriste! ar dagvtovebs aseT yofaSi. wuwuniT ki vwuwunebT RmerTze, mara, arasodes ar gviRalatia qristesTvis qarTvelebs. bevri gadavitaneT, bevri daviTmineT. bevri gvCagvres. erTze 10-15 modioda saomrad. damxmared vin gvyavda? Zneli iyo qarTveloba mudam, babua, da Znelia qarTveloba Cvens dReebSi, magram gvevaleba. RmerTi samarTliania, aravis araferi daukargavs. arc Cven dagvekargeba rame qarTvelebs _ eklesiaste ambobs: `dromde daiTmens sulgrZeli da bolos sixaruls miiRebs jildod~ da kidev   `...radgan advilia swrafi da uecari gamdidreba glaxakisa.~ bevrjer uTqvams mamaos aseTi sityvebic: `wamiTac ar davyovndebi, axlave   najaxiT amCexon, oRond Cems xalxs eSvelos!~

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miuxedavad misi mkacri mopyrobisa, mama giorgis Zalian vuyvarvarT. amas Cven yvelani vgrZnobT. roca masTan yofnisas Cveni suli xarobs, uneblied SeiZleba, romelime CvenTaganis aryofna gamogvrCes TvalTaxedvidan. erT-erT dResaswaulze mamaosTan misulebs, mamaom gviTxra: `naxeT, ra pur-marili maqvs TqvenTvis...~ mas saocrad uyvars gamaspinZleba da arafriT ar mogeSveba, sanam ar daganayrebs: `WameT, WameT, araferi datovoT~ - gvetyvis xolme, da TviTonac didi xalisiT gadaiRebs TefSze rames – es miyvars me, danarCeni Tqveni iyoso. Cvenc   Wamasa da saubarSi garTulni mxolod bolos aRmovaCenT, rom is `sayvareli kerZi~ xeluxleblad devs mis TefSze.
im dResac mamao sufrasTan Zalian mxiarulobda da Cvenc gvaxarebda. sul gamogvrCa mxedvelobidan, rom lali CvenTan erTad ar iyo. me mainc ar unda damviwyeboda, radgan quTaisSi yofnis periodSi bevri sikeTe maxsovs misgan, is iyo Cveni dac, dedac, megobaric da mokeTec. mamaom am mxiarulebaSi namcxvari Suaze gaWra da, TiTqos braziT, magidaze dado da Cailaparaka, xval is gogo mova da mas unda Sevunaxoo. es sityvebi TavisTvis Cailaparaka, magram im wuTs yvelam sindisis qenjna vigrZeniT. amiT migvaniSna, isic Cemiania da ratom ar gagaxsendaTo...
xSirad ityvis: erTmaneTze nawyeni CemTan nu amoxvalTo! RmerTi siyvaruls iTxovs, Tqven ki erTmaneTi ver SeiyvareT,   gana mtrebs SeiyvarebTo?!.. da Tu qristes sityvebs ar SeasrulebT, CemTan ra gesaqmebaTo?!..
erTxel mama giorgim gvkiTxa: `ra iciT daviTze, ras Svreba netav?!..~   Cvenc im dReebSi araferi gagvego masze. Tumca, mamaos naTqvami TiTqosda Cveulebrivi iyo, mainc gveniSna da saRamosve TbilisSi davrekeT. gviTxres, daviTi meore dRea, rac reanimaciaSi wevso...
bevri yofila aseTive SemTxveva, roca mamaos vinme uxsenebia da erT-or dReSi is pirovneba gvinaxavs mosuli mamaosTan.

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mama giorgis sityvebs didi Zala aqvs, saubrisas erTi suli gaqvs, male waxvide da Caiwero yovelive, rac moismine, magram ise xdeba, rom goneba ver imaxsovrebs yovelives. arada, saubris Jams mamaos sityvebi iseTi madliT Semodis sulSi, rom fiqrob, amas ra damaviwyebso. mamaos Zala moqmedebs adamianebze, romlebic ismenen mis sityvebs. zogjer misi oTaxidan gamosuls isic gikvirs,   rogor brZnul azrebs gamoTqvamdi msjelobisas, an rogori moxdenili pasuxi migicia ama Tu im kiTxvaze. cxadze ucxadesia, rom saubris Temasac, Cvens msjelobasac, azrebsac mamao warmarTavda. mis axlos yofnisas gamoricxulia sakuTari neba. is mTlianad marTavs situacias. adamiani xmasac ver amoiRebs, moZraobasac ver gaakeTeb misi nebis gareSe da amas grZnob, magram mamaos ar emCneva garegnulad. xdeba xolme, karga xnis saubris Semdeg, RamenaTevi mama giorgi Cveni TandaswrebiT   ori wuTiT CasTvlems da maSinac grZnob, rom gxedavs da mokrZaleba geufleba...
mTeli guliTa da arsebiT vmadlob qriste RmerTs yovelivesTvis da minda gamovTqva gulistkivili, rom me aranairad ara maqvs is done da SesaZlebloba, rom aRvwero da srulyofilad mivawodo adamianebs mamaos sulieri Zalis, madlisa da sibrZnis gamovlinebani. arada, ori wlis manZilze imdeni ram vnaxe da ganvicade, danaSaulad vuTvli Tavs, rom ver vaxerxeb, es Tqvenamde movitano... namdvilad dasanania!.. radgan RmerTma da mama giorgim yovelnairad Semiwyves xeli, rom mxolod taZarSi siarulisaTvis momecala. am ori wlis manZilze mqonda SesaZlebloba da ufleba misgan, momesmina misi saubrebis udidesi nawili. bevr rames iqve malulad viwerdi, bevri mere magondeboda, bevri ki, samwuxarod, movismine da ise gaqra gonebidan, TiTqos arc momesminos. imedi maqvs, rom RmerTi mouvlens mamaos iseT Rirseul pirovnebebs, romlebic SesZleben misi sulieri saunjis qaRaldze gadmotanas, mis yovelmxriv warmoCenas, adamianebamde mitanas, radgan es aucilebelia da Zalian sWirdeba Cvens xalxs, STamomavlobas, gnebavT ucxoelebs. Cven xom sul sxvagan veZebdiT RvTis madliT Semosilebs...
me uRirsi kidev erTxel vuxdi RmerTs madlobas, rom ase axlos   damayena am did moZRvarTan. amave dros yvela Tqvenganisagan viTxov Sendobas imis gamo, rom meti ver SevZeli, ver aRviqvi, ver davinaxe, - SeiZleba, davakeli, ar movindome, ar vimecadine... da bevri ramisTvis kidev, rom ufro srulad da sakadrisad   ver warmovaCine simarTle mama giorgize. me mjera, rom qarTvelebs didi sulierebis mqone morwmuneebi gvyavs nebismier sferoSi, profesiasa Tu dargSi. guliT vTxov yvela maTgans, ra Tqma unda, visac RmerTi inebebs, gaicnon mama giorgi isev Cvenive xalxis, momavali Taobis sakeTildReod. ufro srulad, yovlismomcvelad aRweron mama giorgis cxovreba, Rvawli, saRmrTo gamovlinebani da pirovnuli Taviseburebani, misi niWis unikaluroba... me uRirsi vgrZnob Sinagan pasuxismgeblobas yovelive imis gamo, rac vnaxe, movismine da ganvicade. arada, metis gakeTeba namdvilad ver SevZeli!..

viTxov Sendobas Tqvengan....
codvili ariadna.
2008 w., q. quTaisi
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